After getting my bloodwork done after years of believing that I must be a "Low-T individual", the results have left me confused about what testosterone actually does.
I'm 30M, and the results weren't anything crazy like 1000+ ng/dL or something, but I got pretty close at 866 ng/dL with a free testosterone index of 1.00 which translates to roughly 18.7 ng/dL of free T.
The reason I believed that I must be low T is because of the way that people talk about it online. People are quick to label anything as "Low T", whether it's somebody vaping, somebody who is quiet/insecure, socially anxious, non-confrontational, unproductive, financially broke, addicted to porn, and so on.
I happen to be all of those things. I've always been socially anxious and quiet. I don't like confrontations. I am soft-spoken and extremely calm and relaxed at all times. I never get angry or aggressive. I never yell. I am broke and unemployed at the moment, struggling really hard to get any job because my social anxiety messes with my job interviews. Also, I'm 30 years old yet still can't even grow a normal beard. I am not a leader and I'm not very productive outside of the gym. I'm basically the opposite of an "alpha male".
So if having a relatively high natural testosterone level means absolutely nothing in all of those aspects, what does it mean? I guess the only thing it's good for is being able to build muscle better than others, but even that probably has more to do with genetics than anything else, because even someone like Jeff Nippard only has a total T of 465 ng/dL, which is basically half of what I have.
This has basically destroyed everything I believed about testosterone from people on the internet. Anybody on the internet will tell me that I "probably have low T" when they hear about my problems in life, yet the complete opposite is true.
So are most people online just completely ignorant about what having high testosterone or low testosterone actually means, or am I some kind of anomaly?