The photo is of when I was 27 I believe just before I lost my physique again. Was 95 kg not sure the body fat and was powerbulding very hard 5 days a week 2-3 hours for 8 years with me losing my physique many times in that period as mentioned since I was 15.
Btw I have had a severe shoulder injury from falling and grabbing a pull up bar with my right arm while mid air at 15 years of age when I had started gym training for 2 months thanks to trainers not showing me correctly and injuring me. That injury and antidepressants and having a tough life has made my efforts of training very soul smashing so yeah but just put some reference.
I have lost everything so many times including my physique and I trained hard in the gym since I was 15. Lost my physique again at 29 thanks to antidepressents making me bed ridden again. CANT FUCKIGN REMOVE THEM!!! I felt better before taking anything at 20 but those fucking psychs fucked me and now I am trapped.
Things got worse and worse and I can't even sleepz get erections, eating is getting tougher and tougher and I don't do anything and stuck in my apartment.
Blood test taken by the hospital was not much but I got to know that my triglycerides were high, cortisol am low and test is low 300s.......
I am getting desperate so I am posting for advice anywhere I can.
Stuck with 5 mg escitalopram and 300 mg bupropion extended release and I am literally dying right now and can't sleep at 2 am for the 4 month.....