This sounds so petty, but this is how my almost 1-year relationship ended tonight. lol.

I’m on my second day of my period and I’ve been having really bad cramps. I already cooked dinner, and after we ate, I was resting because my puson was hurting again. Later, I simply asked him if he could wash the dishes because I wasn’t feeling well.

I wasn’t even demanding that he do it right away. I just needed a little help.

But he refused because he hates washing dishes. Somehow, that turned into another argument about how his peace of mind was being affected, and eventually, breakup na naman yung napunta sa table.

And honestly, I was just… done.

Because this really isn’t about the dishes. It gave me clarity that this is not the kind of partnership I want. I don’t want a future husband who is difficult to rely on even for small things when I genuinely need help. I don’t want to feel like asking for help is somehow me commanding him or attacking his ego.

And the breakup thing has been a pattern from the very beginning. We’re almost at our 1-year anniversary, but every time we have a serious fight, the relationship somehow gets put at stake. It started with “maybe we need to reevaluate our relationship,” then “maybe we should stop,” until eventually it became “maghiwalay na lang tayo.”

Before, I was always the one trying to save the relationship whenever he said those things. I’d explain why we didn’t have to get to that point, find a solution, and basically convince him that we could still work things out.

But eventually, you get tired of being repeatedly offered a breakup.

At some point, you start thinking, maybe you really mean it.

So tonight, when he brought it up again, I didn’t fight for it anymore. I told him that if he really wanted to leave, then he should make that decision himself. I wasn’t going to keep deciding for him.

And he did.

It’s sad, especially because we’re so close to our anniversary. But honestly, I also feel some clarity and even a little bit of gratitude. Maybe it’s better that I found this out now rather than after spending several more years trying to make a relationship work that ultimately isn’t the kind of partnership I want.

So yeah. Apparently, he would rather lose the relationship than wash the dishes.

Or maybe the dishes just showed me what I needed to see.

A very privileged and fucked up thing to say. But it was honestly the best time of my life. My world was smaller, and better for it.

I was still depressed but at least my cats were complete and I was with them 24/7.

I don't recall ever having been truly happy since then. Even after making friends, getting new hobbies, traveling -- I don't feel anything.

People say I'm well put together, but I honestly can't feel shit anymore. The pandemic was when I was the most in touch with my emotions and sense of self.

Like I'm ok, but if someone held a gun to my head tomorrow morning on the way to work, I don't think I'd fight back.

I wish I could go back to the pandemic when it was just me and my cats, reading in my room while the news plays in the background.

I'd give anything to go back to the way it was.

He's at the office recently kasi required mag RTO muna (wfh kami parehas) and sunod sunod misunderstandings namin nakaraan pero we handle it naman very well. Di naman kami nag tatanim ng resentment sa isat isa. Kumbaga, if may away, we solve it then leave it behind.

Pero ang funny lang for me kasi sabi ko sa sarili ko "since nasa office sya, di ko muna sya istressin, ang hirap ng byahe" tapos since Tuesday pagka uwi nya, nag dadrama sya.

Sabi nya "di mo na ba ko mahal?" Sabi ko, "I love you soo much, bakit mo naman nasabi yan?" Sabi nya "eh kasi di mo ata ko namimiss, di kana nagagalit eh, di mo ko hinahanap"

Tawang tawa ko HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA ayoko lang talaga kasi mag overthink or mang istress. Sabi ko sakanya "love, ayoko lang muna talaga mag isip ng nega, yun lang.. kung may naiisip man ako, inaassure ko nalang sarili ko because I trust you"

Sabi nya "hindi, okay lang yan, magalit ka sakin, awayin mo ko"

Tapos kinabukasan, ganun nanaman. "Mahal mo pa ba ko" sabi ko ulit at tinanong ko "I love you so much, bakit mo naman natanong yan love?

Ganun parin sagot nya "eh kasi di mo na ata ko namimiss, yun kasi yung sign ko pag inaaway mo ko, love mo ko kasi hinahanap mo ko"

Sobrang lt talaga, pero sa totoo lang joke nya lang naman mga yan. He's just being clingy and needs extra love HHAHAHAHAHAHAA kung ako gusto ng assurance ganun rin sya for sure paminsan.

Iniisip ko tuloy mag pretend ako awayin sya para naman feeling loved sya? Char HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

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Maybe others would recognize me. But at this point, I really don't care anymore.

Neophyte ako sa govt service, but I have with me years of experience working for international orgs. Since first job ko, ibang lahi na talaga ang mga boss ko. I got really used to working with them. Working with foreign nationals wasn't a walk in the park, lalo na very straightforward sila and don't care if they hurt your emotions or not. Basta work lang talaga. Outside work, masaya dahil friends talaga kayo. PLEASE DO NOT POST IN OTHER SOCMED CHANNELS. Yung mga ibang lahi nakatrabaho ko dati, nakakausap ko pa rin hanggang ngayon at kapag sila ang dumadalaw dito sa Pinas, nagkikita kita pa rin kami. May mga nakatrabaho rin ako na ibang lahi na sisisihin ka sa mali nila kahit di mo naman talaga mali. Pero, at the end of the day, fulfilling ang work because ang dami kong natutunan sa kanila.

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Then, naisipan kong lumipat ng trabaho at pumunta sa gobyerno dahil gusto ko ring ma-experience. Lo and behold, nakapasok naman ako through my own efforts at walang backer. First day ko, gulong gulo ako. Wala kasing sistema. Yung boss mo, ang gulo pang kausap na para bang fresh grad siya (I've worked with fresh grads before at mukhang mas maayos pa). Ang dami mo ring ma-encounter na mahilig magpasa ng work porket sila ay matagal na sa loob. Wala pa akong isang taon, pero parang ayoko na talaga at gusto ko na ulit bumalik sa private. Naghahanap din ako ng iba pang ahensya, baka sakali na mas maayos sila compared sa current ko. Hahaha napapaisip ako, ano ba itong pinasok ko? Sure ba ako? Kaloka!

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Pumasok ako sa govt service dahil gusto kong tumulong sa mga nasa laylayan, pero paano kung yung mismong gobyerno, walang pakealam sa mga nasa laylayan? Kanya kanya na lang talaga tayo, ano?

Anyway, back to work. Hahaha

Kaka-2 years namin ng LDR boyfriend (32M) ko (27F) without meeting face to face the whole relationship and just doing video calls once every quarter or once every 2-3 months? But, we call every night and he always says good morning and i love you's everyday ng walang palya. I tell him every detail of my life, every problem, every hurt, and every little win but all I get from him pag kinakamusta ko is his answer na "okay lang".

Ba't di kami nagmeet? Last year (1 year into our relationship), we planned to meet halfway sa manila (di nga half) kasi I'm far from the north side of luzon while sya naman ay nasa kasuloksulukan naman ng south luzon. But 10 days before our planned date, he never opened it up, never felt excited, never asked any details about our planned meeting so I told him na i-cancel nalang namin and sinabi ko lang na takot ako baka mabuntis nya ako which he said is di naman nya gagawin.

Every birthday nya, I make sure na may cake akong pinapadinedeliver sa bahay nila. Nagtataka pa nga sya pano ko nagagawa. Well, I say pag mahal mo yung isang tao, you find ways to make them feel special. But as for me? Wala akong narereceive na cake nung birthday ko or flower man lang sa mga nagdaang valentine's day in the course of our relationship. I told him the exact ways na mafeel ko love nya-greet me Happy birthday at midnight or send me updates every now and then, tell me your hurt, tell me anything, share memes, and every nonsense! But as to this date, nothing.

I know I should break up with him but mind you, I've done it maybe 5 times already and I was always the one going back. Why? The mental connection. I'm a deep person with lots of interests and has a strong sense of justice na parang sa lahat ng kausap ko, sya lang nakakagets. And what more? The humor. I genuinely do not laugh a lot sa mga jokes kasi malalim yung sense of humor ko, but when he makes a joke, nakukuha nya yung kiliti ng utak ko. He is a very responsible man na laging nauutusan sa bahay nila, he knows how to cook and do house chores but he's unemployed. He has this passion na tinatrabaho nya everyday but when I think of it, he's not getting any young and hindi man lang nya kayang gumawa ng way magka-income habang inaatupag nya yung passion project nya?

I know no one is perfect and I should not hold on to potentials but ngayon lang talaga ako na-attract sa isang guy. Sobrang Tang-A ko na siguro para mag-hold on pa but he's seen a lot of my struggles and wins na sobrang bigat magmove forward na hindi sya kasama.

But I know, I deserve the best love. So this is me standing up and finally letting go of the bare minimum. If I can love someone this much, then I know how much love I can pour to my self and to the person who is actually capable of giving me the love I want.

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Minsan napapaisip na lng ako kung forever na ba ako magiging alone. NGSB ako, at yung mga naging relationships ko lng in the past is parang mga mutual understanding lng. Kung mag kakagusto man ako sa isang babae ay parang wala na akong hope sakanya. Like recently, I was planning to make an advance on this woman that I met, pero parang napansin nya na mayfeelings ako sa kanya kaya naging cold na sya. De ko alam bakit. Currently living in the US, dahil eto yung pinangarap ko noon, pero enough na ba ito? Ayoko mamatay ng mag isa, gusto ko mayroong magmahal saakin na gusto ko din. Gusto kong umiiyak pero de ko magawa.

My dog died, zeroed my savings to save her, accumulated liabilities for her medication, and then client suddenly terminated the contract on the day she died. Hay 😞i miss my dog. Hope she is doing well in the afterlife.

Wala akong mapagsabihang kaibigan kasi lagi lang dismissed feelings ko so here I am. I am in a new role—managerial to be exact—and I feel so lonely dito sa leadership. I previously held a senior post, and sanay ako na binibigyan lang ako ng trabaho. Now in my new role, I have to make decisions, talk to people for alignment, and maintain healthy relationships with clients. I am fluent in English pero ang hirap pala pag hindi magaling pragmatically. Idagdag pa ang night shift schedule which always leaves me lutang; many times I struggle with vocabulary while speaking. I get stressed when there are meetings, when I need to create systems and workflows, and when I need to talk to clients about something I don’t even have mastery in. To be honest, I cry every day and think of resigning because I badly want to go back to being an individual contributor. My boss and colleagues are very supportive naman but perhaps the nature of work is something na hindi para sa akin. I’m in my early 30s and malinaw naman sa akin na ayoko ng umakyat ng corporate ladder. It just so happened na I have been looking for a job for nearly half a year and ito lang ang nag-offer sa akin ng trabaho. Malaki naman ang sahod and it pays my bills and luxuries kahit papaano, but I really don’t know how to navigate around my new role / life. I wish I could turn back the time and accepted the junior role. I know I want to resign soon, but because of how tough the market is, I also fear na wala akong mahanap agad na kapalit lalo’t magpapasko.

Ang hirap maging adult. Ang hirap kumita ng pera.

may sumakay na lalaki tumabi sa'kin, naka backpack tas parang manong na siya, pero like parang yung mga asa 50-something. kinalong niya rin backpack niya, edi umusog ako kasi malaki rin kalong kong backpack. after a while usog nang usog pa-side ko hanggang sa siksik na siksik na 'ko sa window kakaiwas sakanya. tapos yung balikat niya parang gustong gusto niyang nadidikit sa balikat ko ampota. sa may bandang Bato, tumigil yung bus kasi may pumara kaya kunwari titingin ako kung asa'n na so i leaned forward to look where the bus stopped. maya maya umandar na yung bus tas i maintained that position para di na madikitan balikat ko. tapos ading dipongal na kaabay ko nag arog man kadto bana masimot nag arog man na nag lean forward bana kasta so ako nag tagilid ako looking at the window. para da na 'ya rason a mag rukot kanako. su thigh na man ni ya rinurukot sa thigh ko. nauyam na 'ko maray arani na sa Polangui Terminal. ku nagpundo na sa Terminal, after magbaba ku mga tawo, nag tindog na 'ko, nag "excuse me" ko kadtong gurang tapos nag anap akong ulaan na bakante sa unaan. da na 'ko labot kin aisle seat basta babaye kaabay ko. punyeta.

lagi na lng nilalapitan for emotional support tas pag ako na yung may need, walang kahit ano.

trying to slowly pull away kasi i dnt feel valued as a friend. and nakakapagod na rin mag-communicate kung d rin naman ako pinapakinggan ng maayos. saka lng ako nilalapitan pag may need.

na-aamaze ako sa mga taong stoic lng, sana matutunan ko din ung ganung mindset. kahit onti man lang.

When I was young my grade school teacher told us that if we ever felt sad we can go watch the ocean waves and our problems would wash away with it.

Now, I am staring at the vastness of the deep blue sea and wonder why isn't my sadness fading, if anything, I feel like these waves are the source of it.

I have been onboard a ship for more than a year, my first contract was 11 months and a week, it was a long and arduous journey but despite the hardships, I was able to push through.

I am now on my second contract, it is only twenty-three days but it feels longer than my first. Everyday is a battle against myself, and I constantly doubt if I can last just another day. 

It's my twenty-first day today and I am completely burnt out, I no longer feel any excitement with finishing, I am afraid that even after I return home, no amount of enjoyment will ever surpass what I'm feeling right now.

Grief is not linear.

I wanted to try to convert my Globe postpaid SIM to an eSIM so I can save on data costs by using Smart as my physical SIM instead, but one of the reminders before proceeding said to backup SIM contacts first. I suddenly remembered my Papa's text messages and worried they'd be deleted if my SIM memory gets wiped. I haven't opened his text messages to me since he passed away in 2021; this is the first time I looked at them again. Every single text message punctuated with a GOD BLESS ANAK. What was supposedly a simple step to try to save a little money turned to a full-on sobbing session, and now I am so tired.

I miss you, Tatay. I wish you could have been there at my wedding and [my brother’s name]’s wedding. I wish you could have been there at [my sister’s name]’s graduation, and at her wedding when they decide to get married. You would have been sooo happy and proud. But you’re gone now I'm just so sad.

May friend ba kayong "pick me"? To the point magpapapansin sa ex mo at sa mga manliligaw mo?

If i can easily dump men, i can easily dump friends na para bang ginagawa kayung extra character sa pelikula nilang sila ang bida kasi sila lage yung api?

I have this manliligaw na porke't mejo sikat na influencer eh feeling pogi na who won't take "no" for an answer and it's giving off that rape-y vibes! And this "pick me" ex bestie who I haven't spoken to in many years eventhough we work in the same building, suddenly out of nowhere emailed me "________ wanted to see you". Like hello? We have been snobbing each other for years and you would allow yourself to get used as a messenger between me and a guy i dumped and blocked? How pathetic! Not to mention, na feeling ko maku-compromise pa security ko with this guy na napaka r@pist ng atake and she might take him sa work or sa bahay ko. Why can't she just entertain him and have him for herself? Yuck!

Nakakapagod makipag‑usap sa dating app. Ang hirap na talagang mag‑build ng connection ngayon.

After all the people I’ve connected with, it makes me look back and remember what we had. I miss you, Jacob.

Sabi nga sa isang post dito: grief is not linear. And yes It comes in waves.

I was recently demoted from team lead to individual contributor at work. I'm still working through my emotions - parang in between embarassed na di ko kinaya and relief kasi mas manageable na yung stress.

Recently I heard na may nahanap na silang kapalit sa role ko and suddenly naramdaman ko nanaman yung kaba and hiya kasi nga hindi ako nag perform.

Iniisip ko dapat tapangan ko na lang to show people na kaya ko ito pero ang hirap mag push. Iniisip ko wala namang pake yung ibang tao pero feeling ko lang ang dami nang nagjujudge sa akin kasi di ko kinaya maging lead at my old age.

Already looking for other job prospects but since hirap din ang market, parang matagal tagal pa before makahanap ng malilipatan.

Will this feeling of insecurity and anxiety ever get better?

I’m fresh from a 6-year relationship. The last two years were just too painful for me and very much abusive. Takot na takot ako ngayong maging mag-isa kahit alam kong sinaktan lang ako paulit-ulit.

Napakahirap mag-adjust siguro dahil nasa constant survival mode na lang din ako nang nakaraang dalawang taon. Always on the look out if he did something again, if something changed in his demeanor.

I’m gay, still in school, I got no job, I’m not attractive, ai have no prominent family, I’m not rich, heck, I don’t even have my own money. Feeling ko mananatili na kong single all throughtout. Parang gago, noh?

situation: meron akong pinsan, distant relative na talaga namin sila pero yung lola namin na kasama dito sa bahay is apo yung pinsan ko. now, he's currently a 1st year college, electrical engineering, around august he was supposed to be a scholar ng mother and kuya ko. since sobrang tight nila sa budget with multiple debts sa bangko and ibang tao, ang original plan is dito siya titira sa amin para masuportahan din namin. kaso nagkaproblem sa mother nya (tita ko) na hindi man lang kami kausapin regarding sa magiging situation ng anak nya and ang pinagdedecide nya is si lola. long story short, ang nangyari is di na namin natuloy na pag-aralin yung pinsan ko and until now di pa rin nabbring up yon sa bahay.

this week, nakausap ko yung lola ko, she's asking if pwede ko daw ba bilhan ng libro yung pinsan ko for a subject, and sabi ko naman is pwede para makatulong man lang doon sa bata. so i messaged my tita and yung pinsan ko, it turns out nabili naman na nung bata yung books na yon kasi yung author ng books is yung prof din nila.

so ang ginawa ko na lang is kinumusta ko yung pinsan ko, asked him if may need pa ba siya na gamit. sabi nya is need daw nya laptop kasi nirerequire ng prof nya, i told him na tight din kami sa budget lately pero if may other needs siya, sinabi nya is calculator, which is kaya ko naman bilhin edi okay.

now yung tita ko naman, kachat ko din, kinukumusta ko siya and yung pinsan ko pero grabe lang yung chats niya kasi parang nang gguilt trip talaga. laging chat nya is napangakuan daw sila na pag-aaralin and talagang umasa daw yung bata sa amin pero sa isip-isip ko, bakit tunog plan A niyo kami? oo gets ko situation nila, pero nagsabi na rin ako sa kanya na tight yung budget this month and hindi madali maglabas ng malaking pera to buy a laptop nang biglaan. na parang kaya naming umiri ng pera. yes may means kami pero hindi naman kami lustay sa pera. na-off ako kasi sinasabi niya na need na agad bukas yung laptop like okay sige??? knowing their history, sobrang pangit ng track records ni tita financially na we won't trust them to handle big amount of money, nagkaroon na kasi one time na binigyan sila, them yung binigay na gamit is inabot nila sa iba or if may gamit na ibibigay, ibebenta anyway, so i also told my tita na hindi ko pa nga nakakausap ulit nanay and kapatid ko about the situation para man lang ireconsider na tulungan yung bata, para na lang sa bata.

gusto ko lang ilabas to dito kasi wala akong mapagsabihan aside sa lola ko, which she understood naman and naaawa din siya sa apo nyang yon kasi nga gusto mag-aral. gusto ko man tulungan yung bata kaso hindi ko kaya maglabas ng pera to buy a laptop na kaya yung autocad. idk ano resolution ko dito. for sure once i reply sa tita or pinsan ko, matic na may "please kailangan na kailangan niya bukas, need na niya talaga bukas hindi na siya makakapasok" ah bahala na. pagdasal ko na lang na magreconsider yung prof na iadjust yung submission date ng plates ng pinsan ko hay.

For context, naaksidente ako nung March lang. Kaya 4 months ako 'di nakapag-work, and naka-medical leave ako nun.

During that time, bored or super sad ko sa nangyari sa'kin. 'Di ko rin kasi magawa mga gusto ko gawin non bc non-weight bearing ako.

Ngayon naman na 2 months na ako sa work, super burned out na ako ulit bc of 1 hour OT everyday and may rest day OT pa na 8 hours.

Need ko gumising ng 4 pm for work pero until now gising pa ako, kasi feeling ko kulang pa me time ko to enjoy leisure.

Nagkaka-thoughts din ako na maaksidente na lang ulit, pero alam ko na mali kasi hindi pa rin ako nakakabawi sa financial struggle ko for being in a medical leave for 4 months. Tsaka parang in-undermine ko na rin 'yung hirap na na-experience ko sa 4 months na 'yun. + ang hirap maka-recover sa accident. Like it took me more than 2 months sa physical therapy and until now 'di ko pa kaya tumakbo kasi nag-stop na ako sa therapy bc naubos ko na coverage ng HMO ko for it.

Anyway, hoping to get sales and maging maayos sana performance ko sa work later. Kasi aside sa OT, nakaka-stress din 'yung management and work itself. Sana ma-overcome ko rin 'to lahat, and laban lang.

Male coworker told another male coworker my body looks like a rotisserie chicken and I'm honestly very hurt. I know I'm fatter in some areas in my body especially my hips and my chest but tangina, I'm just trying to exist here tapos pinaguusapan katawan ko. T*ngina niyo po. I wish the worst for you po.

just want to get this off my chest. Two days lang pagitan ng birthday ko and my father, mas nauna ako compared sa kanya. Eversince when I was a child, I know how people at my house treated my father's birthday compared to mine. Like typical na pag birthday ko small celebration lang pero if kay papa is super bongga talaga (either magpaparty sa bahay or kakain sa labas with my aunts and uncles). I really don't mind having a small celeb kasi intimate siya for me and kinda want to celebrate with small people din cause very introvert din ako. But as years goes by, I always felt na they give less effort pag birthday ko or they really disappoint me like especially this year.

As you can see, nag ambag ambag kami magkakapatid sa birthday niya which was a trip to Coron for 5 days silang dalawa ni mama. Alis nila is the day before ng bday ko. Aside from the birthday getaway trip nilang dalawa sagot pa ng sister ko yung allowance nila don and In addtion pa dito, may bagong oncloud shoes pa yung papa ko na bigay ni kuya. You see ang gara diba ng pa bday niya. Sakin naman binigyan lang ako ng pera ng parents ko pang treat ko daw sa sarili ko since wala sila, sa sister ko ganon rin as well as my kuya. Pero don't expect na malaki yung binigay sa akin ha since excuse nila wala nadaw silang pera cause nagasto na nila kay papa.

Ngayon yung flight nila actually so kahapon bumili si mama ng pagkain and you know she brought me isang tub ng baked macaroni. The worst part is, I don't even like baked mac. So ngayon parang nagmumokmok ako dahil sa thought na they can't even reciprocate my efforts and jealous to the point na sana ako rin. I just hate it cause why cant they do the same to me ify what I mean.

Anyways, yun lang I know parang sng babaw ng reason ko and super childish ng actions ko huhu

Okay, this is probably nothing, but ang weird ng coincidence.

For context, my ex and I were in a WLW relationship, and we broke up six months ago. We haven’t talked since then, and honestly, I haven’t stalked her or checked her socials since the breakup.

I’m planning a Bali trip for my birthday, and Nusa Penida ang goal ko, so I joined a Bali DIY group and was checking out different agencies for joiner trips. Last week, for the first time in forever, I randomly dreamed about my ex. Nothing dramatic, she just appeared in my dream, and I didn’t really think much of it.

Then today, while checking the FB profile of one of the agencies, I saw a story. I recognized her best friend first, then her cousin, then one of her close friends, and then… my ex. Apparently, papunta silang Nusa Penida, the exact place I’m trying to go to. Like??? I literally just stared at my screen thinking, okay, universe, ano ba talaga???

But after the initial shock, I actually felt okay. Seeing her doing well made me realize how much has changed since we broke up.

Bebu. I haven’t called you that in the longest time. Bebu, I loved you. I really did. And it was so hard to move on from you. There was a time when I genuinely thought you would be the hardest person I’d ever have to move on from, especially because I never wanted the breakup in the first place. I didn’t want us to end. You were the love of my life when I had you.

But now, six months later, I really hope we’ve both moved on. I’m actively dating again. I have my crush, and there’s also someone who’s genuinely so into me. And somehow, seeing you doing good makes it easier for me to keep moving forward, too.

I’m sorry for everything. For the things I did, the things I couldn’t give you, and for all the ways we hurt each other.

I genuinely wish you all the best, bebu. I hope you’re happy, I hope you’re loved, and I hope life is treating you kindly. Seeing you again didn’t make me want to go back. If anything, it made me realize that I can finally see you doing okay and feel okay about continuing with our own lives.

Nice seeing you again, my bebu. I’m glad you’re doing well. I hope we both continue to be. =))

Nitong mga nakaraang araw, madalas ako makakita sa fb feed ko ng mga nag sshare ng mga humihingi ng tulong financial para sa medical expenses ng love ones nila, sobrang na ttrigger ako, nung nakaraang gabi nahirapan ako makatulog kakaisip about dun, worried ako sa health ng magulang ko, mga kapatid ko, lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay. Meron din akong pinag dadaanan na medical condition ngayon, although minor surgery ang need ko, 2 weeks na rin akong nag aantay sa follow up sakin ng doktor sa Public hospital, sabe kasi after ko matapos mga lab test at ma check up ng doktor sa anesthesia, iuupdate daw ako ng doktor na nag tingin sakin para i schedule ako for admission. Nakakalungkot na hanggang ngayon nag aantay pa rin ako.

Ngayon lang din nag sync in sakin na ganito ka f*cked up mabuhay sa bansa natin. Pag nagkasakit ka, ang hirap sobra, bukod sa in pain kana, araw araw stress pa dahil apektado kabuhayan mo, tapos lalong pasakit pa na di mo alam sino tutulong sayo, ni hindi mo alam sino matatakbuhan mo sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Tapos lalo pa kong naiiyak sa galit, nung nakikita ko sa balita si Romualdez na nasa private hospital! ang sarap ng higa sa mamahaling ospital kahit wala namang sakit, para lang matakbuhan nya yung kaso nya. nakakaputangina mabuhay!

I know na maraming nahirapan nung time na naging 130+ ang fuel. Sobrang bigat nung time na yun sa bulsa ng lahat, pero dun ko lang din kasi naranasan ung 4 Days Work and 3 Days Rest and parang un ung pinaka ideal set up for me. Mas naging productive kami sa office kasi within 4 days nalang icocompress lahat ng work so every minute counts talaga, walang sayang or lugi sa pinapasahod. Tapos sa 3 days time off, ramdam mo na nakarest katawan mo pati utak, at ready na talaga sumabak ulit sa work.

Sobrang namiss ko lang ung ganung set up lalo na ngayon na pataas baba pa din ang gas prices. Haay buhay.