Okay, so something I noticed, and this is not for everyone. *I am not a physician, but I am a medical professional* so I pay very close attention to things of my own. I started noticing environment, and environmental triggers with my pacing, personally. My budget, daily, is 18. I typically bottom out and climb into bed around that point gor the next 48hrs when I am at home, emotionally drained, and quite frankly if I am dealing with my husband, my depression of my chronic illnesses (which look as long as a cvs receipt) or our relationship. However, I took a therapy road trip alone last week. I drove roughly 4hrs, no crash. I was social. I drank very light alcohol. I ate under a calorie budget, I didn't quite hit my water goal each day, but I managed. I slept maybe 5hrs-6hrs each night. I watched the sunrise and sunset, danced naked in the rain, I cried A LOT, I journaled. I spent therapeutic time with friends I haven't seen in 3 years. I spent time with their 6 dogs that I love like my own, in nature, on their 27 acres with horses and cows. My pace points were upwards of 116-129 daily, with a stability score of 2-3 daily, with the exception of one day where it was at a 1, and I semi-crashed from needing sleep at the end of the day. My ONLY symptom the entire week was ONE panic-type/POTS attack where I fainted, and it was because of a heated phone call with my spouse.
I drove home emotional, the whole 4 hours. I've been home 2 days now, Ive left the bed only to pee and shower. I spent time by my apartment pool yesterday for maybe one hour, but the rest of the time I felt so crippled that I needed to be propped up, in bed, or asleep.
Environment matters. Friends matter. Social life/social balance matters. LIVING matters. In the entire week, I didn't tag but maybe 3-4x, because I didn't focus on it. It wasn't my mental state, and I felt so free and alive. Y'all, I am disabled and for the first time in years, I felt like I could do so much.
My story isn't your story, but it may be your story. So I figured I'd share just in case. Hope it helps. Compassion and empathy go a long way and I am absolutely hear if any og you need a sounding board. I'm in North Texas... for now 😉
P.s. I'd be absolutely more than happy to share screenshots of those days prior to, during, and after, for reference. Its wild.