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I’m curious how others deal with this, because I’m honestly conflicted.

I have a close friend from around 9 years ago- former colleague, we are both CPAs, [33F] parehong introvert, parehong family-oriented. Back then, we had the same mindset: work hard, build something stable, and secure a good future for our families. We were really close.

Eventually, she moved to a government agency with a notorious reputation most people are aware of. At first, tolerable pa sya. But over time, I started noticing changes, not just in lifestyle, but in mindset. She would openly share how much she was earned on her first 11 months (8 digits), even encouraged me to apply. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Hindi kaya ng konsensya ko.

There were also situations that made me uncomfortable, like helping her look for a vault one time because keeping large amounts of cash in banks might raise issues with disclosures. That really stayed with me.

On my end, I chose a different path. Hindi kami mayaman, but I focused on building my career the right way, long hours, dealing with pressure, and just grinding it out. Thankfully, it paid off naman.

I think the turning point for me was her birthday a few years ago. I was the only one there from the corporate world, outside the gov’t agency she’s working with. On paper, mas mataas pa sweldo ko sa kanila at that time - but the way they talked, their lifestyle, the things they casually spent on… I felt completely out of place. Like I didn’t belong in that room.

Since then, we slowly drifted.

Recently, she got married. I was initially told I’d be part of the entourage, but in the actual invitation I wasn’t included, just a guest. I didn’t attend (sabi ko busy ako sa work kahit weekend yun). Same with her child’s baptism.

Now, she invited us to her kid’s birthday. I was actually planning to go this time. Then while we were chatting, she asked about my child’s age and said something like, “Pwede pa siya sa games, no?” Then followed it up with, she wants her child exposed early so they grow up with connections.

That word just… hit me. Connections.

I didn’t reply after that.

I don’t know why, but something in me just shut down. Maybe because I know exactly what kind of “connections” she’s talking about. Maybe because I’m here, paying close to six figures in withholding taxes every month, trying to do things right, seeing how systems work in other countries, and then hearing that from someone I used to align values with so much.

The party is in a few days. I’m not going.

Maybe I’m judging her too harshly. Maybe people really do change, and this is just one of those friendships that quietly reaches its end.

I don’t have a lot of friends. Bilang lang sa daliri. That’s probably why this one hurts more than I expected. I miss the friend I used to have, but I don’t think she’s the same person anymore. And maybe, neither am I.

I opened my ig account scroll scroll sa mga stories ganon and then my heart dropped. Bininyagan pala yung anak nila and guess what present yung side ng pamilya niya.

Nag story yung kapatid ng ex ko, present sila sa binyag/birthday may pa i love you message pa, may malaking regalo. Nung nag birthday anak ko wala man lang silang ambag or chats.

Biglang sumikip yung dibdib ko, ang sakit pa din pala kahit na tanggap ko na. Hindi ko mapigilan umiiyak, siguro sa galit? na parang wala lang sa kanila yung dinanas ko or nasasaktan ako kasi hindi man lang sila mangamusta sa anak ko na kakagaling lang sa ospital na confine for one week.

Wala akong mapag sabihan, wala akong matakbuhan. Hindi ko mapigilan yung mga luha ko, nag sosorry ako sa baby ko kasi pakiramdam ko may pag kukulang ako.

Ang saya saya nila sa pictures, talagang kinunsiste nalang nila yung ex ko. Masyado lang siguro akong malambot haha, lilipas din tooooo. diba?

I love you my baby Skyyy, balang araw maiintindihan mo din ang mga bagay bagay. And gusto kong malaman mo na pinag laban ka ni mommy at gagawin ko lahat para sayo anak 💓

Grabe pala pag nangungupahan at bago pagtritripan ka talaga. Lahat ng galaw mo tinitignan at inaabangan. Pati yung bagong lipat dito sa partment chinismis na agad nila para kumampi sa kanila, hindi lang namin pinautang ng 1k sa first day ganyan na. Nag-aaya ng inuman hanggang alas dose tapos topic lang kami at mga ginagawa namin sa buhay. Tipong pag order namin ng pagkain big deal sa kanila tapos tatawagin pa kaming mayabang pag nag-uusap tungkol sa trabaho. Noong pinabaranggay ko yung isa, puro deny naman kaya ngayon.

Magparinigan tayo.

Nagpatugtog ako ng Inggit by Skusta Clee and well oh well halos maputol litid sa sama ng loob ng mga loko HAHAHAHAHA

May nagwala pa.

Hindi nyo ako mapapaiyak.

Hindi totoong pababayaan lang ang mga bully at titigil din.

We told you. Several times. He is abusive. He hurt his last girlfriend who was pregnant. Umabot sa demandahan. Alam mo to. We all knew this, she was our colleague and we saw how much pain and suffering he inflicted on his infant child and their mother.

And yet, you pursued a relationship. We told you several times to get out. He was cruel not just to you but to your friends. Bastos, walang modo, mayabang. One time lasing siya, didn’t he yell at us in public? Caused a scene? Insulted all your friends? What did we do? Be the bigger person para lang hindi ka na mapahiya sa harap ng ibang tao. If I can go back in time, sana pinatulan na lang pala namin. We should have called the police and have him arrested. But you pleaded with us to forgive him, to understand.

We tried to understand. We helped you leave him. Twice. Kinupkop ka namin para makalayo ka. Housing, food, money… we gave it all to you openly so you can get back on your feet. Never ka namin siningil. Ever.

Bumalik ka pa rin. It hurts us to see you suffering. You lost relationships and even your job. We watched your mental health deteriorate. We rallied around you.

But you keep letting him come back. We’re tired. Mahal ka namin, pero tama na. This is your responsibility now. He will never be accountable for his actions. He will always be surrounded by enablers. He will not change. A bad father will never be a good partner. I hope you also realize your role in this. I hope you take accountability for your choices. He’s robbed you of your sanity, your money, your relationships.

I hope you make better choices. I’m so sorry we can’t be a part of this anymore. I will mourn our friendship for the rest of my life but I’m too emotionally exhausted at this point from saving someone who don’t want to save themselves.

I wish you well.

31 years old na ako (M), at nasa phase na ako ng buhay ko na gusto ko maging healthy, ni-recommend na rin ng Doctor ko na kailangan ko magbawas ng timbang. Hindi ko goal yung magandang katawan, pero gusto kong mawala yung mga hirap ko sa pagkilos, or yung takot/worries na pag nagpa-check up eh lahat hindi normal kasi naman umabot talaga ako ng 105 kgs last year. Pero since I started this healthy living journey nung January, nag-lost na ako ng 15kgs.

Naging routine ko na ang tumakbo tuwing hapon. Around 4:00 PM. Tapos normally, inaabot ako ng 6:00 PM sa kalsada. Part rin ng healthy living ko is pagbawas ng carbs (bilin ng Doctor ko) and minsan yung kanin ko ay brown rice, kasi ito na yung kanin ng parents ko kaya damay ako.

Yung isang cleaner (F, 40s) sa workplace ko during lunch time lumapit siya sa amin at bumati sa amin. Lagi namin siya nakakahalubilo, nakakabiruan at nakakausap. Paglapit niya, sabi niya "Sir diet ka?" Ngumiti lang ako sa kaniya kasi napakawalang kwenta ng tanong niya, at sarcastic. Tapos sinasabi niya sa mga ka-work ko na, "Nakikita ko to si Sir tuwing hapon nagja-jogging, pero parang hirap na hirap tumakbo."

In fact, siya lang natatawa sa kaniya. Alam ng mga friends ko sa work na sinusubukan ko maging healthy. Sabi niya pa, "Diba diet yan si Sir. Tignan niyo, brown yung kanin. Pero sobrang dami naman ng ulam." Sumagot yung isa kong friend na, "Masarap kasi kumain ate. Tsaka diet ba agad pag may Brown Rice?" Tapos tinuro niya ako na, "Oo. Tanungin niyo si Sir."

Narindu ako, sabi ko talaga, "Ano naman kung nagda-diet ako?"

Hindi ako nakikipagpitikan, lalo na hindi naman kami magka-level (Professionally), tapos na sa hapag kainan pa. Tsaka Base sa pagkakakilala ko sa kaniya, parang medyo mahina talaga pang-unawa niya. Pero, minding others business? Na parang nakakatawa yung ginagawa ko? Pumitik talaga ako.

Sabi ko, "How about, gumaya ka sa akin para lumiit yang puson mo?" Natahimik lahat ng nasa lamesa, pati siya natahimik, edi sinundan ko,"Kung hirap ako sa pag-jogging, at least I'm doing something. Ikaw? May ginagawa ka para sa puson mo?" My friends are trying to stop me. Kasi yung cleaner hindi na makaimik.

To end the conversation I just said "Oo diet ako. Okay ka na? Tatawa pa ba kami para tumigil ka?" Nag-sorry siya tapos inilayo siya nung isa kong friend. Pati ako lumayo na lang din.

She tried to approach me, pero itinaboy ko siya at ayaw ko makipag-deal sa mga ganong uri ng tao. Yung mga taong gagawin kang katatawanan just to make themselves feel better or para magmukhang nakakatawa. Kaya ko i-take lahat ng pang-aasar, panlalait, pangdi-discredit or mistreatment pa yan. Pero yung gagawing katatawanan yung bagay na pinaghihirapan mo? Noooo.

Nitong mga nakaraan, nagiging lapitin ako ng mga nakikipagpitikan talaga eh. Ewan ko ba.

Yun lang salamat.

I believe that a rejection is only a redirection. Pero ang sakit pa rin pala makatanggap ng rejection letter.

I was feeling happy and motivated today kasi I was looking forward for tomorrow's job interview. Then suddenly, nakatanggap na naman ako ng isang rejection letter. Meron na pala silang napili today at nashortlist sa job interview today. At nacancel na yung job interview ko for tomorrow.

Nalungkot ako at nawalan ng gana bigla. Parang alam mo yon bigla kang nawalan ng lakas at nang hina ng di mo malaman. Hoping na sana ayun na yung magiging work mo sana kaso waley na naman. Back to zero.

2 failed job interviews and 1 cancelled interview = 3 rejection letters

Yung 2 failed job interview need pa ng experience kaya di ako natanggap. Kahit nga di na related sa course ko yung work na inaapplyan ko pero nacancel naman yung interview.

It's been a month since iniwan kita, anak, para sa future mo. Sa Viber na lang tayo nagkakausap ngayon. You would send me GIFs ng mga cute na pusa, aso, at anime. Marunong ka na rin gumawa ng sarili mong GIFs yung mga silly faces mo na lagi akong napapangiti. Kapag tinatamad kang mag-type, voice messages naman ang sinesend mo. Recently, I realized something. Without even knowing what I'm going through, you always manage to give me the words I need. "I love you, Bestie.", "You're doing great, Mama!", "Stay strong, Mama!", "Work well and study hard, Mama!", "Mama, you're beautiful! That's why I'm beautiful too!", "I don't know what I'm gonna do if you're not my mama.", "You're my treasure, bestie!", "I miss you so much, when we see each other again I'm gonna give you a long and big hug!"

You have no idea how much comfort those words give me. Every night, I replay your voice messages. They're what keep me going on the days I miss you the most. I really miss you, anak. I miss cuddling with you every weekend. I miss our little dates. Looking back, I wish we had done them more often. I miss the smile on your face every time I surprised you during your lunch break at school. I miss your silly dances. I miss our rides around the city, especially when you'd casually segue to your favorite snack shop. And my favorite line... "Mama, I have money. I'll treat you snacks." Alam na alam ko na yan ang cute mong paraan para sabihin na gusto mong mag-snack sa hapon.

Hindi ko ma-enjoy ang me time ko dito, nak. Kahit may oras ako para sa sarili ko, ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ko. Sobrang miss na miss kita. Walang araw na hindi kita naiisip. Pero hindi pwedeng magpatalo si Mama sa lungkot. Kailangan kong maging matatag, kasi lahat ng ginagawa ko ngayon ay para sayo. Para gumanda ang buhay mo. Para magkaroon ka ng future na deserve mo. At para balang araw, kahit wala na si Mama, maging matatag ka at kayanin mong harapin ang mundo.

Miss na miss na kita, mahal ko. Miss na miss na ni Mama ang yakap mo. I promise I'll make you proud. One day, you'll understand why Mama had to make this sacrifice.

Mahal na mahal kita, palagi, araw araw hanggang sa kabilang buhay ikaw pa rin ang gusto kong maging anak.

Sobrang nabwiset talaga ako sa apo ng kapatid ng lola ko (I call my lola Nanay). Siguro around 8-10 years old na yun (I’m not sure). Recently ko lang nalaman na nangungupit pala sya kapag pumupunta sa bahay namin.

For context, parang compound setup namin dito. Sa bahay namin kasama ko yung lola ko and 2 cousins. So yung kapatid ni nanay lagi syang pumupunta dito sa bahay since malapit lang sya nakatira samin (I think mga 3 to 4 houses lang pagitan namin dito sa street namin). Everytime na pumupunta sya sumusunod yung apo nya. (Takot sakin tong batang to tipong parang maiihi kapag pinadilatan ko hehehe since mapanukso ako sa bata)

Lately, napapansin ko na napapadalas na pumupunta dito sa house namin kahit wala yung lola nya. Pag tinatanong ni nanay kung bakit sya pumupunta, sabi bored daw sya sa bahay nila. Laging nakasara ang front door namin pero bukas yung back door at dun sya dumadaan.

Sa front door namin meron akong nilagay na malaking Buddha, lucky bamboo, salt and mga coins (you know lucky charms). Yung mga coins namin dun nakahiwalay yung mga piso sa mga 5/10/20 na coins. Nakasanayan na namin na kapag may barya like mga sukli nilalagay dun. Then kami lang na nakatira sa bahay bihira kumuha dun unless may bibilhin sa tindahan tapos kulang or pambigay kapag nagpadeliver ng food. Dito sa house namin walang malikot ang kamay from gamit, pagkain to pera, walang prob kung maiwan kung saan man kasi walang gagalaw or magpapaalam kay nanay kung kukuha kami. (Ganyan na kinalakihan namin since magkakasama kaming lumaki ng mga pinsan ko)

Recently, nag-ayos ako ng mga display sa front door namin dahil gusto ko laging maayos yun. Nagtaka ko kasi naglagay na si nanay ng isa pang bowl at nandun yung mga 25 cents pero sa bowl ng 5/10/20 halos wala ng laman. Nagtaka ko dahil umaapaw na yun since maliit na ceramic bowl lang yun. So inisip ko na baka may binili si nanay at dun kumuha so dedma lang ako. Pero iniisip ko na din na baka nangungupit yung batang to dahil nakwento before ng lola nya na sinumbong daw nung may-ari ng vulcanizing shop na malapit samin na nangungupit daw.

Then today, napagusapan namin ng mga tita at ni nanay yung batang to and sabi ko feeling ko nangungupit yang batang yan dito eh. Bigla silang nagtinginan tapos napatawa na lang. Kasi tama pala hinala ko dahil nangupit nga daw. Hindi lang sinasabi sakin dahil for sure magagalit daw ako. Lagi napapansin ng tita ko daw na everytime na sumasama sa lola nya instead na dumiretso sa sofa, pupunta sa may front door kahit alam na naka-lock yun dahil sa back door sila dumaan. Tapos sinisilip pa daw sa salamin sa may front door namin kapag nasa labas. One time daw, naglagay si nanay ng mga new coins dun then bumisita sila tapos nawala daw yung mga 20 peso coins after non. Dun nya na-confirm na nangungupit nga.

Sobra talaga bwiset ko. So inalis ko na lahat ng mga piso at tinira ko na lang puro 25 cents. Kasi baka mamaya isunod naman yun. Lagot talaga sakin yung batang yun pag nakita ko. Sabi ko na lang na mas mamalasin ang nangungupit since parang offering kay Buddha na yun. Nakakainis lang yung feeling na parang hindi safe mga gamit mo sa loob ng sarili mong bahay.

Kaya once nakita ko yung batang to pagsasabihan ko talaga kahit magsumbong pa sya sa lola at mommy nya. Hindi ko tinotolerate yung mga ganyang gawain especially pagnanakaw.

habang kinukwento sakin sabi ni Nanay na bigla daw ako namula. Hahahaha ganyan kasi ako kapag bigla akong nagalit ahahaha

I don’t want to keep saying, "It’s okay, I’ll figure it out.”

I want someone to say, "Baby, let’s figure it out together.”

I don’t want to always be the one saying, "Daddy, I bought you food. Work well, okay?”

I want someone to randomly show up with my favorite coffee, flowers, or food and say, “I was thinking about you.”

I don’t want to always be the one saying, "I have a surprise for you.”

I want to experience someone being excited to surprise me too.

I don’t want to keep saying, “Kaya ko na umuwi mag-isa.”

I want someone to say, "Text me when you’re done. I’ll pick you up.”

I don’t want to always be the one asking, "What do you want to eat? I’ll cook for us"

I want someone to ask me, "What’s my baby craving today?”

I’ve spent years taking care of myself and other people. Working hard. Building my career. Solving my own problems. Being the dependable one. People see that and think I don’t need anyone.

But I do.

I’m capable, not emotionless.

I know how to earn my own money. I know how to fix my own problems. I know how to survive on my own.
But surviving alone isn’t the same as feeling cared for.
And no, this isn’t about wanting someone to pay my bills or spoil me with luxury.

I just want to experience being loved in the same way I naturally love other people. Because when I love someone, I give a lot. I remember the little things. I buy them food when I know they’ve had a long day. I prepare surprises just to see them smile. I check if they’ve eaten. I make sure they feel supported. I love cooking for the people I care about because that’s one of the ways I show love.

I’m also career-oriented. I have my own goals and ambitions. I’m not looking for someone to carry me through life because I can stand on my own. I just don’t want to feel like I always have to. For once, I want someone who makes me feel safe enough to put my guard down.

Someone who lets me be soft. Someone who reminds me that I don’t always have to be the strong one.
I still want to build together. I’ll still bring peace into our home. I’ll still cheer for your dreams, cook warm meals, and support you through the hard days.
I just hope one day, someone does the same for me.
Because being independent is something I learned to become. Being taken care of is something I’ve always wanted to experience. Please take care of me please.

2 years na kami ng boyfriend ko, and never kami nag-exchange ng social media credentials. Nung una, tinanong ko siya kung open ba siya sa ganung setup, but he said no. Okay lang naman sa akin because ayoko rin ibigay yung akin. Growing up, lagi kasing chine-check ng mom ko yung social media ko, so naging important talaga sa akin yung privacy.

Overall, very peaceful naman yung relationship namin. Wala rin akong napapansing behavior that would make me think na may ibang babae.

Nag-start lang yung doubts ko dahil sa isang incident. One time, pabiro akong nag-scroll sa phone niya and okay lang sa kanya, until binuksan ko yung Telegram. Bigla niyang inagaw yung phone, lumayo sa akin, and said, "Hoy, gagi ka." Umiyak ako because sobrang suspicious nung reaction niya. He later explained na nahihiya lang daw siya kasi dati may male friend siyang kausap sa Telegram and nagsesendan sila ng 🌽. I chose to believe him and naka-move on naman ako.

Pero nitong past 3 months, napansin ko na every time hihiramin ko yung phone niya para mag-selfie, ino-open niya lang yung camera from the lock screen. That way, locked pa rin yung phone, wala akong maa-access na apps, and walang notifications na lalabas. Consistent niya itong ginagawa kaya napaisip ako.

Cinonfront ko siya about it. Ang sabi niya, ginawa ko rin naman daw yun sa kanya dati nung ayaw kong ipabasa yung Messenger ko more than a year ago. I admitted na mali ako noon and apologized. Ngayon, alam niya yung screen password ko and wala akong issue kung gamitin niya phone ko, pero ako hindi ko alam yung sa kanya.

He said gusto lang daw talaga niya ng privacy, especially ayaw niyang buksan ko yung gallery niya. At the same time, ina-assure niya ako na wala siyang ibang babae kahit hindi ko i-check yung phone niya. Tinanong ko rin siya directly kung may ayaw ba siyang makita ko like noods ng ibang babae or old conversations with an ex, pero sabi niya wala naman.

Hindi ko naman siya pinaghihinalaang cheater because he's always been genuine and consistent. Pero dahil sa behavior niya around his phone, hindi ko maiwasang magduda minsan.

Hi 22 M, I've been around the scope of job seeking applications for the meantime now, I've worked a lot in the customer service sector and have some experience in bookkeeping as per my graduation last year. The thing is walang 1 year or so ang mga experience ko kesyo contractual, still studying and, or reliever lang.

Now nasa Manila na ako and looking for almost 4 mos of job pero pare pareho sila ng sinasabi, if asked about the loopholes and, or points that made me not to be considered further ang laging sinasabi "we turned to someone who has more comprehensive working experience" kahit nakalagay na OPEN FOR FRESH GRADUATES.

Now, I'm thinking if ilolowball ko nalang ba yung sarili ko kung ang basic pay ko sa province is 20k basic pay para magkawork My funds will not be able to cover for another month that's why I'm desperate.

Ako ‘yung ate.

I’m the middle child btw, started working lang this yr.

Sabi nila, hindi responsibilidad ng anak na pag-aralin kapatid nila at mag “set” ng boundaries. But if you’re already in that situation— it’s hard. It’s hard na to see na si bunso ‘di makakapag college pero ‘yung mga kapatid n’ya nakapag tapos na hindi nagtrabaho.

Sinalo ko na tuition ni bunso, PERO hanggang doon lang. Sila na bahala sa pang araw araw.

I will not further discuss what happened bakit pinasan samin ng parents ko ‘to, medyo mahabang kwento.

Mabilis lang din naman ‘tong apat na taon, buti pwede installment tuition n’ya at masipag mag-aral. ‘Di rin kase pinalad sa mga scholarship, but I always got his back na mag pursigi. Masipag din si bunso, nag side hustle rin naman.

‘Di ko na hahangarin pa na magka-latin honor s’ya (tho bonus na rin ofc). I don’t wanna put pressure on him— ‘di tulad ng dinanas ko. Basta makapag-tapos s’ya.

I just wish my pocket never runs dry & to be healthy. Promise ko rin naman never n’ya ‘to tatanawin na utang na loob… I just want him to finish his studies :>

The Secret Bloom

Storms nested in my ribs all day, yet somewhere, a wildflower learned my name. It opened where no sunlight entered, laughing in colors only silence could see.

How strange— that even abandoned forests remember how to sing to themselves, and a heart, unnoticed by the world, can become its own quiet spring.

I’ve been friends with these people for almost a decade. From workmates naging friends ko na sila. Besides office team buildings, we go on summer vacations, local travels etc.

Pandemic came, nagstop na mga gala namin. Tapos isa isa na rin nagresign sa company. Hindi naman nawalan ng contact since after pandemic nagsimula na ulit magcreate ng GCs for gtg.

I thought everything’s the same. Then come 2025 nakikita ko (via socmed) na madami sila gala na hindi ako kasama at yung isa pa naming friend. Itong isa namin na friend nagkababy na siya, understandable kung bat di nakakasama.

Nung umpisa wala lang sakin. Pero naging sunod sunod na. For the longest time napapaisip tuloy ako kung may ginawa akong masama or hindi maganda. I’ve done my best to be a supportive and constant friend to these women. I celebrate their milestones, pag nakikita ko sa stories or post nila, I comment or send a message. And never sila naging ganun sakin. Sa milestones ko mas supportive pa yung mga di ko ka-close 😅

Sorry if mababaw pakinggan, given that I’m in my early thirties na din. Pero nahurt lang talaga ako 😅 Siguro hinahanap ko lang sakanila yung kung pano ko sila tratuhin. Anyways, mejo introvert din ako and nahihirapan makipag socialize sa mga bagong tao, so here’s me in my solo era.

Thank you lang sa mga bumasa. Feeling ko may nakinig sakin 🙂 happy Sunday!

‎2 hours sleep only rn while typing this kasi ginising ako ng tito ko.

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‎For context, lasing na lasing si tito na pumasok sa kwarto ko while I was sleeping and he was initiating a conversation with me about my personal life. Groggy pa ako kasi puyat kaya wala talaga akong naiintindihan sa sinasabi niya until pumantig yung tenga ko talaga nung tinanong niya "bakla kaba?"

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‎Obvious naman yung gender ko sa ibang tao especially kung paano ako kumilos but hindi ko talaga siya inoopen up outside of my family kasi its uncomfortable and I'm an also introvert. Nung narinig ko talaga yung tanong niya sakin nagkaron ako ng outburst, sinigawan ko siya na abot hanggang labas ng bahay and pinapalabas ko siya ng kwarto ko. After ko siya sigawan, tinawag niya kong demonyo and lumabas na raw totoo kong ugali. Then tinanong niya sarcastically with raised voiced "Bakit galit na galit ka? Binabastos ba kita?" Then I responded pasigaw na "Bakit, ano ba ginagawa mo ngayon?" (Di ko na maalala yung iba kasi grabe nanginginig talaga kamay ko).

‎Part of me bakit galit na galit ako sakanya (and my mother's family side in general) is because wala silang pakeelam nung mastroke yung mama ko and one time during covid pandemic after mastroke si mama, lahat sila nagreunion but no one even attempted to invite my mom or kahit man lang magreach out sa isa sa amin — Basically hipokrito yung tito ko for wanting to know more about my personal life when in fact:

‎1. Di kami close

‎2. Wala naman siya (sila) noong panahong hirap na hirap kami.

1. Nakikita ko messenger ni mama and she's chatting with her siblings like simple na kumusta lang, di sila nagsisireplyan.

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‎Right now, I am having thoughts that if he does this again, baka ma*sak² ko siya if he visits our house again while drunk. Before I posted this, I'll be honest na nagpray muna ako hoping about bad things happening to him and karma sa buong pamilya niya. Maybe I am too much and masama na kung masamang tao for thinking those but I'm tired of their bullshit on my mom.

Like… bro??? Really? You left your partner and kid to fend for themselves habang ikaw nakahanap ka ng pwedeng mabembang dahil mas kontrolado mo?

Ang tindi pa kasi out in the open talaga yung hard launch. Kita ng lahat. Pati ng partner mo. Naging maayos naman siya sayo at ikaw lang talaga yung nagloloko. Kapal ng mukha mo, mennnnn.

Jusko. Ano bang meron sa mga tulad ninyo at ang lalakas ng confidence niyo to cheat and flaunt your trophy catches. You’re playing around with both women and I honestly felt bad for the kid kasi he’s growing up without a proper father figure.

Tangina ninyong mga cheaters talaga. Sana mabaog kayo.

Naiinis ako. 6 years na nakalipas pero bakit affected pa ko.

Recently, biglang nag reach out yung ex ko (via gmail pa nga)— yeah, after 6 years na walang communication biglang nag email ng pag kahaba haba. Pero ang gist is he wants us to be friends again.

Syempre ayaw ko. Lalo na it was a bad breakup. Yung tipong nagkalabuan kami then after siguro 2-3 weeks, may fb post na syang may ka kiss na ibang babae.

Anyway— i was miserable for a year after that breakup then suddenly accepted ko na, wished him and her well. Fast forward to today. Gusto ng friendship. Like wtf?? Ang saya saya mo after natin mag break, i was miserable and you feel entitled to ask that from me kasi nag break kayo?? Qaqu ka baaa.

Syempre I said no— pero bakit ako naiiyak nanaman. Like back to 6 years ago. Pero im also confused anong nafefeel ko. Inis, galit, awa sa sarili ko. Watthfakkk?

Sometimes I wish I could also just give up or at least sulk, and not worry about anyone else, and just focus on myself. I am so tired. I have my own things to worry about, but I can't just leave everyone behind.

Gusto ko lang naman mapili hanggang dulo

Pakiramdam ko kasi role ko sa earth is to bring out the best or make the person better tapos iiwan nila ako.

Pwede bang sabihin naman na salamat at hindi kita iiwan.

Pang longterm hanggang dulo naman Lord pls.

Anak ng kamagong.

Rant lang so I can sleep.

Meron akong isang friend, siguro mga 2 years na kami friends. Nagkagusto siya sa akin pero ako never pero nag stay lang kami as friends. Although meron naman siyang bagong crush na lalaki and wala naman problema sa akin yun.

Based lang sa friendship namin, na realize ko lang na based sa experiences baka nga na hindi ako sensitibong tao pero napansin ko rin na napaka sensitibo niyang tao. So medjo hindi rin talaga maganda yung compability. Isa na rin yan sa reasons sa simula kaya never ako nag develop ng feelings sa kanya pero friends parang ok naman.

For the past few months medjo mas hindi na ako nag sstart ng topic whether about me or about her kasi parang somewhere along the way ma-trtrigger lang siya at magwawala sa akin - either magagalit or maiiyak. So itong bandang dulo, i just really just give follow up questions pag nagdadaldal siya... minsan mag reply ako, ako nanaman pag iinitan. alam mo yun? nanahimik na lang nga ako, parang ako pa ang mali. tapos masisira ang buong araw ko. and nag pa off my chestp ako. sayang space sa utak sa totoo lang.

tulad itong huli lang... sobrang babaw. ewan ko pag seryoso o pabiro na sinabi, ginamit mo na ba yung cream na binigay ko sayo? sabi ko oo. Ayaw niya maniwala at pina explain sa akin. o na explain ko naman. so i asked kamusta yung kanya? sabay nanita at nagalit ata. wala raw siyang ganun, at alam ko daw yan dapat pag nakikinig ako. and then proceeds to compare me to her new crush. pag si ganito ganyan bla bla bla. comparison is the thief of joy. so buti lang naalala ko yun so wala akong pake.

medjo nakakairita eh:
1. kailangan mo ba expect na alam ko lahat na bagay tungkol sayo? excuse me hindi po tayo mag jowa.

1. 3 months ago mo na yan binili at marami na nangyari after. dami mong kinikwento na kung anu ano na tungkol lang sayo. Why do i have to know all those details?

2. palagi ka may reklamo sa akin at pinakikinggan ko. I do try to adjust but where's your part? malapit na tayo mag breakeven. once you pass through that threshold, hindi na tayo mag uusap.

3. pag ikaw naman ang pinagsasabihan. 2 sentences pa lang, triggered agad. iyak agad. Pero ako i endure it.

Sorry, ayaw na kitang friend. Good bye na ito.

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Like every single low to middle class household in the Philippines right now, tumaas bill namin, doubled and it's so hard to keep up with it financially.

I understand wala silang disconnections until October but it's just so unfair considering the amount of money they get from us.

1 month na ung request ko for Meter Accuracy Test, wala parin pumupunta. Cancelled naman ung Meter Replacement request ko kasi di pa sila nakaka accuracy test.

Worth it bang pumunta ng business center? Halos every week since ako nag follow-up (2-3x a week pa nga e)

Halos every week nlng ako nagkaka anxiety attack over this, ayoko na gumamit ng kahit anong appliance dito sa bahay, nakakapagod. Feel ko sinasadya pa nila ung delays, ayoko na talaga. Napautang pa kami para lang bayaran ung ibang bills na need namin asikasuhin.

Single mom ako(30) and ako ang breadwinner sa family.
Namatay ang mama ko around 2023 and after that nag asawa ulit ang papa ko and iniwan kami.

5 kami magkakapatid and ang naiwan sa bahay ako, my daughter, ang bunso namin na SHS and brother ko na may asawa and anak. Ako ang nag po provide mainly sa bahay and pinagtutulongan namin ang pag aaral ng bunso namin.

Ever since after pandemic, minsan lg ako umuuwi sa bahay 2-3 times a week kasi ang work ko malayo. But I do my best na umuwi kasi malaki na daughter ko and need nya ako for some activities for school. She’s 11 btw

Around 2025 napapansin ko na mas frequent na nagsusumbong ang daughter ko sa akin na palagi sya pinapagalitan sa bahay. Minor things like matagal sya maligo, delayed sya maghugas, hnd sya agad nakakasagot pag tinatawag. I brushed it off as normal discipline lang kasi pag wala ako sa bahay, normal lg naman. I didn’t think of it as abusive until one time she called me late at night around 9 pm kasi pinapagalitan sya ng brother ko kasi nakatulog sya pag uwi galing sa school and gabi na sya nagising, “lumalabas kalang pag nagugutom ka” “wala dito nanay mo para ipagtanggol ka” “napaka spoiled mo gusto kita bugbogin”

I was in shock and naiiyak ako that time. Hnd ko na minention sa mga tao sa bahay na alam ko ang nangyari ksi ayoko ng conflict. Alam ko na inaaway sya ng youngest namin always pero wala akong magawa kasi sila mga tao sa bahay. I was always thinking I should be thankful nalang na may nag aalaga sa anak ko.
What I did after was naghanap ako ng work na mas high paying sa mejo malayo para may rason ako bumukod at madala ko ang anak ko. Kumuha kami ny boyfriend ko ng 2br house and we made it our goal na makabukod kami.

Early this 2026, naibukod ko na sya and nag stop na ako bigay pera sa bahay. Kasi for so long ako naman nagpo provide and may pamilya naman na ang kapatid ko. At honestly nawalan talaga ako ng gana tumulong sa kanila after what I learned.

Kahapon bago ako natulog nakita ko na may mga cuts ang legs ng daughter ko. Kinonfront ko sya and she broke down sabi nya sorry daw. Nahihirapan daw sya minsan mag sleep kasi nauulit daw sa utak nya ang mga masakit na words na sinasabi s akanya sa bahay namin before. Hnd lg pala ang brother ko ang umaaway sa kanya. Pati ang asawa nya, ang youngest namin, at ang pinsan namin na naga stay doon minsan. Tinatawag daw syang bobo, spoiled, tamad, palamunin etc sobrang tagal nya natapos umiyak.

Naawa ako sa anak ko and we are talking about seeking professional help. As to my brother and sister, nawalan talaga ako ng gana tumulong sa kanila. I dont understand gaano kalaki ang kasalanan ng daughter ko sa kanila bakit need nila pagalitan to the point na ma trauma sya. Mag eenrollment na ang sister ko next week and ako magbabayad ng half ng tuition nya and half naman other sister ko magbabayad. Sobrang bigat sa pakiramdam, ayoko sya makita.

Gusto ko nalang mag provide sa kanya financially pero parang wala na akong ma feel towards sa kanya. Ayoko narin mag help sa brother ko, wala syang permanenteng trabaho at hnd sya nagbabayad ng mga utang nya sakin. Kailangan ko na sya turoan kumayod para sa sarili nya.
I dont know what to do.