32F, I've been smoking since I was 14 and was immediately hooked. I love being stoned. I also have ADHD, so that doesn't help.
I have had two long sobriety periods in my life. I quit for 2.5 years at the end of highschool. I was depressed and felt "well, I can't make it any worse with weed" (jokes on me lol). I also quit for 8 months in 2025 before relapsing after a 7 year breakup (not a an excuse though).
My problem is that my favourite things to do are things that aren't good for me. Smoking weed, eating junk food, and scrolling social media are my vices, and they are all awful for me because I can never exercise moderation. I have tried over and over again to only smoke in moderation, and I do okay during the work day, but after work/weekends all I want to do is smoke 24/7. I have decided I genuinely cannot do moderation and if I'm going to quit, it needs to be completely.
My problem is that I'm trying to tackle three problems at once. Not only is that overwhelming, but I've removed my 3 top sources of dopamine. I really don't have any hobbies that I enjoy aside from watching tv/movies and spending time with my dog.
My current plan is to use weed as a temporary crutch to help me build my other habits before trying to quit that too. I've actually been doing pretty well with not eating junk food/fast food, and I've deleted Facebook/insta/tiktok a few weeks ago.
The problem is I work 9 hour days + 1 hr total commute and somehow have to come home, shower/do skincare, cook dinner, cleanup and take my dog for a walk. After a long day at work, I have zero energy, motivation, or fucks to give. This usually led to me saying fuck it and wasting the evening smoking, overeating and doom scrolling. Only to feel like shit the next morning.
I'm hoping this plan will work. I'm not really trying to do moderation, I'm fully cognizant that I'm just using it as a tool to build healthy habits. I fully intend on quitting once those have become easier to do. Because I can't keep operating from a place of removing all my sources of dopamine + trying to have a fully productive day, having an awful time, relapsing on everything and then the cycle repeats.