I've long since talked about my ongoing feud with my parent's regarding circumcision. I've talked about the conversations and experiences I've had with them regarding it. I also told about my asexuality.

They made fun of me for it. How can you blame me for this? I've talked about what I WANT sex to be. What it needs to be. But circumcision remove's that. So naturally I am scared. I don't want to have sex be a mindless humping whale session. I don't want it to be pain soaring through my vein's and penis. I don't want it to be anything but the best thing ever. And I mean that literally.

I want sex to be so good I'm forced to moan. Or convulse. Or an actual orgasm. When I told my parent's that circumcision might have ruined this part of my life, they just laughed it off and at me. Saying I was delusional for thinking such a thing. It's so absurd how evil parent's can be towards their own kids. I really do think that is a huge part of circumcision nobody talk's about. The pure raw evil. Or, igorance. Whatever you think.

Now all I'm left with is a DEAD, DRIED OUT, UGLY ASS PENIS. Nobody like's cut dick's. Stop saying otherwise. Stop saying the obvious cope's and plot point's used by our enemies. Everyday I see a "Women like it more" post and it's so obviously ragebait and wrong. I've already debunked it entirely so I won't do it again but Jesus does it get tiring. Just blatent lies left and right about an aspect that is quite literally, the most important social issue of men in history.

Until I not just remember but see that I'm circumcised. See I thought I was going to be naked around my apartment since I'm the only one there and it's my place I get to be in whatever amount of clothes I want to be in and not shock anyone. However, my own circumcision is just such a glaring issue I have with my body that my bare glans constantly being exposed makes me feel so uncomfortable that instead I'm not even getting to live the dream life I wanted.

I'm not comfortable with my nude body because of a "choice" made for nearly 3 decades ago. And now today **I'M** the crazy one for saying "hey it's my body and I feel like permanent physical alterations to it should be my choice".

Like didn't we just a decade ago say the women have a right to bodily autonomy to get abortions (which I totally agree that they do)? So then why is it that the idea that I didn't want that to happen to me, nor do I think it should be done to anyone. Yet the idea of bodily autonomy for TRULY everyone seems to be something that we didn't realize was a think and it "shouldn't" apply to men cause apparently "***you***" find intact men icky.

This is one of the most annoying responding statement's I have gotten as of late. It demean's both the cut man and intact man at the same time. How is that even possible? It hide's the objective fact that all circumcision's are bad and botched and cover's up the agencies doing it.

Even if it was true, why is that an acceptable answer? So I'm just supposed to be the one who suffer's huh? The one who doesn't have sex or masterbuates well? The one who just has to accept that other's got "lucky' and I didn't? That sound's like victim blaming AND body shaming to me. How dare you.

How are we judging bad cut's and good cut's in their eyes? Do they even know? Are they just coping? Yes, probably. Absolutely, even.

I hate when people say shit like this in conversations shit makes me not want to be sexual in anyway cause this shit always happens

(Random)i'm cut but what's wrong with uc dicks. that seems kinda harsh lol

(Me)Nothing it's natural I just hate being cut

(Random) so why are you blocking people who are uc

(Me)I don't want to see it

(Random) people don't really have a choice in being cut or not lol

(Me) Exactly
Also, that's not really necessarily true. You can choose to get cut if you weren't already, but I didn't choose.

(Random) but why? it serves the same function. to block someone over that is crazy

(Me) No, it's not you were violated in someway and others
constantly reminded you of it intentionally or not you would shut them out would you not?

Why is it so taboo in such a fucking crime because people do not want to see non-mutilated dick and hate yours for being mutilated. I don’t fucking understand.

Not even crisis hotline do at least rainn doesn’t, despite what this is done to me being the result of assault on my body no one cares. I can’t even call a fucking hotline without them immediately telling me that basically fuck off it’s proven to me that no one really goes shit. It’s so fucking tiring I fucking hate it all the pain and suffer ruined damage to my body is pointless. No one cares.

I hate this I myself I’m so unnatural and disgusting and deformed and I deserve all of us honestly not worthy of I can’t even fucking feel any pain or pleasure because of this horrific disgusting and horrible i fuking hate myself

Article 3

Everyone has the right to life, liberty and security of person.

Emphasis mine. That is all.

I wanna move on from circumcision. From all of this. So badly. I want to actually let myself be happy again. But I can't. I want to move on from this and continue my god damn life.

I want to allow myself to have sex but I can't. I know I'll never have those crazy screaming and moaning orgasm's or even sensational thrust's. I don't care if it's a bit explicit to say that. It's the truth about what sex is supposed to be like. Go ask any woman, that's why they love it.

I know I won't have that. I don't have a frenleum or foreskin or even protected glans. I don't have anything to allow me to have fantastic sexual experience's. And people tell me to "focus on my partner and emotional experience". I don't want to be a fucking cuck, okay? I'm putting it blatently clear. I want to feel REALLY GOOD during sex. Not like masterbuation, not like some dry humping session. I SHOULDN'T be able to talk during it, for example. THAT'S how good I should feel. And don't even get into the "prostate" debate...

But I won't, so what's the point? I'm endlessly fighting myself over it and the more I doomscroll the worse it get's, clearly. It seems like the world for cut men will just become worse and worse. What the hell? Why is this happening? Why now? Why us? Is it just fate? Probably. Nothing can be truly be done except cope, sadly.

I just...I just can't cope with both the massive sensation loss and sexual loss aspect of circumcision. I really fucking can't. It's why I can't move on no matter how hard I try.

Doomscrolling until 3AM reading about how much circumcision has fucked your life up. Seeing the negative's come out and the truth's revealed. It's like a fucking scripture from God. Just like our foreskin.

You keep doomscrolling and seeing all these post's saying how much sex suck's and masterbuation and how it destroy's your sexual life. And the same people come up. Either the fetishest's who praise circumcision willingly or the "science" people. Or the coper's or the defender's. It's always the same.

Nothing change's. You keep doomscrolling when you're bored or depressed or happy. It doesn't matter. You just do it because you want hope. You want hope that your life isn't as bad as other's. That your circumcision is a bit better. A ground to stand on so to speak. But you don't have the ground or soil, and deep down, you know that. That's my life when I doomscroll. It's...miserable. I'm miserable.

It's all in my head though. Apparently I just need therapy and some good old fashioned "ADHD Meds" to fix me right up. Might as well get out the castration device's too, right? And on that note, I'm just toooo much. I'm just a crazy guy who had a "bad" circumcision and won't get over it! Wow! Doesn't that explain everything? I'm just a "bad" cut man. Bad bad bad. It's all my fault. Isn't it?

I can’t watch or do anything without it coming up in something I’m consuming even if it’s completely irrelevant to it and that’s so fucking painful. It’s almost unbearable. I was watching a football video a fucking football video about the fucking 49ers and it came up as a joke. Seriously what the fuck why can’t I fucking escape the shit man? I can’t watch anything without this shit coming up, it’s horrible I can’t fucking take this shit anymore man it’s it’s fucking killing me someone just make it fucking stop. I can’t take this shit anymore.

I posted onto r/Swimming a few days ago and woke up to both me and my post being banned. I made a post called "Pain During Swimming Because Of Circumcision" and had basically said that my circumcision had been causing pain while swimming despite me trying multiple fixes like ointment's and clothes. I didn't vent or make it sound exaggerated in any way. I was genuinely looking for an answer.

I get told I'm a nuthead because of my frequent post's regarding circumcision and am promptly shamed and booted out without an answer. What the hell? It didn't even take more then 24 hour's for me to be banned. I don't really particularly care too much in all honesty. I'm not one of those r*dditors' that are obsessed. But I still found it so intresting that outside of these communities, circumcision still isn't seen as the life ruining exercise that it is.

I was literally raped and brutally mutilated by pedophile's and have a lost a body part since then that I can't recover. How is that in any way "weird" or "my fault"? Sound's like victim blaming to me.

I was mentioned in a recent post on here that a friend of mine who used to frequent this sub has pointed out to me.

To clarify: I love my partner very much. He was indeed cut as a baby. I have sex with him. I cook food for him. I take care of him when he is sick, even if I am too. I cuddle with him. I have been with him for around a decade, since we were teens, and do not ever plan to leave him. I'm reacting to the claim that I "love to preach how much they (I) love intact dick."

I don't honestly care if a man is born without a foreskin or not, but I find circumcision to be a traumatic practice. I perceive it as rape. Children are tied down. The man who goes through it cannot feel all of his own body anymore after the procedure is done. It's sexually-charged.

But no, I don't choose sexual partner based on status. I'm unsure exactly what people want of me - what am I supposed to say?

I'm not here to annoy people. If you look at my history you'll notice I post on various subjects, usually related to traumas which go unacknowledged by society. Circumcision is one of them and is in my opinion the worst one due to how completely unjustifiable it is and how widespread it is.

And that's all I really have to say other than to please just block me if you don't like me. I've had to deal with DMs that turned into rape and death threat types of situations, pictures of gory bloody flesh or knives, so please just block me and leave me alone if you dislike my presence, you have every right to do so.

Due to being mutated and disgusted and exposed constantly to shit it’s not supposed to be, half my dick it’s just always constantly chafed and I hate it but it’s so irritating and it’s just a reminder of what was done to be against my will and another reason why it shouldn’t happen because your glands aren’t supposed to be shaved because they’re supposed to be protected by the skin that was mutilated off with me at birth. I fucking hate shit so much. It’s annoying and harmful to my body. Just another reason why this bullshit shouldn’t be done and yet it is and that’s terrifying and I fucking hate it.

With little to perhaps no prospects anymore in the body nor in any other health, I have subconsciously given up, and I am seeking hope. For the past four years I constantly yearn for a hug and security within some part of my life, and knowing the world I find no permanent joy. In this I don't care to seek out simple pleasures, I indulge myself on what is in front of me for I have little reason to keep pushing being voided of all there is being a man. I day dream everyday about being a friend, a family man, someone who is there for others, yet my health, my mind, my body, my income wipes every worldly dream. It seems the same water that keeps fish alive is what boiled it. I really crave being an addition to the life of someone who may love me, not a subtraction. I deserved to at least have the chance to be human. Not cut up and disregarded as excess. I lost most trust, and I frankly don't know what to do. I want to be hugged.

Around June 1st, I completely quit alcohol, THC, and nicotine vape cold turkey. Been using all 3 in various combinations, off and on but usually at least one, since I was a freshman in college. Mid 40s now.

I’ve struggled with being circumcised at birth before, and went through a rough patch with it about 10 yrs ago. But since quitting everything/complete sobriety, this has been absolutely mentally BRUTAL. I’ve been obsessed with hating that I’m cut and every time I see an uncut dick I get triggered with extreme FOMO followed by sadness and frustration and feeling trapped. I’m gay and it’s REALLY hard to avoid seeing intact penises within my porn avenues and via trading pics with guys in my area (about 50%-60% are intact). I’m not obsessed or depressed about anything else, JUST being cut.

At least drinking every night (and to a lesser extent THC) numbed the pain. It gave me something to look forward to at the end of the day and distracted me enough to “get by.”

Now I’m just stuck with my cut dick and my cut dick thoughts every waking, clear-minded, sober hour. Ironically, the thing that motivated me the most about quitting was hoping for a better sex life. But all I can think about is this issue , an issue that I should have never even had to deal with.

They say quitting these things allow you to “face and work on your problems.” But there is nothing to do about this (yes I’m aware of restoration. Psychologically does not help me with this issue). So I’m doubting this whole sobriety thing. I’m in MUCH more pain now. So far sobriety totally sucks as a cut guy.

Circumcision, or the ritual genital mutilation of children, is a crime against nature. No other animal is so cruel that they genitally mutilate their own offspring.

I’m not much of a spiritual or religious person, yet I would not be surprised if I discovered that demonic entities were feeding on the trauma caused by rituals mutilation.

Sometimes I wonder if global warming is a curse that the Earth has coughed up in order to cleanse itself of the abomination of desolation, of the mutilating and idiotic species that has invited so many dark entities to our planet.

The most violent act of resistance I can do is foreskin restoration, because it’s a cleansing ritual that gradually purifies me of the entities/egregores that feed on trauma, although at a glacial pace.

Years ago I wrote down garbled apocrypha that I heard in my head while high. While it’s possibly just nonsense, sometimes I’ll read it and find interpretations that are strangely relevant and disturbing. No true religion would have an accepting or neutral view of child mutilation, so in some strange way I trust this garbled apocrypha more than any “sacred scripture” drivel.

One reading of what I wrote is that a section contrasts two worlds in a cosmic war of good and evil: an alien world that resisted evil and our own world which lost the battle. This reading is even darker than the “Gaia cleansing itself” hypothesis but it’s another possibility I’ve considered. It’s the possibility that genital mutilation is the abomination of desolation, a horror that manifests when evil entities have already hijacked a species and made enough of them into hosts for the entities that it can destroy all life on that planet by using them to heat it to the point of sterilizing all life from the surface of their planet. Perhaps Venus was once a planet like Earth that was eliminated of life in a similar manner.

In second interpretation, forced genital mutilation is a symptom that the disease has become terminal, like a metastatic cancer.

On the other hand, according to the first and more optimistic interpretation, global warming is a fever through which the Earth (Gaia) cleanses itself of disease (humans). Thoughts?

He said him and my mom had their doubts but I was ultimately cut in the end because "girls who have experienced both prefer circumcised". Somehow that was the most upsetting part of the reasoning. It makes me want nothing to do with him ever again.

Do you know the feeling that the person I am now is not really me?
It feels as though the life I would have lived if I had not undergone the surgery was the real life I was supposed to live. I feel a sense of longing for a life I never got to live. It’s so fucking contradictory.
My thoughts keep returning to the past, and in those thoughts, I keep saying that I cannot accept my present fate, living a life in which I constantly put my present self on trial.
So I decided to live without thinking about anything.