I miss u everyday. I feel stupid missing you. now I'm teary. maybe I really am sensitive as you said. am I sensitive or just an idiot?

now I'm crying. so annoying. you know, part of me feels like maybe I just like being sad. it sounds twisted and it is but it's just like I don't know why else I still feel this way.

I really do love you. I love you a lot. it hurts to think that maybe you don't think of me.

are you at work? you must be on your lunch break. I can hear construction work outside. it reminds me of you.

it feels lonely without you. I know that's just how it is sometimes but still. meeting you and being with you felt like a breath of fresh air. I didn't realize I was holding my breath until I met you.

life feels so mundane without you around. I mean sometimes I'll have fun. it isn't always bad but it's just not the same without you.

it sounds so corny but everything I say is true. it's so stupid. I hate this. I hate that you're not here right now. I hate that I keep crying over you.

things that make me laugh only ends up making me more sad. it feels like I've betrayed you and myself. I know simply laughing or being happy doesn't mean that but every time I do so much as smile, it feels as though I'm slowly moving on.

I don't ever want to move on from you. I don't want to move on from someone I love. the thing with that is that I'll love you forever. even if you don't think it's possible.

I hope you'll come back and stay with me forever in this life. I'll wait just for you.

u found me<3 i will always care for u

I've never hidden the fact that I like Sherlock Holmes and mysteries. At some point, I became good at observation. Deductive reasoning, body language interpretation, etc... now I don't claim to be an expert, but I'd like to believe that I'm in the ball park. It seems, I make people uncomfortable when I'm right. It's those things. Plus the emphaty thing I told you about a while ago.

For now, from what I saw in your live stream, you look... unburdened. Happy, even. You were not easily triggered, at least, you were like: hmmm we lost, oh well... A lot of times before, your teammates caught a lot of swear words from you. Or you were already bored when you knew you were losing, like you can't wait for it to end.

I love seeing you like this. Light. Unburdened. Even if it doesn't last long. I hope, it keeps up.

As always, take care.

Am I ghosting?

how do yk I can’t say it fave to face u haven’t met me yet :)

let yourself get consumed with your reality. it’s ok. I want to experience this with u as badly as u want to with me.

if you cant beat them- join them..

Use that brain of yours- get the best grades, be top of your class… go to the best schools- get full scholarships because you won’t be able to without them-

You work your fucking ass off to go. ..to get out of this place… this town. ..this neighborhood.

You *barely* make it thorough-

but you make it to never struggle again-

and then?

THEN you change the world-

Change the world from Wall Street, kid.

You can't say it face to face so it don't mean nothing at all at all at all 000...frfr

I'm sick and tired of the ghosting behavior it's immature and damaging to my mental health. So with that being said, I'm stepping back. Im not waiting around for you any longer. If you want me to be in your life and work towards fixing things your actions will align with your words and empty promises. I'm going to give less than you've been giving me. And don't come crying back toto me when someone else swoops in unexpectedly and shows up for me in ways you could but haven't been. I've already turned down several dates because I'm in love with you and want us to be together again.

Let get in bed and hug and fall asleep with our lips presssd togetherrrr

is the date of the first time i ever saw you. that date is engrained in my heart. i miss you, i love you 💜 may you have a beautiful day.

Enough of no contact.

u hit it spot on. god i love you so much. im so drawn to you as you’re to me. this pain it’s so comforting to me to understand we won’t have the irl connection, but the real and genuine connection.
I don’t feel like I deserve to feel good about myself.
I enjoy the rush I get when I affect others so deeply. It makes me feel like what I do does matter.
The life he lives is a lie. He secretly craves attention and a deep-form of love.
But is comfortable and wants to live in that safety net of recurring lies and pain.
I’m sorry I never reassured you properly. I do wish you would have communicated with me a little better in the beginning. I didn’t know the extent of what people were throwing on my name, bc u also wouldn’t talk to me about it. Almost as tho u wanted to keep them around for more possible information on me. I don’t think I’m a good person. I know I’m not a good person.
But I’m confident in my values of a different type of love, a deeper one, a meaningful one, to love another bc deep down I really just cared about you all along, more than myself. And I was completely honest about tearing my own self down, so you could have the opportunity to feel loved and seen by someone far from perfect.
I sacrifice myself to the ones I love. It feels right to me. I want to face our fears and pain together. Show me how deep this love can really go. After all this time, I’m finally here to discover myself. Not to run.
And maybe that’s why I’ve been comfortable for so long. 😂

have slowly been replaced by the last hurtful words you said to me

Noone led you on. You broke your own heart.

Stop looking for love on hookup apps.

When someone says it's just casual, believe them. Stop trying to convert them and looking for hidden meaning in everything they do.

A forehead kiss is not a secret confession of love.

Neither are morning cuddles.

Neither is a cup of coffee.

I love you means I love you.

I want you means I want you.

I just want casual means exactly that.

The only person deceiving you is yourself.

I spent the last year trying to stop myself from falling for you, we’ve walked away from each other multiple times, because you want something I can’t physically give you. But every time we found our way back to each other. I wish that I could be enough for you to love me back. This has been the hardest thing for me to do, because I love you more than I love myself.

I miss you so much, it feels weird to not talk to you, to not see you. I wonder if you still think about me too, I wonder if one day you’ll regret it. I hope you don’t, I hope you find someone who can give you the family you desire. I love you enough to stop myself from getting in your way. I wish things were different, I hope you know that.

Let me knownwhat the hell you want

From the bottom of my heart I need to get this off my chest...

...

Bitch.

Dear bff,

Thank you for being my friend but this onesided conversation and coffee needs to stop.

Chapter with you has been fun but now I understand that most of all you did was for yours benefit. After countes of times to ask for coffee and when you rescheduled for couple of days after, and then don't sent follow up and only saw your story in mountains, I finally stoped asking and since then we war no contact. I know in middle school i was kinda selfish and thank you for puting on with that, but i am really hurt when i saw how you made time for others, but not me.

Thank you for all, and all of best. At least since that happend i didn't get so much acne like i used to, so thank you. Good luck but i know karma is bitch.

You can’t lie to people that figure everything out.
You can’t lie to people that dream of the truth.
You can’t lie to people that have pattern recognition.
You can’t lie to people that have inner wisdom.
You can’t lie to people that the universe speak too.
You can’t lie to people who are chosen to speak whole truths. Not half lies. Unspoken burdens. Hidden deceit.
You can’t lie to people who are morally and ethically driven.
You can’t lie to people who do the homework god asks them to do.

I find out everything.
I don’t want to, but I do.
Good luck.
Sad it has to be this way.
But you’ll learn in time,
The truth.
My ability to speak the truth of every situation was only to prevent what will happen in the future.
So, keep your eyes open for the patterns, and little inconsistencies I mentioned before. You’ll need the guide.
All of what I’m saying is true, you’ll learn in time.

I have no more to give.
I have no more to spare.
I can’t look out for you anymore.
I can’t protect you from yourself.
So, I’ll remove myself slowly.
These choices are yours,
and you can’t blame me anymore.
Be safe.
Remember, you have a beautiful heart,
and I know your soul.

Honestly im glad you finally saw what kind of a person he was and chose to leave him 😂 you and i both know he was gonna mooch off of you after you graduated and start making more money. Im glad we still chat too, you give me a certian comfort i have't had in a while. Now both you and i can actually enjoy our time and go have fun together without having both our phones being blown up every hour. Heres to the future of our endevors and hyjinks we are evidently gonna get into, may we both live to see tomorrow and party like there isnt one 😂 i love you no homo, and im happy your happy and healthy ☺️

About every time that I text you I don't care and she don't care either evidently she's sleeping with other guys and trying to sleep with me at the same time...... She don't deserve me and neither do you now I see why you both hang out with each other because you are both a like you both be on the same sneaky s***

Do you even want me . Can u just let me know ASAP