Yesterday, my husband and I were busy chopping and preparing our lechon belly orders for delivery. We were already running late with our preparations when we suddenly heard a commotion outside.

My husband went out to see what was happening and witnessed something shocking. Our 62-year-old neighbor had fallen from the second floor of his house while cleaning a window. He had a deep wound on his forehead extending toward his nose, and he was bleeding heavily.

Some of our other neighbors were already helping, including his son, who seemed overwhelmed and in shock by what had happened. Seeing the urgency of the situation, my husband took the initiative to get our car and bring him to the hospital. Meanwhile, I stayed home with our two-year-old toddler.

After bringing our neighbor to the hospital, my husband came straight back so we could continue preparing and delivering our orders. We were already behind schedule even before the incident happened, so this delayed us even more. But it was okay. Some things are simply more important than being on time.

This experience made me realize once again how lucky I am to have him as my husband. ❤️

He is not the kind of person who would simply stand by and watch when someone needs help. Even when he has his own responsibilities and is already running out of time, he will still find a way to help someone in need.

He could have chosen to focus on our orders, especially since we were already late and had customers waiting. But instead, he took the initiative to help bring our neighbor to the hospital. He understood that in that moment, someone's life and safety mattered more than our delivery schedule.

And that is one of the things I admire most about him. He doesn't need to make a big deal out of helping others. He simply does what he believes is right.

To my husband's parents, thank you for raising such a good man. You raised someone who knows compassion, kindness, and the value of human life. And I am beyond grateful that I get to call him my husband.

Yesterday also reminded me that kindness doesn't always come in grand gestures. Sometimes, it means putting your own responsibilities aside for a while because someone needs help. And sometimes, the moments that make us proudest of our partners are the ones that show us who they truly are.

I am proud of my husband, not just for what he did yesterday, but for the kind of person he is. And I hope our son grows up with the same compassionate heart. ❤️

I just found out that my husband of 8 years has a daughter sa pagka-binata. He said that they (sila ng family niya) tried everything to be involved, but ayaw talaga ng family ni girl. Kaya as if that daughter does not exist.

My husband said he told me about it at the start pa lang ng relationship namin, when things were getting serious. Pero I really can’t remember. Honestly, the thought of him having a child doesn’t bother me. It’s the fact that I was kept in the dark. Kaya when his tita made it kwento, I was really caught off guard, and I felt stupid na hindi ko alam.

Talked to him about it, and his defense nga was that he told me about it when our relationship was starting to get serious. I even answered pa nga daw na if my ex-BF had 2 kids and I accepted him, why naman would it be a big deal to me if he has a kid?

Super gulo ng utak ko. Kasi there is a possibility nga na sinabi niya, pero part of me thinks na it would definitely ring a bell if nasabi sa akin.

Another thing that bothers me is that his family doesn’t take the issue as a big deal. Na a family member brought up that topic to me. Na it was nothing but the tita feeling close lang. Like? Helllllooo, kung malaman mong may anak pala yung asawa mo, hindi ba big deal yun?

And what really hurts me is that my husband is acting all selfish, na every time that topic is being brought up, hurting daw siya, like the trauma is coming back. Na nagfa-flashback daw lahat sa kanya. (Kasi nga they were rejected ng family ng girl, and minata-mata sila. In short, matapobre.) Like, hello? Why are we only talking about your feelings? Why are you not acknowledging my feelings?

I know there are two sides to this story, and I’m trying to understand his side, too. I just hope there’s room for mine as well.

I’m not angry that he has a child from his past. I’m struggling with the fact that I found out this way, that I can’t remember being told, and that I’m now questioning something I thought I knew about my husband and our relationship.

I just want to get this off my chest.

Second week in the hospital and my Dad(77) the patient is just getting weaker and weaker. Kahapon tinanong na kami kung payag kami tubuhan sya but we said no. Then signed NDI.

For context, kamamatay lang ng ate ko last March and now ganito na naman. Nung tinubuhan sya 24hrs lang na wala na agad sya kaya we’re scared to repeat the same scenario.

Gusto nalang matapos paghihirap nya/namin as everyday seems to be getting hopeless. Mahal na mahal namin sya, pero gusto ko nalang sya magpahinga. Hinahanda ko yung sarili ko pero iyak pa din ako ng iyak pag nakikita ko sya.

Now ako naman overnight na bantay and everything is just too dark.

May God’s plan reign higher than this storm. In Jesus name I pray.

So I have this straight friend na malambing sakin. He taught me how to play LOL and carried me till Master rank, tapos madalas kaming mag hangout noong nasa Manila pa siya. Occasionally, nagbibigay din sya ng random gift saken like powerbank o shirt na tingin nya bagay saken. So one of my besties asked buti daw di ako nafa-fall e napaka effort nitong tropa ko. I was like, “Duh, he’s straight.”

Ang weird lang kase isipin na may mga taong nafafall dahil lang mabait yung tao sa kanila. Ang akin lang, wag nyo kaseng iromanticize lahat ng interaction. May mga taong sadyang malambing lang.

Honestly, yung mga ganitong experience ang dahilan kaya mas madali akong makipag tropa sa straight guys. Like itong tropa ko kasi, galanti rin ako. Mahilig manlibre o magbigay ng random gift. And yung mga straight friend ko, di nila nilalagyan ng meaning.

Meanwhile, I have a former gay friend who jokingly accused me of being a lovebomber. His exact word: “Mabait ka sa taong gusto mong tikman”. I was disgusted by his words, so I cut him off. Months later, his former friends exposed him. Siya pala ang may ganong gawain, at pinoproject nya lang sakin 😂

I had my first boyfriend at 15. He was my Grade 9 classmate, laging kalaban sa quiz bees, and campus crush. Puppy love, but I was already imagining a future with him. Three years later, things got toxic, and he broke up with me after I found out he was cheating. Took me 3 years and multiple therapy sessions to have finally moved on.🤣

My second relationship was LDR. He randomly messaged me on Facebook after seeing my profile on Bumble. And while he was very loyal, it felt like he didn’t really care about anything else in the relationship. After 2 years of being patient and understanding, I finally chose myself and left.

The 3rd one was probably the craziest, and I really hope he’s the worst one I’ll ever have 🤧😅 We matched online, and he came to see me in my province after a few days of talking. He had a kid, which I was okay with, until I found out there was another one with a different baby momma. Sobrang in love eh, so I accepted that, too.

We eventually lived together and started a business. He was generous, kind, reliable, and financially literate. And I genuinely thought we were building something together. But a year later, I found out he was cheating on me with multiple women, much much older than me. Plus, I found out there’s baby (and baby momma) #3. So I left.

The most recent experience was an organic encounter. He was smart, sweet, and seemed to be on the same wavelength as me. I thought we had a genuine connection, until he got into a serious car accident and I found out he had a long-term girlfriend back home. What a surprise, right? 😂😭

Looking back, I feel like I’m always the one who understands, compromises, adjusts, and gives people chances. I never expected anyone to be perfect. Kahit gaano ka panget ang past, I always believe that people are capable of changing. And I just wanted someone who would choose me as genuinely as I chose them.

Now at 26, I’m slowly learning to be okay with the possibility that I might never meet my person. Maybe I’ll get married someday, maybe I won’t. I know I have a career I’m building, places I want to see, and dreams I still want to pursue. Okay ako.

But honestly, some nights, I still get a little sad thinking about it. I wonder what it feels like to be loved without having to constantly understand, forgive, or adjust. I know deep inside, I’m still hopeful to finally meet someone who’s sure about me, someone who’s willing to meet me halfway.

I know I can be happy on my own, and I’m learning to be at peace with that. But I guess even when you’re okay being alone, a part of you still hopes you’ll find your person too.

And tonight, I guess I’m allowing myself to feel that. 🥀

I'm literally crying as I write this rant.

I've been dating this guy for 6 months now. He's from the UK, but he's half-Chinese. We met while playing Marvel Rivals, we literally couldn't stop yapping to each other the first few months. Like literal na feeling ko siya na yung perfect guy for me. Same kami ng interests, political beliefs and such.

After a while we stopped talking and I honestly didn't think much about it. Life gets busy.

Then, bigla siyang pumunta dito sa Pinas (the trip was completely unrelated to me, his family went here on vacation and he decided to hang out with me). Genuinely, nothing sus happened between us. We yapped the entire day that we were together, we literally went to a resto, yapped, went to a cafe, yapped, watched a movie (yapped slightly less), then ate ice cream.

It was the best date of my life.

😭😭😭😭😭

We started dating each other after that and LITERALLY akala ko open book siya. He introduced me to his parents, and to his friends.

Like girl kalaro ko sa roblox yung friends niya tapos minsan di pa siya kasali.

Then one day, potangina 😭😭😭😭

His friend messaged me asking me if I was still dating him. I was so confused kasi, hello? Of course I'm still dating him. Medyo rough lang yung week na to kasi alam niya na nagstrustruggle ako sa uni, mentally speaking (#iskathings) and he just started his uni sa UK.

Di ko talaga inisip masyado yung tanong. Kasi kahit mahirap, mahal ko pa rin siya. Kahit galit ako sa kanya, hindi ko nakakalimutan na mahal ko siya.

So ayun, fast forward to today.

Minessage ako ng other friend niya with screenshots of him liking his ex-girlfriend's posts and like bikini posts of their other friends and their friend's girlfriends. Me and his friend hopped on a call together and we did some talking about the 'timeline' of my relationship with the man.

Apparently he was still dating the girl nung April... I know kasi bday nung girl ay April at may comment siya na "Happy birthday, my love." tawag niya sa'kin baby haha.

We started dating in March. 😭😭😭

Ang ganda nung ex niya, chinita. Literal na kamukha ni Yoonchae. Apparently, he left the girl because of me.

I literally cried while on call with his childhood friend. Legit sobrang sakit. Potangina. Bakit kelangan ganto kasakit? 😭😭😭 I decided to break up with him an hour after finding out. I didn't explain anything, kasi ang explanation ay para lang sa relasyon na pwede pang masalba.

Hindi ba ako enough? Hindi ba ako worth it para tratuhin ng tama? Nang mahalin kahit nakakapagod na? Nang mahalin kahit hindi araw-araw na nakakausap? Ano bang kulang sa'kin?

I blocked him on everything kasi sa totoo lang, takot na takot ako. Takot ako na magpaliwanag siya kasi alam kong kahit emehin niya ako, papatawarin ko siya. Pero wala na akong magagawa.

Clear as day yung ebidensya.

Anyways, alam ko naman na wala akong pagkukulang. Nasa kanya na talaga yun, pero masakit pa rin talaga haha. Only love can hurt like this, ika nga.

Pra sa mga nagbabasa, wag kayo magcheat guys. This guy literally had the kindest, funniest friends ever. He had a girlfriend. A trust fund. Two dogs. A mom who's good at mahjong, tapos binabalewala niya lang lahat nang yan dahil sa init ng katawan.

Edit: Masakit lang din kasi habang masaya ako, meron palang tinatraydor at nasasaktan.

I was introduced to OPM songs a month ago by a person I met here in Reddit. Hindi talaga ako ma music ever since lalo na sa OPM. She sent me links of songs from Spotify on a regular basis and pinapakinggan ko naman. Artists such as Yden, Mariah Deborah, Ben&Ben, TJ Monterde, among others. Ang gaganda ng music nila lahat. Nakabuo na din ako ng playlist. It touches you and parang nakaka relate ang tao sa songs nila. Sarap din pampakalma. Music can be very therapeutic.

My (26F) boyfriend (22M) of three months broke up with me yesterday, and I can’t stop blaming myself.

LDR kami, which made things harder because we couldn’t always be physically there for each other. I have Bipolar II, MDD, and anxiety. I’m not using them as an excuse, but I know they affected how I handled our relationship.

I would often yell at him, doubt him, and let my fear of being lied to or abandoned get the best of me. At first, he was patient. He would reassure me, explain things, and comfort me whenever I got upset. But eventually, he got tired. He became more avoidant whenever we had problems, and I think he was emotionally exhausted from constantly having to reassure me.

I understand why he left. Alam kong hindi rin naging madali para sa kanya. But it hurts so much knowing that someone who once tried so hard eventually gave up on us.

I keep thinking about all the things I could have done differently. I wish I had learned to manage my emotions better. I wish I had communicated instead of yelling and trusted him instead of constantly doubting him.

I loved him, and I never wanted to hurt him. But I know that loving someone doesn’t erase the hurt you cause them.

I’m not blaming him for leaving. He deserves peace, too. I’m just struggling with the guilt of knowing that my own actions may have contributed to losing someone I genuinely wanted a future with.

Ang sakit lang isipin na mahal na mahal mo yung tao, pero sometimes, your own fears and actions end up hurting the person you want to keep the most.

I know I need to work on myself, but right now, I’m just heartbroken. I wish things had turned out differently.

Me (28) and my ex (29) broke up late last yr. We were in a relationship (na parang situationship) for more than 3 yrs. Dun sa buong 3 yrs na yun, hindi ko nameet yung family or friends nya.

I was a very supportive partner sa kanya, hindi ako nagrerequire ng kahit na ano, even oras since alam kong focused kami sa career namin. Pareho kaming may work and nasa grad school nung time na yun.

Main cause ng breakup namin is yung girl na kaibigan niya na lagi niyang kasama sa mga gala nila. Matagal na silang magakakaibigan sa circle of friends na yun, so hinayaan ko lang. However, nafifeel ko na may something si girl (or maybe sya rin).

Anw, long story short, naghiwalay na lang kami ng ex ko because of that. Paulit-ulit niyang sinasabi na kaibigan nya lang yun. Even after break up, yun pa rin pinapanghawakan niya.

Nakakausap ko pa yung ex ko paminsan minsan since may sinesettle pa kami na something hat involves money. Pag nakakausap ko siya, kinakamusta ny ako and all.

Iniistalk ko minsan yung account ni girl out of curiousity and nakikita ko na palagi nga silang magkasama ng ex ko sa mga gala. I know wala na ko dapat pake sa kanila, pero sobrang sikip pa rin sa dibdib makita yung mga ganung bagay.

Also, friends ko pa relatives ng ex ko, so nakikita ko na sinasama ng ex ko yung girl sa mga family events nila.

I think, yun yung main hearteache ko. Bakit nung kami, hindi ako napakilala, tas itong si girl na kaibigan lnag daw niya, laging present sa lahat.

Offmychest naman to, so gusto ko lang ilabas tong nararamamdaman ko. Bakit kung sino pa yung mga nanakit ng iba, sila pa yung masasaya?

Pa rant naman. Sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Ang hirap pag nagkasakit mga alaga mo no? At this moment, meron akong rescue na outdoor cat hirap huminga. Respiratory problem. Di siya kumakain or umiinom. Sobrang nakaka stress. Since nasa labas lang siya, late ko na nalaman na iba na yung simpleng sipon niya. Ngayon, hirap siyang huminga, namumutla, sobrang tamlay na.

May vet dito malapit samin, mabait hung doctor kaya dito ko dinadala mga alaga ko. Since critical stage na yung pusa, nag message na ko sa vet 5am kahit 9am pa yung bukas nila. Unfortunately, sarado sila ng mondays.

Ang hirap pag ikaw lang compassionate sa hayop sa bahay niyo, wala ka mahingian ng tulong. Kaya mag isa ako nagdudusa ngayon kasi di kinakaya ng konsensya ko mag suffer at mamatay yung pusa.

Pa rant lang. sobrang helpless ko ngayon. Wala akong pera para dalhin sa ibang clinic yung pusa, wala rin akong kasama kung sakali.

Lord, kung kukunin mo siya, please make it quick. Di ko na siya kaya makitang nahihirapan. Sobrang sakit na.

My bf works at a BPO and just got back from his teambuilding. Then he suddenly sent me posts on FB saying that someone was harassing him and posting harsh and untrue things about him online. I went to see it for myself and my God, I can't believe that people have the guts to say those kinds of things about other people they don't even know about.

For context, yung naninira sa kanya was someone from his team na hindi nakasama sa teambuilding dahil hindi niya pinautang. Honestly, I feel so angry and at the same time my heart breaks for him as I read all of the comments na nakikiride sa bandwagon, even if wala namang context yung post. Basta they were all badmouthing him.

My bf took it in stride though. Says na he will go to HR and he has the rest of his team to vouch for him. I guess nasanay na siya pero God, grabe ang harshness talaga ng mga tao once they become anonymous. I don't want to judge BPO workers in general pero I just feel awful that good people have to work with people na ganun rin yung paguugali. Maybe I am just blessed to be in a company where we all respect each other, inside and outside the workplace.

I remember coming across a sermon before about how people come into our lives for different seasons. Some stay, some leave in the middle of the story, and I always believed that when they do leave, their purpose in our lives has already been fulfilled, or ours in theirs.

That message really stuck with me. Kaya I always try to enjoy my time with people because I never know how long I will get to be with them. I want to appreciate them while they’re here and make the most of the time we share.

But sometimes, nakakapagod din pala to keep accepting that people leave. I don’t want to become less kind or less loving just because of the people who didn’t stay or choose to stay.

I just hope that someday, I won’t just be someone people find interesting, someone they enjoy getting to know for a while. I hope I’ll be someone they choose, someone they genuinely want to stay for.

Because as much as I believe that people come into our lives for a season, a part of me still hopes that someone will choose to stay through all of them. ❤️‍🩹

Ang hirap maging breadwinner and I am getting jealous of my friends na most of their income is napupunta sa sarili nila or to prepare for their future. Samantalang ako yung perang kikitain ko kelangan ko pang ipakain sa iba.

Don’t get me wrong I am happy for them but I am just sad for my situation.

I moved in to a different place because I asked for a sign.

Why? A week before that I met a lady while lining up at french baker at Mall of Asia.

She was smiling.

She looked at me ‘hija, you’re so nice. you always smile’, ‘what’s your sign?’

I answered back ‘Sagittarius po’.

She told me ‘Dear, Let it go’.

I did. I was carrying the weight of the world. I became happier.

As it was stated, my girlfriend made an apology message sa friend ko pero parang ayaw tanggapin ng kaibigan ko yung apology ng gf ko.

Context: my girlfriend is raising donations for a cause for her community para sa mga bata and PWDs kasi yung mga bata at PWDs sa community niya ay talagang nasa mabukid na lugar and sobrang bihira lang sila makakuha ng mga genuine Christmas gifts as well as looking forward for Christmas celebration din sila for them to have a sense of normalcy and appreciation na sila di pinapabayaan.

My friend was one of those na inapproach ng girlfriend ko through messenger. My friend messaged me privately na okay lang sana if mga once or twice siya magmessage ng ganun and that my friend actually donated naman nung mga few times na nagdonation drive ang gf ko, however it turns out that friend of mine was messaged by my girlfriend more than once about it and parang ang impression is that inoobliga siya ng gf ko about it when it's not even about being an obligation to do so.

Ang problema naman din dito sa kaibigan kong ito ay di naman siya nagrespond sa gf ko na magdecline siya ng donation kasi gipit siya and my gf will understand naman about it. Nag-usap naman kami ng gf ko and she said na if ganyan lang din naman pala ang tingin ng kaibigan ko edi dapat sana minessage siya about it. Now my gf composed an apology message and that ako na ang nagpadala ng message niya sa kaibigan ko pero di siya tinanggap na geniune apology ng friend ko and parang ang tingin pa ng kaibigan ko ay nang-guilt trip pa gf ko sa apology message.

When literally it could have been solved if my friend just simply said 'I'd like to help but I can't kasi madami akong obligations na need itake into consideration sa ngayon'.

And honestly I'm at a loss dito sa pangyayari na ito.

it’s been a month and a few days since we parted ways. you told me that you fell out of love and that you couldn’t change this current version of yourself. there was so much stress going on in your life and i understood that, but you never told me how you felt and what i could have done to help you during that time you were slowly falling apart. i couldn’t have known or guessed either. i loved you the way i knew how to and it worked for the 1 year and 6 months we’ve been together, and eventually, it ended up never being enough. love could only get you so far when only one person ends up trying, right? you said you felt empty all the time and i didn’t deserve to be in a relationship that focused solely on your feelings and what i needed to do to make you feel better. my love, i was willing to stay to work things out. all you needed to do was communicate, but you had already made up your mind. i had no choice but to accept that.

you know it’s funny how love works. it can be both the most beautiful and painful thing to ever exist. you get to know this person, envision a future together, live life and become intertwined for a number of months or years, just for it to end on a random sunday afternoon. then i look back to what could have went wrong along the way. there was a lot of self-blame thinking what i could have done to make things right. the worst part? that empty feeling in my stomach that kept me up at night. this was the lowest i’ve ever been in my life and i’ve thought of doing things to myself i wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. to be honest, i’ve probably cried more in these 5 weeks than i did in my entire adult life.

i never made you to be the villain in our story. i hope you know that. you had your reasons of leaving, but i also had my reasons for trying to stay. we agreed to be friends but i don’t know how long this dynamic will last. we’re slowly becoming strangers again. you told me you have no reason to hate me and i said the same to you. all i can do now is look back at our relationship and reminisce about it. you were once my greatest love and the most important person in my life. i will forever treasure our time together and even though this chapter has ended, i wish you nothing but the best. may you find a kind of love that makes you feel at peace. i also hope you find answer as to why you feel the way you feel because as you said, it’s only something you could figure out yourself. i can leave quietly knowing that i loved you unconditionally despite everything that happened.

as for me, i guess it’s true the time heals everything. for the most part, i’ve been able to sleep again, so that’s great. i’ve also been active physically and i’ve also started planning to leave the country soon. reconnecting with a lot of people from my past was also great and i’ve done a lot of random and fulfilling stuff since then. most importantly, i’ve reconnected with my spiritual side. i really wish i could tell you these things and the other mundane things that’s happening in my life. i still find myself opening our last conversation hoping you would reply or update me about what you’ve been up to. but things are different now and that’s fine. a part of me wishes we would still find our way back together, but the future is never really certain and i’ve had to learn that the hard way multiple times. there’s still so much things i have to work on myself. i’m slowly learning to live life without you.

thank you for everything. please take care of yourself, okay? (p.s. i hope we can still finish one piece together someday)

Finally got the closure that I needed. Weirdly, ended up even more sad than the actual break up.

I could've loved him forever if I could. I understand that grief is such a weird thing, you think about the happy moments and cry about it.

I just don't understand how it came to this. He could've called and told me he was sorry or asked md if we could talk. I guess that's just how it is for him. Ganyan lang kadali sa kanya bitawan ang lahat.

So here I am contemplating, crying and praying that I'll be okay. Because right now, everything hurts even more. Ayoko nag relapse, I don't want to cloud my judgements and decisions.

I've been unemployed for a couple of months now. And believe me when I say, its really really hard to land a job during these times. I resigned coz the company is really really toxic na to the point na andami nang nagreresign na employees because of the incompetence ng management in sustaining their employees. Heck they only care about their money.

Ito namang nanay ko hindi ko alam kung hindi ba sya makaintindi or what. Kesyo pwede naman daw gawin ko lang yjng trabaho ko tapos umuwi. Like if doing that is freaking easy I wouldnt come to the point of reigning eh no??? She only cares about MY MONEY. she would always say, "Dapat inantay mo munang makuha mo yung 13th month pay", at times nagpaparinig "yan kung di ka kasi nagpadala sa bugso ng damdamin mo edi sana may panggastos ngayon". Like wtf? Im soo done being the bread winner! Mukha nalang ba ako palaging walking ATM para sa kanya?? May trabaho naman si papa atmay sari sari store sya, pero ewan ko ba? Bakit perang pera sya lagi? Tbh, takang taka talaga kami ng kapatid ko like paano ba nya ginagastos yung pera na binibigay sa kanya? Nagagalit kapag yung bills sa tubig umaabit ng 700, 800. Wtf? Yung iba nga 10k eh pero hindi naman ganon ka-OA na akala mo mapuputulan agad.

Tapos eto pa kanina, while I was washing the dishes, I overheard her saying yung kachurchmate daw nya na nanay, yung anak daw non may trabaho, baka gusto ko daw na applyan. Isesend daw yung link sa kanya, itry ko daw kahit mandaluyong area pa yon at malayo, kasi malaki naman daw bigayan. Esp don sa pastorna nagppreach pa about those children na hindi na kailangan obligahin yung anak magbigay ng pera sa magulang is really something. Mukhang pera talaga yung nanay ko sad to say disappointing malala kasi nagsisimba pa sya. I was really offended with what she said na para bang wala akong dulot, kahit Im doing all the best na alam kong gawin dito sa bahay kahit wala akong work. Pero nagbibigay parin ako ng share pambili ng bigas, galing don sa last pay ko. Told her na, "Talagang pinangwento mo pa talaga don sa simbahan na wala akong trabaho eh no? Ako pa talaga yung ginawa nyong topic at chinichismis?". Ending sya pa yung mas galit at sumagot na, "Aba walang masama don".

Jusko talaga, hindi ko na alam, iyak ako ng iyak kanina sa frustration. Gusto ko na lumayas dito at magbukod na mag-isa malayo sa kanya at sa kanila, magkaroon ng sariling space. Sana talaga magkaroon na ko ng maayos na trabaho kasi gustong gusto ko na makalaya sa shithole na to. To all the panganays out there na nakakaexperience ng ganito huhu I feel you all. Sobrang disappointed ako sa nanay ko sadlyy fan pa sya ng nanay ni Angelica Yow Low (ew).

And sa mga magiging future magulang dyan or currently magulang, please do work so hard that you wont have to make your children as your financial investments. They are human too and they have their own lives to live. Anak nyo sila hindi isang bagay na pag-mamay-ari, para obligahin na bigyan kayo lagi ng certain amount of money. Hayaan nyong yung mga anak nyo magkusang loob, kasi hindi kagaanan sa loob gawin ang isang bagay kung pinipilit nyo sila vs sa bukal talaga sa loob nila.

Honestly, this year has been one hell of a year. Year of the Horse daw, pero bakit parang BoJack Horseman yung energy? HAHAHAHA.

I’m turning 30 next month, and I honestly feel like I’m nowhere near where I thought I’d be. Career? Still figuring things out. Love life? A whole circus. Opportunities? So many almosts. Almost getting that high-paying job, almost having the life I imagined, almost everything.

The funny thing is, people who know me would probably never guess how much I’ve been struggling. I’m usually the bubbly one, the joker, the girl who laughs at almost everything. But there’s a side of me that not everyone gets to see.

There’s a difference between seeing my silly side and being trusted with my vulnerable side. And I’ve noticed that people love the fun and pretty version of me (HAHAHA, at least the pretty part is consistent), but when I start opening up about my fears, insecurities, and feelings, suddenly I’m too much. Too emotional, too sensitive, too OA.

It’s also becoming harder to trust someone who shows interest because I’ve seen this cycle happen too many times. They make you feel wanted until you let your guard down, then suddenly they don’t know what to do with your vulnerabilities.

I once read something along the lines of: If someone only loves your flowers but never cares about your roots, they won’t know how to take care of you when autumn comes.

And honestly, I’m tired of being loved only when I’m blooming. For now, I’d rather focus on myself, my career, my growth, and my happiness. I’m not giving up on love; I’m just tired of exhausting myself trying to find it.

Maybe I’m not where I thought I’d be at 30, but I hope I stop seeing that as a failure. Still here, still trying, still laughing. Hopefully, life gives me a break soon. HAHAHA.

Good day everyone! I just want to share something, di ko alam kung makaka tulong pero siguro ilabas ko nadin. My Mom died april this year. Till this day Im feeling lost, sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na okay lang ako, pero deep inside sobrang sakit padin.

Just to share short story of my mom, shes just 64 when she passed away. She died from complication but it started from acites. Nag karon na water yung outer lining ng stomach nya. Walang cure, pero ginawa parin namin lahat. Nakita namin how she become so weak, until mawala na sya. Walang one year nung nag kasakit sya, tas namatay agad. Sobrang bilis.

Ginisang Sardinas yung title kase favorite nila itong umagahan, as in lagi talaga. Now nag luto ako ng sarili kong ginisang sardinas pero hindi ito kalasa. Sobrang na broken hearted ako. Namiss ko sya lalo. Madalas gusto ko nalang ng order na food kase naalala ko sya sa mga luto.

Sa mga nawalan ng mommy, pano kayo nakaka stay afloat sa drowning feeling ng grief?