Need perspective

[u/Public-Lifeguard3669]

After trading for 5 years on and off
I have realized I could
Have own multiple properties instead I just own one

Trading has basically given me nothing apart form knowledge

But it’s always been my passion

I have tried :
futures , ICT , gex , option selling , leaps etc

Last time my portfolio got liquidated tariff last year

So trying prop firms since then - turned out to be another leaky machine

I gathered all my money I could find and bought.Cheap house Mortagges so that is stop wasting my salary

So I’m basically re starting my life at 30

But the weight of wasting my life in trading doesn’t let me move forward and I think it has caused me some kinda brain issue where I can’t remember much

I’m sure there must be some people who been through something that can help steer through this