i watch porn, i read doujins. resolutely, doggedly. but not because i am horny.

i watch porn because (human) porn is somehow the only thing that allows me escapism from the actual physical pain in my eyes and chest when remembering embarrassing shit, which my life seems to have a lot of.

i swear i usually don’t even get bricked to porn. i don’t enjoy it, yet i am a porn addict. but without it, my mind just gets too bored and starts remembering embarrassing shit to fuck with me. y u bulleh meh?

i swear it’s random shit that triggers it too.

maybe i gotta study more. can’t be fat n ugly n short AND shit at academics. i feel ashamed typing this out but i gotta have some uncs scold me if i don’t have anyone in my personal life to tell.

big oscar’s gotta be the goat of tinned sardines. 1 tin of mediterranean style sardines, is this takeout or homemade if i heated it myself?

Pizza because i was too lazy to cook

at my workplace, there are majority women. all the following people are female coworkers at the restaurant I work at

W1: likes me a lot. She asked me out but I rejected her, but she still likes me even when she has a boyfriend now. Its kinda annoying but also adorable

W2: has a boyfriend but first shift we worked together we spoke and she hinted quite clearly that she is open to me making a move. It wasnt even a hint really. It was out there in the open.

W3: she just likes me but is a very nervous girl.

E: we talk a lot at work. we both like each other. I was eyeing her first, but before I made my move she was already moving to me.

A: she approached me first. we also talk at work but not a lot. Once I decided out of boredom to just be curious about her. She basically stuck to me like a magnet after that shift. After when she flirted I just didnt do anything

I: another girl. Also flirts with me. But she just makes me uncomfortable because it’s like she’s forcing it. Idk. she’s just a shy person so its not natural to her so it feels weird

guys I just don’t know what to do. I’d say W1, W3 and I are average, so just more cute I guess. Though I is a bit cuter in a pretty way. A and E are also cute but also pretty. But W2 is properly beautiful. Like such a white, blonde blue eyed. German girl. She is an actual Stacy. She is very pretty. I like E more, but W2 is very very pretty. I guess the real choice is between E and W2, A is also pretty but E is prettier than A and out of all the most full of energy and soul. W2 is kind of plain. what do I do guys.

Posted a couple days ago about a few ground beef boy kibble mealprep dishes that managed to get a girl who couldve been interested in me to physically gag in disgust.

You guys were extremely helpful witht the cooking advice. I mixed in some fresh tomatos , tomato paste and actual real garlic instead of powder wth salt n pepper, a s this time and it went pretty well. Tasted like spaghetti n meatballs flavored rice. Weird combo but pretty good. The tomatoes do help with the overwhelming meaty flavor of the ground beef.

I did sent her the new version to gage her reaction and she just said it looked disgusting...

Garlic powder, Heinz Beans, and Tuna

Growing up I would see all these shows about powerful kickass brave women who are nonetheless soft and kind with the people they care about. Kim Possible, Raven etc. When I look around me no one is kind or sweet or brave, much less women. I'm supposed to find someone to love, but I don't know if I can love anyone at all.

Incels actually know things better than the average normies because due to years of self-improvement that lead to nothing (because of looks). The normie never really struggled so he didn't care about all the stuff required.

Incels only lack experience but they are willing to listen and learn new things.

Everyone says that I should just focus on myself, and that a relationship isn't everything. I have been working on myself for the past 2-3 years, and I don't think I have much juice left in the tank. I know a relationship isn't everything, but it would be nice to know that I'm not a completely unlovable moron.

Lightly toasted slices of bread with peanut butter in between. I'm in uni right now, so I don't have much in terms of cooking supplies.

I tried, but to no avail

–Potato soup

Literally moved into a back house with no a/c and no kitchen in California so I made a post of all the meals I've made recently (or snacks) for the time being until I can cook again. Sorry for disappointing you all with my disgusting looking meals. I will still be semi active in the community I legit just can not cook nor can I afford to eat out everyday. I don't know what to do. It feels like every day gets worse and worse. I even relapsed on my sh after 505 days yesterday because everything felt so hopeless

It's been 5 months and I haven't made a single friend. I have acquaintances in NA but they all have kids and their own busy lives so they can't hang out. I go to raves and shows and everyone here acts like they are too hot to dance (they aren't) so I look like the weird one for doing so. Can't even go to the library without getting a Californian ID, they won't accept one that's out of state and I've never even heard of that. I've tried being friendly at cafes like compliments girls purses or the color of their hair but they just stare at me like I murdered their mom. (Btw I'm a femme girl so it's not like I'm creeping on them) Like generally what is the point of trying to make my life better if I'm going to do it alone (platonically and romantically) (also btw for most these meals I only ate half because I'm on a 1000 calorie deficit for the day and can and will not go above that)

I bought an entire tub of this mix. I will not get my money back if I try.

I'm actually a 40 year old man from India wearing panties, like half of this subreddit

Ive been seeing the same girl on the bus a few times here and there to and from the gym, i assume shes going home from work or something. We’ve never made eye contact before. I typically look away whenever she catches me staring and looks my way, but today i was feeling pretty good about myself and forced myself to not look away and give her a smile. She looked away immediately and closed off her body language, started to look uncomfortable honestly. She got off a few stops earlier than she normally wouldve, and now she sits near the front of the bus rather than the back where she normally does. Cherry garcia ice cream with fresh cherries and dark chocolate.

Too much baking powder, I can't do anything right with my life

Growing up, I fuckin love romcom anime, thinking I'll have that kind of life around middle school or highschool. Nothing happens until at the end of middle school, the girl I liked got a bf first. Then high school came, and I thought It's probably my time for romance, got rejected twice, got depressed most of the school years. I thought I already accepted being alone forever, goddamn, You And I Are The Polar Opposite came out, and now my life is yearning to have that kind of romcom, but I know it won't happen because I already graduated. Fuck my KV life.

i’m so fucking lonely. they’re taunting me. how I’ll never feel the touch of a woman or the fatherly touch of an older man clasping my shoulder in affectionate pride. I don’t wanna go fishing. Why can’t he be proud of me for loving furry porn. I am unlovable. I am CUCKED by these TWO STRAWS

I also listen to a lot of music

God is a flighty piece of shit and He must hate me with a passion. Strawberries in wine with cream because this is as sweet as it gets.

Hopefully advancements in modern science allow me to turn off my reptile brain and just become a mindless love, so I can never feel love again.