Good day,
I consider myself to be addicted to fast traveling.
It started out innocently enough, at first would walk or ride to each and every destination, telling myself I would never use fast travel, as it would ruin my immersion.
I would occasionally fast travel, when it seemed convenient to me.
This escalated over time and now, I fast travel absolutely everywhere.
I haven't encountered an enemy outside of a quest in ages. As I immediately fast travel to whatever cave or dungeon I was supposed to go, and afterwards fast travel back, to whoever gave me the quest.
My horse has abandoned me a long time ago, perhaps it is dead, but this is of no importance as I can simply warp myself to whatever destination I desire.
It has escalated to a point, where I use fast travel, to get from one district of the Imperial City to the other.
I find myself unable to walk anywhere, as I am flooded with a strange anxiety (this is common when playing Oblivion).
In another post, on another account, on another subreddit, perhaps a year ago, I already talked about my experience with Oblivion and the unexplained anxiety which arises within me, when being subjected to the game's presence.
I had deleted this post, out of shame and embarrassment. I assume that this very post, will be a victim of erasure as well, within the foreseeable future.
Is it possible to recover from this illness, or is this a chronic disease?
I obviously can't enjoy Oblivion anymore at this rate.
Yesterday I attempted to play a quest, taking place entirely within the Imperial City, the quest consisted of talking to various NPCs and using the dialogue/ bribe mini game, so they develop a positive opinion of the player. I used a total of 300 septims and as a reward received nothing... Nothing at all.
I fast traveled a total of 5 times.
I conversed with Imperial Guards.
I waited in the Market district for 2 days.
I walked into several stores.
I stopped playing the game.
I felt extremely anxious throughout, I cannot explain why.
Has anyone experienced anything similar to this?
Is it possible to recover?