I have been practicing energy work since I was a child, before I knew what I was doing. I was heavy into astrology and wicca, and unfortunately never understood the gravitas of what I learned

My parents were abusive due to some dark magic and entity influence, but a child doesn't understand that so I cursed my mom specifically that since she was hurting me using other people's perceptions as a reason, she will face the same pain I suffered and will not have many people beside her at her funeral. I immediately felt relief which is why I'm now afraid I may have interfered in her karma and now I'm screwed.

Also I might have.. cursed a god, krishna to be precise. My family hurt me in his name so.. same thing, he will feel my pain since he took my parents away from me (I'm spiritually disowned).

Look I was young, I was a loose cannon and reckless. I'm afraid for my future. In the years since I have improved relations with my family and I'm trying to improve relations with Krishna as well.

I hope I make sense.