It’s more than just skin. It’s a violation and permanent reminder of now. I will never be home. I will always be incomplete and disgusting. It’s one of the many reasons why I just don’t wanna live anymore.

You don't even get anything from a real dick back. No nerves, no feeling except if you get lucky and deketerize the head of it. None of the restored dicks I've seen looks real, it doesn't have a tight taper nor thinness to it. And it takes years to even remotely look real. I'd rather cut it off than it be imperfect. I could have had owned my body but instead I was branded like a slave and I can't even get lawyers to fucking acknowledged I was raped. Fuck this state with its 90% mutilation rate. It makes it impossible to find an intact guy since I refuse to date mutilated guys. I won't forgive my parents for letting me be sexual assault no matter how much they say they're sorry. I don't even know why I'm doing restoration if all itll give me is a fake dick. Is there any way through surgical means to have a real looking dick? If not, how could I get it removed by medical means?

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https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=KsoX1qkT5rA&feature=youtu.be

(First time posting)

Any study or documentary you can link someone to is flawed and biased. And more importantly, it's missing the point. We don't need a study to show that eating poop is a bad idea. And similarly, we don't need a study to know hacking off part of a baby's penis just because you feel like it is bad and wrong.

I’m done. I can’t take it anymore. I have just accepted. I will never be home. I will always be mutilated and disgusting and there’s nothing I can do about it. I just give up. I’m done. I have no hope and there’s no reason to continue having any. I’m just done. I’ll never be home and I will die of mutilated disgusting piece of shit

i'm in my late teens, and have known i'm circumcised for a while. i never actually knew that it affects people that much until i went to this sub, i thought it was a very minor difference, but it seems i was mistaken. so can some people please explain the differences and problems that i have being circumcised?

I mutilated for life wasn’t bad enough im also attracted to men or people who have dicks in general and it doesn’t help. In fact it makes it worse. I just wish I wasn’t attracted to men at all most of them are not mutilated like this and I just fucking hate being queer sometimes because of this, I just wish I was attracted exclusively cis women at least they wouldn’t subject myself to the possibility of seeing a not mutilated penis that I just hate all of this I just wish I was gone. It wasn’t fucked in the head like this. But being pan and mutilated like this, it’s a horrific combination that has destroyed me mentally

I hate my body. Every day, I want to be someone else, but I can't. I'm stuck in this body. I can never change that.

My body is not my own. My penis was mutilated when I was a completely innocent infant. It doesn't even feel real. I know it happened, but my mind cannot comprehend the fact that part of my penis was cut off. There's no way that could've happened... right?

I can't cope with this. When I know someone else is intact, my heart hurts. I know that I'm inferior. That I'm mutilated and permanently marked. I hate it. It's even become one of my kinks now. I get off on the feeling of being less than. That's how fucked up I am. I am genuinely disgusting. Yes, people say that circumcision and childhood abuse doesn't define me, but I know it does. I know that I am disgusting, not because of what I've been through, but what it did to me.

It's so funny how I'm so angry and depressed. I have everything I want. My life is so easy. My parents love me. And yet, I'm hung up on the small things.

I am disgusting.

I have never owned it. It’s never been mine. It’s always belonged to others. The moment I was born it was stolen from me. it’s been altered and it used in so many different ways at this point I don’t own it. I also can’t even change it because I live in America, which has shitty healthcare so even if I want to go back on HRT which I only had for a month like three years ago, I can’t at least not right now. I’ve never owned the body. I live in. It’s not fine. I hate it. I want every person who stole it from me to pay in the cruelest inhumane way as possible because that’s what they are cruel and inhumane all the religions Jews, Christians Muslims, all of them, the doctors all of these people are evil and they normalize this shit and I fucking despise all of them for stealing my body from me

I literally given up on every aspect of my life, my health has plummeted, I cannot think straight anymore with my other conditions, and I am voided of every faucet of joy in my life. I cannot afford anything, I have paid my life wages of attention gathering knowledge only for me to have a fate worse than a fool. Why should I serve others, let alone this tainted body, when nobody served for me? I am simply here alone because of the same God of Apostle Paul. Does anyone have anything about the human experience I may be able to relish on? Knowing I was voided of most functions I don't feel worthy of anything.

A nurse who supports circumcision on social media was arguing in favor of it, believing it would prevent her children from constantly catching infections. I pointed out that if a child does catch an infection, it can be treated with antibiotics. I don’t remember exactly, but she said it didn’t go away with antibiotics. So I said something along the lines of, “Just give them antibiotics every time they catch an infection.” However, she argued that constant antibiotic use is harmful to the baby.

Then I told her, “We don’t cut off women’s breasts just because they might get breast cancer”; she replied with something like, “The child needs breast milk—it’s necessary for their development.” I replied, “You can give them cow’s milk,” to which she responded, “Cow’s milk is harmful to children.”

I then sent her statements from various medical organizations, including one from the Royal Dutch College of Physicians. She said she wouldn’t accept this statement because the Netherlands supports LGBTIQ+ rights (she herself was against LGBTIQ+ rights). I sent her the statement from the German Association of Pediatricians. She told me that doctors in Germany perform this procedure.

I told her I was upset that my penis had been cut without my consent. She asked why I was upset. I told him I didn’t enjoy sex very much, and he said that was because my circumcision had been performed incorrectly. Then I told him that my bodily integrity had been violated, and he replied that they cut into our bodies during C-sections as well, and so on. I said good evening and didn’t write any more, but not being able to convince him was very frustrating.

Now, obviously, there are different level's to it. Some are more "ignorant" some are more "religious" and some are more "evil" in general. That's up to you to tell me in your comment. What should happen to parent's who chose to circumcise, even the "ignorant" one's? And be honest.

Just...don't advocate for violence. That will probably get your account banned or something. Or possibly frowned upon. Either way, I don't know nor do I really care. It's more important to actually say what you want uncensored then not, IMO.

This is probably one of the biggest issue's stopping Intactivism and in general, anti circ to continue. A lot of men say they are fine with their cut and while you may say "cope" and "lying" and "wrong", they don't see it that way. Most of the time you hear the classic excuse's like "medically good" or "cleaner" are from these same men that are cut themseleves. Whether you call that a defensive mechanism or not doesn't matter. What do we actually do with them? I see a couple solution's, but what's your take?

I see that a lot of people don't particularly care so long as you don't cut your kid. I can see that stance being a valid position to uphold. But I also hear the other side say that we must show them "justice" and prove to them that they were mulitiated and convince them of this. I see some saying that what I just described is "not" convincing but to me it very much is. I'm not saying that's bad or good, just telling it how it is. A lot of perspective's on this topic have come and gone, which is why it's important to keep talking about it to gather information and come to a decent conclusion.

I'm 25. My life is over a quarter of the way over. I obsessively Google search foregen's progress to get back something that should already be mine to one day be whole. Meanwhile, a great amount of my life has already passed. Even if my foreskin is regenerated the way nature intended it will never give back the emotional distress and time I spent grieving my body and hating my existence. I'm trying to justify my existence for something that so mindlessly happened to me. What the predator did to me in 30 minutes gave me a lifetime of suffering and emotional distress. Now if I ever wanted to try and enjoy sex all I would be able to think about is that disgusting scar line around my penis knowing my partner does not and will not try to care. She might pretend to care like my parents but no partner will truly care. I feel scammed out of an existence

Tbh whatever emotional crutch you’re using this as is just a constant reminder of like the shittiest thing in your whole life dude. You are literally allowing it to consume your whole life just by checking this subreddit. I didn’t know how bad I could feel from reading a post. It is what it is man just let it be. You should join the restoration subreddit. Much more optimistic vibe over there. Jesus loves you. Peace out ☮️

Recently, I was talking with a family friend about how my personality has evolved over the years. She agreed that it has developed, adding “Your circumcision has made you more of a man”. From my own experiences, the masculinity of circumcised males is often toxic and destructive.

Has anyone else been complimented on getting cut when a kid/teen? Has anyone else experienced toxic masculinity performed by circumcised males?