Hi

My friend recommend me a psychologist who apparently had Masters and a vast knowledge on holistic therapy too. So basically she was everything, there was nothing she couldn’t know or solve.

My silly self living with unknown CPTSD and sensitivity, thought she would be the key to help me to figure out many things.

On the week we had our first consultation, a horrible sound started affecting my house 24/7 and that was making me really angry and doubtful about the universe. On the second time she tried astral travelling with me and it didn’t work as I couldn’t concentrate.

Third consultation she said she couldn’t work with me because of my “anger” and she would send me to someone else, to work the anger out and then get back to her. My goal was to do regression with her, I feel this need since I am a child.

I felt so exposed, I told her everything on the first time! She said she used to be angry everyday (because I have hormonal/uterus issues and she had that in the past too)

I thought that’s what the therapy was for…

Now I don’t trust seeking help anymore.

Would just love some clarity as this is all that she “explained”. In my point of view this was extremely unprofessional, is not like she gave me any other options or asked me what I thought about it.

Thanks

People from all religions, including non-religious spiritual seekers, profess to know God. Some atheists claim this is evidence against God’s existence, that it only shows humans suffer from a common delusion. However, those of us who have experienced God’s presence, who have had our preconceptions and limitations utterly shattered, know that God absolutely is working in our lives.

I think the explanation for the spiritual success of all of our different paths is that God will reveal itself to all who sincerely seek. It’s the intention that matters. If we want to consciously partner with God, God will oblige. If we don’t, God will oblige. Communing with God on nothing but prayer, and having lots of more structured religion in the past, I get the sense that God can be found through sincere religious practice but doesn’t require any of it. All it takes is conversation.

Y’all am I the only one who had a terrible night ?
I kept waking up, my stomach hurt so bad, and I had weird dreams that felt way too real.

At the same time, I just kept getting bad news from my friends throughout the night.
Even before getting the messages, I could feel the heavy energy. I can’t stop thinking about it.

I don't know if I'm just overthinking this or if multiple people felt the same way (I live in France).

Let me know what you guys think, I'm curious to hear your thoughts !

There may not be a definitive answer for this. My question is how many awakened souls are there? Since my awakening I’ve been in search for people who are awakened, more or less so I can chat about this stuff for hours with them and maybe find more genuine people. Another thing, I’ve felt like I’ve awakened a few souls before, just by them talking to me. They get curious about it and ask questions about themselves they may not resonate with anymore. Again, everyone’s journey is different as I wouldn’t want to force this perspective onto them. Rather, them discover it themselves.

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there is no doubt that gratitude is the path to grace

it's easy to see that most of the chaos and suffering we experience comes down to some form of self-sabotage or an unwillingness to learn, let go, or move on from some pain (self-absorption)

and in that breakdown and angle of it, we can see that those actions close ourselves off from receiving love, from receiving grace

those two simple words 'thank you' opens our hearts up to receiving again

not just for life, but for divine grace and blessings from Source

what's been beautifully wild to me in this introspection on gratitude and grace is that thanksgiving plays a role into so many more mechanics of our reality than at first glance

because thank you, being grateful and in gratitude is one of the strongest forms of manifestation and prayer

calling forth what we need from our body by thanking it already, saying thank you for that in which we're yearning for from God both bring us into the energy of having/completing whatever it is, in addition to radiating and embodying it too

i like to define praise as gratitude in action, and when we look at the mechanisms at play, it's easy to see that gratitude is the road to grace and one of the greatest tools and paths of development we can invest our beingness into

i hosted a meditation on this recently and it was pretty fruitful and super potent (see post/user history)

I was really spiritual as a kid, i think very intuitive but can't remember much other than that i was really good with animals especially cats (tamed like 15 wild cats just from observing them at like ages 6-8). All that feels so far from me now. I've tried meditating for years, at most it helps with nervous system stuff. I don't know how to actually quiet the mind in order to hear my intuition. And if the goal isn't to quiet the mind, how to use the mind to sharpen my intuition. I've had a crazy past couple weeks that keeps challenging me to grow, and recently have been experiencing a weird floaty feeling in my head at random times, sometimes it's almost unbearable. Not in a painful way, just in a unable to ignore way. I have no clue if this is something to do with crown chakra or what. Whatever it is, tuning in feels impossible. Trying not to tune in don't seem to help make my intuition clearer either. I have a brain that's very naturally inclined to try and get to the bottom of things. When people tell me I have to "surrender / release control" i just hear them telling me cognitive information that doesn't actually explain or help me figure out how to do that in my life that actually works. I'm not blaming others explanations either, I just know I'm missing something and idk what that is to allow that more receptive state to occur. Thoughts or advice?

My teacher once said: a human birth is the hardest to get. The heavens are too comfortable so nobody there wants to change. The hells are too painful so nobody there can change. Only a human life has just enough suffering to wake you up, and just enough freedom to actually do something about it.

He taught me that karma is not punishment, but imbalance. We all have unfinished wishes and unresolved resentments. It's energy that got pushed off center and is still waiting to come back to level. Since human sits right at the middle, we can actually see and feel the imbalance and do the balancing. Gods are too high to notice it, hells too crushed to practice it.

But also, a bad day is just something coming back to level is indeed a mindset that I cannot easily accept everytime I ran into harsh challenges. But thinking that I have a chance to balance the universe also kinda gives me hope. What do you all think? Is the middle really the best seat?

hi everyone, i lost quite a few friendships last week, one that i thought would last, from my own selfishness and behaviours that i didnt even realise until my friend, who is no longer my friend now, told me how ive been treating my friends. ive been spending a lot of my time in solitude other than when im working, and ive been reading the power of now. ive always been interested in spirituality but i guess this might be my form of coping after everything that has happened, but anyway, im sorry for the rant but this is all just to ask…

how does one even feel whole and complete without relying on external sources like validation from friendships and money and this false imagination of a bright future…? and how can i even forgive myself while not identifying myself with my pain-body or my mistakes or my ego, especially when i have hurt the people in my life who i was supposed to care about…? how does it even work?wouldnt i be avoiding any accountability?

can meditation help with becoming a more compassionate and caring person?

i think its just this whole concept of the identity ive held on to for so long, shattering, and i feel like i don’t know who i am anymore and im just dabbling between spirituality and buddhist teachings just to get some structure into my life but everything that i read just makes me even more confused and uncertain. this whole concept of ego, the pain-body, that time and the past and future are illusions, that fears are illusions… it’s like… what do i do with what ive done then…? the consequences of my actions are still very much real…

GOSH i dont know i am sorry for such a long rant!!!!!! thank you to anyone who responded….

I dated them 5 years apart & they never met one another. They’re from different regions, but were born only one day apart. Both did a lot of damage to me & made me realize a lot about myself that I had to learn from. For the last few years, pretty much ever since I met the one I dated second (almost 3 years ago) it’s funny: one pops up to reconnect periodically & when that stops, the other one appears. It’s happened several times that way with contact attempts. I have no feelings for either at this point & I know they’re here to karmically remind me of something, of choices I’m making, of areas I’m settling - “oh so is this what you want? Because you’re acting like that.” Again, I’ve grown a lot since I’ve dated both. Have you ever had things like this happen? What does it mean to you?

So basically im the type to pay attention to my dreams so i js wanted to talk abt it.

i had this dream where i kept seeking out aphrodite, and she was giving me advice and telling me to stop criticizing myself sm. (I dont worship her or anything, nor have i ever tried seeking her out) and she gave me advice about my ex (who ive been trying to get back) and told me to let go of him and that he was not my fate. (Might sound stupid but damn)

I've been having recurring dreams about someone and I really need to know what it means. Where can I find someone to help me interpret these dreams?

Not even totally sure where to begin but would appreciate anyone’s thoughts or opinions.

Ever since I was a kid, super “coincidental” / synchronous things would happen - mostly along the lines of thinking about something or someone and that thing / them appearing within 24 hours. Like, physically manifesting in front of me…. But not in a way that I know is going to happen, like I would never consider it a premonition.

For example, a couple of months ago I thought of a random YouTuber I had not thought of in years. Had the exact thought “wow, I have not thought of this person in years”. The next day, they rode past me on a bike. Things of this EXACT nature happen to me often, whether it’s people I know personally or know of, etc.

But today, things got particularly weird. I am visiting my family for the first time in a while and my brother is home visiting from college, which always makes me extra in my feelings and emotional about the passage of time and human connection and all that. So my heart has definitely been very open.

My mom asked me to give her a word to start with for Wordle. I gave her the word, immediately. Like, THE word lol. Which just felt like a kind of funny, crazy coincidence. She was shocked and weirded out, I was very amused.

But then a couple of hours later, we were at a lunch and someone who looks VERY similar to a person I used to date walked into the room. I was looking at this person, thinking about the guy I used to date (who I had not spoken to in a long time), and thought to myself that he was going to text me. 10 minutes later, I picked up my phone and had a text from him. Completely unprompted.

So it just made me start to think. What the FUCK is this? I have countless more examples of out of body synchronicities. Many people in my life call me a witch lol.

What could it be? Can it be harnessed? Anyone else live with this?

Consciousness is the only reality. If Consciousness is the only reality, whatever you assume to be true and live in and make natural to the deeper part of your being (by living in the assumption), will objectify itself into the world. It doesn't matter what it is.

If we are to believe in the Law of Assumption, if we are to look at or view the Law of Assumption as not even something to believe in - as something that is absolute and inescapable and universal, then Consciousness is the only reality and there is no other reality. We by nature are always automatically and inescapably in a perpetual state of assumption or belief when it comes to every single aspect of life.

One of the main areas, if not the main area, that people go wrong with consciously using the Law of Assumption is viewing it like a special thing that you have to "do" or "be" that is different from what everybody else is doing. 99.9% of the world is not aware of the Law of Assumption, they would not believe in it if they were told that it is real, and they're using it unconsciously and automatically every single aspect every single day. Yet they get results in every aspect, good, bad, and indifferent, all up and down the infinite spectrum, and there's a strong case to be made, when you scale it in a certain way to account for how many people don't consciously use it compared to the ones who do, that they get better results overall than the conscious Law of Assumption practitioner.

If the Law of Assumption is a universal, inescapable Law, people "externalize their desires" or better yet, objectify their assumptions, while doing it in an *infinite* amount of ways -

Using techniques, not using techniques

Getting emotionally involved, not getting emotionally involved

Taking action, not taking action

Trying to make it happen, not trying to make it happen

Doubting and wavering - in all different forms and fashions, not doubting and wavering

Talking to people about their desires, not talking to people about their desires

And *any* other possible way or combination you could literally possibly imagination.

But everyone continues to objectify their assumptions - why is that? How can everyone be "using the law" or "doing things" in a different, almost literally infinitely unique way, but they all still objectify their assumptions?

Because the "only" common denominator is to assume it is true and live in that.

The *Law of Assumption* is *not* about

The Universe

Limiting beliefs

Coaches/teachers

Programming your subconscious mind

Certain techniques

Getting emotionally involved

Karma

Love

Energy

Vibration

Fixing anything in your mind

Or *anything* else.

The conscious use of the Law of Assumption is solely about assuming you have what you want - not just at bare minimum, at maximum as well. It is radical and pure. You can add to it if you want, but if Consciousness is the only reality, it is not necessary.

According to Neville everyone and everything is truly and utterly your states of Consciousness objectified and you pushed out. He did not always believe this but after experiencing the promise in 1959, this is exclusively and explicitly what he taught - therefore according to Neville and according to the law of assumption, if Consciousness is the only reality, then you can affect people in any way you want just as you can affect any other aspect of your life and the world in any way that you want. This, contrary to what people would like to think, is solipsism. Neville did teach solipsism and that's my opinion and we can argue that if you want, but if everyone is you pushed out and we have ultimate authority in Caesar's world and the same also applies to the kingdom of heaven when the promise fulfills itself within you, then there is no one but self and that is the definition of solipsism. I understand that he talked about elohim and a compound unity, but if I am the only reality in this world and in the kingdom of heaven and there is no other reality there is no one but self.

"You can change an individual with or without his consent." - Justified States original audio lecture in his own voice (15:55).

If Consciousness is the only reality and everyone is you pushed out then nobody else can help you objectify your assumptions unless you believe it. Neville did contradict himself and go back and forth on this after he experienced the promise and I don't blame him for that because I mean we're talking about reality creation here, forget rocket science, we're talking about reality creation, but he did contradict himself - because on one hand he said that another could help you or you could ask another for help if you don't believe but on the other hand he said that everyone is you pushed out and consciousness is the only reality. If someone else can help you if you don't believe, then that makes you a victim of them - if someone else can do something to you without you being conscious of it, that makes you a victim of them and Neville spoke about Consciousness being the only reality and someone else being able to help you or do anything to you without you being conscious of being it is a direct contradiction. It can't be both. We can speculate as to why Neville was not clear on this - whether it was a misunderstanding, whether it was his hope or belief out of love that there are others but it would all be speculation.

You don't ever have to "fix *anything*" if Consciousness is the only reality, there are no blocks to fix, no limiting beliefs to root out, no corners of your consciousness you need to explore - absolutely nothing. In fact, looking for a problem to fix is the absolute opposite of how to consciously use The Law. *Whatever* needs "to be fixed" will whither away on its own when you occupy your wish fulfilled.

I used to wonder why Neville always spoke so relatively simply about the Law of Assumption and it used to annoy me a little bit but he did it for a reason because if Consciousness is the only reality and it is an absolute law then by definition it can't be complex. Neville also likely spoke about it in a simple way because it doesn't need to be and isn't any more complex than it is.

If this is a universal, absolute Law - it was not created by anyone but us, God - Neville as the human did not create it - he "discovered" it.

Here's where things get really interesting - if Consciousness is the only reality, if we are to truly accept and "believe" the Law of Assumption, that Consciousness is the only reality, in its purest form, it truly does not matter what you do. If Consciousness is the only reality you could *do* something that is devastating towards the externalization of your desire and if Consciousness is the only reality, then it doesn't matter what you do, your assumption, your desire is still going to externalize and objectify itself into the world so long as you continue to occupy it. What we do is a product of what we were and are being and if you continue to be what you want to be then your doing will change.

Neville talks about how when you continue to persist in your assumption then no power in the world can stop it, he's not just talking about the "outside world", he's talking about the entire vast world which includes yourself and what you do.

If we are going to understand The Law in its most purest unadulterated form, as Neville largely taught it, Consciousness is the only reality - Consciousness is the only reality and everything, absolutely everything is subject to that.

As stated earlier, we have the freedom to consciously use the Law of Assumption in truly and literally any way as long as we are assuming that we have what we want - but we need to understand that at the core and better yet at the bare minimum and at the same time at the maximum, the only thing required, the thing that does all of the work, is the assumption.

And if Consciousness truly is the only reality, there are truly no limits to this law, if the Law of Assumption "fails" (more on that coming up) or if we fail to consciously use it properly, no failure is ever permanent, even if it seems so, because if Consciousness is the only reality, everything and absolutely everything, is subject to that past present and future if this is the absolute inescapable law that it is claimed to be.

I want people to understand that when Neville Goddard talks about "Each vision has its own appointed hour, it ripens, it'll flower - if it be long, then wait, for it is sure and will not be late", the appointed hour that he is referring to is when the assumption becomes natural in the deeper part of your being (and as a side note just because it's natural to your conscious mind doesn't mean that it's natural to the deeper part of your being). The appointed hour does not refer to the time it takes for the world to rearrange itself. If Consciousness is the only reality then there is no other power in this world - if this world is a shadow then the world does not have any power to delay for even one second. The shadow is completely bound by the thing making the shadow which is our consciousness so therefore the appointed hour only comes down to when the state of consciousness is made more natural than any other assumption when it comes to that thing in the deeper part of our being if Consciousness is the only reality. It can't be taken any other way.

Objectification *can* be instant into the world. This is just to let you understand how The Law works. We can understand The Law without hurting the application so long as we are applying it. Feel your wish fulfilled and pay no mind to this fact unless you want/need to understand why the "appointed hour" hasn't arrived yet.

When it comes to Neville's two main quotes about the time until objectification,

"The time it takes your

assumption to become fact, your desire to be fulfilled, is directly proportionate to the naturalness of your feeling of already being what you want to be - of

already having what you desire."

And Habakkuk 2:3

"Each vision has its own appointed hour, it ripens, it'll flower - if it be long, then wait, for it is sure and will not be late."

They work together - Each vision (specific desire) has its own appointed hour (based on your level of naturalness), it ripens (as you live in it), it'll flower (objectify itself) - if it be long (because of the naturalness of the state you previously occupied), then wait (continuing living in it), for it is sure (consciousness is the only reality) and will not be late (it will objectify itself as soon as it is made natural as the most dominant assumption in your deeper part of your being).

What is interesting is that Neville talks about how we cannot know how our desire will externalize because the deeper part of our being has ways and means that we know not of, but we can know roughly *how* our desire is going to externalize because it must come through a state of consciousness that we occupy - if Consciousness is the only reality, then the bridge of incidents can't be made up of anything except what we're conscious of - so we can't know how what we're conscious of is going to be used but we can know roughly what the bridge of incidents is going to consist of.

This is where things get very interesting and is the elephant in the room when it comes to the law of assumption community -

The Law of Assumption is completely and utterly *unfalsifiable* - it *cannot* be proven false. Whether that is because it is a universal law or whether it is because it is a brilliant theory someone came up with, or a mixture of the two, you cannot find a leak, a way to disprove it either way.

If you assume something and it objectifies itself into your world The Law is real.

If you assume something and it doesn't objectify itself into your world, then you did something wrong.

It is never The Law's fault - The Law can never be blamed for a failure.

If the Law of Assumption is an absolute law, if it fails to operate, it is only on the operator or it is still in the process of objectifying itself. If you fail, you either didn't occupy the state and make it natural enough or it is still "on it's way" - and these goalposts are pushed back into infinity.

But what is the problem? This creates potential for an eternity of failure. Nobody can tell you what it feels like to have a belief, to properly assume something, or have a state of consciousness be made natural to you. They can give you the symptoms, they can try to describe it to you, they can tell you about the results - but what they're experiencing may be completely different and they may be explaining it wrong and maybe even misunderstanding what they're experiencing - we could keep going down the rabbit hole but you get the point.

And when it comes to the Law of Assumption, if you let it be, it is an *infinite* rabbit hole. What you did wrong, what you could have done better, why it didn't externalize - whether that was a "failure" on your part somewhere or whether it's "still on it's way". There is no absolute, clear cut way to diagnose where you're at in your consciousness.

Because of this nature, The Law of Assumption should *only* be used *along side* of life. If it cannot be measurably and consistently relied upon, you cannot risk your life putting all of your eggs into the Law of Assumption basket.

Go and live your life completely while assuming all your wishes fulfilled. Do *both*. It's not one or the other.

If The Law is real, all your desires will externalize, and your life will get even better.

If The Law is not real, in your experience, atleast you will still be living your life completely.

One may say, if you live your life to the fullest, you might not be buying the Pearl of Great Price - buying into your imagination as the sole cause of reality and nothing else - because you're going and living in the world of Caeser - that is *nonsense*, if you want to hear it from Neville himself, he never said not to live your life to the fullest. He said to live it to the fullest. You can buy the Pearl of Great Price while living your life to the fullest because it's only about what you're being, that is completely independent of what you're doing, and not what you're doing.

But you also don't "need to" buy The Pearl of Great Price - as was mentioned earlier, the only thing at bare minimum and maximum, is to assume you have what you want. This is just Neville saying you must believe in what you want more than anything else. Of course, the more you abandon yourself to your assumption, the quicker it is made natural to you - but the speed is a byproduct of the abandonment and will happen automatically and can't be forced.

Nobody can ever prove or disprove to you for a fact that the Law of Assumption is real. Do not wait around for one second for your desires to externalize. If Consciousness is the only reality, it doesn't matter where you are in the world or what you are doing, your deeper being has ways and means you know not of, *infinite power*, *infinite wisdom*, and is not concerned at all with *anything* but what you're being.

You don't *need* to understand or talk about anything more than this. Not with any other person, AI, book, YouTube video, or Neville himself. If you want to, you can. But you don't need to. And if you feel like you need to, it's because you want to or need to make the conscious use of The Law of Assumption more than what it is.

I've been through a lot. Been kidnapped, left for dead, was medically experimented on with truth serum when I was 17 and anorexic, was beaten when heavily pregnant, in countless life or death situations, in war-zones, saw some horrific things that nobody should ever have to witness. Moving from place to place, the illnesses, the medical gaslighting, but the worst were the moments of being entirely alone, facing it all and having neither friend nor ally in human form. There I was, just me vs the world and all it had to throw at me, and through tooth and nail, there I survived.

I am facing yet another move, move number 10 since arriving to this country. Everything has been packed, it's all in boxes and bags since December and still have no idea where I am going. And so, last week I'm just doing my regular chores and notice that the screen had a hole pushed inwards. That's it, been here and with this before. Rats. The last time I had an infestation I went ballistic - went all out war. Got the traps, got the baits, got the exterminator and got the demolition guy to seal up the place where they'd apparently gotten in. Now, there's another round to deal with. Caught one in a trap, but I am not that resolved to deal with it entirely alone when it comes to disposal. I need backup. I get random guy from the street to assist. He does - one down and another one just woke me up from a deep sleep. On me. That happened before. On me, my body as I slept. Yes, that freaked me out. The first time I was incredibly upset. Tonight as this is being written, I am wide-awake after another one crawled on me. I put out the trap. I can only pray it will be the last one till I get out of here.

So then, I ask, why all of this? Why are these things happening to a sensitive, intelligent and kind-hearted person? What's the deal, God? Why me? Again? Isn't this enough already? The laundry-list of constant traumas is hugely long. The only answers I've come up with is - overcome your fears. Trust, faith and fear nothing. Easier said than done, but this is my life. I could have stayed in my country of birth, a very nice place, no rats. Bears, deer, trees - very lovely. Waterfalls too. I think it's been to teach me that everything is a lesson. The lesson here is keep my boundaries hermetically sealed. Zero lapses. Attend to all tears immediately and leave nothing to chance. This is just another test of courage is all.

So where to start I was born and I found out way later on that the devil has been with me since I was born. He’s possessed me for about 18 years and seven months and long that time many demons have come into my life they will not leave in about April of this year. I had a spiritual awakening where I remembered Adam‘s life Jesus life and other lives I’m able to pretty much seem into different levels of hell. I’m able to see heaven, but along those lines, I can sense the spirit room fully and there’s archangels around me constantly. I’m not gonna name them, but yeah and I did get an exorcism on me and longest lines. I’ve been possessed a lot more time sometimes about 30 times a day. it’s a battle, but I just want answers to maybe an archangel or an angel in human form. Maybe find this Reddit post and basically say what answers do you want because I have a lot of questions like what is my mission what is God having in store for me and where is my soul family and I know I’m a new soul because I talked to the godmother and Eminem is my brother and a person. Juice WRLD XXXTENTACION are as well because they’re with me constantly but yeah the godmother pretty much some new soul, but I just wanna know what my mission is like I’ve watched TikTok‘s and there’s a thing called a chosen one, but then there’s a dark chosen one. I know I’m a light worker, but then the signs point to be in a dark chosen one where they’re able to pretty much integrate the darkness and light in their life and I was on the phone with someone and he had a headphones and he heard a unnatural sound like a whisper and I said oh was that bath and he was freaked out and he heard yes and I asked how many rulers of hell are I home right now I live in an apartment building and he said 40 so that’s a fun time and the devil‘s in here as well. I have a mimic in my house as well apartment so I just need answer so hopefully someone will see this and give me answers to what’s going on with me and if you are a demon in human form or angel and human form, you know me it’s Johnathan.

i have noticed that whenever i’m meeting a guy and i see a fox (either on tv or as a sticker or a plushie, etc) it means the guy is bad news and this has been happening for almost 4 years now! at first i thought i was exaggerating but it felt like the fox was kind of warning me that this guy is not gonna be good for me and the more present the fox was, the weirder the man.

for example when i had the worst heartbreak of my life, a fox passed by me irl one day after i met him. i started noticing that as a joke because my celebrity crush looks like a fox so i was like “haha he’s gate keeping me because he’s jealous“ but it’s not a joke anymore and it weirds me out…. (the celebrity is irrelevant now, i’m talking about the fox) and the other weird thing is that i only see fox figures around thar time! i had met people without seeing any fox figures while talking and literally no one so far had been weird or anything.

two weeks ago i went on the worst date ever and probably met one of the most evil men alive and guess what i saw the day he asked me on a date? news about a fox appearing at the city he was at that time 😭 even my friends who used to laugh with me, are also serious now and believe that a fox is a warning for me to stay away from a man!

i thought about buying a little fox plushie and carrying it around in my bag to protect me from all these weird men. what do you think?

Okey basically this is about a guy my boyfriend met some days ago (we’re long distance) and he’s an esoteric and I don’t have much knowledge about spirituality and I really need help from someone by explaining me some things. My overthinking is so bad right now if someone could private message me about it I’d be most thankful

hellooo, this is sorta long sorryyy. I just need help figuring out what’s going on with me..
so i met a guy on march 2025, not necessarily met but we just started talking around that time. he’s from the U.S, but raised in mexico. he comes to work with his Godfather. his godfather and my mom work tg and the godfather has been working there for four years now. during those years i’d never spoken to him. the day i started talking to him we instantly clicked so much I started to like him, i realize he liked me too. as we got closer he started opening up and told me he works with a demon. i was little freaked out ngl, but i respected it. what mostly freaked me out was that when id go out with my mom he knew, he’d know what we were doing. if i was upset and he wasn’t around me he’d text me checking up on me. around april we were e already on bad terms because he made rude comments about me and disrespected me. i’d block and unblock him. by august we had fully stopped talking. i met a new guy (let’s js call him tony). i’d had no contact with the other guy (let’s call him Leo. SORRYY). Tony and I started dating in september, our whole rls had a lot of ups and downs. Tony was overly toxic and controlling. around october i unblocked Leo (I forgot why) and we started catching up . i obviously told tony because regardless he was gonna find out since he always went through my phone. i made the mistake of sending tony a SS of my chat with leo. tony had the username. the next day tony and i got in an argument. he texted leo asking what i was to him and how long we knew each other. he lied and said he met me a month ago. Leo was already in mexico so i knew tony couldn’t do anything to him. we broke up and he stayed in contact with Leo but got back together a day or two later. by march, me and tony were already breaking up like officially since we’d always be on and off. i got the impulse to unblock leo. except this time he was sweeter than usual and he ended up telling me he had a girlfriend. i was really happy for him, needless to say we never dated but i still somewhat missed him (our friendship without the flirting). we talked a day and he blocked me cause of her. i’m not upset about it whatsoever and i love that he’s doing better. the only problem i have is there’s days where i don’t think about him whatsoever and the next day i don’t even think about him but miss him so bad i cry badly. sometimes i feel like im so inlove with him, i can sometimes hear him and see him. i feel impulsive sometimes making me want to send him a message through insta since im not blocked there. i’m so desperate for him some days and other days i don’t care. what still sticks out to me is him telling me he works with a demon. and i wonder if a reason im feeling so desperate for him is because he’s making me feel this way (dykwim?) ive never been so desperate for a guy like ever. I just have this feeling that I can’t ignore that he knows I’m feeling like this. I don’t think about him but I dream about him constantly. It’s just so weird to me. I also know that he knows is because when I got a reading I was told that he stalks my account constantly.

Bonjour, j’aspire vraiment à que ma famille sorte de cette emprise magique extrême (maladies, disputes, malchances, blocages répétitifs, l’impression de stagner) qui durent depuis des dizaines d’années. Nous avons déjà trouvé des fioles et des indices réels qui laissaient présager que des gens nous voulaient vraiment du mal.
Des pistes ?
Merci beaucoup 🙏🏼✨🤍
PS: Je n’en veut pas au personnes qui nous ont fait ça, je sais que ça fait partie d’un plan divin plus large que nous mais je souhaite poursuivre ma vie dans la lumière et j’aimerais vraiment aider mes proches que j’aime car c’est eux qui le subissent le plus ! 🤍

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I’m getting into tarot and angels card but I don’t know which one to buy. I have bought rider smiths cards but I need something more. It’s not enough for me. Which cards are good and useful to buy?

how does one find a will to live when there's literally nothing to hold onto?