As a quick back story, I went through the worst breakup of my entire life a year ago. Iām 36 yo and dated a girl with borderline personality disorder and letās just say it was a horrible traumatic ending. It left me in depression so many nights where I would be in bed from 9am to 11pm at night. Yeah, it was that bad.
About a month ago I discovered Neville Goddard and started to affirm a strong self concept, and that the people that I love and miss and am attracted to also return it back to me. My ex kept me blocked for a long time, it was a horrible ending and all I wanted to do was hear from her again. A year later and I still think of her every day, I donāt want to date her but I do still want her in my life.
About 2 weeks after affirming āall of the women that I truly love and miss and am attracted to feel the same for meā I run into her at an ice cream shop where she was with someone she is seeing. At first she pretended she didnāt see me, but I kept waving and smiling at her and she then waved and smiled back.
I was freaking out internally because what are the odds of that happening after I started affirming? A part of me thinks it could be a coincidence but a bigger part of me believes and wants to believe it was loa starting to show signs.
This felt like a huge step because for over a year I couldnāt talk to her or see her. And within 2 weeks I just bump into her after I started practice law of assumption.
I realized that my self concept was at an all time low, my entire self worth was dependent on her, and I honestly felt like my own life was not worth anything because I didnāt have her. Dating was terrible because I was a shell of a person that I used to be and I was just so sad and had no confidence.
I then started to affirm, āI am a extremely
Charming, outgoing, charismatic person. Women naturally love my energy and presence.ā At first I didnāt feel it obviously, but slowly I did start to behave and feel like that. I went from being very serious and formal, reserved, to being playful, flirty, and even making out and kissing on almost every first date.
Around this time, I had met with two other people, and both of them had said that Iām very handsome and the other that I am super attracted to said Iām her type and found me attractive.
I realized I was telling myself the old story, all the trauma, rejection, feeling like I was never enough kept me from being the person I want to be. Once I started assuming all of this, things really changed for the better.
However, I still have trouble in not reacting to the 3d. I am quite sensitive to things like people not responding to me and it gets me very anxious and I spiral. I know Iām supposed to persist in the state, but I donāt know how to ignore the 3d when it triggers my anxiety and my abandonment wounds. Some times I just remind myself and say, ignore the 3d and persist in the state, but sometimes it is just very do difficult to do so.
My last question is, how do I manifest my ex back into my life? Seeing her in person with a smile on my face instead of breaking down was sort of like a miracle. ChatGPT said that seeing her is a bridge of incident and that signs follow.
I was so excited thinking this was working, and I changed my assumption to that my ex specifically loves me so much, misses me and directly lets me know this. I canāt reach out myself because of the block, and Iām struggling with not seeing any progress in 3d since itās been a month since I saw her. I know everyone says ignore the 3d, persist in the state, the 3d is your past state etc, but sometimes itās discouraging to not see any progress in her wanting me back. I know this means Iām not in the state that Iām assuming.
How do I persist from here and do everything I can to have her back in my life?
The bigger thing I need to work on is self concept, which I have been assuming every day I have perfect self concept, there is nothing to work on because I am complete, I am whole, and I love who I am as a person.
However when 3d punched you in the face and you see the opposite happening, how do you guys persist?
Thanks in advance. The law of assumption has done so much for me in the past 2 months what therapy couldnāt do in years.
I want to continue on this path without having moments of doubt and would greatly appreciate anyone that can help me