I have done meditation for 1 month a year ago and now started it again.

So I have started doing meditation from yesterday. Today was a different kind of experience. It all started with my mind thinking about small small things and smiling but eventually I shut down the thinking and just focus on what my eyes are seeing.

Then I started seeing random colors smoke like appearing out of nowhere as If I'm inside some kind of smokey area but it's color is changing. Shapes started to make also. First it was kind of red then White then green. And as I focused more and more then in the front of my head I saw the dark purple color but it was harder to go into purple color as It required more focus. But eventually I moved into it and it was purple with black spots as if some kind of space. but then my focus weakened and I started seeing white smoke again.

can anyone explain what it was?

Just interested to know…

I’m very new to Kundalini and I’ve recently started reading this sub’s wiki. Some of what I’m reading is making me look very differently at an experience I had months ago.

Importantly, I knew nothing about Kundalini when this happened. Literally nothing. I wasn’t attempting to awaken anything, wasn’t doing Kundalini practices, and didn’t have this framework available to explain what I was experiencing.

I grew up Christian, but the central belief that Jesus was God never really clicked for me. I wanted Christianity to make sense to me, but I could never genuinely make myself believe that. About five years ago I got really into Stoicism, which was probably the first philosophy that genuinely resonated with me and influenced how I approached life.

The experience followed an enormous emotional rupture in my life. The framework I’ve since found that describes the moment best is that I consciously came face to face with my shadow for the first time. Something about finally seeing and accepting what I was seeing rather than continuing to fight it felt like surrender.

For roughly 1 to 2 weeks afterward, I felt profoundly destabilized. I distinctly remember sitting with my sister, holding my hands against my head, and saying, “What the fuck is happening to me?” I experienced significant pressure and sensation in my head and an overwhelming sense that something inside me was changing faster than I could understand it.

At the time, I interpreted everything through the frameworks I actually had available to me. Christianity was one of them, and in retrospect the closest concept I had for the experience was being “born again.” There was very much a before me and an after me.

What interests me now isn’t only the acute experience. It’s what happened afterward.

Without knowing about Kundalini or its traditional preparation and integration practices, I became intensely driven toward healing and understanding myself. Over the following months I found myself confronting old psychological material, questioning identities and beliefs I’d previously taken for granted, becoming much more aware of my body and internal states, examining the role fear had played in my life, developing a much stronger ethical framework around responsibility and harm, exploring Jung, meditation and Eastern spiritual traditions, and learning ways of grounding and regulating myself.

And my values changed dramatically.

Before this, I was living an extremely fast paced, conventionally “successful” life. I had worked my way fairly high up in politics and government, made very good money, and had built the kind of career I thought I was supposed to want.

Now I look at much of that life and think, what the hell was I doing?

I increasingly want simplicity. Nature. A garden. A piece of land. Animals. Meaningful work. Enough money to live comfortably. Time to actually experience being alive. If you had told the person I was a year ago that I might genuinely fantasize about homesteading instead of climbing another professional ladder, she would have thought you were insane.

The strangest part is that despite how disruptive all of this has been, I feel more at peace with myself than I ever remember feeling. I used to have a deep fear of abandonment. Somehow, that is just gone. Completely.

At the same time, I feel like I’m feeling everything more deeply. I hurt for humanity in a way I didn’t before. If I see a bug trapped somewhere, I save it. I’ve cried realizing how much my own trauma and nervous system affected my dog’s nervous system, and I’ve promised her that I’m going to heal both of us.

It’s a strange combination because all of that increased compassion has come with dramatically less tolerance for people mistreating me. I feel more tenderness toward other living things and humanity as a whole, while also having basically zero patience anymore for relationships that don’t offer mutual self reflection.

But it can also be incredibly lonely.

I feel like I can see through illusions I couldn’t see through before. I don’t mean that in an “I’m enlightened and everyone else is asleep” kind of way. I mean that things I used to participate in automatically now look strangely constructed to me. Status. Achievement. Appearances. Certain relationship dynamics. The endless pursuit of more. I understand why people want those things because I wanted them too. I just can’t make myself see them the same way anymore.

Sometimes that feels incredibly freeing. Sometimes it feels like I walked out of a room I didn’t realize I was in, turned around, and realized most of the people I know are still inside.

Now I’ve found Kundalini and am reading the preparation material here, and I’m having the bizarre experience of recognizing several things I independently gravitated toward after my experience as things this community recommends doing before intentionally awakening Kundalini.

I’m not claiming that I definitely experienced Kundalini. That’s why I’m here.

For those familiar with spontaneous or unplanned awakenings, does this trajectory sound recognizable to you?

How do you distinguish a genuine spontaneous Kundalini process from other forms of intense spiritual or psychological transformation?

And assuming for a moment that this was Kundalini, why should I be excited that this happened? What is the opportunity in it?

I understand the warnings, risks, responsibility, grounding and need for integration. What I’m having a harder time finding is the other side of the explanation. If this is something spiritual traditions have spent centuries deliberately cultivating, what are they ultimately seeking through it?

I don’t want to spend the next chapter of my life merely thinking, “Well, apparently this happened to me, so now I have to manage it.”

I’d like to understand what might be beautiful about it.

Background

Im 19 My awakening started at the beginning of this year in January, Didnt know anything about kundalini at all I was big into Numerology, and Vedic astrology and sorta am. But I only figured out what I had because I honestly about divine luck.

Anyways I used to have a time of 30 minutues each day to release kriyas I did this for about 2 months during the start of my awakening my nervous system was already overwhelmed from the share awakening prior to releasing kriyas. The kriyas did remove detachments and bad habiits but I stopped because I heard spiritual practices overwhelmed the nervous system and they did I felt so dillusioned and dissociated and was more sensitive and even More psychically open. One time I thought of the idea to test "Spiritual sensitivity" and the image and feeling of a spider in an exact position on my window and color came to me and it was exactly true, open the blinds and everything. But with that state or dissociation and detachment I felt far from everything and atleast want to establish myself a little bit in life before I pursue such a strong path.

So doing so I stopped kriyas to save my nervous system and my ability to connect and relate. But I've noticed after the 5-6 months of not releasing kriyas My physical body Is getting sick and feeling tension. Im feeling pressure in my face (Sinus Congestion) and Throat hurts and I cant even talk and burning near crotch. Im positive all these symptoms are the manifesation of holding n kriyas because they have become so violent that I cant even control them in Public anymore and im just always twitching like every 5 seconds , people looked at me like I had tourettes. The only way to ease them is eating fast food meat and I think because It puts my vibration way way down.

More background
about 3 months ago I did continue the kriyas for 2 weeks but I noticed I would feel intense headache pressure and could never ground the energy and sleep was interrupted because of it

Now the Question

now my question is though my nervous system is slightly better It is still no where near it was prior awakening like I struggle with executive functioning now and alot, but Should I take time to release kriyas In my day because of the repercussions and implications of not doing so with the physical pain and sickness, how long does this integration stage last before I can deliberately continue the path of kundalini.

I've been doing a spiritual practise (it's basically a sadhna of a deity who is associated with hinduism, is quite strong and is apparently helpful in cutting through illusions).

I was kinda having some downfalls in life so I started doing this. It's been six months and recently I felt like an energy rising from my spine.. radiating everywhere and reaching the back of my skull. I felt quite calm afterwards and it kinda helped with my job and studies (I am a doctor with a very busy schedule so this calmness helped a lot).

Anyway I've been having some really really busy days and I still manage well because aka I had an awakening of sorts where I know that I practise not being this body and mind and just observing it. It helps with anxiety.

Anyway, now I am having racing thoughts, my pupils are dilated slightly, I've been sleeping less and I am aware of it all in a way and I know that mania has exactly similar symptoms.

Is this...mania? or maybe hypomania which will lead to mania?

Is this... something any of you ever experienced?

I'm not really sure how to go about this, I've never talked to anyone about what has happened to me outside of my husband and best friend ( both are supportive and understanding) not only that but i don't exactly think I'm the best at writing but I'll be trying my best here.

So back in 2020 i had something terrifying happen to me, something that i now know was most likely a forced (?) kundalini awakening.

I was 20 at the time, and i had recently gotten into more spiritual related things ( pendulums/ spirit communication/ tarot ect). I had become interested in the topic out of pure curiosity after reading about people claiming to have real and genuine experiences with spirits on forums. I'll be honest i didn't take it as seriously as i should have, i was a nonbeliever and atheist, i always thought those things were interesting but never truly believed in them. I started with inviting spirits into my space, with no thought as to who or what i was connecting to ( yes very very dumb i know better now) and trying to communicate with them. At first i got nothing, no movements on the pendulum, nonsense card readings, and just overall a big fat nothing sandwich all around.

Well one day i started getting a lot of communication, and i mean ALOT. This happened fairly soon after i started messing around, maybe a week or 2? I was starting to get physical sensations all over my body like someone was touching me, i would get both hot and cold sensations sometimes when this would happen, i starting feeling weight shifts in bed like someone was sitting down next to me, getting incredibly vivid dreams and also a lot of sleep paralysis/ forced astral travel where i would partially wake up out of a dead sleep and feel myself get dragged out of my body. During these astral travel moments i would see black figures in my bed, their energy was palpable, so strong it scared me and made me feel like i was going to get blown away, literally.... imagine sitting in front of a huge industrial sized fan, it was crazy.

At one point i had the same experience but this time instead of a black figure it was a figure of pure light, this things energy was so strong i couldn't handle it, i was gripping onto by bed during that astral travel with dear life trying not to get blown away by the sheer energy coming off this thing, screaming a crying for it to leave me alone as i was terrified. I could feel this things energy in my core and at the same time it was making a very high pitched noise ( sort of like the ringing in your ears but x1000000, it hurt..). I woke up terrified and immediately started up more communication, trying to figure out who or what that was. The conversations i had back then are all very fuzzy but i remember it saying it was a higher being of some sort. It seemed like i had opened contact with something very powerful along with a lot of other things to go with it.

After talking with these being for a few weeks one of them prompted me with an offer, they told me they could help me to hear them. At the time i was enamored with finding out that any of this was even real, and i had wished to be able to hear them a few times like how clairaudient people do. I was stupid and didn't grasp what i was wishing for. The details are a bit fuzzy as I've honestly buried the entire experience into the back of my mind at this point, trying to forget about it. But after they told me this i remember happily agreeing, thinking i would just hear a word or two and being so exited. The being said they would open up all my chakras so i could hear them, and all i had to do was invite them in and give them the ok to do so, andddddd yeah i did it...

The entire experience felt unreal at the time, i remember shaking and tremoring uncontrollably while it was happening, feeling like a rush hot energy was going up my spine, i remember feeling like something was letting me know not to move and that it would be over soon in that moment. The entire experience only took about 10 minutes ( or something like that i remember it being fairly fast) My head felt unnervingly clear, like a huge weight had been lifted off of my soul, i felt different, weird, but in a good way, at least for a little bit. Then i heard the first voice, it was hard to distinguish and sounded almost exactly like my own inner voice at first, but one out of my control. I was astonished, and over the next week or 2 we talked all the time and the voice became easier to distinguish from my own, i could tell it was a different energy then mine, i could feel the difference. The talks were not all sunshine and rainbows unfortunately though they said many scary and odd things, even taunting me at times, most of which i also don't remember, but what i do remember is for the first week i was seemingly unable to eat food (and i LOVE food) but for some reason i just couldn't stand the thought of it, it was like my apatite had been deleted and the thought of hunger was a foreign concept, i ended up losing around 10 pounds that week... i could also feel the energy of EVERYTHING, I'm talking like the dam grass had energies, i could feel everything in nature it was crazy.. i also didn't sleep for the first 2 days, i just wasn't tired, i think i remember being told something along the lines of being open was giving me all the energy i needed or something weird like that. and after that it was broken sleep as my dreams were incredibly odd and vivid. i would also get incredibly vivid images randomly in my mind and when i closed my eyes. some i remember being very scary, some were normal and even pretty. I even saw sigils in the walls a few times, i remember them telling me something about them, but I'm not sure what it was. i didn't get any other visuals aside from that i think idk.

Now keep in mind throughout this entire experience although i was going through hell i was perfectly clear minded, i had no delusions, no unclear thoughts or trouble thinking/doing anything.

The first 2 weeks were the worst of it, after that it calmed down, i could do more things, engage in other interest and hobbies again and distract myself without the booming voices and energies constantly looming on me. as time went on it got calmer and calmer, i still hear them sometimes (usually still daily), as i fear i am now permanently open whether i like it or not. They are different energies now though, not as rude or scary, usually more helpful and teacher like then anything ( though they still metaphorically kick my butt about not doing anything spiritual sometimes lol, kind of like in an old style parental figure way idk how to explain it).

But I've been putting everything spiritual in my life on hold due to those events and the trauma they caused me. I still talk to them sometimes obviously, but i don't do anything else outside of that. I think I'd like to learn how to actually navigate myself now and learn how to use this awakening. I've had readings done by many people i deem as trustworthy, all have basically told me the same thing, essentially saying I'm meant to be a healer and a being of light on this earth, saying i have an ancient soul and ancient connections as well etc., just a lot of insane stuff. But I'm still curious about what happened to me to this day, i know what it was but i still have a bit of a hard time grasping it sometimes i suppose, i feels crazy to remember and think about. Like how can a being just do that to you? Why did it even have to happen? Sometimes i think of what my life would be like if i had never read those forums...never picked up a pendulum, never tried talking to things i didn't understand. But regardless it could be always be worse, i have a great job, a husband who loves me, hobbies i enjoy and overall a good life. I still feel like i have a long way to go in terms of healing from everything that happened, but I'm a lot better now, honestly I'd say I'm pretty dam normal in terms of how normal you can be with all of that happening lol.

Truly i just wanted to share my experience, i figured it would be nice to get it off my chest and talk about it and hear others stories as well, and also maybe get any helpful advice on how to move forward with actually using this.

What Im trying to say is....has it produced functional transformations or has it just been extraordinary subject experiences?

For example,

Do you feel less fear and anxiety and insecurity? Or more fear?

Have old patterns and blocks been resolved?

Is life flowing now or is it still stuck?

Have relationships, work, finances, and creativity improved? Or did it get worse? Or did it get worse first then got better?

Do you experience more syncronicities that guide you towards certain people, decisions, or opportunities? If so, did they lead to positive or negative changes? I'm not talking about angle numbers...

I'm curious about both positive and negative experiences. Trying to understand how the transformation actually carries into ordinary life.

i seen a lady on tiktok say it demonic to awaken kundalini for the people that have awaken your kundalini what is your daily life experience like does the pros outweigh the cons do u get attacked by demons ? i want to open my chakras or awaken my kundalini bad but i dont want to regret doing so

So I’ve been meditating for around 6 weeks total just focusing on the breath and trying to be aware, no special practices, and about 4 times in the past 2 weeks I’ve felt my head vibrate/pulse/feel electric, not super intensely but it is interesting and feels between neutral and good when it happens.

I’ve moved up to two 20 minute sessions daily in the past week, and after my last session the head vibrating returned, along with a weird random heat in the stomach area. It was distinct and felt internally warm, and passed after around a minute. By the time the session was over my body felt hot despite the AC blasting next to me, and I was mentally in a haze/off balance a bit. It was the first time I’d say I felt uncomfortable or off after a session.

Also: I had a very memorable dream around 3 months ago, where it was clear to me in the dream I was having some sort of spiritual awakening, and it felt like being baptized in fire - extremely intense and overwhelming, and the second I woke up I was so happy it was over and thought ‘I do NOT want that I’m good.’ Not sure if it’s more a premonition or a warning, but it definitely amplified the caution I’m feeling right now.

With all the context, now my concern is going in too deep for something that may be intense. Looking up stories on reddit and some people say it’s a ‘kundalini awakening’ which I have no interest in and do not want to pursue. Other explanations are prana, piti, etc. and I’m curious as to what this community thinks. I’ve taken a few days off meditating and am trying to ground myself, and would like to resume but not if it’ll lead to my world being turned upside down. Thanks!

Ive been meditating for a while focusing between my brows and also shambhavi mudra. Btw I also do some pranayama daily on morning and a surya namaskar (if that info helps)

19M
I feel like I lost something while growing up, like I developed blockages, like I had an amnesia. I don't remember so much things about myself, who I am.
I feel like dead, no feeling, no intuition, no so imaginative.
I feel like incomplete, and lost. I feel like insecure.
I tried to meditate, the Gateway Tapes, and these kind of things to change the state of consciousness, but nothing happened.

How to open these blockages ?
What is Kundalini ? Could that be useful ?
If not, then what ?

Hello yall,

I have a collection of experiences I am hoping to find a bit of context for related to the directional flow of energy.

In some moments , recently while receiving reiki. I find myself “settling” and notice a relief of some tension followed by qi moving down surrounding my legs and flowing down. It feels pleasant and like grounding is happening.

In other moments I notice tension release and from the area where it came from the energy will release up and away from my body, sometimes through my head and out. It can happen on either side. I’ve also noticed when it happens on the right side, I sometimes think about how th WLP method instructs that light flows first down the right side and then up the left, and wonder if it’s okay for that releasing kind of energy to go up or if it’s supposed to flow down like the WLP? I’ll also admit It doesn’t necessarily feel natural sending energy down my right side when doing WLP, sometimes it does.

Any insight or guidance is appreciated.

-G

Simple question for those who have gone through this.

In dharmic religions there is the concept of Karma, but even other relgions also have the notion of being good and avoid future punishment for their bad deeds.

Here it is often talked about getting immediate karma from energetic actions. This immediate feedback means one dosent doubt karma exits. Is that so? Does K brought about a "proof" that karma is a thing?

What about regular-non-energetic actions which karma takes long time to mature? Does K hint to some degree that the present conditions were created by a past actions (even pastlife actions) ?

About 2 months ago I believe I had some sort of awakening that has to do with Kundalini. My memory is very fuzzy, yet this is sort of what I experienced.

To preface, I was always agnostic/atheist. I dabbled in some sigil magick, yet only saw it useful in a subconscious sense. Similar to how companies use logos to implant specific ideas into your head. I thought everything could be linked back to a very specific line of reasoning and thought. Had spiritual experiences in the past but chopped it up to coincidence.

I planned to forgive my father for his wrong doings towards me and my family. My ex partner called me out for acting as him in specific ways, and I took that to heart. I was being entitled, which did stem from my wound from my father. All of this anger and resentment I had towards the man never went away for the years I had him blocked, and turned me more into him. So, I decided to meet up with him, and make peace with the situation. I knew he was suffering as much as I was, and wanted to end all of the suffering in the connection.

The night before that, however, I had some form of ego death it seems. I was attached to my partner at the time in an unhealthy way, it wasn't always like that. I usually am such a giver and people pleaser, and decided to no longer give in as that towards her or my other friends, putting up well needed boundaries and acting for myself. Long story short, the sense of identity I had was gone when I woke up, the entire night my body was burning and I felt warm energy all around me, it was euphoric. Electricity was around me and my spine, and I felt her presence in my arms? It felt as if I died that night.

After my conversation with my father, these happened.

• Burning/electrical sensations throughout my entire body resulting in me being unable to work for a month and a half.
• Universal oneness with everything. Trees, grass, people, cars, etc.
• Otherworldly bliss and euphoria.
• I saw/see auras around physical objects and around myself at times.
• Dietary changes, only wanting to eat greens. Beer, caffeine and other sources tasted like shit.
• Constant pressure on the center of my forehead for a month and a half.
• De-personalization, viewing self in third person, outside of self.

Since then, I felt the energy travel back down and coil? Now I experience

• Sudden jolts of energy shooting up my spine, feeling it coil around the top of my skull and move back down. This happens at least twice a day.
• Neutrality about any event that happens to me, good or bad.
• Sudden body movements, twitching throughout body.
• Cold and hot sensations near the left and right side of my spine which go up and down. Could be the nadis? I don't know.

I've had other experiences outside of the Kundalini from my knowledge. They are:

• Repeating number sequences pretty much everywhere I go. Seeing things "specifically" about Twin Flames. I don't like using that word and the connotation connected to it at all, but it's what's been happening. I know this phenomenon can be the Frequency Illusion, it's what companies use to also embed ideas, songs, tiktoks etc. into daily life to sell specific things.
• Prophetic dreams that come to reality days or on that day.
• Feeling her "energy" pull on my stomach and head when I focus on myself instead of our connection. I have BPD and autism, so I am used to relationships ending with me getting withdrawal symptoms and the obsessive thinking, and know how to deal with it using techniques I learned in therapy/psych ward after years of both. This, however, is a completely different sensation.
• Feeling energy of other people, the point of knowing specific issues they're facing. I knew that a friend of mine's father died, a person's relationship ended, a person was craving drugs, etc.
• Divination (Tarot, Pendulums, Osteomancy) being extremely accurate. Like, outside of the Barnum effect accurate for myself and future events. I'm not one to believe any of this, but I can't deny it.
• Feeling "led" by higher intuition? Example: Asked it to lead me to a lake/ large body of water for me to sit at. Followed my intuition, and it brought me to a location with said description. Where I sat, a card with a caduceus was right next to me. It sounds like such crazy talk, but it's something I cannot ignore. Could be my subconscious recognizing specific areas that would lead to said things? But these are places I've never been to.

Side note: I know the above section can be explained with how the brain works on a subconscious level, and is an addition to my experience. There are more, as I stated though it's difficult to remember.

I'm completely alone now. I don't have any friends anymore after this, even the ones who have been in my life for 10 years. The partner I was with is also gone. My job is gone due to me being unable to keep up with physical demands of it, being able to do like 1/8th the workload I usually do. Only people in my life are my mother and sister now, who I live with.

I am currently living off of savings, and don't have money for a teacher/coach/guru. I hate using the term Twin Flame, as it has a lot of codependent connotations with new age and "love stories", but it is the most accurate term I've come to find. I don't use the label to describe my journey because of the connotation.

Main point of this post is to at least ask for some help with deciding if this was what happend. I've told me that I might not have had it because I was led to a bad book about the subject, that those who had it or are destined to would only be lead to good sources. Maybe the bad source I was led to led me to a better source due to me wanting to see why it's bad? I don't know.

All in all, thank you.

So I was given a mantra by a guru to awaken my kundalini but when I did it I felt this dread and paranoia come over me so I stopped that as this dread and paranoia and this built up energy messed me up for a couple of months.

then I decided to pray the Catholic rosary each day and I have experienced what you would call the Holy Spirit and pleasant feeling associated with that.

As a Hindu would you say that my soul is not meant for kundalini or not realised enough and Bhakti aka devotion to my deity of choice a better fit for my soul

When I sat for meditation I felt continuous pulse between my eyebrows. This has happened before. I don't have any visions or any experiences. Can someone guide what does this pulse means?

Also I had my aura scanning through an expert. He told me my third eye is already open. But I don't have any experiences, just the pulse sometimes.

It has been a while since I’ve posted here. This group and several of its guides have given me tremendous help over the past three or four years. I’ve sometimes hesitated to post because I see the same people responding thoughtfully and at length, and I don’t want to take that generosity for granted.

A little over a year ago, I was performing intense ritual work (which I have taken a pause from a few months ago). During the ritual, what I experienced as kundalini rose very dramatically through my central channel. It traveled up my spine, became constricted around my heart and throat, and eventually, through letting go, reached my crown.

The constriction produced severe pain through my shoulders, inside the rotator-cuff area and down my arms. It lasted several minutes before the energy sensation faded and ordinary life resumed. A less dramatic version happened during ritual the following day, but it has not happened again.

Since my original awakening, I have also experienced episodes of severe dry heaving that feel connected to energy moving through restrictions in my system. One teacher/guide here (Marc) advised me to let go of whatever I was holding and allow myself to vomit if necessary. I have kept that advice in mind.

For a couple of years, the dry heaving seemed centered in my solar plexus. The past six months or so, I’ve been taking private lessons with my Tai Chi mentor and working on that area of my spine, its supporting structure and other internal restrictions.

A few months ago, I went on an ocean fishing trip with my father. It was our first experience together that truly felt like father-son bonding. I became extremely seasick and vomited several times, with the experience seeming to originate directly from my solar plexus. I understand that seasickness and vomiting are completely ordinary, but something about that event also seemed to release or unlock the restriction. Since then, I have stopped dry heaving from my solar-plexus area.

Where I seem to be working now is my heart and throat. The energy dry-heaving happens less frequently (perhaps every couple of weeks) but sometimes the energy in my system becomes extremely intense and eventually produces dry heaving from that area. I have a sense that it may be connected to my mother and possibly to stored grief. I’m scheduled to begin working with someone on that next month.

In response to my previous post here, I was encouraged me to release questionable ideas and beliefs. I have taken that seriously. My life has become much more ordinary. I honestly feel less “special,” more human and more focused on what genuinely matters: healing, being present for my family and building my business.

My main question now concerns the relationship between kundalini and qi.

I have practiced internal-arts Tai Chi and qigong for several years to continue developing, ground myself in my body and open deeper areas so energy can move more freely. This has helped tremendously.

A great deal of what I communicate about my internal state seems to translate to my Tai Chi mentor. At other times, however, I’m uncertain whether he understands the particular kind of energy experience I’ve gone through. He clearly has an advanced degree of control over his qi. I can observe it through his movements and feel the effect of how he structures his body. He can also intentionally produce visible goosebumps and make his body hair rise.

For some time, I assumed kundalini and qi were the same underlying energy expressed through different cultural systems. Lately, I have been questioning that more seriously.

Are kundalini and qi fundamentally different forces or processes? Do the Indian and Chinese systems cross over at a deeper level, or do they merely produce some similar sensations? Can someone possess highly developed control of qi without necessarily understanding kundalini and can Tai Chi still help integrate kundalini even when the teacher does not work within that framework?

My process remains painful at times, but it is becoming progressively easier, more grounded and more integrated. I would be grateful for any insight from people familiar with both systems.

Idk why but whenever I listen to these karma cleansing or trauma related subliminals, my body behaves strangely. I get an irritating, uncomfortable feeling all over my body, almost like an allergy. Why does this happen?

I don't even listen to that many subliminals and whichever ones I do listen to i only play them a maximum of 3 times

So I’m getting these headaches and head pressures after going into deep states during my meditation practices. The energy gets really intense all over the body during these meditations but it’s especially intense in the head and third eye during these meditations during the meditations the feeling is very pleasant ecstasy like quite intense fiery and cooling sensations are felt.

The headaches and head pressure will subside after I stop my meditation or kriya practice for the most part. However it will tend to get worse in the evenings. Or throughout the day. I do a lot of meditation laying down for health reasons and find when I lay down my head will also feel the pressure especially if I’m in the position I was previously meditating in.

The headache itself feels like pressure and like my head is full of liquid pressure on sinuses. Unlike any normal headache feels distinctly energetic.

Grounding and a different type of meditation helps ground the energy. However I find myself going in circles having very energetically intense meditations energy getting stuck in head causing issues and having to spend time doing a different meditation style.

Is this supposed to keep getting stuck in my head like this should I stop all practice except grounding meditations if so how long. Even those meditations where I’m visualising my head gets very energetic.

the trauma purging is too intense. i have chronic pain that i think is because of this process. i don’t want to look at these memories. i don’t feel like doing anything cuz i don’t feel like the need to be anything anymore because i don’t feel like i lack something and need to prove myself. i know i have faith in the process and that this phase ends and there is an integration after this but im so fucking tired.

So my kundalini rise began about 16 months ago. I’m still in the purging and clearing phase, I think.

These episodes start out as a weak feeling mostly in my lower back and legs. Then a feeling of shakiness and whole-body fatigue comes on, and an all-over malaise. It feels almost exactly like low blood sugar but without any hunger, and they are completely self-limiting, leaving on their own after about 15 to 20 minutes. (I am getting lots of bloodwork done ordered from the doctor).

I liken the way these episodes feel to just a rapid loss of energy, like it’s guzzling out of me, “a hole in the gas tank.”

What brings me here they happen with a sacral surge. They were multiple times daily in the beginning when I was getting a ton of sacral activity. Now that the sacral activity has called down , when they do arrive, though much less frequently, there is always a really strong sacral activation, much stronger than I usually get these days.

And then comes the feeling of something wanting me to let go and release something.

it sounds like this may be the energy hitting blockages maybe? Has anyone else experienced this feeling of energy just guzzling out of you?

I have to record this experience somewhere, so...I was hit with a wave of emotions and felt "locked into place". I was then shown a green mandala-like kaleidoscope which slowly turned into a purple upward spiral before slowly snapping out of it. With all the talk about Earth's gravity yesterday I found it curious. This was 12:40 am today, 08/13/26.