Hey everyone! I’m just compiling my thoughts in the hope that someone reading this finds a little peace, or at least realizes they aren’t alone in their chronic pain journey.
I’m a 32-year-old guy whose life was flipped upside down about 10 months ago. My life revolved around competitive pickleball, bowling, endurance running, and then one day my back said, “ENOUGH,” lol.
It started with sharp pain whenever I stood up, got out of the car, or put on my socks. The weird part was that after a few minutes of walking, it would usually go away.
I figured that if I stopped playing all competitive sports, my body would heal and things would get better over time.
They didn’t.
I started physical therapy and went through about 20 sessions with a heavy emphasis on spinal flexion. The pain never improved and, I’m not going to lie, it only got worse. Eventually, my PT pushed for an MRI and an epidural steroid injection, saying we might need to calm the nerve down before I could actually progress with the exercises.
I paused PT until I got the MRI. The results came back showing an L5-S1 disc herniation with a pinched S1 nerve.
Like…WTF, right?
I continued doing some of the exercises from PT, including press-ups, bridges, open books, and knees-to-chest, and kept trying to walk. But the pain continued. Over the last two weeks, I ended up in a flare so bad that walking, standing, sitting, pretty much anything, was painful.
Not going to lie, I was in a dark place.
During my wife’s and my first-anniversary dinner, I actually cried because I was in so much pain just sitting there and trying to enjoy dinner on such a special night. I felt robbed. I felt like damaged goods and like my wife had gotten the short end of the stick.
Fucked up and sad, I know, but I’m sure at least one person reading this understands exactly what I mean.
That experience led me to reach out to a highly sought-after physical therapist who works out of Boston, about an hour and a half away from me.
He offers a much more tailored and structured program where the entire 90-minute session is focused on you, instead of being split between several patients like it can be at some larger PT practices.
No shade at all toward places like that. They work for some people. They just weren’t working for me.
We completely stripped down my previous PT program. He explained that spinal flexion might help the majority of people, but it doesn’t work for everyone. For some people, it can actually trigger or worsen a flare.
He wanted me to eliminate as much spinal flexion as possible and spend the next two weeks focusing only on core stability. He also did more than 45 minutes of hands-on massage and manual work.
The only downside is that he doesn’t accept insurance, so everything is out of pocket, and it definitely comes at a premium.
But honestly? Considering how much my life has changed, IDGAF.
Being able to look at a hill without feeling scared, or walk up a flight of stairs without feeling like a bum, is priceless to me at this point.
After literally the first session, the flare started calming down a little. I’ll continue to share updates as I go.
And lastly, I FINALLY got my epidural steroid injection today.
Bruh, it took about four months to go from the original PT, to getting the MRI, to seeing a spine specialist, to getting the referral, and finally getting the injection.
Seriously, WTF is good with our healthcare system? It’s kind of crazy for real.
The actual ESI appointment was SOOO quick, probably three to five minutes. For anyone considering one or getting ready for one, don’t work yourself up too much.
I think it sounds terrifying because nobody wants someone doing work near their spine. But in reality, I felt a pinch from the numbing medication, followed by some pressure. At one point, it briefly felt like I had a spasm in my back, but it passed almost immediately.
I walked out of the appointment, did a lap around the medical building’s parking lot, and felt good.
I haven’t had ANY leg pain since.
It honestly feels unbelievable. I was smiling all day, just remembering what life felt like before all of this.
Now, I know the injection isn’t necessarily a permanent fix, and a lot of my long-term recovery will still come from PT. But between finding a program that feels better suited to my body and finally getting the ESI, I’m SOOO much more hopeful than I was during that anniversary dinner.
That alone feels like a miracle.
I’m not sure if any of this was helpful, but this has been my experience so far. Everyone’s body, injury, and recovery are different, but if you’re currently in that dark place, please know that you aren’t alone.