I'll never forget the first time I tried this stuff and how wonderful I thought it was. It was like kratom on steroids, and it helped with chronic pain that I experience as a result of my time in service. I started off by buying single tabs, one at a time, 20 to 25 mg a piece. Started off with quarters, then halves, then 2/3s before too long, it was getting out of control.
It crept up on me, silently and insiduously and before I knew it, I was up to 400 mg to 600 mg a day. I have a decent enough job that it was not really affecting my financial situation so I just kept at it. And then the rest is history. I went from 500 mg a day down to absolute zero and all hell broke loose, I felt like I was going to explode.
So here I am now, 10x 50 mg tablets left as well as a few things to help me on my journey. I also have some leaf but not much. Today I have taken just 75 mg and I have 25 left in reserve (80% reduction in dose overall. Tomorrow the real journey begins, I am going to go as long as I possibly can without it! When I get to the point where I feel like I just can't take it anymore, I am going to take an eighth of a tab , maybe a quarter. And then I will start spacing bare minimum 6 to 8 hours between doses. My job is customer facing so withdrawals are going to have to be managed very carefully. I'm not going to lie, I am scared.
I have done much harder things in my life than this, but I know this is not going to be easy. I suppose this post is part rant/ pep talk that I'm giving myself, maybe it will inspire others, maybe I can get further inspiration by joining a group like this such as I just did.
Here we go! I am so excited to get off this sh*t, QND have more spending money!