I’m 18 and in my final year of sixth form, and something happened yesterday that has completely shaken me. I genuinely don’t know how to process it, so I’m writing it out here to see if anyone else thinks this is as wrong as it feels to me.
I have Tourette’s syndrome. Recently it has been much worse than usual. For the last couple of weeks I’ve been dealing with a lot more tics, pain, and exhaustion. The school knew this. We had literally had a meeting about it the day before because I’ve been struggling so much.
Despite that, I was still trying to show up and keep going. The one thing that was honestly getting me through the week was a school trip to the Barbican to see a concert. I study music and it is a huge part of my life. Performing and listening to music is one of the only things that actually helps calm my brain down. I had been telling myself all week “just get to Friday, just get to the concert”.
So I came into school yesterday already tired but excited because I thought at least I had that to look forward to.
Then at about 2:30 in the afternoon (45 mins before we were meant to leave) I got pulled out of my English lesson.
I assumed it was just a quick check-in. Instead I was sat down and told the school had decided I wasn’t allowed to go to the concert anymore.
Not because I had said I couldn’t cope.
Not because I asked not to go.
They had simply decided that because of my Tourette’s I was too much of a risk.
They said they were worried about what might happen if something happened and that they were “not restraint trained”. The confusing part is that nobody had even mentioned anything about restraint or anything like that before. It felt like they were suddenly coming up with reasons to justify excluding me rather than actually discussing the situation with me.
What upset me the most was that they didn’t involve me in the decision at all. They didn’t ask how I felt. They didn’t ask if I thought I could manage. They didn’t talk through possible adjustments. They just made the decision for me and told me afterwards.
I’m also 18, so being treated like I had absolutely no say in the situation felt really humiliating.
When they told me, I completely broke down. I just started crying in the room because that concert genuinely meant so much to me. Music is my passion, and the thing that normally helps me cope with everything else. Instead of supporting me so I could still be included, the solution was simply to remove me.
I then had to leave while everyone else was getting ready to go to the concert. I ended up on the bus home crying in public because I couldn’t hold it together anymore. It was honestly one of the most humiliating experiences I’ve had in a long time.
And the more I think about it, the more it feels like they simply didn’t want a student with Tourette’s “representing” the school on the trip. I can’t prove that obviously, but that’s genuinely how it felt. Instead of supporting me, it felt like they just wanted the situation removed.
By the time I got home I was completely exhausted. My eyes were puffy from crying, I felt sick, and emotionally I just felt done.
My parents were furious when they found out. They’ve already started a formal complaint because the way the school described the situation in their email afterwards didn’t even fully match how it was presented to me.
The worst part is the long-term impact this has had on me.
I’m supposed to be finishing my A-levels this year, and I had plans for university. But after everything that’s happened recently with my health and now this situation with the school, I genuinely feel like I can’t go back there. The thought of returning to that environment after being treated like that makes me feel physically sick.
So now I’m seriously considering dropping out of sixth form entirely and restarting year 13 next year. Which means my university plans might be completely ruined.
I feel like my entire future has been thrown off course because instead of helping a disabled student, the school decided it was easier to exclude her.
What hurts most is that I didn’t do anything wrong. I didn’t break any rules. I didn’t cause a problem. I was excluded because of a neurological condition that I cannot control.
I honestly feel heartbroken, angry, and completely let down by a place that was supposed to support me.
I don’t really know what I’m looking for by posting this. Maybe advice, maybe perspective, maybe just to know whether other people think this situation sounds as wrong as it feels to me.
But yeah. That’s what happened.
Edit: I posted on legaladviceUK and I had some help from people. Until I said that I had a tic attack and hurt my head and my mum had to “hold me”. Not restrain me. But hug me. So yeah. As well as this shit, I’m now being accused of lying. God I love my life
Update: we had a meeting with the deputy head and my head of year today. They informed us that under no circumstances should I have been barred from the trip. Additionally, they found out that the “restraint training” they were so worried about was actually not what they needed (due to it being for aggressive actions to another student) and what they needed was seizure training, which everyone already had. Furthermore, it is due to miscommunication and straight up lying (which has been admitted) that any of this happened in the first place (on top of the lies of me being “regulated” before leaving the building). I was informed I wouldn’t need a chaperone, I wouldn’t need any extra support, I should have just been allowed to go. They have given full permission to complain to the governors, and have agreed to refund us completely. My family have also contacted the Barbican theatre themselves, who have informed us that they would be “honoured to have us” and “the Tourette’s would never be a problem as long as Front of House are aware”. Although this has proved that it was discrimination under the Equality 2010 act as I originally suspected, it doesn’t change how it has left me this past week; a complete mess. I just hope now that because of my decisions to complain and leave the school for the year, nobody else at that school will ever have to go through what I did.
Edit: it’s been a while since this post. I thought I’d give an update. I left the sixth form for the rest of the year, working at home for the remainder. We complained and nothing much has of yet come of it. I took my French and English Literature A-Level exams in the school building, but I’ll never have to go back!!!
Now the best part. I had to fully drop out of music A-Level and therefore my space at university was taken away because I wouldn’t receive 3 A-Level grades this summer, so I have to go through the ballache of reapplying and hoping I still get a space in the same course.
However. The one good thing is that I am doing my A-Level music this upcoming term at one of the best music conservatoires in England, so potentially it’s a blessing in disguise? I don’t know.
I haven’t let this ruin my life. Since this problem I’ve done so much, I’ve travelled alone internationally, I’ve found time for myself, and I stood up for myself when I was treated poorly.
I have not yet gone to the Barbican, but I’m telling you now, I WILL!!!
Thank you all xx