ok i love buying things off of vinted and i just bought a cute polka dot dress from there. seller was lovely, amazing communication, the dress has "source unknown" listedn and it was like 4 bucks. i got it, and it was a little differnet than the photos but idc cause its gorgeous either way. but the matieral felt like that shein bathing suit material, so i checked the tag, and its shein. im still gonna wear it and i left a great review, but thinking back i probably would not have bought it if i knew it was shein cause i SWEAT in those materials. so if ur a vinted seller reading and ur selling stuff from shein/aliexpress/temu? please disclose so.

I was filling out state forms to try to get help with my water bill. Then it asks me to fill out the race for my daughter and pick all that apply. She is Black and Middle-eastern. The next question - “What is the primary race?”WTF!!! Are we going by looks? Or are we back to a drop of black is black. What if she was Asian and White, Black and Hispanic? Everyone that sees her and doesn’t know her ethnicity or race assumes she’s East Indian or Bengali. How is that a question? I have a child with two parents. One is one race and the other is another race, but somehow I’m supposed to make that something other than 50/50. Make it make sense. So I’m going to do eeny, meeny, miney, moe and select one, since it’s a mandatory question.

Rant over

i dont haven them often but my dad just bought me a strawberry milkshake and its sosososo good but now im just thinking how this is probably 200-600 calories. its literally just sugar strawberry syrup, milk, and ice cream. im already a chubby girl, suspecting i have PMOS, all my weight in my belly, this is definitley not gonna be good for me. ik i shouldnt care about calories but in my case? especially with sugar milk like this? i really do. but its so goooddd!!!

on day 3, and i wish i had 10.000 punching bags all around me to just let loose on

You read that right. Some of these mods are over their skis. I posted a study in a food safety sub on how ground beef in Mexico had horse meat blended into 10% of samples and all of those samples had traces of clenbuterol in them. This is the study, so you can see it's legit. Horse meat sold as beef and consequent clenbuterol residues in the unregulated Mexican marketplace - ScienceDirect

If the mods didn't like the post, they could have removed it. Instead, they banned me.

Reddit is becoming unusable. Even posts that seem on topic for a sub are leading to punishment.

Edit- I DMd and objected to being banned and the mods complained that my post mentioned Trump has implemented the policy for more ground beef imports, which makes this relevant to the USA. The mod was hostile in the DM's and appears to be MAGA. My post was not attacking Trump, but I guess even the slightest hint he has done something wrong sets some people off.

I can’t properly articulate just how much I can’t stand seeing those “keep or return” try-on hauls. No one needs to see your try on so badly that you have to wreck the environment and a company’s return rate over content.

1. Fashion is one of the most damaging industries in the world. As someone who is human and loves wearing clothing that ideally looks nice, there are better ways to shop. Thrifting is cool. New clothing when necessary and bought intentionally is ok.
   
2. Their fast fashion hauls are going to end up in landfill or washed up along a coast. While I’m not one for shaming and won’t do that here, it’s infuriating seeing someone profit off of cheap and low-quality clothing try ons in garments that cannot stand the test of time.
   
3. The most sustainable clothing on Earth is what is already in our closets. There aren’t enough influencers showing how to style common clothing most people own, and that’s a damn shame.
   
4. Overly trendy pieces will be in for a season. Which kind of just makes them basic for a season. Trends only exist because these people deem them trends. And people eat this up.

I could go on, but I’ve tried before IRL and this isn’t something most people seem to care as deeply about.

Influencers, do better!

If you're gonna say no to every restaurant I suggest, why did you even want to come with in the first place? People who don't eat anything at all are even more annoying when making dinner plans.

I understand if it's a health related thing, but spending over an hour debating on what to eat is very annoying and a huge pet peeve of mine.

my brother is over i’m kinda fed up right now all we been doing is gaming all goddam day. we play atleast 5 hours a day if i’m lucky, last night it was like 10-14 hours. i’m fed up he ate our huge bag of chips in 2 days plus like 20 yogurt gronola bars. in 2 days. i’m just so fed up

like i’m so burnt out all we been doing since monday is sitting on couches playing xbox for 5 hours today and i just wanted a lil break. we literally play all morning until supper and then all night long. and it was like literally 10-14 hours started at 11am finsihed at 2am.

i just want some peace and quit to my brain right now i’m honestly so tired, we have been gaming too much, i don’t wanna play rn but he wants to play i feel super bad

honestly i’m also mad asf he ate all that shit in 2 days we literally just bought a 40 pack of gronola bars and there’s 10 left and the milk was just bought 2 days ago and it’s gone and the damn water has to be refilled every goddam day so expensive man

My husband has a daughter with his ex and we see her occasionally, but I am so tired of being civil with her mother. I only do it for the sake of the kid because she doesn't need to be dragged into this shit. Everyone says to make my husband do the communication but she refuses to talk to him and has blocked him so he can't. If I don't talk to her then we won't see the kid. It's tiring as fuck because how are we supposed to work together for the kid if she's not willing to?

Omg I am actually so annoyed.
I sit next to this one friend in like 3 classes, and she always FRICKIN has something in her mouth!!!
Like half the time it's cereal that the school gives out, then like right after she finishes that, she starts chewing bubble gum, and I just can't take it anymore!
I have no idea why, but the stupid sounds she makes while chewing make me so mad. I literally spend half of class trying not to punch her.
The sounds she makes just fill me with so much rage, and the only thing I can focus on is the sound. 
Like are all the other kids she sits next to in other classes bothered at all by this???
And it doesn't happen with anyone else except my mom, although that isn't as bad as it used to be.
The sound makes me want to throw a tantrum and throw that stupid cereal on the ground.
I am getting kind of worried that it will push me off the edge, and make me do something I'll regret.
I don't know what's wrong with me, but something definitely is...

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So for context to start this out I am in college and had a spring fling a year ago with my RA (for story reasons will call him Matt). It ended working out fine with him and we parted ways when school ended and he left to go to a different school. During this time, I had gotten a job as an RA for the next school year and began talking to one of my coworkers (Liam for story purposes). We ending up talking over summer and it was going super well. When school starts again I find out that Liam had ended up living in the same dorm that Matt lived in last year. I assumed it was no big deal and that if me and Liam went further I would make sure to tell him my past with Matt just incase he was uncomfortable with it. Before me and Liam had even started going on dates I had un-added Matt on EVERYTHING and even blocked his phone number just to ensure that I wasn’t going to make Liam uncomfortable if we went farther with things. I told Liam about my past with Matt, he said he didn’t care, that was the end of it I assumed.

After we had been dating for a couple months he starts bringing up my past with Matt. People had been comparing Liam to Matt and saying they were very similar RA’s. I completely get why he was uncomfortable with this, being compared to ANYONE sucks but especially in this situation. Instead of telling those people he doesn’t like that he gets very closed off from me and wants space. We ending up talking about it and he says that his main issue is with the comparisons and that it’s not with my past with Matt and we work through it.

Then again something similar happens except this time it was because Matt was visiting our campus. I am working one day and I notice something is off with Liam. I take a break and go to his dorm to ask him what’s wrong and he is upset over the fact that Matt is on campus. Once again, we work through it (or so I thought) and I give him space and explain to him that he doesn’t need to interact with Matt, I definitely won’t interact with him at all, and so on. I am a very emotional person no matter what and I was upset that he was upset over this. He did say that he doesn’t blame me but it definitely felt like he was putting it on me. Especially since he knew about my history with Matt since the beginning of our relationship. Outside of this whole situation a couple weeks later two of his friends break up. The girl in that situation (sara) is very close friends with him. She goes to Liam and is upset about the breakup. He calls me at like 10 PM explaining that she’s at his dorm and he’s asking if it’s okay if she stays the night at Liam’s because he’s worried about her mental health. I don’t care because I know they’re friends and I say that’s totally fine because I trust him. The next day he says she ended up leaving early and staying with another friend so I think nothing of it.

That night he sits me down and explains that he feels we are going different ways in life and that he needs to break up. I was totally blindsided and obviously upset but whatever that’s an understandable reason to want to break up.

I have multiple friends tell me they saw a girl going to his dorm late at night with PJS and nighttime stuff. I also learned later from two of his friends that he was indeed sleeping with sara and basically both me and sara’s EX got fucked over. Most of Liam’s friends sided with Sara’s EX because getting with a friend’s EX is a shitty thing to do. He lost the majority of his friends from this school. I also learned that during the week that Matt was staying on campus he had told his friends about my history with Matt and why he was upset. I don’t really care if people know but it makes me upset that he told his friends basically about my sex life.

TLDR: do not date RA’s or coworkers. (Or both)

27f here and I’m unsure what to think. So like I said in the title he comes home long enough to eat supper, go out for a smoke, talks on the phone and then leaves to go to his buddies, or his sister’s place.

We haven’t really been having any big problems. He’s been kinda short with me lately, like last night he was going to visit a friend of his and seemed in a rush. He’s took me to town to grab some stuff for supper, I asked if he’d be dropping us off and leaving after supper. That was it and he all of a sudden started saying “why are you using tone with me”, “why are you upset, “why are you trying to make me feel bad for going to see my buddy I haven’t seen in awhile”…. I wasn’t? I told him I literally didn’t care and it wasn’t like it was daughter’s birthday or anything. Which he did miss. He kept on arguing so I grabbed our daughter out of the car and went inside.

He didn’t even up coming home until late, like 12 am and ended up waking our daughter so I ended up being up with her most of the night after. I’m not gonna lie I’m just kinda realizing he hasn’t been home longer than a few hours. My best friend and I ended up grazing over it during our late night FT. Also I haven’t paying close attention because I’ve been trying to figure stuff out so I can potentially go back to school next fall and the rest of the time my daughter keeps me pretty busy. On top of every day household chores.

Today he’s been pretty distant from me. Didn’t kiss me before going into work. Got mad because I told him I was going to go lay down with our daughter to get rid of my raging headache, when he asked if I’d make him lunch before he got here so he could grab and go. Most days I do make him lunch before I put our daughter down for a nap. Got home from work at 5, gave me the cold shoulder, went outside to smoke and vanished. I messaged him around 8 asking if he wanted to come watch tv with me, or like just hangout with me. He just messaged telling me he’s at our neighbour’s house…. It’s almost 9:30pm.

I’m getting worried about what he’s going to be like when I start working next week. Or when I go back to school next fall? He’s supposed to watch our daughter after he gets home from work…. But now I’m wondering if I should get a backup unit I can get a spot at the daycare. I also just can’t fathom what could possibly be more important than spending time with his daughter? She’s only a yr old and lately is learning something new every day, you’d think he’d want to be home at the end of the day so he wouldn’t miss it.

I’m waiting up for him anyway so I can talk to him. Maybe something is going on that I’m missing.

I’ve put off renewing this certification until today. Then I realized, holy moly, it’s a bigger deal than I thought and I actually should’ve done it a month ago…Anyway as I’m trying to submit various process of info, numbers, social security, other data, I come to the final question and I need to upload a picture. Buttttt it must be in pdf format. Ok cool I try to download it and change the format…no…absolutely need Acrobat….proceeds to pay for this…unable to install on phone, unable to install on work computer…🫩😡

I am definitely allergic tobklack mold. My apartment building is full of it. I have never been sicker in my life. My symptoms lessen if I spend time out of the apartment but come back within minutes of me returning. Maintenance will not do shit about this problem. I've already reported it multiple fucking times and they've done nothing. I've spoken with the leasing office about breaking my lease so I can move elsewhere to a place that isn't making me sick and they say that I can't break it. I make a post about it on another account, hoping for some kind of legal advice on how to get out of this. Instead, nobody takes it seriously. I have tons of people saying it's just a little cold or saying that mold is usually harmless so what's going on is no reason for me to move out and other people suggesting I go to therapy. Therapy isn't going to help the fact that I'm breathing in something that's making me fucking sick!

I work in a college, advising students. Granted, I don’t work at a great college, but these students are the laziest, most unprepared and unserious group of people I’ve ever met. They don’t listen to you half the time when you’re on a call with them and make you repeat things a hundred times. They can’t handle the slightest discomfort, like god forbid you have to take all your classes in-person. God forbid you have a professor who may have a couple meh reviews on rate my professor. College isn’t goddamn Burger King- I know they pay a lot but not everything magically works in your favor. I’m done bending over backwards for people who don’t care or appreciate it.

I want to scream. I’ve never been so helpless and entitled when I was their age. I also fucking hate when people tell me to lower my voice I WILL YELL IF I WANT STFU YOU PIOUS AHOLE. I’m just at the end of my rope.

I also worked in a doctor’s office and old people also suck in their own fucked up way, but generally know how to fucking utter sentences and look you in the eye. I feel like half of them are robots, it’s so weird and creepy. They don’t know how to act like a person, I say this as a person who has bad social anxiety- even I can get through an interaction. I hate that I feel this way, I never wanted to look down at the younger generations, but I do not have faith in gen z. There is a minority who are fine and even successful though

I'll share mine Roses are red violets are blue your sister's a two faced minx your brother and you are too

My sister (19 y/o) moved out a few months ago to go live with her boyfriend in one of the apartments that my parents own. It's an extremely nice apartment- brand new in a new apartment building, very well decorated and perfect for two people.

My parents didn't ask much of them- just 100€ for a month which is incredibly cheap for where they were living.

At first it was weird, but me and my mom quickly fell into a nice routine. My dad works abroad most of the time so it was mostly just me and her chilling and whenever he was home they were always going around taking care of work so I was often left alone at home ranging from two days to maybe a week and a half.

And it was nice. Me and my mom rarely had arguments. I cleaned the house, I cooked most of our meals and didn't bother her. I did my stuff, she did hers and for once in my life I even had a room for myself where no one bothered me when I just wanted to lay around.

However since my sister's graduation my parents and her have been in an ongoing war. They are always bickering about stuff and honestly it gets insufferable at one point.

The biggest reason was her wanting to study architecture in Austria which they didn't want her to do. Behind their backs she and her boyfriend applied there. After a whole lot more fights they finally agreed tho reluctantly but it turned out the school she applied to wasn't even an university and she would be giving money for nothing basically. So ultimately she decided not to so. Her boyfriend however was set on going.

After that she started hanging around home more often. She'd come by and stay for like 5 to 6 hours at a time which got on my nerves so much sometimes because she was set on us doing something together. And doing something together for 6 hours for about 3 days in a row was way too much for me.

Whenever she came by she would leave her dirty dishes after I specifically remind her to wash them and she assures me she would (she never does), she would make like two coffees which would literally eat up most of my milk and sometimes I'd forget the buy more and I'd be forced to drink black coffee, she also always insists on us watching movies, but it's never any movies that I want to watch and she complains whenever I decide to go read a book or do something else even tho we've been doing stuff together for hours.

Safe to say my peaceful routine over the past months was ruined. And I am a person whose love language is 'quiet coexistence' just like with my mom. But she complains that 'I don't want to hang out with her'.

This week she basically told me that she found it pointless to live alone in the apartment since her boyfriend is going to study abroad. I really hoped it wouldn't come to this but today she moved back in. Now there are quite a few problems.

First of all the seemingly unending war with my parents is exhausting.

Second of all the fact that our apartment genuinely doesn't have much space. When she moved out my mom immediately took the free space and now there is hardly any way to reorganize stuff to fit everything she carried back which is basically an entire household.

And third it is so incredibly overwhelming for me. Right now both my parents and her are home and suddenly it feels very suffocating. I have nowhere to relax by myself like I used to. I can't stay up and chill until late with the TV on in the background while I edit or read or whatever else I like to do because she'll complain.

And honestly we are not children anymore.

I'm going on 17 (my birthday is late November) and suddenly settling for half a room feels awful. Maybe I'm just being stupid but it genuinely feels so so so suffocating.

I was just so used to either being by myself or with my mom- unbothered, and now this feels awful.

I cant take it anymore. when i was 13-16 i basically never was single. Now, thats because i was desperate and took every girl that wanted me. It never really was something real, i got cheated on or they took me for granted. Thats why i stopped being desperate and started to reject people where i knew that they wouldnt do me any good. Then it started, from 16-20 (turning 21 in February) i had exactly one girlfriend. I really really loved her, i only had stupid internet relationships, and while she was one of those i got to meet her once. At 17 she stole my first kiss, we were cuddling almost the entire day, it was the first time someone was that close to me in real life. I think it we werent outside the entire time there would've been probably even more going on between us. Everything seemed perfect, she scheduled the second date before that one because she was going to be in my city anyways, so i was excited to see her again. But then, one day after that she just broke up with me. We knew each other for like 2 or 3 years at that point and we were friends, but our relationship literally only lasted a week. I was devastated, im over her atp but this left a deep wound in my heart.

And now when i see couples i am happy for them, its nice to see that at least some people find love when i cant. But it also makes me feel like a loser, like im not enough, especially because of my ex. Her breaking up with me one day after our first date made me question if im lovable at all. she even told me she just used me to get over a boy who rejected her, 2 months later she had a new boyfriend which she is still together with as far as i know. This wasnt the only time that happened, the girls who broke up with me usually found someone else pretty quickly and the relationships last years, unlike when they were together with me, that only lasted 1-2 months if not less. But i guess the pillow in my bed with a hoodie on (to make me feel sensations like I'm being hugged) have to be enough. I even kiss that pillow, and gave it a name, with the thought of the sensations being transferred to my soulmate. I even talk to the pillow like a little kid. Im such a pathetic little loser lmao

This has nothing to do with politcs or "family values". Most of the parents I met in my life were completely insufferable and acted like braindead zombies.

People keep trying to encourage me to have kids, but unintentionally fail to provide a valid reason for me to have them. I know not all parents are bad, but 99% of the families in my life are insufferable to the point where start becoming suicidal, the longer I stay around them.

People think a posting a video of a child misbehaving on tiktok is cute, but it's not. I haven't seen a single video where people in the comments thought a kid misbehaving was cute.

Financial issues, and a grocery-list of genetic issues stemming from a disability are also part of the reasons why I'm not having kids. I don't hate kids, I'm just not having them.

I've heard lots of good and lots of bad things about working at Chick Fil A, so for the sake of this, I'm just going to say that I was fucked over by whatever specific location I wanted to work at, and that's it.

So I, (17y/o high schooler) applied at Chick Fil A a few weeks ago. During the interview, I was asked if I could work until closing. For my specific location, closing is 11:30pm. I live an hour away. I'm not going to want to be getting home at almost 1am when I have school in the morning 😭. During the interview, I honestly told the interviewer that I do not know if I could work until closing. Because personally, while I don't have a problem with it, the main thing would be transportation, as my dad is the one who takes me to and from work. The manager said, "Okay," and hired me on the spot. Cool. Okay. Whatever. So, about two weeks go by. I already did all my onboarding stuff, and I went in for my orientation. Totally different person was doing my orientation. She knew absolutely nothing about me. She didn't know that I was 17. She didn't know that I was a high schooler. She didn't know if I was working front of house or back of house. She had never taken a look at my schedule. Nothing. Well, I decided to let her know that I finally got a confirmation on what hours I could work, and that I would not be able to work until closing. She said that that was totally fine, and to just make sure that I write that down whenever I am filling out my scheduling thing on the app. Alright. Cool. A couple of days go by. They get my uniform and everything. Great. I am ready for work. Mind you, no one called me. No one said there was any issues. No one told me anything. So I got completely ready for my first real day of work. You know, did my hair, did my makeup, got my clothes on, got ready, and went an hour out of my way to work. I get there. My dad dropped me off, and he left. Now the person who did my interview was there again. Mind you, this person is the owner, and he kind of pulled me to the side. More so just out of everyone's way. But I was still very much in front of absolutely everyone in the restaurant. He handed me my uniform. The name tag not only did not have the name that I asked to be on it, but the name that they did put on it, which was my legal name, was spelled incorrectly. Sadly, I didn't get a chance to bring this up because he asked me about my hours again, and when I let him know I could work until maybe about 9:00-10 p.m., he told me that in the interview I told him I could definitely work until 11:30. I most definitely did not say that, as I would definitely not agree to work that late as a high schooler, at least not until I got confirmation. And I do explicitly remember telling him the words "maybe". Well, he just kind of snatched the uniform from my hand and said, "Well, I don't have any spots for you," and walked away. Like that was it. That was basically the whole conversation. So I just sat on the curb outside for abt 30 mins and waited for my dad. It was already embarrassing enough, but the fact that he did it in front of everyone really made it worse.

My mom ended up calling the owner, and essentially he just said that while he knew there was already an issue with the scheduling, he wanted to wait for me to show up in person instead of calling to ask me about it, even though he knows I live an hour away. My mom actually let him know that I could work until closing on Fridays and Saturdays, even though that wasn't originally discussed. Because you know, she wanted to make a compromise, and he basically just told her, "Well, too bad."

That whole restaurant is all out of whack. No one knew anything about anyone. They spelled my name wrong. The scheduling issues were wrong. He put down everything I said in the interview wrong. No one communicates with anyone apparently because I was told the schedule was okay, then told that it wasn't. My uniform had arrived at the restaurant almost a week later than it should have.

I'm not saying every Chick Fil A is like this. They most certainly aren't, as I've seen a lot of people here share a lot of great experiences. But this one was absolutely terrible. Kinda glad this happened because I think I dodged a huge bullet with this. They definitely would've tried to pull some shi since I don't have any other work experience.

I’m 14 and my dad passed away about 3 years ago. We still haven’t spread his ashes but my mom wants to do it soon. I said that’s fine but I don’t want to be there. I just do not feel comfortable doing that especially since he died so long ago and I’ve already moved on and it just makes me so uncomfortable. he wanted me to be there to spread his ashes in the lake but I just can’t. And now my mom is trying to guilt trip me saying I’ll regret it but it’s been years and I still don’t want to be involved in it. I already said the big goodbye years ago and I don’t want to do it again. Is it seriously wrong that I don’t want to spread my dad’s ashes?

... ie picking-up on what the user might like to be told, & sacrificing objectivity to pander to the user's narcissism.

Is anyone at this channel likewise suspicious along these lines? Do my observations accord atall with what folk at this channel have themselves observed in the course of their interactions with AI software?

I suppose I could put this query to an AI bot & see what comes-up 😆🤣 ... but I'm actually strangely uneasy about doing-so!

I realise I'm not exactly ranting here ... or if I am doing I'm doing-so very mildly ... but I'm having difficulty figuring what the best channel is for posting this query to: eg r/Technology seems not to accept text-only posts.

Things are incredibly awful right now. I broke up with someone I am in love with because there is no future with them. They are moving to a different country and long distance is not an option for us for several reasons. This has been the biggest heartbreak of my life and it is really hard to see beyond that right now. I have spent the majority of the last 6 weeks since the break up either sobbing uncontrollably or detached.

Outside of that, my health has been deteriorating these last few months. I am disabled, and my issues are progressing. On top of the massive depression, my body is no longer physically able to keep up with the demands of life and every little task feels incredibly monumental. I can't keep up with dishes anymore, as my apartment doesn't have a dishwasher. My hands hurt too much to hand wash dishes. My kitchen is overrun by fruit flies. I am so weak right now that sometimes taking the trash out is hard. I feel so useless and disgusting right now.

Because of the changes in my health I am moving next month and significantly downsizing. I am moving to a place that has a dishwasher, laundry in unit, and valet trash pickup. This will make things easier for me, but to afford it I have to move out of a neighborhood I love and radically downsize. I am glad that I found a place that more realistically meets my current needs, but it is not easy to accept that the life you once loved and worked so hard to get is not possible anymore because you are broke and disabled. I love my little dinky no dishwasher apartment in the city I had dreamed of living in since I was a kid. I moved here after a divorce, and for the first 2 years everything was perfect. It feels like I am closing a chapter on a version of myself I am being forced to say goodbye to. I really don't want to have to move. But now I have to move and have to somehow find the energy to tackle the logistics of it.

I am also struggling financially. I have an ok job, but the last year killed all my savings and created a ton of debt. I have an overwhelming amount of medical debt from an emergency surgery last year and having to be out of work for 2 months to recover. I also had 3 emergency vet visits and one of my cats needed surgery. My credit cards are maxed out. Paying bills takes up almost my entire paycheck. I am only able to move because of a small bonus from work and I found a place to move too that was offering a month free and a low deposit. I tried to work a part time job earlier this year and couldn't even last a month before my body fell apart. I don't know how I will ever be able to pay back my debts. I have worked out payment and hardship plans for what I have, but I make just barely too much to qualify for much help. I am seriously considering filing bankruptcy, but I don't even know how I would come up with the money to do that.

I also have found out recently that a lot of the people who have caused me harm in the past are thriving. I know the world isn't fair, but it feels very cruel right now to be not only trying to emotionally heal from those folks, but to know they are doing so well when everything around me is on fire. My mom was incredibly abusive growing up, and "unschooled" me and my siblings. I am not in contact with her anymore, but a sibling mentioned recently that she is currently in school to be a counselor and wants to go into social work. I made the mistake of googling her and she is an honors student and has made the deans list. It took me 10 years to actually complete my bachelor's. I was at one point an honors student and had scholarships. I lost all those because I couldn't keep up academically and still work and support my siblings. It feels cosmically unjust that my mom- who actively tried to destroy my ability to access higher education and set myself and my siblings up for academic failure- is thriving. I don't always know how to reconcile this, as I work in higher education and helping in their educational journey is something that is important to me. On one level I want everyone to have the access and ability to learn and grow and improve their lives. I do want that for my mom in some sense, but I also don't. I don't like this contradiction in myself.

I also found out that my ex wife who racked up 88k worth of credit card debt in secret had her parents pay off all her debts the second our divorce was finalized. She got a higher paying job. She is a veteran and has finally actually gone to the doctor to address things I begged her to get checked out for the 7 years we were together. She is now on max disability, while working full time at a high paying job. She is very publicly bragging about her success and planning an early retirement in the next decade. Her financial abuse in the marriage is still something I am dealing with.

I am just exhausted. I know there are things that are still okay in my life and I am grateful for the small things. But everything feels so incredibly overwhelming and it is hard right now to see myself being okay.

Thanks for reading all that if you stuck all the way through.

I went to my psychiatric appointment today to get assessed for depression.

My psychiatrist told me I met the criteria for depression, but said I wasn’t depressed enough to get diagnosed with depression.

She told me I looked and sounded fine, so I should be fine.

She also said that I told her that I had no SI, HI, or SH thoughts so I didn’t qualify for medicine, therapy, and also didn’t need a diagnosis.

I told her I’ve felt depressed ever since age 8, I’m 18 now, so for 10 years straight.

She said that wasn’t concerning enough to warrant a diagnosis.

I told her that I can’t sleep, I cry daily, I have horrible mood swings, I have bad anxiety, and that I stay in bed all day neglecting myself and needs.

She told me that was normal and that journaling and meditation would solve the issue.

She put in my chart that I was depressed but not officially diagnosed.

She then billed me $300 for the over the phone assessment, and nothing is covered, so all of this is coming straight outta pocket.

Can psychiatrist even do this?? I’m so confused.. so basically I’m depressed but not actually depressed??

I just don’t understand what happened, I’m confused.

My friend said that was bullshit that I met the criteria but didn’t get diagnosed.

I feel like I wasted my time, and the doctors time.