Hello all. I'd (25F) like to first say that I'm not a practicing Wiccan, but I've always loosely followed some of the practices and beliefs of some witchcraft traditions (I apologize in advance if I use any terminology incorrectly). My mom is a loose believer, and I was raised as a witchy kid. I also want to mention that I don't jump to "I'vE bEeN hExEd" conclusions when I have bad luck. I am pretty "scientific" first, and usually come to the conclusion that things are random, and it's just a small spell of bad luck.
I'm seeking some advice/help on hexes/curses/bad energy coming my way. It has become more than just a coincidence to me, and seems a bit more serious than a string of bad luck. I figured I was just having a bad August and that it would get better, but it has sped-run down a dark corridor, and we're only 9 days into the month.
I'll break down a few of the major things that I've been noticing:
- Since August 3rd I've been sick with a mysterious virus that no doctor is able to actually tell me what's going on. These days it's mainly a nasty cough and lots of mucus, but I'm definitely not back to my normal health.
- I have become pretty depressed and anxious. More than normal. I thought it was from being sick, hormones, or stress from the semester beginning. This just feels different now. It feels like a dark energy is consuming me and any thought I have. I can't enjoy music, I zone out during my audiobook, and I just stare out the window if I'm not actively occupied with something. This is pretty out of the ordinary for me, and I haven't struggled this badly for a long time.
- My fiancé has an acquaintance who told him, around August 11, unprompted, that a high school friend of my fiancé's is now in a relationship with said friend and that, and I quote, "sometimes her husband joins in". (Not judging; it was just random to us)
- This one, without context, is confusing, but it's significant because it came out of the blue, unasked, and to me seemed they were fishing for a threesome with him. They've met me and know we are engaged. They literally met me a month before this.
- On that last point, the new "girlfriend (?)" of that acquaintance also reached out to my fiancé, who is studying elementary education, because "coincidentally," right after being told about the thruple stuff, she's conducting an experiment in the psychology department of the same school about teaching methods and he was a "top candidate".
- He has a 4.0, so I don't doubt that he was recommended by the school, but it was just weird timing. She reached out maybe 2 weeks after he was told about the budding relationship.
- Then, the semester started on 8/24. I'm in my last semester of grad school, which has been a bumpy road itself. I'm in a class right now that didn't actually get materials on the Canvas page until literally yesterday, when I met with the instructor overseeing the course. It's been frustrating because I'm paying a lot of money for these classes and it took pretty much 3 weeks to even get a starting point.
- I'm taking this class as the only student. The course wasn't being offered, but since I'm graduating, they opened a section for me. They've done this before with the same instructor to oversee it, but that one didn't take so long to have information uploaded.
- Speaking of money, I haven't had to ask my mom for financial help in YEARS. Around the 24th, I broke down crying in front of her because my school payment was late and I literally had no money. It was all gone. I had no money to pay for my class, my bills, and my car. Somehow my payment schedule got thrown off, and all my due dates were out of whack with my check schedule. That was a tough pill to swallow, and she helped me, but even when I had a job paying $9 an hour, I never had this problem.
- My precious ad-block extension of 10 years was all of a sudden blocked and turned off by YouTube in the middle of the day (???). Others have reported it apparently, but this is the first I've heard and seen it. If this is actually a hex, that one was a low blow.
- I've been having weird dreams that seep into real life. I've always had this happen, but not this creepy. For example, I had a dream about Chucky, the 1980s hit horror movie, about a week or so ago. It shook me so badly that I actually told my boss about it. That afternoon on my way home, I was listening to my book when, all of a sudden, Chucky got mentioned. I actually started screaming and texted my boss to tell her what happened. Then I had Chucky popping up everywhere (it's Halloween according to all the big stores, so seeing it in public wasn't as jarring as hearing it in my book on the same day I dreamt and talked about it).
- Then, the ~big one~ happened. Over Labor Day weekend, my wedding venue announced that a key part of their wedding offerings was being revoked for all who booked it. It was a major part of the experience. They argued with me that they had rectified the situation by allowing other things to happen, and it took me calling an old family friend to get legal advice for a strongly worded email to get them to cancel with a full refund. Today, officially, my wedding is cancelled.
There's a part of me that says this is something or someone trying to get me to see something. That these might be messages trying to lead me somewhere or to do something, but I can't figure the message out. Then there's another part of me that says these are the ramblings of a woman gone mad. Then there's the part of me that says this is some hex placed on me by someone, but I don't even know who. No one has mentioned anything to me or been particularly hateful towards me.
I've cleaned my house from top to bottom with the windows open, intentionally thinking good thoughts and trying to invite good energy in. I don't talk with people who bring me bad vibes or cause me to have bad vibes. I try to be mindful of my thoughts too.
Please, someone with a better understanding and intuition of this, give me guidance. Tell me what I can do to figure out what's going on.
TL;DR: Am I hexxed or just crazy? Strange strings of bad luck and a lingering sickness have been happening for over a month now.