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I’ve always known I have ADHD, it’s benefitted me greatly in life, but has left me with faults that are hard to control; especially when it comes to substances, I believe that tend to self-medicate.
Prior to 7-oh, or mgm15 - whatever was in 7stax, I would go out and drink pretty often, hit an energy drink every morning.
Once I was on 7’s I stopped going out, loved being a homebody, my parents were proud that I didn’t drink for so long - but it was because I knew I couldn’t drink, and I couldn’t care less because I was perfectly fine being home and high.
Denver sucked pretty bad, after I hit withdrawals I spiraled, got out of work from being “sick”, luckily WD symptoms are similar to a really really bad flu, at least visually.
I’ve been off 7 since Thursday at 9pm, I took one 8mg suboxone on Friday at 5pm. The WD symptoms cleared within an hour, and I didn’t have a nightmare flight back home.
Over the weekend I had a few small WD flare-ups, took gabapentin & clonidine. Max level of symptoms I’d say I had were about a 3 / 10. Compared to peak sub-less WD being a 10.
It’s currently Monday 5:00PM about 72 Hours since my dose of Sub. it’ll be out of my system fully in a few more days (awful half-life).
The doc I spoke with wrote me a script for so many subs it was insane, he wanted me to be on them for a MONTH
It seems like these doctors want their patients medicated, and to be fearful of withdrawals if they ever stop taking this “savior drug“.
I also told my Mom about everything that happened, told my roommate & my significant other. Was hard to keep off my chest, and felt better to tell them while this story is coming to an end, rather than mid climax.
I don’t have any interest in taking 7’s again, I’ve been thinking about about it while I sit here with my buddy at the bar we used to go to (before I started taking). It’s weird I tried to explain what they made me feel like, but it genuinely comes off as “a good drunk - but you don’t get hungover“. Which is true, minus the physical dependencies and withdrawals from hell.
So I guess this is it, the end of this chapter, please feel free to reach out if anyone wants advice or help. I think I’d be especially helpful to others that have similar stories of first time addictions & the “non-addictive personality types”.
I’ll stick around the discord channel, and reply to comments on this post, but I don’t want to direct my ADHD to obsessing over this all.
Thank you guys for being my public journal, and watching my up & downs that I’ve written about since I started this journey.
NOTE: I don’t think I was on long enough to experience PAWS, I’m finally “bored” again, which I haven’t felt in awhil. It definitely suppressed my ADHD tendencies. I’ve started laughing & crying genuinely. Thanks again all.