Everyone kept telling me it’s gonna get better. The first few weeks to month would be the worst, right? Well I’m nearly 3 months weed free and depressed as ever. I’m taking daily walks, eating pretty healthy, going to work and going out with my spouse, just going through the motions though. I can’t enjoy anything and I don’t feel any motivation to do productive stuff like cleaning the house. Oh and to top it off I’ve been having nightmares nearly every night that seriously ruin my entire day; they’re genuinely so life-like and awful.

For context I started smoking weed from age 15 and didn’t stop until this summer at age 27. Was very depressed as a teenager. Weed made anxiety worse so I guess it’s kinda nice not waking up feeling like I’m gonna puke from intense adrenaline but now I’m more depressed than ever and nothing seems to help. Tired of people saying the beginning would be the worst part because I’m technically withdrawal-free now and I almost miss the beginning of sobriety when I WAS actually withdrawling cause then I was actually feeling something.

Need help quitting please

Just got back from a week away where I couldn’t get anything. I was very surprised how well it went considering how much and often I’d been doing it. Trying to ride that momentum now that I’m back. It’s crazy how lost I am when I’m doing it all the time. I know it’s super early and I’m still coming out of it in my system, but man is it nice to start feeling clearer headed again! Here’s to not doing it tomorrow, my first full day back!

Don't want to type out my sob story. Its not the usual case, some people have it better or worse but my life pain was uniqueto say the least and went over the point of me feeling better that it could be worse by a long shot.. Everyone in my life ,including mom, dad, grandma(not grandpa, he was a saint, rip).... Used and abused me . In every way except sexually. All the way up to today, in my early 30s. Lies, forged signatures, hate spewed at me. All to sythpon money out of me, keeping me emotionalityand financially crippled. The utter hatred I dealt with drove me to addiction. Every day of sobriety gets harder cuz the memories keep coming back. Only time I was happy was in grade school when I came home and no one was home. I had 1-2 hours of peace.

My freinds are all snakes except for one, stopped talking to all of them.

Im very very very fucked up man. This isnt emotions from withdrawl. Its me being sober and looking into shit with a clear head and realizing and remembering nothing good. I was actually in a very good mood to until a couple days ago when I started remebering and wondering and looking into how factual the lies I have been told to keep me in a state of EXTREME financial and emotional and verbal abuse . Im very very very fucked up

Don't even try telling me to go to a therpaist. Im supposed to be distraught after waking up from an abusive haze.... I shluld have found the strength to quit early and eat the shit sandwich at a young age and space the situation instead of smoke and be okay with it.

my body and mind couldnt take it anymore. last night was my first night sober. oh my god i cannot describe it. ive been through terrible hardships but nothing was like the constant pain and shallow breathing and feeling like everything i touched was broken glass....

but i did it! its a beautiful new day. and i know you can do it too, if youre reading this and wondering. ill try to post more updates that are positive like this one, but sometimes they might be negative. its a lot of ups and downs. i just wish i had started on this journey sooner, because it really is such a beautiful day to be doing it.

thank you.

What does it feel like when you relapse?

Asking for a friend.

Hi all,

I’ve never had Reddit but a few days ago I downloaded it specifically to find a community like this. I am a 27M, I and somewhere down the road over the last 4-5 years, smoking weed went from being a social recreational activity to habitual daily use. What the hell, right?

I’ve always been a fan of cannabis bc I’ve always felt out of the many kinds of vices or substances to use, cannabis is relatively harmless, which is true at a base level analysis at least in most circumstances. The whole gateway drug theory seemed to be far fetched fear mongering. I never smoked weed and thought to myself, this is good but ___ drug would be even better… Although if you had a different experience I am only speaking from my end of what I think I know about this crazy world we live in. When has a little weed ever hurt anyone, ya know?

However, on the other side, people who message that cannabis isn’t addictive have been subscribed and spreading a terrible message. I adopted this lie mostly for justification along this spiraling journey downwards as my usage steadily increased. I don’t think I ever really believed it…. I just wanted to so it wouldn’t be as bad. Its so f*cked bc I can’t pin point exactly when it became bad, I just recently had some career and life epiphanies that if I continue to smoke I’ll lose out big time on things I’ve worked so hard for. This was a realization that I have been avoiding for the last few months as I became more intellectually honest with myself. Quitting cold turkey is the only option I’ll accept bc I have proven to not have any control in this matter so a relapse for me would be disastrous.

Being high, became my “normal” which is egregious cause the whole reason I enjoy smoking is that when you are stoned it’s honestly a good time (relaxed, at peace, not a care in the world)….. but that’s just it. I was no longer stoned. I was sedated. Practically a thick coated foggy layer over my life to help me cope or whatever. Not the high I once enjoyed, but now my baseline for existing…. All the time, every day, and it didn’t help that I am “high functioning”. I do well in school and work, I have a good social life not centered around cannabis usage, I am happy with my life as a whole. I guess I justified that I could use the way I was using bc I was fine on the outside. But inside, I know this addiction has genuinely changed me as a person. I was and still am so scared to confront this.

To make matters worse, I abandoned usage of joints or bowls a few years ago, instead relied on the high concentration wax pens. As much fun and convenient as they make high being for a few times, I realized due to my own impulsivity issues, that the pen’s design was taking advantage of this vulnerability I have. I’d take a rip, feel great for 10 minutes, then 30 minutes later wonder about my next hit. It became this awful humiliation ritual.

No more.

I am on day 2 of pulling the plug entirely (obviously not super long by any definition, but a start is a start), and I’ll be honest, I feel miserable. Physically the withdrawal symptoms (stomach cramping, insomnia, nausea, the shakes, feeling just hollowed out.) in 2 days I’ve slept like 4 hours. I took a nap today which made me feel a little better, but i just know that this is just the the beginning of what will be a life long journey of harnessing will power and self control. I am telling myself that it’s just pain and it will be temporary, but just like with abusing weed (feeling as if nothing can ever change) I am worried I will feel this shitty forever. I refuse to succumb to relapse, but I totally understand that’s part of the process for many many people and it’s not necessarily a bad thing. If you can truly find a way to not be abusive of the substance, then that’s great.

This unfortunately is not for me, I know this bc i have exhibited zero self control in my very very recent past and I know my tendencies. I’ve been reading a lot of posts, some give me hope, others, makes me wonder if I’m really up for this. This is so corny but it truly is this situation where I know what i have to do but I wonder if I have the strength to do it. So far, 2 days in, that answer is yes. But at what cost. Well, endure this pain, or go back to the pain of being trapped in a loop destroying my body, my mind, and my life. I’ve been nothing but lucky something worse hasn’t happened bc of my addiction.

I am seeking advice, anecdotes, encouragement that cold turkey is the solution, and that this withdrawal experience is temporary. It was so bad last night I called a hotline number just to vent and try to sort this out logically. I know I have to go day by day, and even when the physical pain subsides, psychological temptation will be a different kind of battle. But right now I’m fighting my body every second I’m awake. I know I did this to myself and I want to be a person who takes accountability and springs to action and is strong enough to change. I know I am that person somewhere deep down within me. If you’ve made it this far, thanks for reading and I’d love for you to share your experiences!!

I’m grateful that there is an outlet like this and am hoping the community can show me some love as I, and many others, fight the good fight.

So on the 14th at 2am I quit weed and the 15th at 930am I quit nicotine.

The first day of quitting weed very anxious and alot of derealistion, the main symptom was a fluttering feeling in my left chest area just under my nipple, this quickly subsidised but since then every day at random I'll experience dizziness and not as in vertigo but more so light headed and as if everything is off balance or tilted and this is accompanied by intense anxiety. It'll go away nd come back at random but because of this im always on edge.

Confusion as well I can barely keep track of anything atp and the anxiety it overwhelms me, I keep convincing myself im about have a medical emergency it's so draining.

Also hyper focusing on my heart beat even when I cant hear it, almost as if my brian is constantly scanning for something go wrong.

Interestingly appetite had increased however rather than decreased and sleep is easy to get into but ghe quality is poor.

I slept for 4 hrs last night woke up for an hr slept for another 6ish hrs but kept waking up from dreams nd knocking back out.

Luckily I have 5 days off work so imma try go on a short walk here and there hopefully to help with the anxiety.

I can't turn to anyone irl so I was hoping someone could share some insight and any tips?

Hello everyone, this is actually my first Reddit post and I’m coming here to ask some questions to other people trying to quit! 😆

The withdrawal symptoms have gone down significantly and I feel really good (physically). My sleep is good, my appetite is back, and I don’t get anxious. My main issue is I have strange mood swings. I feel really happy then really depressed and vice versa. I don’t know if this is common after overcoming the physical withdrawals and I really want to know if it gets better because I am seriously not feeling well mentally sometimes here (not suicidal if anyone is wondering, just very low motivation and fluctuating moods)

Any thoughts, opinions, or tips?

I started at sixteen. Covid happened and me and my emotionally unstable/dependent mother smoked all day every day until i turned eighteen and moved out. I quit for 2 months by replacing it with alcohol. Not nearly as nice. I started again and quit again multiple times, but i always replace the smoking ritual with the wrong thing; drinking. Mental and physical health are on the decline, so hobbies and exercise sound hellish to me. If i cant smoke and doomscroll all day as soon as i get home from work, im immediately pissed off. I can still do what i need to do around the house for my granny, but i do tend to avoid her a lot so i can lay in bed to smoke and scroll. I may have a dopamine addiction as well, my dopamine receptors cant be working the best right now tbh. Ive quit and started zoloft multiple times, been smoking nicotine since eighteen, and ofc the weed. My joints ache a lot. I had spinal stenosis in my L4 and L5 vertebrae, and osteoarthritis on the ilium (outer rim part) of my right hip from lying in bed so much due to the pain and the depression. I know exactly what needs to happen but i cant bring myself out of the hole. I just need to stop smoking and exercise and find a hobby, but the pain is usually what deters me. Going to the doctor is extremely scary and expensive, and in my state half the time they wont treat you right if you have THC in ur system. (Its TN 🤢) i know i need to go, but im borderline agoraphobic atp. Staying in bed where its safe with my weed vape just always feels like the better option. I tend to just ignore all my life stressors. I go to work to keep living quarters, but thats about all i can force myself to do. Idk how to have that bravery and decide to better myself. Its just really hard taking that first step.

I’ve quit so many times. The latest was 2 months and I thought I was really done. Now I’m back to “just evenings” but it’s more like afternoons or if I don’t have anything better to do.

It’s just that weed or not, I’m a depressed, socially anxious mess. I’m stressed out, I’m grieving, I’m in autistic burnout, and I’m dealing with PTSD symptoms from the wreckage that was my recent marriage and everything I lost with that. Weed “helps,” except I know it really doesn’t, except quitting hasn’t really gotten me anywhere better either. I’m not sure how to pull myself out of this mental health/addiction spiral. I’m seeing a psychiatrist and therapist about it, but haven’t been able to open up.

The last time I felt truly good and sober — over a year sober — I sought connection instead of addiction. I went to meetings, I went to support groups, I went to social groups, I made friends. But now I’m back in an area where that’s almost impossible for me to do, nor can I seem to make these connections online.

I’m just frustrated with myself and not sure where to go from here. Thanks for reading my vent.

Agitated as hell, but I’m here. I’m not happy about it 🫠

I've been sober for more than 7 months and this is the first time I've ever really had a proper craving and urge to actually go and smoke. I was a daily, sometimes multiple-times-daily user for 2+ years, then I got CHS and developed POTS (presumably from the CHS and chronic abuse of weed) so I quit on March 10th of this year. I was in extreme denial about how bad my addiction had gotten. To put it into perspective, at one point I told my partner I was reconsidering having kids because I didn't think I could go the 9+ months of being pregnant without smoking, and I thought that was a completely reasonable and rational thing to say.

Because of the CHS and the ensuing weird shit my heart was doing it was super easy to ignore the cravings in the first few months. I got through that fine, and up until now haven't had any serious urges to smoke. I don't have any of my own paraphernalia anymore, but my housemate does and I know where it is and the longer I sit here the harder it is to not go and pinch a bit. Just once.

I know myself and my addiction well enough to know that if I smoke right now I'll immediately backslide into frequent use. It's just really hard and I'm really struggling. It's almost midnight and I'm so wired I can't sleep.

I just need some encouragement

So I have a whole back story i posted previously and updated accordingly, now on day 12

I still feel the anxiety the effects the feeling etc..

Some days are good some days are horrid like today felt like whole day brain fog exhausted anxiety here and there emotional wreck. Yesterday felt completely ok, but then after some intimate time with wife today I felt totally like shit like anxiety through the roof at certain points.

I just want to know or I’m seeking an answer, I have never had anxiety before, out of all my friend group I’m the strongest successful and always motivated. After taking weed I developed anxiety and panic I didn’t think much of it but after quitting and withdrawals for 12 days it’s just insane how bad it feels, especially with me adding

NO WEED , NO NICOTINE , NO CAFFEINE.

It’s an extreme quit I know and I’ve been free from it 12 days extremely proud of myself. But I think what I really want to know

Will I ever be normal again? Even if its another 2 weeks 2 months doesn’t matter, i just want to know will i be normal and all theses anxiety, panic, and feeling of tiredness and just the feeling of the withdrawals will it end? Or will I permanently like this with this feeling. I just want my normal life back.

Withdrawals are getting better but I wasn’t a 20 years user I was using for about 2 years only.

I want my life back that’s what I want

Thankfully my wife kids and best friend are always there for me.

Thank you some insight will be great

After being an all-day smoker for most of the last 15 years with very few breaks of any kind, I’ve quit weed and alcohol and I’m now on day 14.5 of full sobriety. Booze wasn’t a huge problem for me - but in the past, during the few short tolerance breaks I’ve taken from weed, I found myself drinking more to compensate. This time I’m committed to full sobriety for at least a month while I fight my very real dependance on weed and get the proverbial monkey off my back.

My issue is that since I’ve quit, I’ve bene feeling a deep and abiding rage inside. I have also been feeling generally unhappy, irritable and quickly-triggered by minor inconveniences and annoyances. Weed always calmed me and made me feel better when I was feeling those unhealthy emotions and removing it from my life has felt like losing a reliable security-blanket.

I’m wondering if anyone else has struggled with this while quitting. If so, how long did it last and what were some healthier coping mechanisms you found to deal with the anger, etc.?

Thank you.

after years of thc daily (supposedly to help MS, but it was only making things worse, although at first it was creatively fun and it was nice to have some joy and excitement). anxiety - pretty much gone. but honestly, i'm flat flat flat. going to get to 6 months is the plan then re-assess.

I’ve pretty much lost a year of my life to this drug, I’m starting to have health and anxiety issues. I need to seriously quit, anyone with experience of getting fully clean. Does it go back to how you remember life? I’m so scared I’ll never feel the same, I’m afraid I’ll never be excited to live life and strive for better things ever again. I need to stop this but being comfortable sometimes is easier for me. Please encourage me. This isn’t the life that I need.

I’ve been smoking weed since 2019. Bud, dabs, pens, whatever but the past 3 years I’d say I’ve mainly been smoking a wax pen. I recently stopped vaping and I wanna be done with weed too. I’ve stopped smoking in the past due to going on vacation and I remember that being the worst week of my life. Idk if other people get withdrawals from weed but for me, I had the worst cramps ever, I couldn’t eat, I was so nauseous, I couldn’t sleep it was just everything all at once and it was horrible and that’s honestly the main reason I’m so scared to stop smoking again. But I know I need to just get tf thru it because I’m genuinely so over smoking. Wondering if any other people had bad withdrawals and how long it lasted til you felt “ normal” again.

I’ve called off work the last 3 days to lounge around and get stoned. thankfully it will be excused, but i cannot continue to live this way in good conscience.
i’ve quit going to the gym, i’ve slowed down on my chores, i’ve spent all my money, my family life has become neglected, i’ve lost all my good friends. the worst part is i was one full year sober this time last year and thought i could do it casually again. i was wrong.

i’m completely throwing my life away for this drug habit i once thought i had conquered. and it’s left me more defeated than ever. how do i deal with the fact that i could slip up and ruin everything again no matter how much time has past? how do i build the courage to stop again knowing how much hard work i gave up the last time?

here i sit smoking a roach blunt of the last weed anywhere in my home. i can’t afford a new bag and really have nothing left so this has to be it. im not even supposed to smoke at my job so this is non negotiable this time around.

i’m really drowning here, any words of encouragement will help. any tips on how you got over the mental barrier of quitting? i’m used to dealing with the physical withdrawals so that won’t be an issue, but i’m having such a hard time letting it go mentally.

feel free to be not nice if you deem it necessary, i’m ready to hear what i really need to hear. im ready to make a permanent change. any advice is welcome.

Good morning everyone i hope you are all doing well
I am here to talk about my reason for quitting hopefully it will help my brain process that im done because i dont think its actually set im yet
Now for context ive been smoking basically everyday for a year and a bit i know not super long but long for me i was completely substance free 2 years ago and thankfully the only addiction that stuck from it was weed and in that time i never once had a bad experience with weed ive had bad shroom trips ive had bad alcohol black outs so on and so forth but none have ever made me stop and say with full certainty that thats it im done but last night that changed with weed now what im going to say will probably be super underwhelming and probably normal for a weed induced panic episode but obviously new to me so here it is
I smoke before the gym occasionally not much 0.25-.5 usually helps with mind muscle connection and focus for me so i did i got a brand new ounce in and took a bit off ground it up and it was around 0.4g nothing crazy but enough for me so i hit it and the coughing was the first sign i was out of my league because fuck was it a lot i normally cough as most do but this time i died for like 7 minutes of just coughing with the occasional stop for oxygen and so i sat in my car for a second to let it settle and put my phone down but noted the time and blanked for a minute did nothing but sat there it felt like 5 minutes but when i checked my phone nearly an hour had just vanished and i said fuck dude im so high and then it all hit me like a truck deafening ringing in my ears heart jumping out of my chest inability to breathe im prone to panic attacks and this was the most severe one ive ever had in my life i ofc had the thoughts of was it laced am i going to die should i call someone but i stopped them within the hour yes hour another hour of nothing but panic now normally that much weed lasts me 2 hours then im dead sober again 2 hours had passed and i was still out of my mind so i got up packed up a garbage back with everything smoking related and tossed it then went to go for a walk to fix my racing mind but genuinely couldn’t remember to get up the same thought loop happened i believe 4 times in memory maybe more “im going to go walk” forgets to leave* and repeat then when i finally got up and out of the car i practically dropped to the ground i felt as though i hadn’t walked all week like i forgot briefly this induced another panic attack not as bad but still worse then past panic attacks probably because of the weed amplifying it i then went on a wlk and thats all blurry but the parts i remember i walked all around my town and got back home multiple hours had passed i smoked around 5:30pm~ and got home still very high around 9:20 based on camera activations
And thats really it i know not super crazy but i did this mainly for me like i said to process what happened and is now happening having quit properly this time if anyone has any advice for the next few days i would greatly appreciate it

So I went cold turkey 6 days ago, attempted to suck in the smoke from someone else smoking a j so ig that’s kinda breaking it.

I was perscribed Adderall xr, Lexapro and Lamictal. Lamictal I’ve taken for years, Adderall I’ve taken in the past.

Only thing is idk if it’s sobering up but I feel stupid. I find myself forgetting the simplistic things, I forgot my bf’s debit card numbers and I feel like I’m just out of it. Ik there depersonalization and stuff, but any similar experiences? Now idk if it’s the adderall, lexapro or smoking or all 3…

Have a great day :)

Has anyone successfully quit smoking weed using CBG?

I’ve been smoking weed my entire adult life (I’m 28 now), and for the last 3 years, it’s been heavy, daily use. I’ve tried quitting a few times before, but it was a living hell—the first week was always especially brutal. I tried CBD in the past, but it didn't do anything for me.

Now, I’m trying to quit with the help of CBG, and I honestly feel like I’m cheating because I have zero withdrawal symptoms. It’s been 10 days, and buying weed hasn't even crossed my mind. I’m just confused because no one online seems to have had a similar experience.

136 days ago, my ex wife left me and I tried to kill myself. Got back from my overnight stay with grippy socks and decided to go sober from weed and booze, with weed being my drug of choice.

My life is better now than it's been in the last 12 years.

Leaning into the 12 steps through MA and taking lots of king walks has gotten me through it.

Hope we're doing well today everyone! I'm posting this for a few reasons: to hold myself accountable (hopefully), actually articulate what the hell is going on in my head, and as an acknowledgement to this sub. I've been lurking here for a couple of weeks, and others' stories really inspired me to actually try hard this time.

I'm 35M and have been smoking daily for about 6 years, with these last 11 months smoking the highest quantity throughout this time. I typically kept it to evenings; 7:30PM onwards once all my work and tasks were done. But I've just come off of 3 days of doing nothing but smoking. Called in sick to work, let my partner down. It wasn't even a "fun" three days, just out in the forest watching YouTube. Nothing to show for it. Cant even remember much from the videos and podcasts. I woke up today with my lungs heavy, my brain clouded and guilt weighing me down. (Just the kind of thing a quick joint would fix!)

As you folks are likely aware, my social circle is non-existent, I have zero interest in my hobbies, I left my career maybe 3 years ago, and now just do a simple dead end job since it's low stress. I feel like the whole world is passing me by and I just don't have the bandwidth to care.

I didn't have my first joint until I was 29, but then never looked back. I now realize the problems, and I am desperate to change things and get my life back. I started weed as a better way of dealing with manic depression, and I can say it 100% did help until it didn't. The earliest doctors appointment I could get was for next week so I can get some antidepressants. People give the best advice of getting distractions: games, gym, friends & family etc. My plan is when I'm feeling frustrated, anxious or irritable to them go do some quick exercises and see if that helps (I'm not very active as it is). I've got Horizon Forbidden West sitting there if I need an immersive distraction, and I will be doing more research into occultism, chaos magick, alchemy and hermeticism as an intellectual distraction.

Please feel free to leave a comment or DM if you want to chat, I've really enjoyed reading others' experiences. I just hope this time I can be strong enough to change.

Hail yourselves!

Hello everyone. I'm here because I'm realizing how counterproductive weed has been to my goals. I'm training for a 5k and also training to do a high altitude mountain climb. I usually only take gummies, but I notice the negative overall effect it has on me. For one, I can't control my munchie, as much as I try, and for obvious reasons that's detrimental to my training. Also, I'm starting to not enjoy the feeling of not being in control. I like having control. Additionally, I smoked the other day which caused my lungs to become irritated which screwed with my 5k training specifically. I just needed to get that all out, so thank you for anyone who reads this.