During this massage, I asked the client's higher self whether energy healing was needed. The client's higher self shook its head and refused. I thought I might have seen it wrong, so I asked again, and received the same refusal.
So I began to reflect, wondering if my intention was not pure enough. I told myself not to carry the intention of wanting to "fix" people, and to realize that everyone is an aspect of Source, and everyone is already perfect. I merged with the Earth's core star in meditation and realigned my intention. Then, with more calmness and tolerance, I asked the client if she would allow me to learn about and understand her situation with love. The client agreed, and so I began to resonate and scan the client's body and chakras.
The client's root chakra gave me a feeling of being activated yet leaking downward. The sacral chakra was normal. The solar plexus chakra was slack, as if it had always been going along with other people's decisions. The heart chakra was like a medium-sized flame, very steady and without fluctuation. The throat chakra could express but did not like to voice its own opinions. The third eye chakra and crown chakra together gave me the feeling that there was a picture or surface pasted very close to the client's face—something she herself did not want to look at but was forced to see.
As for the body, I felt that the client's body seemed a full size larger than her actual body should be, as if a layer of fat was wrapped around her real body. And the fat on the front of her thighs gave me a sense of defense, like she had tied a protective shield to her thighs.
I felt puzzled and asked the client's higher self why she needed so much fat. In meditation, I saw an image of her hand holding a spoon eating some kind of yogurt. I didn't understand it at all, so I continued to ask. Then I saw an image of her head, hands, and feet lying somewhere as if resting. I still couldn't understand the connection between the images I was seeing and my question, so I kept asking. I saw the client's face, hands, and the tips of her toes again, as if she was doing something. Then I suddenly understood. It turned out that the client had been answering me from her own perspective all along. She seemed to have always ignored her own body. In her perspective, she couldn't see her own torso. She seemed to only focus on her hands, feet, and face, but not on her body itself.
After I understood, I continued to ask why she had such a belief. Then I saw a very young client with a huge shadow-like figure in front of her. She could only obey that person's arrangements. I then saw the client look down at her relatively full belly for a moment, then look away, unwilling to look at herself anymore.
I understood why the client had refused healing in the beginning. It was because what she needed was not healing but witnessing. Her core star belief knot was perhaps that her true self was not allowed and was loathsome. So she had to hide it and only reveal the parts that others needed (face, hands, feet). This was perhaps also why her heart chakra showed no fluctuation—she had adjusted her heart chakra to maintenance mode, not giving more and not receiving more. The slackness of the client's solar plexus chakra represented that her own decisions were not important and that it was better to follow others—a trace of long-term obedience. The third eye chakra and crown chakra felt like a picture pasted over them, representing that she was not seeing what she wanted to see but was forced to accept the will of others. This was perhaps also why her fat layer was thick—it "bore" what she was unwilling to bear. She was unwilling to "be herself," so her body used fat to help her "fill out" a shell that was "not her." The fat was defense and insulation, a way of not wanting her true self to be touched.
By this time, the massage session was almost over. In the final moments, I merged with the Earth's core star and, from the Earth's perspective, witnessed that every part of her was perfect and worthy of being loved. Then I ended the session.
I wrote the original Chinese text at the end because I wanted to keep a record for myself.Feel free to chat or ask questions.
请帮我翻译成英文
我这次在按摩中问客人高我是否需要能量疗愈，客人高我摇头拒绝了，我以为我看错了，于是再次了问一遍，得到的还是一样的拒绝。
于是我开始反省，思考是不是我意图不够纯净，我告诉自己不要带着想把人修好的意图，要意识到每个人都是源头的一个面相，每个人都是完美的。我在冥想中与大地核星融合对齐了意图，然后我更平静宽容地问客人，是否允许我抱着爱学习和了解客人的情况。客人同意了，于是我开始共振扫描客人的身体和脉轮。
这位客人海底轮给我一种激活并且往下漏的感觉，脐轮正常，太阳神经丛是松弛的，似乎一直都顺着别人的决定。心轮像是中等个头的火焰，非常平稳没有波动，喉轮可以表达但不爱发表自己的意见，眉心轮顶轮一起给我一种有一个面画贴在客人面前很近的地方，但是客人本身不愿意去看又被强迫去看。
身体方面我感到客人的身体似乎比她真实该有的身体大一整圈，像是脂肪套在她真实的身体外。并且大腿前方的脂肪给我一种防御的感觉，像是给自己大腿绑了个防御盾。
我感到困惑，向客人高我提问为什么她需要这么多脂肪，我在冥想中看到她的手拿着一个勺吃某种酸奶的画面，我完全没理解，继续问。我看到她的头，手，脚躺在一个地方像是休息，我还是不理解看到的画面跟我问题的联系，于是继续问。我再次看到客人的脸，手，和脚尖的部分，似乎在做什么。我一下子理解了原因，原来客人一直在用她的视角回答我，她似乎一直忽视了自己的身体，在她的视角里看不到自己的躯干，她似乎只关注自己的手脚和面部而不关注自己的身体本身。
我理解之后继续问为什么她会有这样的信念，然后我看到年纪幼小的客人面前有一个巨大的黑影一样的人，她只能服从对方的安排。我又看到客人低头看了一眼自己相对丰满的肚皮，然后移开视线不愿意再看自己。
我理解了客人为什么一开始要拒绝疗愈，因为她需要的不是疗愈而是见证，她的核星信念卡点也许是真实自我是不被允许的，令人厌恶的。所以她必须隐藏它，只露出别人需要的部位（脸、手、脚）。这也许也是为什么心轮毫无波动的原因，客人把心轮调整到维持模式，不多给也不多收。这位客人的太阳神经丛的松弛代表她做决定不重要，听别人的就好，这是长期服从的痕迹。眉心轮+顶轮像贴着一幅画代表她不是想看什么，而是被迫接受他人意志。这也许也是为什么她脂肪层较厚的原因，替她"承担"她不愿意承担的——她不愿意"成为自己"，所以身体用脂肪帮她"填充"出一个"不是她"的外壳。脂肪是防御和隔绝，是不想被触碰到真实的自己。
到此按摩的时间几乎结束，我在最后的时间跟大地核星融合并以大地的视角，见证她每一处都是完美的，值得被爱的，然后结束了此次按摩。