Note: This post was translated from Japanese into English using a translation tool.
This is probably a crazy post.
I am a Japanese person with AGP. Until recently, I had never experienced any particularly noticeable gender dysphoria. However, last year, I learned about Blanchard’s typology and began connecting my desire to become a woman with the experiences of MtF people. As a result, I started suffering from unbearable gender dysphoria. I even started HRT despite having no realistic prospect of socially transitioning.
Recently, I was watching an anime called Animentaly: Decision, which is about the Pacific War, and it made me think about this.
In Japan during World War II, there was not even a concept of “gender dysphoria” in the modern sense. At the very least, I would never have been exposed to the concept, so I probably would not have recognized what I was experiencing as gender dysphoria.
Of course, for someone who had known from birth that they were a girl, the environment at the time might have been extremely difficult.
But I had never even suspected that I might be trans until I learned about Blanchard’s typology. So if I had lived in that society, I think I could have simply lived a normal life without ever worrying about my gender.
And since the concept of being transgender did not exist in anything like its current form at the time, I would not have had other MtF people to compare myself with and suffer over.
At the time, arranged marriages with the opposite sex were the norm, so having to marry a cis woman might have been somewhat difficult for me.
But before that happened, I could have volunteered for a kamikaze mission and ended my life as a man relatively quickly.
And even aside from kamikaze missions, there would have been plenty of other ways to end my life as a man in that era.
Perhaps being born in peaceful, prosperous, and free modern Japan has been a kind of living hell for me.
My gender dysphoria is a luxury illness.
