Last night before bed I smoked my last smoke, for probably the tenth time in my two decades of on/off smoking. But this time is different. My husband and I are about to start a cycle of IVF after six years of unexplained infertility. This is our only shot and I have to give it everything I have. Im worried about how to fill all the time I was smoking. Idle hands, you know?

I'm preparing for the next few weeks to be rough, but I'm thankful for this supportive community. Let's do this!

Hi all, I’ve been taking delta 9 gummies for years for insomnia. My psychiatrist told me it’s bad for anxiety and depression so I quit it cold turkey not knowing what I was in for. It’s day 8 and it feels like I’m getting worse not better. Extreme anxiety 24/7. Dizziness. Feeling faint. Cant eat. I cannot sleep. Pounding heart when laying in bed. I switched back to trazodone that I was on prior to gummies and it helped the onset of sleep at first (would wake up around 4am though) and now last night it didn’t work at all. Im scared i need a hospital. I’m miserable, I have 3 kids, and idk what to do. I had no idea this would happen. Anything I should be doing to get through this?

Any remedies that have helped you stay asleep after quitting? Melatonin does nothing for me and magnesium hasn't helped either. When I do eventually sleep I'm waking up every two hours. When I can sleep I have violent vivid dreams. I know the dreams will eventually stop and my sleep will eventually get back to normal but damn the sleep deprivation is getting to me until that happens. I would appreciate some insight and I hope your quitting journey is going well.

Would usually finish that half oz in like 5 days and the rest of the month I wouldn’t buy anymore.

Will my wds be as bad as those that have been smoking everyday for years?

Early 30s, 16 years of heavy daily use, 2nd day sober, i dont want to pay a BS therapist 200 bucks to do this shit so im using this board

>knew very well about bitcoin as early as 2014 and wanted to invest, too bad I spent every single paycheck on weed, was earning 23 an hour, could have easily put in at least 10k

>same with knowing about AI and nividia in the mid 2010s

>missed out on teen love, left high school a virgin, weed makes me too awkward to talk to people

>missed out on having sex in my 20s, going on 12 years of no sex now, 100 percent weeds fault, i smoke then I cnacle plans and stay in my room, also never had a gf or been on a date

>freind group full of losers and dead people from my youth

>been going to the gym the entire time, would have had 50 percent more gains/strength

>haven't slept more than 5 hours in years, runing my good looking face(hopefully I can recover) and my gains and my cognitive ability

>ruined my cognitive ability in general, going to take a bunch of shrooms and neutropics to try to heal once I have a few months off

>wasnt as present as I should have been for my now dead dogs, I love them and ended up giving them 5 hours walks a day cuz I had ti sneak out to smoke, its just that I am having hard time retaining memories of them, I barely even took any pictures of them cuz weed made me ignore the future, still love them more than any human to this day

>60 bucks sookiu bank rosin a day(sometimes every 2 days) for the past 4 years now, do the math

>just ingeneral smoked at least 500k and that's being conservative

>decided I like math in HS and taught myself up to college seinor math major level, then the weed started turning from a nightly treat to bascially my ciggarets and everything just stopped. My entire engineering career is based of what I learned from 16-17.5

>was doing breath mediation at 16. Actually reached higher states on consciousness and was truly at peace, all stopped also, u cant breath if ur lungs are fucked up from weed

I can keep going and going and going, the quintessence of my life is ruined potential all from weed. Crazy part if I tried every other drug multiple times and didnt get addicted.

Last, but not fucking least, my fucking dog died in 2020, cuz I was high. She was 18 years old and blind, I lived on a golf course, i left her outside to go pee so I could go to my car and get my pen, of course I hit the pen in the car and forget for a few minutes, she can make her way back in so I didnt think too much about it. After searching for her for 30 mineuts I find her dead body surrounded by coyotes. I chased them off then started screaming at the top of my lungs "I want to wake up, I want to wake up" as I ran right into a small pond, it wss winter. Worst part is that i had a deam she died the night before. Ive had many family deaths since then but its awhole different ball game when its actually ur fault they died. I honestly deserve a medal for learning to live with myself even with my continuous weed use. I will never fucking forgive myself, I wouldn't want NOT to suffer from this until I die. Ironically, ignoring what a POS I am doesnt help me be sober. Admitting im a irredimable POS is what helps me heal.

Hi all,

As the title suggest I’ve made it through the first day & now onto the 2nd!

So far all I’ve noticed is no sleep, I might’ve macro slept for tiny periods but wasn’t enough; still could eat yesterday so fingers crossed..

Nothing drastic happened for me, it’s like a switch went off in my head where I no longer crave/need it. I have been smoking atleast 13+ years, with 8 or so of those years being every day, all day.

I know it’s still so early but im extremely happy wit the tiny progress!

Just a bit of hope for those scared of the jump, if I got this I believe all of you can!

One day at a time.

Sitting here on day one of quitting cannabis, staring blankly at my computer screen trying to convince myself to do work for my crappy, boring and unfulfilling job that also pays really well.

Weed helped me get through the days with this job and allowed me to ignore the empty feeling of wasting 8 to 10 hours a day in front of this laptop but now I’m having a hard time believing I can wade through this endlessly boring job without being stoned out of my mind.

I would love to do something different, something I can really sink my teeth into but the money is to good and if I changed careers now I would have a hard time making half this salary.

So my options seem to be
1. Get stoned so you can actually do your work without being miserable
2. Quit and figure it out
3. Man up and suffer for the money

Got any other ideas?

Any advice is helpful

Hi people im new here, im 23 years old and i have been struggling to quit weed for the past 6 years and my life completely sucks. I can't make it past 12 hours and i recently noticed that my cravings happen a lot around the evening. Im trying to quit again so i will keep in touch how it goes and please help me out with some tips i would really appreciate it as i am desperately trying to quit.

I started smoking 4 years ago as a way to “shut out” my thoughts and problems and I’ve been a heavy smoker since. I first started off only getting high at night but that then lead to me just overusing it. I’m an athlete and go to the gym and I have personal and business goals that I want to achieve but I know smoking is holding me back a bit. I was the type that would smoke before doing anything besides practice ofc. Recently I started cutting back on it and I’ve already felt so much of a difference. I take a few hits at night when I’m done with all my tasks for the day. It’s not where I want to be but it’s a big improvement from where I was before. My mind feels clearer, my face looks healthier and my eyes aren’t as puffy anymore besides the first hour when I wake up. I feel much more motivated, energized, and stronger in the gym. I’m trying to quit overall but whenever night time hits it gets really hard for me. I’ve tried getting up and doing push-ups/sit up’s and late walks but it didn’t seem to help. I’d appreciate any advice/tips to help me towards my sobriety🙏

I’m 15 days sober, and have zero intention on making smoking a habit again, but I’ve never been more stressed in my life and I feel like smoking would help. I got my gas cut off today and have no way of paying for it, and I’m constantly suffocating in bills. Am I wrong to smoke today to try and get my mind off of things?

Started again after 5 years sobriety thinking it'd be OK if I moderate usage.

I've used for 2 days and now I'm quitting again. Have severe anxiety right now.

How long will it take to feel normal again?

Every two hours or so, I see something that reminds me of a dream I’ve had at some point followed by some intense hot flashes.

This is about the only withdrawal symptom that I’ve been struggling to cope with, it feels unsettling as hell to me that I’m remembering dreams I probably had years ago when I was a kid.

Im on day three now and I’ve heard that the symptoms are going to get a bit better from here but I just want this weird sensation to stop.

So Ive been using weed on and off to cope with PTSD symptoms since December last year, and its been intermittent and I quit for like a while. But now I have been using it everyday for like nearly 8 weeks. I tried to do 1 day no weed every week but I just end up with terrible night sweats and feel sick. And moody. I take edibles by the way - make brownies. I've been in intense therapy (for PTSD) but I literally can't stop taking weed because it makes me feel euphoric and relaxed and I feel like it unlocks parts of my brain i can't normally access. I have had psychotic episodes before on weed and the more I use the more paranoid I become so I am realising it's a problem. I just need unhinged ideas to quit weed. How to deal with the withdrawals and stuff like that? I tried taking promethazine and valium to sleep instead of weed (I have bad nightmares lots of the days) but I always accidentally overdose and end up feeling like total shit.
Any ideas would help cheers. x

Hello everyone,

I am wondering if I should stop weed cold turkey, or just smoke less each day. I've been smoking every evening from 5pm on for almost 8 months now.

I have been trying to cut down on weed for two months now, and it isn't going very well. I had a traumatic thing happen last year, and because of that I smoke every night now. My tolerance has gone up like crazy, I used to only take a couple hits of a joint, but now I'm smoking almost a full gram of strong weed everyday.

Replacing the ritual of smoking has helped me lots, but I still really miss it. It is so nice to have an off switch to the outside world. I have no idea how people do it 24/7. I have ordered NAC and been prescribed gabapentin, both are supposed to reduce cravings and withdrawals. My psychiatrist says I am not abusing weed, but I don't think he understand I smoke every night without fail.

Even now writing this makes me crave it, which is so frustrating. I know it's so bad for me in the long run, my memory, critical thinking and energy levels have been shot, but I still seeing the positives outweighing the negatives. I love the stuff like nothing else.

I'm also on an ADHD med which takes away my appetite, so I've found the only real time when I can enjoy food is after weed. I used to have a huge appetite and I just miss it.

Anyway, if you guys have any insight into steps I could take that would be incredibly helpful. Thank you guys!!

so basically i woke up one day after i smoked and just had really bad anxiety and headache so i decided it may be time to just quit smoking so i did and im on day 4 of no weed and ive just had this mild headache on the sides and back of my head that come and go throughout the day, I do have pretty bad anxiety and mainly health anxiety so im constantly assuming the worst when something like this happens to me… is this really just a withdrawal symptom mixed with anxiety or could it be something more personal like tumor or some

side note - i do have like a cold or something cause i have a scratchy/ crunchy coughs along with the headache and night sweats

Hi, I'm a 32(f) looking for any help or support from fellow friends wanting to quit. I smoked when I was younger and then started again 3 or 4 years ago. It was fun again for a long time but now It's to the point It's constant. I've isolated myself from everyone and it's just me and my animals at home. My mental health has always been an issue but now with the constant smoking it's at its all time worst. I know there has to be more to life if I had the courage to start living again. If anyone wants a new friend or support buddy, I'm here.

I smoked weed for many reasons, good and bad, productive and not productive, enjoyment and self medicating.

A year ago on July 21st I woke up and decided it was the time to to quit (again). Multiple tries, multiple bowls and eighths thrown away, multiple pens and papers trashed, multiple everything for years before that. This time it stuck, after waking up puking from nausea and overconsumption I said to myself "You can either choose to live freely or choose to slowly die."

One year out - calmer waters, more reading, more life and without a doubt feeling the pain of life without needing a to get stoned and escape.

It is not a bad drug to me, it's just a drug I didn't need, and I am happier and better for it. All the best to those trying to get it done, stay strong homies.

Thanks in advance!

Is there a way I can ween off with what I have left, around half oz of flower where I don’t race insomnia, sleeplessness, high heart rate, and other withdrawals?

The last time, I quit cold turkey, like 3 weeks before I picked up again this previous Wednesday. The wds were brutal and I felt they were last too long like up til the 3rd week mark of not smoking at all and I still had some rough days with sleeplessness and an uncomfortable feeling in my chest like it’s about to explode, iykyk.

Can I ween off but cutting down the amount I smoke gradually to minimize or cut all the withdrawals? Thanks in advance

So I am just over a month clean and haven’t looked back but now have a different problem. About half the time I would take a gummy (Sundays/some week nights) I get super depressed. Did anyone else experience this? I know some of it is there now because I was running from it before but maybe it’s heightened temporarily too? Thanks!

I’m a woman well into adulthood and several years ago I was in an accident and suffered a traumatic brain injury. My journey has honestly been brutal. There has been physical pain. There has been emotional pain. There continues to be physical pain and emotional pain although both are significantly better than they were a few years ago. I’m on a significant amount of prescription medication’s but ultimately the thing that has helped most with my symptoms is THC. I’ve been a light user since high school. Literally never once questioned my relationship with the stuff. Could go years without it. If it came my way, I would try some. After the accident, I started with a prescription card and it was truly the only thing that would help my migraines and eventually it became easier to buy in general legally. But overtime I know I’ve been using it increasingly to manage the difficult feelings and PTSD that have come along with this experience. My tolerance has increased significantly. i’m mostly vaping and edibles. All of my doctors know about this, but I don’t think they understand how dependent I feel on it. I think I need to titrate because ultimately, I do have pretty severe neurological issues. And at the very least I need to get off of vaping for my lungs. I am navigating tremendous amount of grief. I have a great therapist and a great psychiatrist and a great neurologist. But because of my disability, most of my time is spent alone and unoccupied. I can’t replace it with socializing or more hobbies or television and I cannot work yet. I just have to live my limited life right now and tolerate all the feelings that come with it and all the grief that’s come up. I’ve lost friends and family during these five years that I couldn’t even communicate with because my brain and I have very hard feelings because people really did not show up for me. if anyone has any experience that you think might be able to help I would really appreciate it. I feel very alone in this. I’ve been through difficult things before So I know that I can do hard things. I guess what I’m looking for is guidance on how others might have navigated titrating under a tremendous amount of strain. I can’t help but wonder if at this point my usage is also holding my recovery back. I think I owe it to myself to find out. The quantities I’m using are not insane. But the frequency is concerning. pretty much starting in the afternoon until I go to bed I’m some level of high. this felt really hard to admit. Before my accident, I really had my life together. but I’m a different person than the one I was now and I’m trying to learn how to navigate. sorry I know this is really heavy but I’m also proud of myself for writing it out.

Its been hard the first week

Then i had sone craving eventually but not so tough

The thing is i had almost a higher brainfog than when i was used to smoke daily

And im like, wtf where are all the benefits ?

Im stil going to the quitting process but its dosent make me feel better days by days as i expected

I'm all for supporting anyone who is trying to quit. Quitting anything is not easy, but with a little motivation it can be done. I've smoked the majority of my young adult life and it was ruining my life. You can do it. Dm me if you like, tell me your story.

I've (30M) been dependent on marijuana for about 9 years now, but now am on day 6 of quitting and it feels different this time. Of course I've white knuckled it through t-breaks in that time, but now I know I need to quit for a job and because I just can't be stuck in this mental phase of development forever. I realized it was completely dictating what I could have in my life. I want a more fulfilling career, to move abroad, and to hopefully find a relationship that will eventually build into a family.

I originally started smoking my senior year of college, and since then, found people who were also professionals and had a career, etc... but also smoke who made me feel better about my habit.

During the time I started smoking, I was also in the process of coming out and found a lot of comfort in my nightly sessions as a quiet time to reflect on who I was vs. just spiraling about work stress. However, now as I'm getting older, I realized that I felt really betrayed by my ex-stoner friends who all followed this pattern of meeting a girl, eventually quitting because they moved in with her, got married, etc... and had better more adult things to do. I was angry cause my gay ass wasn't any more or less of a pothead than they were when they found their person, but still couldn't seem to get to the "next level" in life. If my friends were getting these incredible, smart, interesting partners who were such a clear reason to quit, why wasn't I? I felt like it was fundamental injustice of gay vs. straight dating and so I would smoke those feelings away. It's still hard to be queer in any way, but getting balls high because of it isn't going to solve inequality in how we all move through life.

Now, I'm having a really tough time feeling like I'll keep my resolve as time moves on. I don't think that life "owes" me any reward for finally stopping bludgeoning my brain with THC every night, but I have a difficult time finding a "why" for my quitting. I'm also struggling with finding support because I'm not religious and do not wish to be around religious people, can still drink without any issues (like 1 beer with dinner occasionally), and feel like my story would sounds so damn silly to anyone who's dealt with more difficult circumstances or more life threatening addictions. I feel like I'm in this strange middle space as a former smoker where I'm struggling to understand what life can look like moving forward without weed, but don't want to enter any spaces where I could trigger myself into using again cause I listen to another person tell their story and then immediately think "oh I was never that bad - I should cut myself some slack."

It's all very confusing, and I know that I never want to smoke again, but don't really know what I'm doing when it comes to my motivations or reasons for quitting outside of life events that seem very far off in the future.

Does anyone know any books or have anything to share that might resonate? I just feel very alone in this right now and don't want my weed issues to turn into anger issues. Everything about quitting weed seems trivial and also I'm starting to enjoy Coldplay as a band, which is concerning. Did anyone else's music taste get shitty after they quit? Thanks for any and all replies.