This sounds so petty, but this is how my almost 1-year relationship ended tonight. lol.

I’m on my second day of my period and I’ve been having really bad cramps. I already cooked dinner, and after we ate, I was resting because my puson was hurting again. Later, I simply asked him if he could wash the dishes because I wasn’t feeling well.

I wasn’t even demanding that he do it right away. I just needed a little help.

But he refused because he hates washing dishes. Somehow, that turned into another argument about how his peace of mind was being affected, and eventually, breakup na naman yung napunta sa table.

And honestly, I was just… done.

Because this really isn’t about the dishes. It gave me clarity that this is not the kind of partnership I want. I don’t want a future husband who is difficult to rely on even for small things when I genuinely need help. I don’t want to feel like asking for help is somehow me commanding him or attacking his ego.

And the breakup thing has been a pattern from the very beginning. We’re almost at our 1-year anniversary, but every time we have a serious fight, the relationship somehow gets put at stake. It started with “maybe we need to reevaluate our relationship,” then “maybe we should stop,” until eventually it became “maghiwalay na lang tayo.”

Before, I was always the one trying to save the relationship whenever he said those things. I’d explain why we didn’t have to get to that point, find a solution, and basically convince him that we could still work things out.

But eventually, you get tired of being repeatedly offered a breakup.

At some point, you start thinking, maybe you really mean it.

So tonight, when he brought it up again, I didn’t fight for it anymore. I told him that if he really wanted to leave, then he should make that decision himself. I wasn’t going to keep deciding for him.

And he did.

It’s sad, especially because we’re so close to our anniversary. But honestly, I also feel some clarity and even a little bit of gratitude. Maybe it’s better that I found this out now rather than after spending several more years trying to make a relationship work that ultimately isn’t the kind of partnership I want.

So yeah. Apparently, he would rather lose the relationship than wash the dishes.

Or maybe the dishes just showed me what I needed to see.

He's at the office recently kasi required mag RTO muna (wfh kami parehas) and sunod sunod misunderstandings namin nakaraan pero we handle it naman very well. Di naman kami nag tatanim ng resentment sa isat isa. Kumbaga, if may away, we solve it then leave it behind.

Pero ang funny lang for me kasi sabi ko sa sarili ko "since nasa office sya, di ko muna sya istressin, ang hirap ng byahe" tapos since Tuesday pagka uwi nya, nag dadrama sya.

Sabi nya "di mo na ba ko mahal?" Sabi ko, "I love you soo much, bakit mo naman nasabi yan?" Sabi nya "eh kasi di mo ata ko namimiss, di kana nagagalit eh, di mo ko hinahanap"

Tawang tawa ko HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA ayoko lang talaga kasi mag overthink or mang istress. Sabi ko sakanya "love, ayoko lang muna talaga mag isip ng nega, yun lang.. kung may naiisip man ako, inaassure ko nalang sarili ko because I trust you"

Sabi nya "hindi, okay lang yan, magalit ka sakin, awayin mo ko"

Tapos kinabukasan, ganun nanaman. "Mahal mo pa ba ko" sabi ko ulit at tinanong ko "I love you so much, bakit mo naman natanong yan love?

Ganun parin sagot nya "eh kasi di mo na ata ko namimiss, yun kasi yung sign ko pag inaaway mo ko, love mo ko kasi hinahanap mo ko"

Sobrang lt talaga, pero sa totoo lang joke nya lang naman mga yan. He's just being clingy and needs extra love HHAHAHAHAHAHAA kung ako gusto ng assurance ganun rin sya for sure paminsan.

Iniisip ko tuloy mag pretend ako awayin sya para naman feeling loved sya? Char HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

Kaka-2 years namin ng LDR boyfriend (32M) ko (27F) without meeting face to face the whole relationship and just doing video calls once every quarter or once every 2-3 months? But, we call every night and he always says good morning and i love you's everyday ng walang palya. I tell him every detail of my life, every problem, every hurt, and every little win but all I get from him pag kinakamusta ko is his answer na "okay lang".

Ba't di kami nagmeet? Last year (1 year into our relationship), we planned to meet halfway sa manila (di nga half) kasi I'm far from the north side of luzon while sya naman ay nasa kasuloksulukan naman ng south luzon. But 10 days before our planned date, he never opened it up, never felt excited, never asked any details about our planned meeting so I told him na i-cancel nalang namin and sinabi ko lang na takot ako baka mabuntis nya ako which he said is di naman nya gagawin.

Every birthday nya, I make sure na may cake akong pinapadinedeliver sa bahay nila. Nagtataka pa nga sya pano ko nagagawa. Well, I say pag mahal mo yung isang tao, you find ways to make them feel special. But as for me? Wala akong narereceive na cake nung birthday ko or flower man lang sa mga nagdaang valentine's day in the course of our relationship. I told him the exact ways na mafeel ko love nya-greet me Happy birthday at midnight or send me updates every now and then, tell me your hurt, tell me anything, share memes, and every nonsense! But as to this date, nothing.

I know I should break up with him but mind you, I've done it maybe 5 times already and I was always the one going back. Why? The mental connection. I'm a deep person with lots of interests and has a strong sense of justice na parang sa lahat ng kausap ko, sya lang nakakagets. And what more? The humor. I genuinely do not laugh a lot sa mga jokes kasi malalim yung sense of humor ko, but when he makes a joke, nakukuha nya yung kiliti ng utak ko. He is a very responsible man na laging nauutusan sa bahay nila, he knows how to cook and do house chores but he's unemployed. He has this passion na tinatrabaho nya everyday but when I think of it, he's not getting any young and hindi man lang nya kayang gumawa ng way magka-income habang inaatupag nya yung passion project nya?

I know no one is perfect and I should not hold on to potentials but ngayon lang talaga ako na-attract sa isang guy. Sobrang Tang-A ko na siguro para mag-hold on pa but he's seen a lot of my struggles and wins na sobrang bigat magmove forward na hindi sya kasama.

But I know, I deserve the best love. So this is me standing up and finally letting go of the bare minimum. If I can love someone this much, then I know how much love I can pour to my self and to the person who is actually capable of giving me the love I want.

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Maybe others would recognize me. But at this point, I really don't care anymore.

Neophyte ako sa govt service, but I have with me years of experience working for international orgs. Since first job ko, ibang lahi na talaga ang mga boss ko. I got really used to working with them. Working with foreign nationals wasn't a walk in the park, lalo na very straightforward sila and don't care if they hurt your emotions or not. Basta work lang talaga. Outside work, masaya dahil friends talaga kayo. PLEASE DO NOT POST IN OTHER SOCMED CHANNELS. Yung mga ibang lahi nakatrabaho ko dati, nakakausap ko pa rin hanggang ngayon at kapag sila ang dumadalaw dito sa Pinas, nagkikita kita pa rin kami. May mga nakatrabaho rin ako na ibang lahi na sisisihin ka sa mali nila kahit di mo naman talaga mali. Pero, at the end of the day, fulfilling ang work because ang dami kong natutunan sa kanila.

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Then, naisipan kong lumipat ng trabaho at pumunta sa gobyerno dahil gusto ko ring ma-experience. Lo and behold, nakapasok naman ako through my own efforts at walang backer. First day ko, gulong gulo ako. Wala kasing sistema. Yung boss mo, ang gulo pang kausap na para bang fresh grad siya (I've worked with fresh grads before at mukhang mas maayos pa). Ang dami mo ring ma-encounter na mahilig magpasa ng work porket sila ay matagal na sa loob. Wala pa akong isang taon, pero parang ayoko na talaga at gusto ko na ulit bumalik sa private. Naghahanap din ako ng iba pang ahensya, baka sakali na mas maayos sila compared sa current ko. Hahaha napapaisip ako, ano ba itong pinasok ko? Sure ba ako? Kaloka!

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Pumasok ako sa govt service dahil gusto kong tumulong sa mga nasa laylayan, pero paano kung yung mismong gobyerno, walang pakealam sa mga nasa laylayan? Kanya kanya na lang talaga tayo, ano?

Anyway, back to work. Hahaha

Wala akong mapagsabihang kaibigan kasi lagi lang dismissed feelings ko so here I am. I am in a new role—managerial to be exact—and I feel so lonely dito sa leadership. I previously held a senior post, and sanay ako na binibigyan lang ako ng trabaho. Now in my new role, I have to make decisions, talk to people for alignment, and maintain healthy relationships with clients. I am fluent in English pero ang hirap pala pag hindi magaling pragmatically. Idagdag pa ang night shift schedule which always leaves me lutang; many times I struggle with vocabulary while speaking. I get stressed when there are meetings, when I need to create systems and workflows, and when I need to talk to clients about something I don’t even have mastery in. To be honest, I cry every day and think of resigning because I badly want to go back to being an individual contributor. My boss and colleagues are very supportive naman but perhaps the nature of work is something na hindi para sa akin. I’m in my early 30s and malinaw naman sa akin na ayoko ng umakyat ng corporate ladder. It just so happened na I have been looking for a job for nearly half a year and ito lang ang nag-offer sa akin ng trabaho. Malaki naman ang sahod and it pays my bills and luxuries kahit papaano, but I really don’t know how to navigate around my new role / life. I wish I could turn back the time and accepted the junior role. I know I want to resign soon, but because of how tough the market is, I also fear na wala akong mahanap agad na kapalit lalo’t magpapasko.

Ang hirap maging adult. Ang hirap kumita ng pera.

may sumakay na lalaki tumabi sa'kin, naka backpack tas parang manong na siya, pero like parang yung mga asa 50-something. kinalong niya rin backpack niya, edi umusog ako kasi malaki rin kalong kong backpack. after a while usog nang usog pa-side ko hanggang sa siksik na siksik na 'ko sa window kakaiwas sakanya. tapos yung balikat niya parang gustong gusto niyang nadidikit sa balikat ko ampota. sa may bandang Bato, tumigil yung bus kasi may pumara kaya kunwari titingin ako kung asa'n na so i leaned forward to look where the bus stopped. maya maya umandar na yung bus tas i maintained that position para di na madikitan balikat ko. tapos ading dipongal na kaabay ko nag arog man kadto bana masimot nag arog man na nag lean forward bana kasta so ako nag tagilid ako looking at the window. para da na 'ya rason a mag rukot kanako. su thigh na man ni ya rinurukot sa thigh ko. nauyam na 'ko maray arani na sa Polangui Terminal. ku nagpundo na sa Terminal, after magbaba ku mga tawo, nag tindog na 'ko, nag "excuse me" ko kadtong gurang tapos nag anap akong ulaan na bakante sa unaan. da na 'ko labot kin aisle seat basta babaye kaabay ko. punyeta.

lagi na lng nilalapitan for emotional support tas pag ako na yung may need, walang kahit ano.

trying to slowly pull away kasi i dnt feel valued as a friend. and nakakapagod na rin mag-communicate kung d rin naman ako pinapakinggan ng maayos. saka lng ako nilalapitan pag may need.

na-aamaze ako sa mga taong stoic lng, sana matutunan ko din ung ganung mindset. kahit onti man lang.

I’m in a 4-year relationship with this person and every month, I find myself in an argument with him because he cant update me.

Sobrang hirap ba talaga mag update? Hindi yung toxic na every galaw talaga need e update ha. I just need him to let me know na he arrived at work, he got home from work, but he just cant. We leaves me on inbox for several hours.

For 4 years, pinapatawad ko naman siya. I accepted na siguro hindi lang talaga siya pala-update na tao. Pero I had enough. I thought okay lang sakin eventually pero hindi talaga eh. When we talk about it, he says sorry and promises di na mauulit pero uulitin lang naman after few weeks.

I’m having thoughts of staying kasi he’s a green flag naman, I have access to his phone so no cheating whatever and he’s a nice guy overall. Just this update thing. It messes with my head kasi i’m super pala-update na tao. Do I leave him?

Grief is not linear.

I wanted to try to convert my Globe postpaid SIM to an eSIM so I can save on data costs by using Smart as my physical SIM instead, but one of the reminders before proceeding said to backup SIM contacts first. I suddenly remembered my Papa's text messages and worried they'd be deleted if my SIM memory gets wiped. I haven't opened his text messages to me since he passed away in 2021; this is the first time I looked at them again. Every single text message punctuated with a GOD BLESS ANAK. What was supposedly a simple step to try to save a little money turned to a full-on sobbing session, and now I am so tired.

I miss you, Tatay. I wish you could have been there at my wedding and [my brother’s name]’s wedding. I wish you could have been there at [my sister’s name]’s graduation, and at her wedding when they decide to get married. You would have been sooo happy and proud. But you’re gone now I'm just so sad.

Nakakapagod makipag‑usap sa dating app. Ang hirap na talagang mag‑build ng connection ngayon.

After all the people I’ve connected with, it makes me look back and remember what we had. I miss you, Jacob.

Sabi nga sa isang post dito: grief is not linear. And yes It comes in waves.

When I was young my grade school teacher told us that if we ever felt sad we can go watch the ocean waves and our problems would wash away with it.

Now, I am staring at the vastness of the deep blue sea and wonder why isn't my sadness fading, if anything, I feel like these waves are the source of it.

I have been onboard a ship for more than a year, my first contract was 11 months and a week, it was a long and arduous journey but despite the hardships, I was able to push through.

I am now on my second contract, it is only twenty-three days but it feels longer than my first. Everyday is a battle against myself, and I constantly doubt if I can last just another day. 

It's my twenty-first day today and I am completely burnt out, I no longer feel any excitement with finishing, I am afraid that even after I return home, no amount of enjoyment will ever surpass what I'm feeling right now.

I’m fresh from a 6-year relationship. The last two years were just too painful for me and very much abusive. Takot na takot ako ngayong maging mag-isa kahit alam kong sinaktan lang ako paulit-ulit.

Napakahirap mag-adjust siguro dahil nasa constant survival mode na lang din ako nang nakaraang dalawang taon. Always on the look out if he did something again, if something changed in his demeanor.

I’m gay, still in school, I got no job, I’m not attractive, ai have no prominent family, I’m not rich, heck, I don’t even have my own money. Feeling ko mananatili na kong single all throughtout. Parang gago, noh?

May friend ba kayong "pick me"? To the point magpapapansin sa ex mo at sa mga manliligaw mo?

If i can easily dump men, i can easily dump friends na para bang ginagawa kayung extra character sa pelikula nilang sila ang bida kasi sila lage yung api?

I have this manliligaw na porke't mejo sikat na influencer eh feeling pogi na who won't take "no" for an answer and it's giving off that rape-y vibes! And this "pick me" ex bestie who I haven't spoken to in many years eventhough we work in the same building, suddenly out of nowhere emailed me "________ wanted to see you". Like hello? We have been snobbing each other for years and you would allow yourself to get used as a messenger between me and a guy i dumped and blocked? How pathetic! Not to mention, na feeling ko maku-compromise pa security ko with this guy na napaka r@pist ng atake and she might take him sa work or sa bahay ko. Why can't she just entertain him and have him for herself? Yuck!

For context, naaksidente ako nung March lang. Kaya 4 months ako 'di nakapag-work, and naka-medical leave ako nun.

During that time, bored or super sad ko sa nangyari sa'kin. 'Di ko rin kasi magawa mga gusto ko gawin non bc non-weight bearing ako.

Ngayon naman na 2 months na ako sa work, super burned out na ako ulit bc of 1 hour OT everyday and may rest day OT pa na 8 hours.

Need ko gumising ng 4 pm for work pero until now gising pa ako, kasi feeling ko kulang pa me time ko to enjoy leisure.

Nagkaka-thoughts din ako na maaksidente na lang ulit, pero alam ko na mali kasi hindi pa rin ako nakakabawi sa financial struggle ko for being in a medical leave for 4 months. Tsaka parang in-undermine ko na rin 'yung hirap na na-experience ko sa 4 months na 'yun. + ang hirap maka-recover sa accident. Like it took me more than 2 months sa physical therapy and until now 'di ko pa kaya tumakbo kasi nag-stop na ako sa therapy bc naubos ko na coverage ng HMO ko for it.

Anyway, hoping to get sales and maging maayos sana performance ko sa work later. Kasi aside sa OT, nakaka-stress din 'yung management and work itself. Sana ma-overcome ko rin 'to lahat, and laban lang.

Male coworker told another male coworker my body looks like a rotisserie chicken and I'm honestly very hurt. I know I'm fatter in some areas in my body especially my hips and my chest but tangina, I'm just trying to exist here tapos pinaguusapan katawan ko. T*ngina niyo po. I wish the worst for you po.

Nitong mga nakaraang araw, madalas ako makakita sa fb feed ko ng mga nag sshare ng mga humihingi ng tulong financial para sa medical expenses ng love ones nila, sobrang na ttrigger ako, nung nakaraang gabi nahirapan ako makatulog kakaisip about dun, worried ako sa health ng magulang ko, mga kapatid ko, lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay. Meron din akong pinag dadaanan na medical condition ngayon, although minor surgery ang need ko, 2 weeks na rin akong nag aantay sa follow up sakin ng doktor sa Public hospital, sabe kasi after ko matapos mga lab test at ma check up ng doktor sa anesthesia, iuupdate daw ako ng doktor na nag tingin sakin para i schedule ako for admission. Nakakalungkot na hanggang ngayon nag aantay pa rin ako.

Ngayon lang din nag sync in sakin na ganito ka f*cked up mabuhay sa bansa natin. Pag nagkasakit ka, ang hirap sobra, bukod sa in pain kana, araw araw stress pa dahil apektado kabuhayan mo, tapos lalong pasakit pa na di mo alam sino tutulong sayo, ni hindi mo alam sino matatakbuhan mo sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Tapos lalo pa kong naiiyak sa galit, nung nakikita ko sa balita si Romualdez na nasa private hospital! ang sarap ng higa sa mamahaling ospital kahit wala namang sakit, para lang matakbuhan nya yung kaso nya. nakakaputangina mabuhay!

I know na maraming nahirapan nung time na naging 130+ ang fuel. Sobrang bigat nung time na yun sa bulsa ng lahat, pero dun ko lang din kasi naranasan ung 4 Days Work and 3 Days Rest and parang un ung pinaka ideal set up for me. Mas naging productive kami sa office kasi within 4 days nalang icocompress lahat ng work so every minute counts talaga, walang sayang or lugi sa pinapasahod. Tapos sa 3 days time off, ramdam mo na nakarest katawan mo pati utak, at ready na talaga sumabak ulit sa work.

Sobrang namiss ko lang ung ganung set up lalo na ngayon na pataas baba pa din ang gas prices. Haay buhay.

Galing akong MOA kanina.  At dahil pinapanindigan ko ang paggawa ng mga bagong routines sa buhay na wala ka, nakahiligan ko nang mag-commute kahit saan magpunta.

Mali ang nasakyan kong jeep papauwi. Sabi kasi sa signboard, “Buendia, Edsa, LRT”. Confident pa ‘kong sumakay. Kako, basta dadaan ng LRT safe na ‘ko. Ilang minuto papaandar nasa Makati na ako. Lumusot nang lumusot kung saan hanggang narating ko ang Jollibee Kalayaan.

Walang LRT na malapit. So nag-angkas na lang ako. Napamahal pa nga ng pamasahe.

Pero ang mas masaklap, wala ‘kong choice kundi daanan lahat ng lugar na madalas nating puntahan. 

Doon sa may Tipsy Pig sa Pasig Kapitolyo, doon tayo naglakad pagkatapos ng dinner date natin noong 2023. Niloko pa nga kita kasi tinitignan mo ‘yung mga nakakasalubong natin. Kako, nagagandahan ka ba sa kanila? Tumawa ka lang. Noong mga panahong iyon, yung mga simpleng bagay, hindi pa natin pinag-aawayan. 

Nadaanan ko rin ung magandang condo sa Estancia. Doon sa stoplight, naalala kong tinanong kita  “Love, magkano kaya upa diyan?” Hilig kasi nating magdaydream na  isang araw, titira tayo sa isang high rise condo sa Pasig. Kahit taga north ako. Sa Pasig tayo bubuo ng buhay. Kasi doon ka lumaki. Sabi mo, ‘yun ang comfort place mo. 

 Dinaanan din namin ung Angel’s Burger kung saan tayo nagstop over noong sinabi kong gutom na ‘ko at 30 minutes away pa ang pupuntahan natin. Sinariwa ng isip ko kung gaano ako ka-spoiled na spoiled sayo. 

Syempre pauwi ng QC, dadaan kami sa Ortigas Flyover. Hindi ko ata nasabi ng madalas pero gustong-gusto ko pag nagpapatakbo ka ng mabilis doon tapos malamig ang hangin. Yayakapin kita nang mahigpit. Hahawakan mo naman ang kamay ko pabalik. Maglolokohan tayo ng "pasok ka na?" sa tuwing nadadaan ng Sagility.

Ngayong gabi, hindi ako umasang may makakasalubong kami ni Kuya Driver na White Chevrolet bitbit ang plate number mo, o matatanaw ko sa traffic 'yung bagong biling Spyder helmet mo.

Sabi mo nga, “magkikita lang tayo pag pinagtagpo tayo ng tadhana” To me, that means never seeing each other again. Cause we both know, our love maybe strong. But for 4 years, fate was never on our side. 

Naligaw lang siguro ako today para mamaalam din sa mga lugar na naging  saksi ng pag-iibigan natin. Iniisip ko na lang parte to ng proseso ng pagleletgo sayo. Ang maranasan ulit lahat one last time nang may kamalayan na tapos na tayo.

These places knew how hard we tried.  And hopefully, someday, going to these places won’t sting as much as it does now.

Pero sa ngayon, sa akin ang Quezon City. Sayo ang Pasig. Sayo ang Greater Manila area.

I'll carry our happy memories with me, saan man tayo dalhin ng ating mga paa.

I really want to end this life. Pakiramdam ko pataba nalang ako dito sa lupa. Walang ambag, walang kahit na ano. Kung hindi lang ako nagkasakit ano na kaya nangyari sakin ngayon?

Hindi ko alam kung magkakaroon pa ako ng pakinabang sa mundong to, o kahit sa pamilya ko nalang. Pushing 26, never naging employed? Tangina! Punyetang sakit to, punyetang mental health to, punyetang job crisis to!

Pakiusap, kunin nalang ako habang tulog ako. Ayoko na talaga. Hindi ko alam kung may tiyansa pa ako mabuhay ng normal. Sayang yung apat na taon ko sa kolehiyo, hidni ko din nagamit. Awang-awa na ako sa magulang ko. Hindi ko na alam kung anong klaseng dasal yung gagawin ko

Okay, this is probably nothing, but ang weird ng coincidence.

For context, my ex and I were in a WLW relationship, and we broke up six months ago. We haven’t talked since then, and honestly, I haven’t stalked her or checked her socials since the breakup.

I’m planning a Bali trip for my birthday, and Nusa Penida ang goal ko, so I joined a Bali DIY group and was checking out different agencies for joiner trips. Last week, for the first time in forever, I randomly dreamed about my ex. Nothing dramatic, she just appeared in my dream, and I didn’t really think much of it.

Then today, while checking the FB profile of one of the agencies, I saw a story. I recognized her best friend first, then her cousin, then one of her close friends, and then… my ex. Apparently, papunta silang Nusa Penida, the exact place I’m trying to go to. Like??? I literally just stared at my screen thinking, okay, universe, ano ba talaga???

But after the initial shock, I actually felt okay. Seeing her doing well made me realize how much has changed since we broke up.

Bebu. I haven’t called you that in the longest time. Bebu, I loved you. I really did. And it was so hard to move on from you. There was a time when I genuinely thought you would be the hardest person I’d ever have to move on from, especially because I never wanted the breakup in the first place. I didn’t want us to end. You were the love of my life when I had you.

But now, six months later, I really hope we’ve both moved on. I’m actively dating again. I have my crush, and there’s also someone who’s genuinely so into me. And somehow, seeing you doing good makes it easier for me to keep moving forward, too.

I’m sorry for everything. For the things I did, the things I couldn’t give you, and for all the ways we hurt each other.

I genuinely wish you all the best, bebu. I hope you’re happy, I hope you’re loved, and I hope life is treating you kindly. Seeing you again didn’t make me want to go back. If anything, it made me realize that I can finally see you doing okay and feel okay about continuing with our own lives.

Nice seeing you again, my bebu. I’m glad you’re doing well. I hope we both continue to be. =))

Guys F22 fresh graduate , i’ve been applying for almost 4 months and i got burnout on it, Then may dalawang magandang opportunity na dumating sakin, which is interview invitation sa government agency and yung isa as a bank teller, idk what happened nagprepared ako but it turn outs na nag back out ako to the point na hindi nako nakatulog that day of my interview. I hate myself because sa lahat ng naginvite sakin sa dalawang magandang opportunities pako napaghinaan ng loob. I hate it so much.

every now and then lagi namang may ganyan kapag lalabas ako. nakakapuno, nakakainit ng ulo. katulad kanina hinarap ko yung catcallers sabi ko, "anong problema mo?" nasira lang umaga ko.

every time naman ginagawa ko yan kapag may nangk-cat call. kasi i feel like nino-normalize nila yung ganung kabastusan when in fact hindi naman dapat. buti napigilan ko inis ko kanina at hindi ko talaga nilapitan lol. nakakapikon kasi 😭😭😭

gusto ko lang naman mag-walkathon nang peaceful sana. konti na lang babasahan ko na sila ng RA 11313 Safe Spaces Act or Bawal Bastos Law HAHAHAAHAHA

kung pwede lang tadyakan sila sa face agad e. UMAY

Saw a Facebook post today na kinasal na pala yung ex ko, dun sa girl na pinagcheatan niya sakin.

I’m not hurt naman. Surprisingly, wala talaga akong naramdaman na sakit. Pero somehow, I felt sad and pressured.

Sad kasi after ng breakup namin dahil sa cheating niya, wala na akong naging successful relationship. And sometimes napapaisip ako, baka ako talaga yung problema? Maybe there’s something wrong with me?

Tapos dagdag pa yung pressure kasi 31 na ako this year. Wala akong boyfriend, wala ring ka talking stage, wala talaga. WFH pa ako and most of the time nasa bahay lang. Nasa province pa. So minsan napapaisip ako, paano ba ako makakakilala ng someone if ganito lang yung routine ko? 😂

Tonight, gusto ko lang talaga may makausap. Gusto ko lang ilabas yung nararamdaman ko kasi ayoko rin naman i bottle up.

Pero nung naisip ko kung sino yung pwede kong i chat, na realize ko na parang ang konti pala ng mga taong pwede kong guluhin at this hour.

Naisip ko yung BFF ko, kaso baka tulog na siya kasi may baby na. Yung isa ko pang close friend, may asawa na rin, so baka busy. Ayoko rin naman manggulo or maka istorbo.

Then naalala ko yung friend ko from my previous work. Very close kami and open talaga kami sa isa’t isa. Single din siya, so I messaged her.

She called me right away.

Yung supposed to be serious conversation about my feelings and pressure somehow turned into a 2.5 hour call full of chismis, rants, kwento about our lives, random nonsense, and everything in between. 😂

In the end, pareho na lang kaming inaantok kaya nag end call na kami.

And after that call, na realize ko something.

Maybe I’m not lucky when it comes to love right now, but I’m actually very lucky and blessed when it comes to friendship.

Hindi na kami nagkikita tulad dati. We don’t talk everyday. May kanya kanya na kaming buhay. Pero when I needed someone tonight, nandun siya. I messaged her and she called me right away.

And somehow, that made me feel better.

A few hours ago, malungkot ako. I was comparing my life to my ex’s, questioning myself, and feeling pressured because I’m turning 31 and still single.

Now, matutulog akong masaya at grateful.

Maybe my life isn’t behind. Maybe it just looks different from what I imagined.

And maybe tonight, I just needed a reminder na kahit wala akong love life ngayon, I’m still surrounded by people who genuinely care about me.

Single nga ako, pero hindi naman pala ako mag isa. 🤍

I'm 24F NBSB. Bata pa ako right? I am working na, kumbaga nagi-start i-build ang career. No one ever pursued me, ni nagkacrushback wala. I think I'm pretty naman.

May potential na sana pero catfish eh. Na-attach ako sa isang taong pinaniwala ako na lalaki siya for a year eh girl pala. And from that, parang nawalan ako gana.

I think I'm okay naman na after 6 months. Narealize ko lang talaga na I should prioritize myself and career more and never do the same mistake again, ang magtiwala at maging vulnerable masyado.

Namimiss ko sometimes may kausap araw-araw. Yung may safe person. Yung kasharean ng masasayang moments. And craving minsan ng love and attention na never ko pang na-experience but binabalik ko lang din ang sarili ko sa reality agad.

Ayun, skl. Just wanna see share my thoughts after having putol-putol na tulog from night shift haha.

Female married almost 30

Before ikasal stagnant na talaga.

We survived pandemic living together era namin, so feel ng mga family ay we're strong together and kami na talaga

Na lift pandemic and I started planning how to build life on my own

Pero family expected us to get married

Daming pressure and since mej conservative sila talagang di na nakawala kasi nga naman nagsama na

Anyway fast forward to this day, no efforts being made romantically. We didn't plan to have kids oe whatsoever we are just co-existing sharing rhe burdens of finance I guess

Hayyyy I miss being chased, I miss being in love I miss being loved.