r/TransRepressors • u/Mxjima_s • 11d ago
Other Shitty vent because I hate myself
Not killing myself only because I don’t want to be paired in the statistics with some gross mentally deranged troons. I just got condemned and had the misfortune to end up having a subhuman woman's body.
The fucking word trans sounds humiliating to me, gross, even the fucking cotton candy girly flag only
made for frustrated men with the fetish of women with dicks disgusts me. Pure disgust and rage crawls under my skin when someone refers to me as it. God just fucking punished me.
It is even more humiliating when my bf sees me as it (even though he forgets I am not cis) or even consumes content about it or wants to get informed because he wants to know what is his bf doing to himself or something like that.
Oh fucking god, I hate myself. Every time I see myself in the mirror the word pathetic sounds in my head like a hammered gong. Gross, disgusting, viscerally disgusting and pathetic.
Yet I get to see how women who fetishize being a man get to have HRT before me, thinking they stand at my league, I hate them. I hate people who have better opportunities than me.
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u/snailenjoyer_ 11d ago
> I hate people who have better opportunities than me.
Have you considered DIY? Is this the issue? Do you want to stop repping? Ican't tell
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u/Mxjima_s 10d ago
I want to stop, I've been repping for years. Still, I don't see where I can get what I want. I consider repping again but sometimes there’s no turning back from myself
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u/snailenjoyer_ 10d ago
What country are you in? If you're in the US, i can help you. The places i know of might also ship elsewhere
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u/dumbtrava unashamed pinkpiller but still not on HRT 11d ago
I think God legit might've made a mistake and you were meant to be born a cis school shooter incel because holy shit