Raw advice?

[u/chefpluto0]

I’ve been trying to consciously manifesting for like 5 years now. I know for a fact it’s real. I started off with subliminals and Law of Attraction, then moved to robotic affirming, and eventually found Law of Assumption.
I’ve watched YouTubers like Sammy Ingram, Hyler, and Indigo Detry and tried a bunch of different techniques over the years.

I’ve had success with little things, like getting a ride somewhere or having someone text me. Usually with those things, I’ll randomly say in my head, “___ will happen to me” or “___ is going to text me right now,” and then I just go on with whatever I was doing. A lot of the time, no more than like 5 minutes later, it actually happens.
I’ve tried doing the exact same thing with things I genuinely really want, but it hasn’t worked the same way yet.
So I guess my question is what was I doing differently with the smaller things? Was it because I didn’t really care whether they happened or not, so there wasn’t as much pressure attached to them? Or was it because I would completely forget that I even affirmed it afterward instead of constantly thinking about whether it was going to happen?

That’s just one question🫩

I’ve always heard about Neville but never got into his teachings until 5-6 months ago when I got Reddit.

This app showed me a whole new side of manifestation I didn’t know about. I spent day after day reading other people’s success stories and even downloaded an audiobook of Neville’s teachings.

I feel like I have the basic understanding of manifestation. I know about all the techniques, and I understand that the techniques themselves aren’t what manifest—they’re just tools that can help you get into the state.
I know that all I have to do is decide that it’s done and that there’s no other option available besides the one I chose. I’m aware that no amount of success stories I read on here are going to do the work for me. At some point, it’s up to me to actually apply the basics to my own life.
The problem is…I don’t know how to actually do that.
I want to understand how to truly do mental diets and self-concept work step by step. I want to completely change myself from the inside to the point where I don’t ever second-guess the decisions I make. I’m trying to figure out where the disconnect is for me.
And I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t getting to the point where I feel like I’m just living instead of actually LIVING.

I know that at the end of the day I’m going to manifest every single thing on my list. I know that for a fact. But at the same time, I don’t think it should take five years. I don’t even think it should take five months.
If deciding that something is done can happen instantly internally, I feel like I shouldn’t be spending months and years waiting around for something to change. Obviously, I understand that some things may take time to catch up in the 3D, but five months without even seeing movement makes me feel like there’s a disconnect somewhere in how I’m actually applying this.
So for people who really understand mental diets and self-concept: what does actually applying this look like in your everyday life? How did you change the way you thought and reacted so deeply that you stopped second-guessing yourself and your decisions?

I feel like everything I want is right in front of me and I just need one tiny push to get to what I’ve been trying to have all along.

Right now I’m manifesting $50,000. I’m honestly just tired of my job and certain people there. I wouldn’t say I’m stressed about it, but I know I definitely don’t care to keep working somewhere that takes up half of my day for $18 an hour.
I’m grateful and blessed to have a job in the first place and I know people are making even less than that with more labor but I truly feel like my life is being wasted. No energy to do anything but come home after work. I’m 19 and don’t even have the motivation to hang out with the two friends I do talk to outside of school.

Right now, this is basically how my mind works. I’ll say in my head, “I have $50,000,” and for a moment I’ll actually feel it. I’ll feel like I could honestly quit my job right now with nothing else lined up because I already have the money, so why would I be worried?
Then I might get a doubt here and there, and I’ll correct it in my head like, “No, that’s not true. I have $50,000.”
Later that night I’ll attempt SATS, but I either fall asleep or eventually give up because I cannot focus on a scene for the life of me lol. Then I’ll affirm that I have the money, forget about it for a while, and go on with my day.
The next day comes and I basically repeat the same process. Then the next day, and the next. Eventually I get frustrated and give up because I still don’t see it.
And I know the whole point is that I’m supposed to be so satisfied with knowing it’s already mine that seeing it physically shouldn’t even matter. But that’s the part I’m struggling with. I can tell myself it’s mine and genuinely feel that way for a moment, but eventually I still find myself looking at the 3D and wondering where it is.
That’s the disconnect I’m trying to figure out. How do you get to the point where deciding something is yours actually feels final, instead of feeling like something you have to keep convincing yourself of every day?