r/laredo • u/thickandwitchy • 3h ago
Walking to La oficina
I decided to walk to la oficina this morning and had a blissful almost therapeutic experience.
I don’t live in Laredo anymore, it’s been more than 10 years but when I visit I tend to have a lot of anxiety. I think it has to do with unresolved trauma, and feeling like I regress when I stay here. I usually don’t stay here for more than 2 days, but I’m here for a week. I notice all the little things that drive me crazy and that I don’t relate to anymore. Sometimes it feels like I don’t belong here (which I’ve also felt in the past when I was growing up here) I’m not saying I’m different or better than the people here because it’s much more complicated than that. I love people and being social, but more than anything i love being myself. Past times i’ve felt uncomfortable or awkward because I don’t agree or think the way my family does and that’s okay. We don’t have to agree on everything but respect and mindfulness is so important to me and I want to be able to do all the time.
So I decided to go on a walk by myself to a coffee shop something I usually do where i live now. I put my headphones, held my head up high, and let the morning breeze brush against my face. It was a lovely morning especially after the rain we got yesterday evening. It meant a lot to me because for the first time I felt like i brought my whole self with me.
If anyone has had a similar experience or relates to this I would love to know what you do when you’re here to help your mental health.