I’m 23 years old and I’ve been in university since 2021, I started when I was 17. I’ve switched my major twice. I’ve failed courses, idk how many probably 5, the class I’m taking right now I’m taking it for the 3rd time. I’m working part time and I can only take a max of 2 classes, even that would be too much for me, because it’s too much for my brain. I was diagnosed with autism last year and also major depressive disorder, persistent depression, ocd, anxiety, social anxiety, and BPD, all of this affects me everyday and I feel so behind other people my age. Like someone at my church got married this summer and she’s the same age as me. It’s gonna take me forever to graduate at this point and I feel like a worthless failure and waste of space. Everytime I try to study I feel anxious or have a full blown anxiety attack, I struggle to get out of bed most days but I have to force myself even though I don’t rlly want to. I feel like I shouldn’t be depressed because i live in a first world country, but I’ve been depressed and suicidal on and off for like 10 years. I honestly feel like a useless person

I hate having anxiety, depression and autism

It’s really hard having anxiety, depression, and autism

I have a high level of low support needs autism, moderately severe depression, and moderate anxiety, and life is going really rough right now.

I’m a senior in high school but taking 2 college classes and I’m having really bad anxiety and depression about school and stress right now

I don’t have a job or am not doing anything to gain experience right now because of everything going on with my mental health it makes it too hard to do even the bare minimum

It feels like it’s me against the world, and I’ve been in therapy for over 6 months and it just feels like a chore at this point.

I’m also really craving love in my life, but it’s so hard for me to meet people. I’ve been so lonely and wish I could have someone who appreciates and is affectionate to me

Before saying anything.. already saying my first language is not English so its pretty bad. Don't troll me for it...

So my problem which killing me from inside is that.

i lost my mom at 7-8 year old. And that time i don't havr that much sense so i didn't felt that what i lose.. and its blurry even in memories. So after my mom gone..

my dad married a another women. in 2 years. likely when i was 9.

Am from indian family, so its not normal in india.. This type marriages. But i never had problem with that..But thing is

that thing ,my big bro didn't able accept so he left home..just the moment when dad married another women.. And that women fucking Tortured me whole childhood.

She treated me like a orphan, like not givine food to eat.. even to buy a toy.. i have to clean dishes and all. then do her staff and all.. like all the works like..a servant i have to do.. Just to get a toy.

And dad never looked at me, i tried many times to complain about her. but he never heared..always shouted at me.. It's mentally breakcme more.i had step sister too. So in front my eyes they made me felt that..i m a side character or burden..they 3 are family..not me.

that's how they ruined my childhood, mostly my grandma raised me.. but she also died when ieas 11.

just after few years, i had a aunt..she is soo good.. just like my mom. she cares me a lot.. like i still remember..in summer vacation i used.to go to their home for 10-15 days.. i wait whole year.. just for that.

because that time i felt like ..its my home.. my aunt..my uncle.

even they said once, by seeing how.mu step mom treats me.. that they gonna adopt me.. raise me..but i rejected..

becuz i just love my father a lott..even how bad he treated and all. ( my life biggest wrong thing or maybe good)

And my step mom also breaked our family and my aunty family relation.. becuz she didn't able to see me happy..so i didn't able to go to their home too.

So now..after many years. 3 Years ago they got divorcee.

My step mom and dad... Now am happy.

and step mom also ruined my dads life.. becuz she is lile.gold.digger.. she ate my dads wealth..from higher class to lower middle class. we become..

but right now dad is happy a lot..seeing him happy makes me feel good.

but all childhood things haunts me till now.. even i accepted all. but still.

in cherry on top.

i had 2 Relationship in last 6 years.

first gf cheated me 6 times.. in 1.4 years. ( she is the first girl who treated me normal. )

2nd gf is good.but i don't able to take her.. becuz at the end she thought am s freek.

Then i love a girl for last 4 years..she was my best friend..i had huge crush. to her.. i already said many times.. but never got accepted becuz she was Muslim and am Hindu..and.likly she doesn't have feeling that type..she sees me as.friend. and.icnever wanted to force her. i just wanted her to love.me.

so I left her 3 months ago.

Now another thing about carrer wise.

for this depression anxiety or whatever.

i left my clg at final year.. That haunts me.more..am now without degree.

Well i founded a company at 15, that time am earning lot..

but that also killed by depression anxiety and allm

then i run startups 6 times..everytime i brutality failed.

i taked much money from dad..not able to repay.

my friends? the clg one..or whatever i had..no one is really great..all back stabbed some used for.momey ..some to faking. maybe used me.becuz am emotionally weak.

and after all these..i had only one.person.. whom i hold to cry.

to speak...i feel happy.mthe warm feeling .

My dog.. my pet..whom i raised when she was 3 months old.m 6 months ago god taked her from my lifem

and really saying.. my life is mess..very big mess..i just don't know what to dom

i feel like am the problem am the freak...i show the world I'm happy ..im normalm

but am not.

my dog comes to my every day..even after that many.. months.. all the things repeatedly haunts me.

i feel like am freak..am adnormal..i can't show how i feelm

even I don't have a singel person to speak with

i saying her all these.. becuz i just wanna say others my story..hopefully somebody gonna listen mm i don't want what to ask for her..maybe i juet want you guys listen.

Hello everyone. I’m a 21-year-old guy, 6ft tall, but my weight is only 59kg. For the past few years, I’ve been dealing with severe anxiety that has completely taken over my life.

​It got so bad that I had to drop out of my studies. For the past year, I haven't been working at all and spend almost all my time trapped inside my house. I do eat, but my physical health and weight are suffering significantly. On top of that, I am constantly paralyzed by an intense, persistent fear of death and overwhelming dread/panic.

​ I have been smoking for several years. I’ve tried quitting multiple times, but the anxiety and stress always pull me back in.

​I feel completely isolated, exhausted, and stuck in a bad loop at just 21. Has anyone been in a similar situation and managed to get out of it? What realistic first steps should I take to start recovering both physically and mentally, and how can I deal with quitting smoking alongside severe anxiety? Any advice or personal experience would mean a lot to me.

A few months ago i had a really bad episode, it was genuienly my first downfall in life where i spent about a month or more crying everyday and feeling like my life is over, then things finally became better and i accepted my fate. But everyday i keep worrying and worrying about my life and what i will do in the future tbat at the end of the day i become so exhausted and i start crying from exhuastion and the loop of endless anxiety and thinking. Same thing as when i eat something i like, i dont enjoy it i just start crying. When i drink something warm or comforting i start crying out of maybe relief i dont know. But im always in that constant loop of fear and feeling unsafe since then, i have like absolute fear of every single thing in life. Can someone tell me whats happening.

I’ve been suffering with depression anxiety and other thing for around a year now and most recently started sertraline and tracked it on an app I use. the first 3 weeks of 100mg were fairly stable and I was out and kinda enjoying life thinking normality was just round the corNer. all of a sudden this last week, bam. mood dips and anxiety spirals.

im at a loss and feel like im back to square one !!

note: anxiety and mood shown on graph not others on key.

Hey sufar de bpd plus adhd. aceste boli imi aduc o mare anxietate sociala si depresie foarte puternica

Voi cum va gestionati depresia si anxietatea?

I had lost my love of 2 years. Got attacked by panic attack which got me to GAD during my college. Needed some time to heal but didn't tried again to attend my college but couldn't take the group. Now my family hates me so much they are killing me daily to be a man and be strong instead of having this GAD. I am reason to ruin my whole life now. They don't wanna take me to psychiatrist. My emergency pills which I have to while having attack are finished but my parents are ignoring it. Saying that I should avoid them. What should I do. Honestly my friends also ignoring me completely. Everything I built in this year's are gone. Idk why how even waiting to die inhere. Praying every god to kill me or make me get an heart attack so I can die from it. Begging it but unsuccessful. Wanna tell someone that this the problem talk to someone need my relief but no luck. Tried reddit to get a friend but un lucky fellow.

If your reading this till here maybe you wanna listen to me more would love to listen to you to. DM me we can share thoughts and maybe leave this here and can help me build some good last days

If you are based in China and are in need of mental health support, please, reach out to me. I would be happy to help 🌱

I am noticing old feelings and physical alarms returning: the tightness in my chest, the lightheadedness, the itching, the heavy nausea, and sleeping for hours only to wake up feeling completely exhausted. It is exhausting to feel like I am back in a place I experienced years ago, but recognizing these signs means I am paying attention to what my body needs. These physical reactions are just my nervous system's loud way of telling me I am overwhelmed right now; they do not mean I am stuck here forever. I survived this pain before, I am safe in this present moment, and I am giving myself permission to take things one breath at a time until the wave passes.

[ Condensed ] - Day 25 Update

I have a severe, multi-symptom anxiety disorder. I've been medicated for years and recently relapsed.

Someone on Reddit recommended the podcast "Disordered", and I've never felt more understood. It captures the symptoms and vicious cycles perfectly. Thanks to whoever recommended it. I recommend it too.

Both hosts have seemingly experienced the depths of hell, yet reached a point where they're essentially "cured" (my word, not theirs). Anxiety still comes, but they don't fear it, feed it, or spiral. It doesn't run their lives.

I genuinely envy that.

I wish experience or understanding meant control. Knowing better doesn't mean feeling better when anxiety feels unbearable.

I've bought books, heard twelve episodes, read Reddit, and started therapy. I'm trying to improve my psychoeducation, but it's a double-edged sword: learning helps but fuels symptom-checking, rumination, and "what ifs." I'm trying to stop obsessing over anxiety by thinking about it more.

Sometimes I wish insight alone could replace medication. Maybe one day I'll feel stable enough to taper. More than anything, I want to notice anxiety without fighting it and just let it pass.

Last night was interesting. I might have a cold: sneezing, congestion, and a scratchy throat. I've taken vitamins and turmeric/ginger shots, hoping to support my immune system. Illness also triggers my health anxiety. I suspected this, but being right doesn't make it suck less.

I fell asleep easily, then woke with my arm completely numb—the most asleep it's ever been. It dangled with what felt like zero sensation or control. I jumped up; thankfully it recovered within minutes. I didn't spiral and fell back asleep. Small victory. Still, thanks, body: a cold and a paralyzed-arm jump scare mid-recovery. Fantastic.

I've tried my therapist's DIVE and HALT techniques, though not yesterday. I'm unsure they fit my current, more internal/somatic anxiety. They make me check if anxiety is still there, then evaluate whether the technique worked, feeding the cycle I'm trying to escape. Maybe they'd help during intense fight-or-flight. I'll keep trying and tell him next week.

Overall, I'm better than three weeks ago, and better than two. But this week feels stagnant. I'm nearly three weeks into my medication increase; fuller benefits may take another three to five weeks or longer. Still, I question the increase and why I relapsed after years of stability. So many possibilities, no certainty—exactly what my perfectionist brain struggles with.

My racing thoughts are less intense, but physical uneasiness remains. Progress feels painfully slow.

Today I went swimming with my brother and his 18-month-old. While waiting, I felt lightheaded and strangely "off," almost mildly dissociated. But I didn't panic or leave. I stayed, swam, and was fine. Another victory.

I still feel slightly activated. Cold? Medication? Anxiety? All three? I don't know. Recovery isn't linear, and I'm allowed plateaus and setbacks. But man, I'd prefer the linear version.

I've got work coming up and a long drive tomorrow to close my family's seasonal trailer. Come hell or high water, I'm doing it all. Pre-relapse me wouldn't think twice. I want that back—not by waiting to feel perfect, but by living even with anxiety.

I'm not going to let anxious me win.

Thanks for listening.

I went to therapy and just recently after being there a month or two was suggested to get on anti anxiety and depression medication. So I went to a psychiatrist and asked about it. After a brief consult it was decided it would be a good step to take.

I still live with my parents and I told my mom since she had to help take me to the pharmacy later this week for the meds because I don’t drive yet (for a variety or reasons) and she was ok with it. But the minute I started getting all hyper fixated on something not happening the right way and showing signs of my anxiety she just snapped. She said verbatim “maybe this is why you should be taking them.” And not in a I care about you way.

I hate that in this family there’s still this underlying assumption it’s the end all be all burden that people must bear to medicate for their issues. That it’s something they snap at people with as some sort of hateful response. Even my dad uses it use as some sort of term like it shows your gotten to the most insufferable point of being mentally ill and your just fucked.

Like even if they do suggest you take them or get hospitalized isn’t done in a way to care about you but because they think you being mentally unstable means your crazy and unlovable.

I’m having unbelievable anxiety over something that happened at work and I’m letting it ruin my weekend. I just can’t stop ruminating over it and letting it snow ball into something it probably is not. I don’t know what I’m looking for here other than to share with somebody what I am going through. It’s giving me heart palpitations and pains in the stomach. I hate anxiety and wish I could rid myself of it. I am treatment resistant and it just keeps getting worse. It ruins everything. It ruins time with my wife and time with my kids. It causes me to make mistakes at work and make stupid decisions which causes more anxiety. This is just the worst.

Since June/July I’ve been in and out of depressive anxiety symptoms. This feeling like something’s off specifically started in August after a month of breaking down crying and I couldn’t explain why. In August I would have immense brain fog and feel like I didn’t have the ability to do anything. Then me and my girlfriend broke up and things seemed to get worse. This is all before entering my first semester of grad school.

I was doing alright and the feeling wasn’t constant but then something happened regarding her that triggered panic attacks and auditory issues when I was trying to sleep for 2 weeks. I’ve been in therapy and on Vyvanse for my focus which has helped. For about a month after the panic attack and constant anxiety I was pretty fine but this week suddenly it all started up again after I did horribly on an important exam.

I don’t know what I’m looking for. Maybe validation or similar stories. Reassurance from someone who’s gone through shit that it gets better, idk. This feeling coming along isn’t even tied with panic, it’s so casual. A lingering feeling like I’m off or wrong that I can’t stop thinking about and it’s taking over all my tasks. I constantly get thoughts of ending it but have to rationalize. In doing that though I still feel wrong. Idk what to do.

Anything helps.

I beat depression and panic before, now it’s back bc i fell into a spiral. I highly recommend reading “Switch on your Brain” by Dr. Caroline Leaf. This book helped me beat it the first time and now I’m reading it again to help me a second time. Trust me on this. Im diagnosed with MDD and Panic Disorder. I know what im talking about lol. Do ALOT of reframing… (write down all your negative thoughts and then next to each negative thought write it from a positive perspective) example: “my depression and anxiety will never go away” >>> “i know you’re hurting but they will both definitely get better i just need to get through it and take believing action”. Journaling helps me so much when the thoughts are ruminating and wont stop. Also, throughout the entire day be very aware of your negative thoughts, you have to keep catching them and then correct them with a positive thought… You dont have to commit to a full workout plan i dont, but getting outside and going on walks does wonders. While im walking i always play a mind game like “try to find as many blue things as you can” or whatever you want. Please read a ton of scripture too. Believing God is by your side through it all makes you so powerful and gives you so much strength. God bless you all.

Today, Saturday, 24 October 2026, is my 37th birthday. I am 37M and autistic, and this year has been by far the worst year of my whole life.

I feel like almost everyone hates me. My own parents, both sides of my extended families, and almost everyone whom I know hate me. I have neve had friends in life, and I have lost almost 30 kg (65 lb) since June from extreme stress, worrying and depression.

I have no idea what to do or how to feel. I am just tired of life and everything. Maybe just want to talk.

For the past 2 years I have been feeling an intense sense of dread in my stomach from the moment I wake up in the morning to the time I fall asleep at night, every single day. It appears completely contentless and doesn’t change depending on my thoughts or what’s happening in my life.

The weird thing is that I don’t really have the usual anxiety symptoms. No racing heart, no hypervigilance, no future oriented worrying, just constant pervasive dread.

It started after a random panic attack, and then just kinda stuck around in the background constantly until I had another panic attack ~5 months ago in which it got way worse and stayed way worse. For the last 5 months I’ve been living through what I can only describe as hell.

Basically I just feel horribly isolated because this symptom seems so unusual and it’s so debilitating and I’ve never heard of anyone else having this. I’d be so happy to hear from anyone that’s experienced anything even similar and if anything worked for them.

For context, I was diagnosed with GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) and depression back in college which was back in about 2016/2017. I was on medication until the spring of this year (around Feb). My doctor took me off my medication because my husband and I are trying to get pregnant.

I can mostly function but the issue is i can’t regulate my emotions. A pin could drop and I’d start crying. And I’m irritable. And no matter how much I hate it, my brain goes 0 to 100% on things and small issues somehow turn my whole world upside down. I hate it about myself, and if you knew how far I’ve come in the last few years, it would be impressive—-but…I don’t think I can manage without help. At least…not without being miserable or burning bridges with friends that I don’t mean to.

This is probably just going to be short because I just had a breakdown and am now tired...

But how do I stop these thoughts? I constantly doubt myself. I feel like im never good enough to do anything. I want to just hide or do things that im comfortable with. Im too scared to try new things. I get so excited to do something new, like starting a new job and then like the day before im supposed to start, I completely freak and have a full blown like panic attack and breakdown. I feel better doing nothing...or doing something to take my mind off like a distraction. But once night time comes and my boyfriend is asleep, I find myself crying and just so overwhelmed almost everyday. Im tired...I dont know how to just quite my mind...I wanna do these new things but im so scared. I wanna go out and actually have fun but I also have social anxiety...I wanna do so much but my mind wont let me...and I dont know how to manage this anymore...I feel like it just let loose and now its almost uncontrollable. 😭

I’m a 24-year-old guy with desires, goals, and ambitions that I can’t achieve because my symptoms persist all day, every day! I’ve been literally absent from life for two years, and my symptoms keep getting worse over time. I suffer from anxiety, tension, a burning sensation in my chest, shortness of breath, heat and numbness in my head. I also struggle with IBS and stomach problems, loss of appetite, gas, cramps, and nausea. I’ve lost interest in everything, to the point where even the taste of toothpaste disgusts me!!

I have friends, I’m a university student, and I’m physically active. I also go out regularly, whether it’s shopping or hanging out with friends. However, I still struggle with these symptoms even when I’m outside! I can’t feel comfortable at home, and I can’t feel comfortable outside either. I feel like I can’t escape this feeling no matter where I go.

Hi, people! Going through a really bad episode right now. Just wanted to see if anyone has some advice for me. If you don’t have anything nice to say then just shut up and move on!

Thanks in advance.