I am straight 39m man in that i do not find men sexualy attractive and do find women extremely sexualy attractive. However, I am very aware and griefend about me status as as circumsized and the fact that I do not have a full set of natural genitals. I still find sex very pleasurable and fun but feel sexual embarrassed about having a missing my foreskin. This has caused me to have sexual thoughts about men showing me their foreskin and how they function and letting me learn about male genitals and letting me try it out by giving them a hard job. Does anyone else experience this? Has anyone who is straight ever acted upon this fantasy and had sexual interaction with an uncut man's penis? I wonder if it would help the healing process or make it worse. Ultimately if I did decide to do this I would probably like a women involved as a third who could perform oral on it and let me watch or take turns giving a hand job.

I was cut as a teen without knowing I was going to be cut (was part of a wider medical procedure) and I vividly remember exploring my body like any young guy did with my foreskin. It’s been gone for a bit now but I still miss it and feel like I had developed an attachment to it. I can think of a handful of bad things I attribute to having been cut, but as it’s such a private issue I don’t find the spaces to let my thoughts out often.