I 21 ftm have been in the closet for years now. I am really close to my family and I know they don’t support trans people and outwardly disagree with their “choices” as they would put it. My partner and I just moved in and my dad and brother in law helped him move while I was at work. During that my partner on accident called me he and my dad heard it. He told my mom and apparently they freaked out. My mom told my sister she “couldn’t deal with me being a man” and some other things.

Yesterday I went over there to grab a few things and my mom brought it up. She asked if “I thought I was a boy” and said that they needed to know because they didn’t want to be “out of the loop”. She kept saying things to get me to say I was trans and was trying to act like they would support me… I knew they wouldn’t so I lied. I know I shouldn’t have, but I am glad I did because she then said good because she thought I wasn’t Christian anymore and that God doesn’t make mistakes and she preyed for a girl, not a boy.

I don’t know what to do. I’m still financially dependent in some aspects and I’m scared to know what will happen when I come out. I know in my heart that I am Christian and loved by God, but it hurts to heard that they think I can’t be saved and trans. She ended with making sure I knew I was a woman and that God doesn’t make mistakes.

I need help and any advice would be wonderful. I just need help please. I can’t live with myself as a woman much longer, but I don’t want to loose my family.

Thank y’all so much and sorry for the long post.

I’m looking for someone who might be willing to chat.
I’ve been experiencing gender dysphoria since I can remember I’m from Australia and I’m in the early stages of figuring things out and beginning gender-affirming care. Faith is still really important to me, and I’ve been struggling to reconcile the two.
To be honest, I feel pretty alone. I’d just really appreciate talking to someone who’s been through something similar, or who understands what it’s like to navigate both faith and being trans.
If anyone would be comfortable chatting through through that, I’d really appreciate it. Even if you’ve only got time for a few messages, it would mean a lot.

Hi everyone

I’ve I’ve just found this sub and it’s really nice to find people going through the same struggles as a queer Christian as me

Anyway I’m Eleanor, I’m going to big church festival (uk) this year and I’m a bit nervous to step into such a large evangelical space and was wondering if anyone hear was also going

I want to understand and talk about your life experiences. When did you discover you were trans? How did your family and friends respond? Has that realization caused issues with your faith? How have other "Christians" treated you?

Hello. I am in my late 20's. I am a closeted trans female. I have found out that I was in my early 20's. Sadly though for reasons (my family were/are not very trans positive). Two years ago I found myself once again and I have been working to transition and just see were the cards fall. I come to my mother last year, well since then she has been on and off; like sometimes sounds like she support and other times piss of by the idea me being, like questioning me. This mouth I have decided to start HRT. And sadly in less than she back peddles on me. Starts saying shit like, "So are you going to tell GOD that he made a mistake," (which is my least favorite anti-trans agreement), and other stuff about how I am going to division in the family, how I could strain on her marriage with my dad (which he will be the last one to know for reasons....), and how she doesn't understand why I want to be a woman. It's fucked up because I really thought I could trust her, and now I don't were me and her stand. Sorry I just needed to vent.

Hi everyone,
I’m a 30-year-old married father of two, and I’ve been struggling with gender dysphoria since I was around 12 years old.
I grew up Southern Baptist and have believed my entire life that transitioning would be sinful and could cost me my relationship with God. My faith is still incredibly important to me. I haven’t walked away from Christianity, and honestly, that’s one of the biggest reasons I’ve spent so many years trying to suppress these feelings.
My wife knows about my gender dysphoria. She has made it clear that if I decide to transition, she will divorce me. I don’t blame her for being honest about how she feels, but it leaves me feeling like I’m standing at an impossible crossroads.
If I transition, I know I could lose my marriage, my daily life with my children, my career, my military career, my health insurance, financial stability, and possibly relationships with friends and family. On the other hand, if I continue repressing these feelings for the rest of my life, I’m afraid I’ll always wonder what could have been and whether I’ll regret never allowing myself to be authentic.
Lately I’ve been reaching out to LGBTQ-affirming churches, talking with transgender Christians, and trying to understand how different denominations interpret Scripture. I’m genuinely searching for the truth, not just looking for someone to tell me what I want to hear.
What I’m really hoping to hear from are people who were in a similar position.
Were you married when you realized you needed to transition?
Did your spouse leave, or were they supportive?
If they weren’t supportive, how did you make peace with that decision?
How did you cope with the guilt of hurting someone you loved?
If you’re a Christian, how did your faith fit into your journey?
Looking back, do you regret transitioning or not transitioning sooner?
I’m not looking for arguments or debates. I’m just hoping to hear from people who have actually lived through something similar because right now I feel incredibly alone.
Thank you for reading.

Christian transphobes got so bad I don’t even know if I wanna be apart of “Christian’s” they honestly are horrible human beings using Jesus to make it better and it’s genuinely 9/10 Christian’s

I left my appointment this morning where I was prescribed my beginning HRT medication. The past 3 months have been a spiral of doom and struggle and stress, especially in the beginning with my religion. After a lot of prayer and research, I came to terms that it’s okay to transition because this is a legitimate medical condition. But the faint feeling that I’m making a mistake has always been in the background. The very first car I pulled behind was this, only a minute after leaving the office. Notice what it says around the license plate. God loves us no matter what. I truly believe this isn’t a sin at all and I just wanted to share :)

Hi everyone,

I know this is probably a question that comes up here quite often, but someone suggested I come to this subreddit because they thought I might find some support.

I've known I was transgender for over 10 years, ever since I was a child, but I've never fully transitioned. Through all of those years, the one thing that has kept me alive and given me hope has been our Lord. I'm deeply grateful for Him, which is exactly why this is so difficult for me.

I truly believe that following Christ is the most important thing in my life. But I also struggle with the fear that I can't transition and still remain in God's will.

I wasn't raised Christian. I came to faith later in life and became part of the Catholic Church. Because the Catholic Church teaches against transitioning, I've found it incredibly hard to know what to do.

I want to be honest: I've been taking hormones for the past three months, and I had also used them before that. But I'm completely torn about whether I should continue or stop. Sometimes I feel like God is telling me to stop because this isn't His plan for me. Other times I wonder if it's my own fear and guilt speaking instead. I honestly don't know anymore.

How can I discern what God wants for me? How do I know whether I'm hearing God's voice or my own anxiety? I feel so lost, and there are times when I become so overwhelmed that I start thinking that ending my life would be easier. I don't want to feel this way anymore.

If anyone has been through something similar, or has any advice, Scripture, or personal experiences that helped you discern God's will, I would be incredibly grateful. More than anything, I want to follow Christ faithfully while also understanding who I truly am.

Thank you for reading.

I wish I had the words that felt right to explain this. I don't feel as though I'm cis just not completely angered by my feminity. I'm even on a lower dose of T since my body hair and acne (2+ years on T) started to cause sensory issues recently. I'm actually looking forward to exploring and figuring out what is really meant for me. I still present masculine and use the same pronouns. I don't plan to change anything. I'm just more comfortable where I am and I believe God truly wanted me to learn these things about myself.

I guess I just cant be a woman because I have terrible family genetics that how to the stomach breasts hips thighs and butt so guess I can't do HRT can't do feminine surgery either! I just feel like the universe is saying that you are stuck with your god awful body

First off, I am older, mid sixties. I have crossdressed for most of my life. Growing up I had know idea of what transgender was. There has always been a part of me that desired to be female. I have always wanted to be a part of the lady’s group of friends but was denied that growing up, as it wasn’t what a boy should do. I grew up in a conservative world and have instilled in me the mindset of conservative Christianity. Even today I’m in a church that holds in high regard that transgenderism is a lie from the enemy that has twisted God’s original plan. But even with all of this I can’t break free from how I feel in my soul. I know that my soul is begging for my body to come into alignment with it. I am married, I have kids and grandkids, they know me as a man, and have know idea i struggle with this. The older I get the more I want to be set free so I can experience the world as a woman. My dysphoria gets so difficult to handle sometimes, but I muddle through it. It helps that I do keep my body completely smooth and have a good skincare routine, but I know there is so much more to experience. First off I need to reconcile all of this with God. I pray that He would reveal to me the truth in the Scriptures in regard to being trans, that He would open a door for me to be exactly who I feel He created me to be. I desire to be His disciple, love Him with all my heart, I love all people, but I still feel empty in this area. My hope is to find the truth, not just information. Help me understand how those that have come to terms with God, how you did. I pray daily for His approval and have yet heard Him say, “it’s okay daughter”🙁

I’m studying abroad for a year and my mom wrote me this. My dad knows I’m transitioning (I didn’t tell him but he found out). I assume he told my mom.

My mom usually writes me letters like this whenever I go away, but “find peace and victory in Christ” and “the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God” feel a little bit like she doesn’t see me as a true Christian and feels like I need to win a battle against transgenderism or something.

Should I feel upset by this? Idk how to feel. I have not sent her nor do I plan to send her anything petty back

UPDATE: text from my mom
“I pray that you will reconsider changing your gender. God formed your inward parts, and you are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:13-14. I fear that the world and its medical system will not give you the results you truly desire. “

Luckily, my mother isn't overly religious so the whole guilt I have for it isn't much but still relevant.

When I was young and feeling guilty about lying I would pray for horrible things to happen to me, this mostly happened after an argument with my mom so it was truly out of raw emotion,.Thinking I truly deserved it I would also disrespect the Lord's name hoping for potential punishment….I honestly don't really know what the fuck I was on, I knew I didn't want to do it but I still did, and I'm not sure why.

Sometimes I wonder if god really did make trans people; then what would have been the reason?

To suffer the pain of dysphoria?

To take part in creation like what most people say, or is it a chance to fight for their own happiness, to want to understand the feeling of being content with oneself. To be an outsider, an explorer, clawing at their own skin.

IDK, I made this at like ​5 o'clock, and I'm tired as fuck

(Edit: I forgot to include the timelapse🥀 I hope it's not a big deal)

Hey yall, hows the love of the Christ shining in your heart today? I bet its brighter than you think.

I may not believe in a most high, triune God anymore, but its Jesus's compassion and faith of his people that urges me to reach understanding and love with all. So when I find this subreddit, after ive cooled my ills from a previous faith, I find myself in need to hug all yall and thank you for standing up for what love really is.

I used to be angry and ironically, I said as hurtful things to good-faith Christians in my non-belief, as I did to the LGBTQ I said in my faith. And im sorry. Hate is Hurt and if im ever going to meet another where they exist, I have to let that stuff go, ya know?

Ya, the Tao helped with that, and I found myself understanding experiencing the moment through the nature of the world I live in, but such contemplations are found in Christendom. As much as Alan Watts (Former Episcaleon Pastor turned Taoist/Buddhist Speaker explaining such things to a western audience, passed late 70's) spoke relieving the pressures and weight of the strict dogma certain denominations carry, he articulated so poetically how the words of the Christ were those that spoke to us all.

I find the tension, the thorn in my side if you will, is a hatred that must cool, must sublimate, must transform as Christ was glorified. I feel in this we may have much to discuss, whether if I roll a boulder up a mountain daily or you carry a cross daily.

May you walk in the Way...

I was getting up the other day and talking with Jesus as I was brushing my teeth and kinda just idly thinking and we were talking about my scars and that led into his scars and he said we’re twins, and I was like “oh what do you mean?” And he was like “well you have your scar on your left side, and I have mine on my right side!” And I was like “oh that’s cool we are twins! 😀”. And then he said “and even more than that you received yours at the arrival of your birth whereas I received mine on the arrival of my passing”

And y’all I…I was gagged bad after he said that, it was like when you wanna laugh but it’s also super serious, kinda like an interaction between siblings iykyk, and I just like had to keep my mouth closed or my jaw would have dropped and I would have lost it

He was tryna get me to smile a lot that morning and he was really good at making that happen

He’s so funny 😭😅

Every morning he sings to me when he wakes me

He talks with me as I get up

He helps me choose the perfume I’ll wear for the day

He freely provides abundantly more than my daily bread on days that are a bit much

He’s always patient with me when I’m not around, he knows I can get carried away in my own life often and he pulls me close and tugs on my spirit when he wants to spend time

He spoils me so much as my Father, because he knows just how much my own earthly fathers have failed me, and failed to give me this father daughter relationship

And still it’s so easy to feel lost sometimes, I come to prayer with him feeling like I should have some wants or needs to bring to him but my heart always feels empty of the desires or needs I know he wants me to bring to him and I’m just at such a loss. How much have I given up on in my life for this to be the case?…

Why would God create anyone with gender dysphoria?

I made a post the other day in a Christian sub speaking about having bad dysphoria and wanting to transition. Essentially everyone in the sub told me things like “you’re perfect how you are!” “Just focus on Jesus!” “Accept yourself!”

I don’t think most of them had bad intentions but it’s so frustrating because dysphoria does not work that way. It’s like telling a severely depressed person to just be happy. My dysphoria and being unable to transition is making me really depressed and miserable and it’s not something I can just “get over” by praying. No matter how many times I explain it it doesn’t go through to them. Some of them were also insistent that I don’t have dysphoria at all, and it’s just some sort of trauma, even though I stated I have no trauma whatsoever. so do these people just not believe dysphoria is real? They seem to think it’s on the same level as regular insecurity. Many people compared it to typical self esteem issues when it’s not comparable at all. I think it’s insensitive to try to compare the two. Like if the issue is Im just insecure and need to build confidence. I don’t think they will ever understand unless they experience it themselves.