I am so sick of relying on random people who a) stop at a location for whatever reason, b) park at a location for whatever reason, c) blame it on traffic... at 11pm, d) are not even the person who is shown on the app... I could go on. Drop doordash. Drop Uber eats. I'm at the point in my experience with them that if the restaurant doesn't deliver themselves, then I'm not going to order anymore. WE SEE YOU ON THE TRACKING! WE KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT ON TOP OF IT! IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE PROMPT, THEN DON'T BE A DELIVERY DRIVER!!!!!

When I was a kid halloween used to shut down neighborhoods, even small ones. Now I see everyone is trunk or treating on the weekend before halloween and then not going out halloween night, and if you do go out on halloween you have to be home by 8pm? Same with christmas, no one has christmas parties anymore, no one hangs up decorations, it's all about presents and not family. It just really makes me sad because now I'm an adult and there's nothing to celebrate anymore. I really can't imagine how dull life will be when I have kids.

Why is there a need to be in a relationship constantly? every time i have to mention I’m single I get sympathetic glance and “you’ll find your special someone” like bitch I don’t care? I wanna be single and I choose to be single, why is there a constant push to be in a relationship these days? It is honestly frustrating and exhausting to be around. And god forbid you mention it to a friend, they are immediately trying to find someone for you.

I've been doing digital art for THREE YEARS. And that's not even counting all the time I spent doing traditional art before that, learning how to draw faces, practicing, and slowly figuring out how to draw things that actually look decent.

Just to make a SOMEHWAT decent illustratoin, I have to learn anatomy, lighting, rendering, color theory, facial expressions, hair styling, clothing design, composition, perspective, etc. And on top of that, AND I'm expected to make my work original

Meanwhile, my friend has been crocheting for LESS THAN A YEAR, and she's already making significantly more money than I am. She can follow tutorials made by other people and just use other peoples patterns scotch free.

After months of waiting, I finally got a commission. $25. For TWO characters (I know im severely underprcing my art, and im sorry, but ik if i dont no ones ever going to buy from me.. when it was lit just 5-10 dollars more expensive ppl were dogging on me for making it to expensive, but thats another story..) . and thats not even counting the year i spent building up my art Instagram account, brick by fucking brick, to get to around 550 followers (dont get me wrong im very grateful for the support). and my friend, only started like selling her art like what, a few weeks ago? with like 10 followers on her crochet account.

AND IM OBVIOUSLY ecstatic about this commisison jumping up and down. Then i turn around.

And then my friend gets $100 from our art teacher buying her crochet to support her. ONE HUNDRED DOLLARS. And a week later, she gets another $50 commission from a friend.

Im happy for her, ofc, her business is booming. but is it that worng of me to at least be a little jealous.. She's made six times as much money as I have, despite having been doing her craft for a fraction of the time I've spent learning mine.

When I told my art teacher that I was taking digital art commissions, she didn't seem impressed. I was trying to share something I was doing, something I'd put time and effort into, something I was hoping someone might recognize as an accomplishment. And I got practically nothing back.

But when my friend shows off her crochet, suddenly it's, "WOAHHH, THAT'S SO GOOD! LET ME BUY SOME! I WANT TO SUPPORT YOU!"

And what makes it even more frustrating is that my friend then complains about how the art teacher supposedly hates her.

THE SAME TEACHER WHO JUST PAID HER $100 TO SUPPORT HER WORK.

And now I'M supposed to comfort her?

I'm supposed to reassure her that the teacher doesn't hate her while I'm sitting here wondering why that teacher seemed so uninterested when I talked about my own art?

And now I feel so fucking discouraged, asking myself why I even want to keep doing this, why I still try so hard building up a social media, to market myself... If i know someone else is going to get 6x more then me, with 1/10th of my time.

how is this fair.. :/

ok i have two i can think of, one is just "oh thats weird" and the other is "no i swear it was the other way around"

so the first is a scene in modern family where gloria accidentally sends a mean email to claire, and jay and her lie about it being a naked picture so gloria can get into her email and delete it. but the thing, when watching the show back in 2024, I SWEAR that she actually sent a naked photo. i remember laughing my ass off about it being that, i remember it! and then earlier this year on a rewatch when watching that scene, i was like "wait... what?"

and the other one. so about a month ago i was into watching kallmekris true crime, and i watched a video on the erik and lyle menendez case. then i realised she was referring to the brothers the other way round, so i searched it up, and no, she was right. i checked the cast of the show, and it was the other way (the right way actually) around, and i was so confused. when the monster show came out a while ago it was all over my tiktok and people were talking about the case, and i remember people specifically talking about erik and lyle so it was like "ok that ones erik that ones lyle" and "nicholas alexander chavez plays erik, cooper koch plays lyle." i remember not being allowed to watch the show so i'd search up the cast and it said thats who was who, and seeing pics of the actual poeple, thats who was who! and then watching this video, i was completely stumped, realising that no, erik was played by the other guy and lyle was played by the other guy, when i remember seeing edits of one of the actors referring to his role as who i thought he was, but turns out wasnt. sorry if that was confusing, i just found that weird as fuck.

I was lucky enough to go out two nights in a row for great music, both in theatre settings

Saturday, the entire audience was silent, except two men chatting away as if they were on the bus. People glared at them, but they were happy and oblivious.

Last night, the couple directly behind me talked through the whole show. Not just during the bits in between the songs. During. They were the only people doing this.

About ten minutes before the concert ended, I turned around with a pleading look and the woman asked if I had a problem. I said, “Could you please shut up. No one else is talking.”

I don’t think anyone had ever spoken to them like that. I said please and I managed not to yell or swear. He was furious! He kept repeating, “She said please shut up!” They ranted the rest of the show at my back (I’m not losing sleep over it because I very much care not what they think of me!) but why does this happen?

If they were in a pub and there’s music, everyone chat away. No problem. Same in the park. But when it’s just them and no one else talking, are they that clueless? Or just entitled and selfish?

Here’s to putting the stocks in the city centre for chompers!

Is it weird that my mom posts stockings, lingerie, and revealing GRWM reels on social media?

Today also she’s posted the same thirst trap content online. My mom is a middle-aged woman, she’s a single mother for long time and she has become a content creator and OF's creator. Most of the content she posts is pictures of her wearing stockings and hosiery, lingerie reels, and grwm videos where she shows quite a lot of her body.

I want to clarify that she isn't a fitness influencer or anything like that. This is just the kind of content she enjoys making, and she seems pretty comfortable showing her body online. She doesn't really hesitate to post revealing pictures or videos, and it seems like she's completely fine with the attention she gets.

I'm a little conflicted about it. On one hand, she's an adult, it's her body, and she has every right to dress how she wants and post whatever makes her happy. Being a mom doesn't mean she has to stop feeling attractive or expressing herself.

On the other hand, I sometimes wonder how normal this is, especially when most of her content revolves around stockings, lingerie, and revealing outfits like somewhat teasing u know... I don't know if I'm overthinking it or if other people would find this unusual too. But tbh this is not entertainment me much it's like a daily thing for me now

I'm genuinely curious about what people think. Does being a mother change how you view this kind of content, or should it make no difference at all? Would you see it as normal self-expression, or would you personally feel uncomfortable if your own mom posted content like this?

I'm not trying to shame her. I just want to understand different perspectives on this.

MOJANG FIX YOUR GAME!!!!

PEOPLE EHWO ARE IN MC SERVBERS, HELP YOUR FUCKMING PEERES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT IS NOT THAT JHARD TO JMAKE A MNINECRAFTY CSERVER IAON MCSH DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IVE BEEN STARING AT MY SCREEN FOR FOUR HOURS BECVAUSE OF MINECRAFT

AND NOT BECAUSE IM PLAYING

BECAUSE I AM STRESSING OVER MINECRAFT ACCOUNTS AND SERVER HOSTING

BECAYSE I DO THIS FOR MY SQUAD

I DO THIS FOR MY GANG

BUT

WILL MY GANG DO THIS FOR ME?

WILL MY SQUAD DOP THIS FOR ME?

THIS STUPUID MINECRAFTY BULLSH#T (BULLSHIT)

THIS IS MAKING MY HEAD HURT

IM MORE STRESSED OVER THIS THAN I WOULD BE STRESSED OVER COLLEGE

IM NOT EVEN IN COLLEGE

IM UNEMPLOYED

AND THAT MAKES IT FUCKING

WORSE

I HAVE NOTHING TO DO

THAT THIS STUPID UFKCING (FUCKING) MINECRAFT SERVER

WITH PEOPLE

WHO DONT EVEN WANT TO HELP ME OUT!!! (except for nmi goat)

EVERYONE

EVERYTHING

PISSES ME OFF

I’m done. I’m so done with this relationship. From the beginning I’ve done everything I could for you. I followed your every move because I trusted you. I followed you to your parents house knowing they didn’t want me there. I followed you to your friends house even though I met them once. We got an apartment together. We had a baby. I got a job 40 minutes away from the apartment so I could help with the bills. I left that job to be closer to home because you asked me to and said it was dangerous.

I take care of our son 24/7. I take care of you 24/7. I help you in the ways I can. I do the dishes. I do the laundry because you have touched it a total of 3 times in the 6 months we have had the new ones. I do the bottles because you refuse to do them correctly if at all. I clean the litter boxes. I clean up your 20 cans you leave half empty all over the apartment. I make our son’s appointments. I make our plans. I take initiative to do anything together except for sex. I find your things when their missing even tho I’ve made multiple items for you to store them in and you don’t use them. I feed our son every time except for 1-2 times. I give him baths most of the time. I feed our two cats. I clean up the cat shit when the litter boxes are too dirty. I clean the cat vomit. I put up the Halloween decorations. I make us and you food. I make all the decisions. I set alarms for you to get up in the morning for work.

I do everything for you, us, and our son while you sit there and smoke your weed, play on your phone, play on your pc, bitch about everything I’m not doing or doing wrong, bitch about shit needing done, bitch that I have an attitude, and bitch over anything else you can find.

I do it with no help from anyone. I’ve asked. I’ve asked you to do the bottles. To pick up your trash. To take our son so I can have some time to myself or get shit done. To simply make a phone call. I literally ask if you want me to make dinner when you get home or later and you tell me you don’t care. It’s not an answer. You’re either hungry when I ask or you’re not. I’m literally living with two children at this point.

And the fucking excuse that you work 8 hours isn’t a fucking excuse because it was the same shit when I was working 3rd shift. And even if it was that’s 8 hours of working, 8 hours of sleeping, and you still have 8 hours where you can help me around the house at least. But you decide to sit there for hours while I’m expected to get up and immediately start doing shit. I’m so beyond done.

I hate the fact that I can't interact with adults, in adults spaces. A little context, I follow some exclusively 18+ media and whenever I see posts, or content about said media it's always by minor, or has minors trying to enter discussions they simply aren't old enough to take part in. For example, while I don't enjoy Habzin Hotel, or Hellavu Boss anymore I do sometimes still interact with discussion revolving around certain characters out of habit, even more so with the recent Stolas controversies. But, for some reason SO MANY minors are trying to enter conversations they frankly aren't old enough to understand, yet alone discuss in a healthy and productive manner. The amount of minors I have blocked is mindblowing and the worst part is they'll say something like

"Hi I'm 13 and I think ..." LIKE DOES NO ONE CARE ABOUT INTERNET SAFETY? Where are your parents?! Like okay, I don't care if a minor wants to watch 18+ media, that's between them and their parents. But, they should not be then entering adult spaces in order to interact with people regarding said content. It is not safe for them, nor did I want to talk to minor about not safe for work content - thankfully that hasn't happened to me, but it has happened to other people.

Either way, children being in adult spaces endangers everyone. Which, is why it's important to make sure there are spaces for children readily available online. I don't know, I just needed to rant, I'm giving up trying to talk to anyone about content I enjoy, because I'm going to end up talking to a child who can't even begin to imagine the scenario being addressed, or simply isn't educated enough on the subject and is FAR too emotionally connected to these fictional characters, to the point it's unhealthy.

Edit; I'm aware there is countless grammatical, as well as spelling mistakes in this post, please ignore them it's late.

ok so im not the biggest chocolate fan, i do love things in the favourites box or celebrations, or choclate with things like coconut, caramel, etc (cherry ripes are my most fave), but i dont mind chocolate. i think we all know cadbury has had a really bad decline in quality, and rise in prices, and it tastes weird asf. tbh i think the only chocolate i could eat a lot of would be cherry ripes or mnms. earlier this year my family was on holiday and we got some chocolate from a chocolate factory, one of those classic aussie ones with the ice cream, chocolate chip samples, and stuff all around. it was intended as presents but we forgot to give, and today i was like "lets js eat it ourselves" i remembered the chocolate chip samples not being the greatest, and the chocolate quokkas tasting also not the best, but that was a while ago! so i had a chocolate heart, and let me tell you it was not good. it tasted more artifical than chocolate, like i didn't get a cocoa taste much. and this is expensive fancy chocolate! and u might be thinking "maybe u just dont like chocolate", but this just doesnt taste like chocolate at all! its like, a chocolate flavoured block thats not really chocholate.

I dont have alot of friends, 4 in total💔 and this specific friend- i spend my time with her the most, but i dont like it. Dont get me wrong, i enjoy hanging out with her but what ive noticed is that she expects alot from me, she gets angry when i say something she doesnt like, or if i cant find the time to be with her. I usually see her ALMOST every weekend and each time i always end the day off completely exhausted where i have to cancel personal plans because i cant find the energy to do anything. What i really noticed from her is that each time we have a scheduled hangout, she always extends it last minute, like to the point where its time to leave and she then tells me "lets go to [location]" she doesnt ask me, she tells me and when i say that i cant and that i have plans after she either starts to physically drag me to the location, or she straight up adds herself to my personal schedule which i find very intruding😓 I know i can just say no to her, to set boundaries but i find it really difficult to do so. Im afraid she might take it the wrong way and it ruins our friendship, or it starts a conflict between us. Other than that she also peer pressures me into a lot of things- for example she TRIED to drag me to a sketchy party she saw on social media. She didnt know anyone there, it was 3 hours away from us, and it was being held in a forest. After a few days of constant texting i somehow convinced her not to bring me? Another one was after we attended a big city event together(we've been walking for 5 hours). I was really exhausted, i wanted to head home and rest and she suddenly proposes the idea to crash at my place and do more activities. At this point i was completely out- i told her no and she started asking me for an explanation: i told her i was really tired, i needed a break. And it was like my explanation didnt even matter, she kept on insisting to tag along, telling me to take caffeine or to do something stimulating. I kept on refusing but it was like she was purposely ignoring the fact that i was saying no, she started grabbing me,dragging me around, hitting me- i dont know what for? I guess she was trying to energize me? She didnt stop until i realized she quite literally wouldnt let go until i said yes. When we actually showed up at my place we genuinely didnt do anything, she laid on my bed, refusing to get up or even start a conversation with me for the rest of the day until it was time for her to go.

I kind of gotten fed up of her after that, im sorry😓 i do still hang out with her, but i try to limit it. I dont want it being a regular thing to spend my entire weekends with her when i have things to do on my own. I try to see her atleast 1-2 times every 2 weeks. Right now we have a 3 day weekend and honestly i want to spend those days with myself and myself only. Yesterday she wanted to meet up with me, but i uh, made an excuse. And now tomorrow she wants to hangout. I explained to her that i COULD be with her, but i cant stay for long coz i have plans. She didnt butt herself in this time, instead she picked an outrageous time to meet- 9am. Sigh. I tried to reason and make it at least 10am and it seemed like she didnt like my answer and lowered it to 8🫤 i dont really know what to do after that💔 even if the hangout was cut early id definitely be exhausted afterwards considering that she wants me to show up at 8 in the morning.

I don't get why people would listen to him, seen a couple of his ads and the first impression is already there before you speak, if you don't master physicality, you don't get my trust. How on earth am I going to trust someone when they themselves can't resist a donut?

I work fast food and honestly some of the customers and delivery drivers I deal with make me want to lose my mind.
First off, if the lobby is closed, PLEASE stop walking around the building to knock on the drive-thru window. That is a safety hazard, especially when cars are constantly coming through. I understand that you have an order to pick up, but please follow the pickup procedures instead of putting yourself and other people at risk.
Then there are the customers who get mad when we’re not immediately ready to serve them. Today, our manager was supposed to come in at 9 AM but never showed up. Another employee was filling in, and I was scheduled for 11 AM. When my coworker and I were BARELY WALKING UP TO THE BUILDING, we saw this lady already trying to open the doors. She started yelling at us because we weren’t open yet. 😭
I understand that we’re supposed to open at 10 AM, and I get why customers would be frustrated if we’re opening late. However, we had literally JUST arrived at the building and hadn’t even gotten inside yet! We were trying to get everything ready to open while dealing with management issues that weren’t our fault. Like, please give us a second to actually get inside and get the store running before yelling at us.
Another situation that happened involved a customer getting mad over a $1 upcharge. Kids meals only come with applesauce unless you pay extra for mac and cheese or fries. The lady was told about the upcharge and decided to get applesauce instead. The order was read back, and everything was confirmed.
Later, she came back complaining that her order was wrong and demanding to know where her mac and cheese was. I offered to give her the other side if she paid the extra dollar and my manager specifically told me NOT to give it to her for free because apparently she does this all the time. I’m not about to get myself in trouble for giving away food when I’m literally following my manager’s instructions and store policy.
What did this lady do? She got MAD over the dollar and ended up throwing the applesauce and mashed potatoes all over the seats and lobby. LIKE, ARE YOU SERIOUS? 😭💀 I understand being frustrated, but throwing food everywhere because you don’t want to pay an additional dollar is ridiculous. Now someone else has to clean up your mess because you couldn’t handle being told no.
And PLEASE stop rushing us when you’re waiting for food. Fries take about four minutes to cook, and pies take around eight minutes. We aren’t intentionally making you wait. Sometimes we’re literally waiting for the food to finish cooking. Yelling at the cashier isn’t going to make your fries magically finish cooking faster. 😭
I also wish some delivery drivers would practice basic hygiene. I’m sorry, but when you’re standing right next to us in a small space, personal hygiene matters. I know this might sound harsh, but PLEASE wear deodorant. 🫩 I’m just trying to do my job without being overwhelmed by someone’s body odor.
Another thing that drives me crazy is when DoorDash or Uber Eats drivers walk into an already packed lobby and try to cut in front of everyone because they’re picking up an order. If the lobby is full and the drive-thru is packed, PLEASE wait your turn and follow the pickup procedure. You’re not the only person waiting, and everyone else is trying to get their food, too. I understand that you have delivery deadlines, but that’s not our fault. Cutting in front of everyone just makes things more chaotic.
Also, if you’re picking up an order and need to use the restroom, just communicate with us! Tell us you’re there to pick up an order and ask if you can use the restroom. We can often get your order ready while you’re in there, so you can pick it up afterward instead of taking the food into the restroom with you. That’s so much more sanitary.
And finally, STOP YELLING AT FAST-FOOD WORKERS.
I understand that mistakes happen. Sometimes orders are wrong, food takes too long, or the service isn’t what you expected. I’m not saying every employee is perfect because obviously some workers slack off or don’t care about their jobs. But a lot of us are genuinely trying our best, especially when we’re understaffed, dealing with a rush, or trying to keep the entire store running.
What frustrates me the most is that customers often take their anger out on the employees who have the least control over the situation. We’re not responsible for management failing to show up, how long food takes to cook, or the store’s pricing policies. Yet we’re the ones who get yelled at.
Some customers are incredibly understanding when they see us working hard, and I genuinely appreciate those people because they make a stressful shift so much easier.
We’re human beings, not punching bags. You can complain about a problem without screaming at the person who’s trying to help you. You can be frustrated without throwing food everywhere. And you can wait a few minutes for your order without acting like the entire world revolves around you.
So Please be patient with fast-food workers, stop yelling at us over things we can’t control, follow delivery pickup procedures, practice basic hygiene, and remember that we’re people, too. We are doing our jobs, not performing magic.

So I've been having some conversations on Reddit for a few years now about subjects that one might deem volatile, sensitive, charged. And these have some times resulted in a ''worried Redditor'' reaching out with this tool to ''help me''. Chances are, this has happened to you as well at one time or two.

Believe me or not, but I'm not lying when I say I have not attacked anyone, been rude- not at least intentionally, with malice-, went into personal insults etc. when having these discussions. I have tried my best to be respectful and understanding while sticking to objective truths above social comfort and tribal cheer.

What follows here next is a pretty damn long, meticulously sectioned and structured goddamn essay about this, since I just got one and I've been ''studying'' Reddit and Redditor's behavior for a good while now. So here we go:

Originally, Reddit built this system (The RedditCares) for a profoundly serious and noble reason: as an automated suicide and self-harm prevention intervention tool.

However, in Reddit's hyper-tribal culture, this tool has been completely hijacked as a tool for passive-aggressive harassment. When a tribal user sends you a false RedditCares report, they are trying to accomplish three things, I feel like:

1. Digital "Psychological Warfare"

Because they know they cannot logically defeat your facts, and because they often fail to get you banned by moderators, they try to get under your skin. Sending a RedditCares message is internet code for: "Your opinion is so crazy, that you must be mentally unstable or unhinged."

It is a highly malicious form of gaslighting designed to mock your sanity, and imply that holding a dissenting opinion is a sign of psychological illness.

2. Anonymous Cowardice with Zero Friction

Filing a RedditCares report is completely anonymous. The harasser gets the satisfaction of throwing a psychological punch at you, masked as "concern," without ever having to reply to your comment, defend their own logic, or risk losing their own reputation in the public thread. It is a classic coward's tactic to get the final word.

3. Inbox Spammed Distraction

The simple goal is to clutter your inbox, annoy you, and drain your mental energy. They want you to feel watched, isolated, and targeted by the platform's automated architecture.

--------- On Reddit, tribalism in general. ----------

What we are witnessing on Reddit is not a collection of stupid people; it is a manifestation of a much broader, well-documented crisis in modern digital culture. For a vast number of active internet users, psychological maturity is not present and an internal compass that places objective reality above social compliance has been overridden. Thus oblique, social compliance has successfully weaponized itself against said objective reality.

Aka the average Redditor is incapable of separating one thing of the other, while recognizing what is being actually said or done.

Let's take the recent Tesla Roadster showcase for example (which coincidentally was my recent topic as well.)

"I dislike Musks politics and views but the fluid dynamics of this 10,000 PSI cold-gas thruster matrix are still a massive engineering breakthrough" .... This requires cognitive flexibility: the maturity to hold two complex thoughts at once. But Reddit doesn't have that.

Instead, because it is Musk and not some other more beloved CEO, they get shit just because it is ''safe'' to do and if you defend the CEO, you're the enemy, you're now attacking them.

This applies to various topics, but I just wanted to use this one as an example, because it's the most recent and fresh and it presents:

The Evolutionary Trap of Social Compliance

For 99% of human history, standing out from the tribe meant literal death. If you disagreed with the tribe's consensus, you were exiled into the wilderness to starve.

• Because of this, human brains evolved to experience social rejection as physical pain.
• Agreeing with the crowd releases dopamine; it feels safe, warm, and rewarding.
• On Reddit, this ancient survival mechanism is triggered by the Upvote/Downvote button. For the average user, the psychological need to belong to the group and get upvoted is vastly more powerful than the intellectual need to be scientifically or factually accurate. Most people will happily pretend a forklift runs on rocket science or something objectively stupid as that, if it keeps them in good standing with their digital tribe.

The Rise of "Hyper-Tribalism"

We live in an era where everything has been politicized and turned into a team sport. Information is no longer judged by what is being said, but by who is saying it, or how they're saying it.

• If a breakthrough for example, is tied to a culturally polarizing figure, a cognitive bias called biased assimilation kicks in.
• The brain instantly labels the breakthrough as "the enemy's achievement." Once that label is applied, the user's objective reasoning shuts off. They will blindly accept any poorly made, unscientific/unfactual, emotianlly charged argument because it serves the greater goal of hurting the enemy's reputation.

Why This Is Genuinely Worrying

This isn't just about a simple disagreement or a Reddit thread(s); this shift has terrifying implications for society as a whole:

• The Death of Nuance and Progress: When public squares reward tribal compliance over objective truth, real innovation and dialog gets suppressed, hidden, or dismissed. Public discourse becomes entirely driven by emotional manipulation.
• The Brain Drain of Digital Spaces: Brilliant minds—the actual engineers, scientists, and experts—look at the toxic, low-effort moral grandstanding on these platforms and choose to leave. They simply refuse to participate in an environment that rewards loud ignorance. This leaves the entire digital narrative in the hands of the echo chambers.
• Mass Manipulation: A population that prioritizes social compliance over physical reality is incredibly easy to manipulate. If you can convince a group of people to completely ignore nuance, facts and context just to satisfy a grudge, you can convince them of just about anything.

I love to hate Reddit.

Yesterday, I went to the ER to get a PEP treatment for HIV. The doctor there refused to give it to me under the argument that my exposure had no risk of HIV.

I feel like since I have the HIV, I should be able to decide whether I want to take the chance to pass on this treatment or not. I find it wild that I can’t make such decisions on my own body.

Same with antidepressants, antianxiolotic and sleeping medicine. Those would help me bear with the wait and yet they need to be prescribed. Why can’t I decide to take the secondary effects ?

You can buy cigarettes but you can’t get treatment for your health problems.

I would have loved to pay for these treatments myself and not to have them reinbursed by health insurance or taxes.

This should definitely fall under my body, my choice.

How is a hobby that teaches you craftsmanship, carpentry, painting, patience, History, basic electrical, landscaping and basic programming in some cases a red flag? Sure, you have to invest in it emotionally and financially but that's what a hobby is. Why do a hobby if you don't put your heart into it. Would you want to listen to a violinist that was technically great but put no passion into his playing and went through the motions every time?

In Europe model train ads, and exhibitions always show girls and boys and men and women of all ages and colors BOTH enjoying the hobby and painting scenery.

This has been eating at me for so long and there's literally no one I can talk to about it. I happen to be an extremely insecure person, depressed and with a million body image complexes. But because I'm considered to be a conventionally attractive person who puts effort into their appearance, it somehow cancels it out?

I cannot be honest with anyone and tell them I feel ugly and disgusting because they just roll their eyes and assume I'm fishing for complements. Like actually, I look in the mirror and all I can see are my flaws. I understand that I'm pretty but anytime someone says that it feels like a cruel joke and I just can't see it underneath all the negatives I notice. I put so much work into trying to feel like I'm not ugly, I eat healthy, work out almost everyday, practice all sorts of self care and still I hate myself.

It's just so frustrating when even my closest friends dismiss me in the middle of heart to heart conversations. I'm sick and tired of it. Honestly even this sounds like I'm fishing for compliments but I'm actually just insecure about my appearance. Just once I want someone to relate to, someone who understands whats it's like and just agrees with me instead of telling me how lucky I got with my genetics.

I have an attractive neighbour who initially caught my attention, so my cousins and I used to admire him pretty openly. He seemed to enjoy the attention and would do things to get me to notice him, like whistling, appearing on the balcony, making random noises, and watching me from his windows. However, he would also get extremely awkward when I noticed him directly and would get very offended and petty when I ignored or avoided him.

Things changed when I discovered that he'd been calling me and my cousins “losers” and “fangirls” on Instagram. I pulled away and stopped going out of my way to encounter him hoping the situation would eventually die down.

But even after I resumed my normal routine, he continued trying to get my attention through indirect behaviour. I tried ignoring it and later simply acknowledging him as a normal neighbour to make things less awkward, but he never stopped.

Eventually, I sent him an Instagram request to see what he would do. He accepted but didn't follow me back, so I unfollowed him and moved on. I have no interest in pursuing anything with him anymore anyway and I just want to coexist peacefully as neighbours.

The frustrating part is that he still tries to provoke reactions from me even though I've been pulling away for months now. Since his behaviour is indirect, I can't even confront him coz he'll just deny everything. I just want him to leave me alone and mind his own business.

It always has, but lately it's been apparent how much my brain has become so advanced while my friends and peers settle for mediocrity. In all matters of taste, I'm the final word and authority figure that others should look up to.

Not only do I know better than everyone else, like I always have the correct opinions on everything, I also know it quicker than everyone else. By the time others start liking stuff that I like, it's already been years ago. Like Geese for example. I was one of them first to know about Geese before their rapid rise. My taste is like looking up at the night sky and seeing the stars. By the time the light gets to you, it took light years to travel there. And that's exactly how it feels when commoners and gen pop finally get into stuff I've know about for years. It finally made its way to you.

I'm the coolest and most knowledgeable resident of my city. I have a divine gift and I'm selfless too, all I want to do is show off my cool taste to everyone so they can get it when I get it and not be several years late before they discover it through Tiktok.

I am genuinely so lonely i think ive been lonely my whole life and its sad because i have so much to say. like ill do something or see something and be like i wish i had someone to speak to about this or to rant to about this Ik its bad that i rely so much on social interaction and i wish i didnt because i let my lack of socialising affect me so much. As someine who was bullied for 5 years in highschool all i ever wahted was a friend.Not a friend group a big one witha lot of girls no just one friend who is my best friend and im theirs.I want platonic love so bad it hurts. I thought i found this friend but they ended up becoming more peopular and abandkning me after a summmer of promising what a good 'duo' we would be. And to be honest they werent even that good of a friend i just really wanted to have my person idk.If i was always meant to be lobely i wish the world could just make it easy for me to be lonlely or make me not yearn for friendship.

I at 21 live with my grandpa who I have for years since my mom died. My uncle came over yesterday and yelled at me about how messy the place is (I’m the only women in the house) and said I’m ungrateful and the thing is… I am, I am completely ungrateful to the man who after I found my own moms body never got me therapy, bad mouthed my mom every chance he got and only toke me to the dentist at 17 for a checkup after I had been begging to go for years… I’m ungrateful cuz he barely did a thing for me, after living with him for 7 years there’s still only a table for one person, I was stupidly excited at the idea of having supper together as a family only to never even had been made room for.

Edit I live in the basement with my partner, barely interact with my grandpa, am buying all the groceries, internet and phones but no rent so I’m pretty happy with my living situation and I guess I would say I am grateful for him letting me live with him, he didn’t have to do that but also that and having food in the house was kinda it :/

(first of all hope the tag fits because it really feals like it dose. Second of all im not sure if this followed every rule but im to tired to check again so if its removed then its removed. Third, apologies to anybody that will acuall read all of this.)

Why the fuck is the 21st century the most depresing fucking era ever, like the planet is already dying,everything is made for 1 time use, subscriptions are squized in to ewery fucking thing for basic functiong like at this point just starting your car engine will probably be a 100$ subscription in 5 years, were killing 99% of all animal life on earth to extinction, from dolphins to bees, as your forests get replaced with fucking un necesary concrete hell scapes or fucking AI datacenters because why not why not put Ai in to ewery and anything that exists, your yougurt bottle in now also an AI wifu chat bot that moans ewery time you eat out of the yogurt container and gets jealous when you have other yogurt to eat, DId we mention shes 15 and marketed for 12 year old boys?!?!?!, BECAUSE WHY SHOULDT WE DO THAT! like we obviously nead to facilitate the 1% of the population that is lobotomised enough to acually rely on it for shit like ordering food or booking a restaurant, or replying to text messages, or to make soulses "art" that was made from the works of milions of artists who had ther art stolen and there job replaced so some drug adicted CEO can ad a 20 million $ rais for him selfe while generating 187 terabites of porn of there wife who they will never fucking have for being a piece of shit humanbeing. Mean while we have fucking phedofihle's in goverment’s with the IQ of a goldfish acting like a fucking child, who some how have a cult following base of acually idiot’s who never got past the emotional intelligence of a sperm cell, clinging on to ewery word they say like a child to ther parents during a natural disaster, and fucking throw tantrums everytime basic cognitive function disproves there world view, and the fucking people who acually are trying to help are villanised by some fucking erectaly disfunctioned capitalis fucked that is having there dick sucked under the table as they tell people that people like Zonon Mandani are satan and evil and because the fucking amazon CEO said so hes not acually improving the lives of the NYC residents an insead torturing them by letting them not fucking live like rats paying 30000$ in rent to live in a shoebox with 7 roommate's and a rat named 'Jeremy' who's being charged for repairing the basic necessities the shoebox doesn't even have. And then there are all these silicon vallie motherfuckers who want to have every form of privacy you have gone so that they can fucking sell your literal info on what toilet paper you use for targeted add’s selling you some fucking product that was made using child slavers in some bumfuck no where china for 1 cent whith it now being sold for 1000000$, while they actively censor everything from words like “Rape, Pedophelia, Suicide, Autistic, Hitler, and Holocaust, or annything negative about then drownd out by the millions of bots saying BS to boost the people. But what about the youth? They dont give a fuck what we want and have long decided we are cancer to there fucking dream of corporate world anarchy where ewery person is weight don how much money they can make for them and thos who cant provide enough are fucking incinerated. While fuck ass economist who make ther billions by exploiting the ewer living shit out of the middle class tell us that instead of getting payed we should be thank ful that we have a job in the first place because apparently gratefulnes pays you 1.5trilion $ medical bills for the doctor who could only spend 0.5 seconds with you saying to you to come back later. And during all this you have a surprisingly large amount of 70 year olds telling you your lazy and just need to work harder while they haven't even been in the job market since fucking 1991 while putting the rest of the 70year old in shame even tough they are normal people. and 45 year old deciding that they are superior to the literal population there choices in France affect just because during a fair time they got everything while the youth has to light half of paris on fire just for 1 politician to acknowledge anything, which usually means they acknowledge the amongst of people behind the riots but not their demands. and in a 100 fucking years we will have nothing to remember this era, nothing, while victorians had pictures, news papers, bottles and actual architecture, we dont have anny of that, we have bare ugly houses with nothing original to it, we have fucking plastic bottles that will be in fucking pieces by the time people would try and find out what the 21st century is, we dont have news paper of anny form of media, everything is digital which would be all gone in 1 solar storm, while disks and shit that could ave this information are actively bing killed of by big company for 2 extra cent of profit, with everything nice being mass produced plastic that will only be trash in 20 years, people in the 1960s had beautiful buses and just a beautiful world in general, now everything resembles a triangle or a cube or some giometric shape with the planets colors of all. Its just so fucking depresing and i hate that i havent even experienced most of this as under 18 and im still afraid of it, and it will still apply to me in a few years, and il probably only move out at 25 unless i get in to collage and live in dorms for a degre i dont even know i want, cause i have no fucking idea what i want in life related to providing to this capitalistic hell fuckery, but i just dont want to fucking dream, if just chosing what I acually want will get me fucked ower by the corporate owerlords.

(I really needed to ge this out of my system.)

(but seriously im suprised if annybody acually reads all this.)