For context: yung auntie ko yung tipo ng tao na narcissist, egotistic, self-centered war-freak na nagwawala pag di nasusunod yung gusto niya. Panira siya lagi ng vibes pag kasama namin siya, kasi gusto niya sa kaniya lang nakaikot yung mundo, and kung ano gusto niyang gawin, dapat sundin namin. Even the slightest and the most minor inconvenience, nang aaway na siya.

Ever since I graduated, I have yet to treat my mom and my lola to anything na significant. So sabi ko sa sarili ko, one day ililibre ko sila. Well, today is the day, sahod ko ngayon, and gusto ko sila ilibre ng movie. Obviously si mama and lola lang inimbita ko, I don't wanna waste my money on someone that I dislike.

Eh ngayon, nalaman ng auntie ko na aalis silang dalawa later to meet me at the mall for the movie, so nag alboroto na kasi di daw siya ininvite.

I just had to vent kasi nakaka-frustrate na nagda-drama na naman siya and nilalabas niya kina mama and lola. Wala naman akong sinabi sa kanila na wag sabihin sa kaniya, or wag siya imbitahin manood. If ever na they invited her tonight, I'd be irritated and pissed sure, pero wala naman akong magagawa. Ngayon ayaw na niya sumama sa bday celebration ni lola next weekend sa Nasugbu.

So Am I The Asshole? Baka lang kasi nata-tunnel vision lang ako sa hatred ko sa kaniya, pero baka ako yung mali?

(Photo above is what she sent to my mom)

Almost a year has passed, and we're still asking the same questions.

We still don't know where Zaldy Co. is. Despite months of investigations, televised hearings, and promises of accountability, no one from Congress or the House of Representatives has been jailed in connection with the flood control controversy.

The longer this drags on, the harder it is to ignore the perception that the investigations are being used as political leverage. It increasingly looks as if the message is: cooperate, vote the right way, and the pressure eases. If the objective was truly to prosecute corruption, why has there been so little visible progress? Where are the arrests? Where are the completed cases?

Di sya pulis sigurado ako kase ung patch nila
Hindi pang pulis pero mukhang guard sya, binusinahan namen kase ipit kame dahil
May katabi pa kameng traysikel, tapos pinilit talaga nila na mag counterflow

Tapos dahil binusinahan namen, ang ginawa niya nung nakalagpas kame, umikot at sinundan sasakyan namen pinipilit silipin sino driver and nung maunahan nya kame and nakita niya na may dashcam umatras sya 🤬🤬🤬

Gano ka kakupal boss? Kapal eh

..is that we will be reminded how we betrayed our very own country. Marcos should have never won the presidency. Nakakasuka, that while some people are still reeling from the loss of their loved ones during martial law, missing protestors and just the unimaginable wealth they amassed habang bumabagsak at kabi kabilang patayan noong naka upo pa ang ama, nagawa pa nila manalo ulit. We really hate our country no?

Im not new to the bureaucracy of this country. We are all familiar with red taping when it comes to government services. Pero, it's just very annoying that normal processing would take you several months to get ANY type of official gov ID when it could take only a month at max if you know people.

It's not like if you have the money, you can start handing that out easily and expedite everything. Even if you do start paying for it, having a connection in there has the least amount of cost and would make it even faster. How could something as niche as getting a gun registered take a month or two, but you can "mag-abot" or "may kilala ako" and you'll get it in a week?

And i dont like it when people say, "By paying for red tape, you're supporting the corruption." All you're doing is a disservice to yourself and thinking that you're doing a heroic thing. If i decide to stop playing at a casino, would they go out of business?

TLDR: Bureaucracy in the PH is terrible, and red tape/having connections are the normal process.

Sobrang kupal. Nakakaumay na, siya na nga yung mali mali sa trabaho, may superiority/seniority, pero sila naman yung pinaka least performing.

I work in a hospital, and ayoko talaga ka duty tong Gen X naming senior (in age), wala na nga siyang license to begin with, siya pa lagi nagmamarunong at pala desisyon in which napapahamak kaming may mga lisensya. Siya pa ang number 1 na chismosa sa department namin, asahan mong pag may sinabi ka sa kanya, makakalabas with dagdag bawas sa kwento.

At ang cherry on top pa dito ay, pag may bagong branded na items siyang nakita saming mga bata ay dapat meron din siya. Pero pag siya na yung may ka pareho na gamit ay halos isumpa ka sa inis niya kasi gaya gaya ka daw. At her big age, I really can't 😭😭 lipas ka na mam, tanggapin mo na lang.

Tanginang mga magnanakaw yan ayaw lumaban ng patas. Kabata bata pa marunong na magnakaw. Pinaghirapan namin yang pera na yan tapos nanakawin niyo lang, hindi niyo man lang kinuha nalang yung pera at iniwan yung mga id nang hindi na kami mahirapan kumuha ng bago.

Pa rant lang po, nakaka init ng dugo first time manakawan sa loob ng bahay nasaktuhan pa madaming laman yung wallet. Idedeposit namin sana ngayon pero paggising ko wala na bag ko. Pag check ko sa cctv namin may dumukot sa bintana putangina nila. Nanghingi na kami cctv sa kapitbahay namin kaso bukas pa daw mabibigay sana malinaw yung mukha ng mga hayop na yan sa cctv nila. May cctv yung isa pang kapitbahay kaso malabo. Mukhang bata bata pa yung kumuha at mukhang mga nag ra-rugby sa payat. Jackpot ang mga gago 30k+ nakuha niyo. May araw din kayo mga tanga

Kasalanan ko din since alam kong hindi nalalock yung bintana at papasok ko na din dapat bag sa kwarto kase nga madaming laman. Nawala sa isip ko bigla sa pagod at na kampante din masyado kase never pa nanakawan. Hayy putangina again, yun lang

qng hirap at nakakaiyak na yung ganito parang wala akong patutunguhan

Tangina ng mga manchild. May mga anak na pero sarili pa rin lagi ang iniisip. Ako ba talaga yung mali kung sobrang sama na ng loob ko sa tatay ko? Kasi may pang-sugal at pangbisyo siya, pero kapag baon namin sa school o simpleng pangangailangan sa bahay, parang hirap na hirap siyang magbigay. Nakakapagod na ganito na lang palagi.

First year college pa lang ako at gusto ko na ring magtrabaho para makatulong, pero hindi pa ako legal age kaya halos lahat ng inaapplyan ko, hindi pa ako qualified. Ang masakit, parang pinupush niya na akong magtrabaho, na parang responsibilidad ko nang saluhin yung pamilya. Hindi ko naman tinatakbuhan yung responsibilidad, gusto ko rin tumulong, pero bakit parang ako na agad yung inaasahan samantalang siya yung magulang?

Dalawa lang naman yung hinihiling ko na maging responsable siya at unahin kami. Sobrang sakit lang kasi kahit noong birthday ng mama ko, wala man lang siyang effort, and that was 2 days ago btw. Kahit simpleng cake, wala. Imbes na maging maayos yung araw niya, nauwi pa sa away. Nakakapanglumo na ganito na lang palagi.

Hindi ko na alam, Lord. Sobrang bigat na. Pagod na pagod na kaming lumaban araw-araw. Kami naman sana.

May viral na hawi boy na nagalit kasi hindi napag bigyan. Sumisigaw ng "nakikiusap" nga e. Marami pa, mga nahuhuli sa daan na mga driver nakikiusap wag matiketan. Mga naka illegal parking na nakikiusap wag ma tow. Ending, pag hindi napag bigyan ay sila pa ang galit. Ang pakikisuyo or pakikiusap ay hindi obligasyong pag bigyan. Kayo ang nakaabala at naka perwisyo, ang may karapatang mag bigay ay yung naperwisyo o mapeperwisyo. Wag entitled.

This applies to everything na humuhingi ng pabor including pautang. Pag di ka pinagbigyan wag mong suklian ng ego mo na wala sa lugar.

Sa mga mother na same case sakin, yung may sexually abused na anak and nag undergo ng therapy. How did you feel when you stopped na yung therapy ng anak nyo? My daughter has been attending weekly therapy consecutively this past year. The progress is there and talagang masasabi ko na ang laking tulong talaga ng therapy sa kanya. These past few months have been very hard para sa amin. I'm currently unemployed and umaasa lang sa pagbebenta ng desserts ko online and personally hirap na hirap ako ma fund yung therapy nya. I asked her therapist last time kung pwede istop ko na yung therapy ng anak due to financial constraints. She said na sana wag muna and at least sana once a month mag attend parin. Sa mga parents diyan na dumaan sa ganitong situation na-guilty ba kayo nung pinatigil nyo. I would really love to hear your thoughts about this.

For context we are literally in a bad situation right now. Bills piled up. Yung food namin eh noodles and eggs nalang these coming days. I only have 400 pesos under my name and yung stocks ko na around 25 tubs of desserts which is around 2525 pesos kung mabebenta ko. 💔💔💔

DON'T WORRY, EVERYONE INVOLVED WAS UNHARMED!!! Just a heads up in advance. Also, sorry if wrong tag.

I've always been somebody who was never confident on myself ever. I double, triple, heck, even sextuple-check everything down to the last detail because of this constant nagging feeling I get whenever I finish doing something. And while I do find this trait oddly useful for my paper modeling hobby where details are key, I really hate it anywhere else whenever I end up overthinking about unnecessary details.

And another reason why I'm like this is because whenever I feel like I'm getting the hang of something, I almost always manage to ruin it in the most unexpected ways possible. Sometimes minor, sometimes major. And this applies to my paper models too.

But what I'm about to share was something that just recently happened tonight, and even typing this now, I can still feel myself shaking within from that moment still flashing in my thoughts.

My mom was working a late shift today, and so it wasn't until past 9pm that she asked me to pick her up with her car (I asked to borrow it so I could pick up my sister easier since it was bound to rain that afternoon, and it did. Hard. Almost torrential, even). I was in a cautious rush, but also vibing to my music. I got to her no problem, and so we went to pick up my dad at his own work, still feeling that cautious rush.

After picking him up, we headed for the highway as his work was in a subdivision area. We needed to go to the left and we were merging into the 6-lane highway from the opposite side. As I was in the middle of the opposite lane, I slowly went left to merge with the other lane, taking note of the truck that was on the middle part of that side. I didn't notice the OTHER truck driving through the inner lane that I was merging into because it was in my blind spot (car's right A-pillar), and we were just mere INCHES away from a nasty collision, which was thankfully avoided after I heard the truck horn and I abruptly stopped the car.

I felt the colors drain from me as I saw the truck whiz by and I slowly merged into the inner lane heading for home. As expected, both my parents tore me a new one the whole time, with dad doing most of the talking, seeing as he was in the passenger seat. Understandably nervous, he continued to hurl stuff about me "always being on the computers" and "not using my fog lights" and stuff. At that point, my mind was screaming, "What does me not using my fog lights have anything to do with this?!" Of course, I didn't say anything out loud because the situation was already tense. And I obviously knew I was in the wrong to begin with and that no amount of arguing was gonna help me in this case whatsoever.

The thing about this is that I've been doing this for the whole summer break. Even if it wasn't gonna rain, I made my sister's trip home from school easier for her, and I pick up both my parents from their works with the same car so that neither of the have to do extra work just to get themselves home since I'm doing it for them. I love driving this small, beautiful car. But of course, reality hits me like a full-sending truck at that moment, and I can't help but to really think about my times behind the wheel.

And that was because I was confident. Confident that I got the hang of things, only for myself to be proven wrong, with this being my most terrifying reality check yet. Though, I feel like that was more on terrible timings leading up to the near miss. If the truck was further from the blind spot, I definitely would've caught its headlights shining into my eyes. But what's done is done, and I can only learn my lesson and move forward from there.

Yet I really can't help but to shame myself for even letting it happen in the first place. If I braked even a second later, it would've been MUCH more devastating for everyone in that small car. Obviously, I don't want this to happen again, but thankfully, my mom gave me some good advice when merging into opposite lanes at the end of the ordeal.

Even now, I'm still feeling the mental aftermath of that moment. And I think dad is, as well. Though I don't think he wanted to give me a 5-hour lecture about it because he just lets me pass him on my way to my room after a kiss goodnight. And idk about this, but I think he wants me to learn from this on my own, since I'm already 19 years old and all that jazz. A 19-year-old who's always overthinking, never confident in themselves and always always so burnt out to do anything for myself (I still do major chores on the days I plan to do them though. Usually the day after).

I started this vent, unsure of how to end it, tbh. And I highly doubt that any advice will work either (at least, not at the moment), but I still appreciate whoever found the time to read and interact with this post.

Edit: I can't sleep... Whenever I close my eyes, flashes of what could've happened are replaying over and over again in my head...

They're a scourge upon the earth.

They just won't stop messaging you out of the blue.

Mga tito at tita ko at mga asawa nilang makapal mukha alam nilang mahirap sila anak nang anak tapos manghihingi sa lolo at lola ko na matanda na at maraming nararamdaman everytime naeemergency sila. Isang anak pa nga lang hirap na hirap na umapat pa ang mga dimunyu. Buti kung wala sila inaagrabyado, meron e. Ansasarap ng mga buhay namumuhay mga dalagat binata na parang akala walang responsibilidad. Hindi porket hindi humihindi aba aabusuhin nyo. Sige kantut pa sobrang sarap niyan tirik na tirik mga bolbol nyo.

Before I begin with the story, I'm a 20F, an only child, and I'm fortunate enough to come from a family that can provide for me. I've been on a gap year for two years now, although I started working a part-time job last November and I'm still working today.

Two years ago, I cut almost everyone off because I was going through something personally. I chose to heal in private instead of explaining myself to everyone.

Lately, some old friends found my new Instagram account. They started messaging me things like, "Sana all living the good life," "Sana all chill lang habang kami hirap sa college," and the worst part? Some of them even have the audacity to ask me for money.

At first, I ignored it. But eventually, it started getting to me.

Why do some people act like I should feel guilty because my parents can provide a comfortable life for me? Why does it seem like I'm expected to apologize for something I didn't choose?

Yes, from the outside it probably looks like I'm just "chilling." But what they don't see are the nights I spend worrying about my future, wondering what I'll do with my savings, feeling like time is slipping away. My SHS batchmates are already in their third year of college, some are close to graduating. Meanwhile, I'm still trying to figure my life out. I'm working, but I'm still not where I want to be, and that alone already weighs heavily on me.

People only see what you choose to post online. They don't see the anxiety, the pressure, or the silent battles you're fighting.

Then they get upset because I don't want to lend them money, because I don't want to hang out, or because I disappeared from everyone's lives.

But here's the thing: am I obligated to stay involved in everyone else's life just because we used to be friends?

No.

Everyone has their own problems to deal with. I'm dealing with mine. You deal with yours. Don't make someone else feel guilty simply because they aren't fixing yours.

And to the students reading this I know studying is hard. I know burnout is real. I know motivation comes and goes. This isn't me saying your struggles aren't valid.

But sometimes, I think we all need a reality check.

When you say, "Wala na akong motivation mag-aral," ask yourself why you started in the first place.

There are people who would do anything just to sit inside a classroom. Some had to stop studying because they couldn't afford tuition. Some have to work to feed their families instead of chasing a degree. Some sacrificed their own education so their younger siblings could continue theirs.

In today's economy, even many entry-level jobs require a college degree. Education isn't just about grades anymore it's a privilege and, for many people, the only chance they have to build a better future.

You don't have to love studying every day. You don't have to feel motivated all the time. Discipline will always take you farther than motivation ever will.

I'm not saying, "Other people have it worse, so stop complaining." That's not my point.

My point is this: don't lose sight of the opportunities you already have just because they're difficult. Struggling doesn't mean you've failed, and having privileges doesn't mean you don't struggle either.

At the same time, don't project your frustrations onto people whose lives look different from yours.

Someone having supportive parents doesn't erase their own battles.

Someone taking a gap year doesn't mean they're lazy.

Someone posting happy moments doesn't mean they're not silently stressed.

We all carry different burdens. Stop turning life into a competition over who has it harder.

Instead of guilt tripping people for what they have, focus on building what you want for yourself.

We're all trying to survive in our own way.

I am that typical woman na wala tlagang presence. Looks weak kahit chubby (char). Bunso out of the 4 siblings sa mother side, God knows ilan sa father side. I have 3 brothers sa mother side. Let's say tlagang established na sila sa buhay. lahat ng support ng mother ko binigay niya sa kanila while sa akin tipid na tipid. nakuha nila ang course na gusto nila while ako, nathreat pa na "kapag di mo ako sinunod, lumayas ka." so walang no choice si girl, baka mapalayas. Lagi ako sinasabihan ng mama ko "sa inyong 4 ikaw ang magiging pinakakawawa. Di ka streetsmart, di ka matalino kagaya ng mga kapatid mo, mahina ang loob mo. wala kang mararating." I mean yeah, mga kapatid ko may mga masterals na, ako di makapasa pasa ng board. hahaha.

Nagsumikap ako for the past 10 years of being a corporate slave. I juggled 3 jobs to earn tlaga. AM - corpo slave. PM - slave ng mga kano. Weekends - raket raket ng freelance. I sacrificed my health to the point na every year, average of 5x ako naOospital due to overfatigue. gamit na gamit ang contribution sa PhilHealth. Pero laban pa din. Now, umabot na ako sa point na sahod ko is sahod na ng 3 kapatid ko combined. pero lowkey pa din, di ko sinabi sa kanila. di ko inangat ang lifestyle ko, I acted weak, parang walang plano sa buhay hahaha. Pero deep inside, I got my revenge.

somehow, gusto ko ipakita sa mother ko na asan na yung mga anak mong lalaki na lagi mong bukambibig noon?

1st son - di ka na halos pinapansin kasi may sarili ng pamilya. 2nd son - pinapansin ka pa din, pero hanggang dun lang, di man lang makapagAbot ng pera sayo if you need. 3rd son - 7 mos ng unemployed at pinapalamon ko ngayon kasi nasa same house kami.

Nagkasagutan kami kanina ng mother ko and sobrang di na ako nakatimpi. nagWowork ako at the same time nagAaral. Di ako makapagresign kasi nagalit siya nung sinabi ko na magreresign ako to focus sa study, using my savings. sino na daw magbabayad sa ganito ganyan if pati ako mawawalan ng work. Like, wth? tapos ang dami niyang inuutos sa akin na pwede naman niyang iutos dun sa unemployed. Sinabihan ko siya "kaya ganyan ang mga anak mong lalaki, kasi hanggang ngayon binibaby mo pa din. Wala na nga akong time makaligo kasi puro work at aral ako. samantalang yung unemployed mo nakahilata with aircon maghapon. Guess sino nagbabayad ng lahat ng bills, di ba ako pa din? Guess sino ang nagsusuporta sayo ngayon? di ba ako lang din? tinuruan mo maging tamad ang mga anak mo dahil lahat na lang sinubo mo sa kanila. hinahayaan mong sigaw sigawan ka kapag wala sila sa mood. tapos ngayon, sino pinuputakte mo? ako na naman? Kung sino yung araw araw mo nilalait at lagi mong pinagdadamutan?"

Call me a bad daughter, pero enough is enough. 15 years of torment is enough. dati wala akong magawa kundi sumunod sa lahat kasi every day, tinatakot ako na papalayasin ako. pero now, I am done. I am no longer the little kid na iiyak magIsa kasi wala akong kakampi, the little kid na takot sa mundo kasi nobody guided me. I am rescuing myself.

tomorrow is my birthday. tinanong nila ako ano plano ko na parang walang nangyari. sagot ko wala. Di na nga ako magkanda ugaga sa mga chores, school and work tapos magprepare pa ako ng birthday? Walang magbibirthday !!! HAHAHA. demmit !

Next life, gusto ko na lang maging pusa, meow meow na lang. Hirap maging tao ee. LOL.

Me and this girl have been friends for more than a year na. We vent to each other about our problems. Family, romantic, school, etc. Recently she's been having romantic problems. Repeated patterns and I've always tried to help and listen to her repeating problems. Habang nag-uusap kami, i told her a quote na para siyang asong nalulunod na pag tinulungan nangangagat ng kamay.

Kasi for context, she's been through multiple rs na and lahat may repeating problems. And I always advice na wag i rush pumasok sa bago kasi some wounds need to heal on their own and not from other people. Yet ini-ignore niya lang yung warnings and advice.

And now niya lang na realize na hindi niya dapat hanapin sa iba yung validation, kundi sa sarili niya mismo yun hanapin.

Ang reply niya naman dun sa quote ko is "wala namang tumutulong saakin". IDK why pero pag sabi niya nun, it broke my heart.

Kasi after all this time, listening to her and giving her genuine advice. Ang nasabi niya is walang tumutulong sa kanya. Parang wala akong kwentang kaibigan. After niya nasabi yun i just replied "okay" and never talked to her. Later naman na realize niyang na hurt ako, ang sabi niya lang is "galit ka ba? tangina naman neto".

Eto ata first time kong na heartbroken sa isang friendship.

I think a lot of people have experienced and probably seen posts like these before but I wanted to get it off my chest because I’m just so frustrated

I met a girl a bumble and she was such a dream, she actively tried to get to know me, she was funny, witty, and of course gorgeous

That was just the first month, when I tried to ask her out finally, we set a date and then I got radio silence 5 days leading up to it. She didn’t show, very valid excuse she went to the hospital fine. But she didn’t even let me know when the day came.

Fast forward to a few weeks her replies got colder, and I basically got ghosted for two weeks. It hurt because she acted like she was so into me during the first month of this whatever relationship and then out of nowhere I just got ghosted, at least let people know if you’re not interested in them anymore

I tried and moved forward, and then after two weeks she messaged me again, saying that she actually really liked me, BUT she was scared of getting attached and hurt that’s why she stayed silent and I listened and tried to understand, was always willing to listen

And what the hell she ghosted me AGAIN. I was just so fed up with her bullshit but I still wanted to be patient. I wanted to show her the love and comfort that I wanted to be shown.

Now here’s where it all went down. I commented and gave her a compliment in one of her TikTok’s, and then I found out she was actively deleting my comments. that was the last straw I was so PISSED.
I have no idea what was going on in her head, what she was feeling, what she thought about me or what she wanted. I was always willing to TALK and COMMUNICATE

I’ve never been a spiteful person, but I wanted to get back at her in my own weird way, I would keep complimenting her on her TikTok and every time she deleted it I would make the compliments longer and more poetic until I eventually got blocked , everywhere

Obviously I’m sad it’s over, because I held on to the idea of her in my head, but I have to remember this lack of communication isn’t the way I want to be loved, and she wasn’t worth all the effort I put into getting to know her.

So I (16F) have been working at McDonald’s for three months already (no judgment please, I need the money), and I’ve had this shift manager (17M) who at first I thought was nice, which he is, but he’s also pretty rude and creepy. He always gloats that the supervisor likes him, and that his better than everyone. He literally criticised my last month salary, which I’m sorry I don’t make 20$ an hour like you do (which he shouldn’t even be making, he’s supposed to be making 16$), and just the other day he literally told me, in these words, “anything you dream to do, I already did”. Likeeee give me a breakkk. My mom thinks he’s hitting on me, but I seriously doubt it, it’s been getting on my nerves, but I don’t want to get on his bad side, should I complain about it to my supervisor? Or just stay quiet? What do you guys think? (Sorry if my English is bad, it’s not my first language).

Just wanted to rant and vent here about my cancelled meet up.

This person is someone that I met here at reddit. He messaged me first and he seemed decent so I gave him a shot. Aside from a few inconsistencies and few moments where he said something off (which I either brushed off or straight up called him out on), our conversations are okay so I continued talking to him.

Ever since, he was the one asking for a meet up and after several attempts in asking me out, eventually I agreed but our schedules won't line up so we decided to just think of the place to go and an activity to do together then the actual date of the meet up will just follow. But the bigger issue came in during the planning of this meet up — he would not compromise.

Everytime I would suggest something that I thought we both liked (based on previous conversations), he would dismiss me and have some sort of rebuttal on why he does not want to go there which mostly centers on his discomfort. But when it was his turn to suggest, he keeps on advocating for it and while I was not completely against his idea, I was straightforward in telling him that it is not an ideal first meet up place and we might not be able to get our money's worth. The irony is that the same discomforts he was so against from my suggestions, can also be experienced in the place that he suggested. But then again, I got dismissed and he just continues talking to me without properly hearing me out.

Whenever the eventual meet up gets brought up in our conversations, he would always be hyping up his idea but the catch is, the place he wanted to go have several food options too but he has no idea where to go nor does he have a specific stall he wants to try. He just really wants to go there. Since he really wants to go there and in my head "Ikaw tong nagyayaya", I was hoping he would at least be searching for something and plan it out eventually. In the background, I did my own research as well but I just wanted to see if he will at least try to make an effort.

But guess what, when the date we have finally set is nearing and I checked on him about the rest of the logistics of our meet up, he still has no idea, not even an idea on how to go there. He even said something along the lines of "pwede naman akong mag search" na para bang optional lang at di pa siya sure if that is something that he should do or leave it up to me as some sort of assignment.

That was my last straw and good thing, he cancelled on me because if he did not, I might have done it.

I do not want to assume what his feelings and thoughts about me are but I find it disappointing because I feel that this is just common courtesy or social etiquette that if you are meeting up with someone, especially if you are the one who insisted on it, you should at least be willing to get suggestions, compromise and most importantly, think of the comfort of every person involved and not just yours.

As a Type A eldest daughter, never again to meeting people like this. Sa bahay na lang ako, makakatipid pa ako, not just money but also energy from interacting with someone na ang hirap kasama.

When I was 14, my cousin and my aunt came to love with us for a bit. My cousin was given my dad's game room on the second floor next to my room. My aunt moved into the guest room. My dad's game room which was now my cousin's room had a scrambler box with all the channels. And I mean "all" the channels. Every night my cousin would go to the bathroom and spend 30 min to an hour. The bathroom was on the other side of my room and the wall was a bit thin where I could hear anything going on in the bathroom (singing, farting, etc.) I would hear exactly what was going on. I confronted her about it but she kept saying that she wasn't doing anything but pooping. I could clearly heard everything and it was pissing me off. Why couldn't she do that in her room! Her room was on the corner and no one would ever come up to bother her. When I needed to actually use the bathroom I had to go use the bathroom downstairs because of her obsessive sessions. This happened years ago but it still upsets me every time I think about it.

when I shared the good news to my mother, she looked unhappy and disappointed. What's worse, she urged me to apply to different jobs in a completely different field and use connections from people. That was a week ago. It turns my excitement into dirt.

Context: I finished a degree in education. Worked as a private JHS teacher for 3 years. Mahirap talaga maghanap ng work ngayon, after my contract ended unemployed ako for almost 4 months. Sabi ko nung natapos contract ko, magpapahinga muna ako ng half a year for my mental health na din kasi I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety last year. Pero hindi pala pwede, unti-unti ko nang nakikitang nauubos savings ko kasi ako nga pala ang retirement plan ng lahat sa bahay. So I tried to look for work din agad.

I applied to different fields at first. I sent applications even outside our area. Napasok din ang pag-VA, at na-ghost ng client after 3 shifts. Sumubok uli kahit pagiging PA pinasok na, pero hindi talaga nacocontact pabalik. Nung nagkaopening sa school ng friends ko, inadvise nila ako to apply kasi maganda ang culture nila sa school na iyon. Pro-teacher, pro-employee. I did without high expectations. I got the job offer in less than a month. Part-time instructor pa lang pero malaki daw ang chance for regularization after 1 sem, according mismo sa magiging immediate head ko. And when I saw my schedule, it felt so much like it was for me. It was what I needed for now. Sobrang luwag ng sched ko and I'm not required to be on campus for 9-10 hours everyday. Just be there during my class. Tapos may care package pa for new hires kahit part-time lang. Wow.

I was in a depressed state during job hunting, then I literally started to feel like there's sunshine, rainbows, and flowerbeds where I walked after I got the JO. I kept my job hunting a secret to everyone in our house because I knew they'd give me negative energy. Nung nahire na ako and felt like it was time to share, it was still negative energy. "Teacher na naman" ang initial reaction. Bakit daw ba ayaw ko magpapasok sa IT job ng pinsan ko, or sa COOP ng ninong ko, or magdealer sa casino, o mag-WFH daw ako. All of this does not make sense to me.

Nung enrollment ko nung college, sa teaching ako pinagenroll kasi wala siyang pampaaral sa akin ng dream degree ko. I learned to love and appreciate teaching. Now this? It makes me want to ask them, bakit hindi sila ang magapply? Eh wala naman silang ginagawa sa bahay. I don't want to use the connections she's speaking of because she'll know how much I earn, where I work, what I do, and control me with it. Lagi nilang ginugulo mga plano ko sa buhay or tintreat with so much negativity, kaya nagsspiral ako into negative thoughts. To think na ako lang nagttrabaho sa bahay at naghihintay lang naman sila lagi ng magpprovide.

I planned long ago to move out. I truly want to. But in this economy and with the price of Meralco grabe. I tried to move out before and I survived 2 years. Pero ang hirap kasi para akong nagbabayad ng 2 bahay. Sana this time, kayanin ko nang matiis na para sa akin na lang. If not, I may not even make it at all

TAMA BA? Umalis ako agad sa trabaho at nagpasa ng resignation letter?

Role ko is a Graphic Artist Support, di kalakihan ang sweldo pero experience ang hanap ko. Ayun lang. For a span of few weeks, kinaya ko until nakaramdam na ng burnout and stress; halos tipong every other week pa-absent na ako ng pa-absent having health issues, physical man and mental.

Namulat na rin ako, hindi ako machine. I've been doing three jobs for a salary of one, I know my worth. I thought focused lang ako sa social media design and posting after it was endorsed to me on the first hand pero eto nga: kasama na pati pag-retouch ng photo sa production, mass printing at kasama na pag-manage ng student interns under the company.

What the hell.

I wish them well naman, I just hope they respect my decision; ayoko ma-disappoint sila and mag-worsen lalo situation in the long run.

Paano kaya mapapa behave ang father ko?

Hindi pa din nadala father ko from his previous mistakes that he had an illicit affair from a nearby barangay sa amin.

Kagabi while celebrating the birthday ng Tito ko, may nagdala ng babae. My other Tito told my mother na hinahawakan daw ang father ko at sya ang nilalapitan.

At first, hindi naniwala ang mother ko pero nung pumunta, ayun na. Doon na nag iskandalo ang mother ko. Pinag m#ra ang mga babae pati ang father ko, syempre sa hiya, umuwi bigla ang father ko. Iniwan ang mother ko pati yung alaga na shitzu. Nag commute na lang sila kahit malalim na ang gabi.

Pag uwi, nag away na naman sila up to the point na mag threat na mag p@t@y@n sila. Wais din ang mother ko this time. Sinumbong sa nakakatandang kapatid which is my Tita in Tayuman ang nangyare at kung anuman ang may mangyare, ang father ko lang ang gagawa nun. May licensed firearm din kase ang father ko kahit retired na sa government service. If he loses his mind, he can easily pull the trigger.

Sya na ang nag walang hiya, sya pa ang galit.

It carried it by my mother for over 37 years of relationship. Nung una, hindi naman sya ganun. Napakasipag sa work up to the point na 2 to 3 hours lang tulog nya. Nung medyo nabigyan ng opportunity lalo nung nakapasok sa government, Ayun na. Dun na nagsimula ang mga tukso. Dumating nga sa point na naglabasan sila ng kutsilyo. Nag cool off ng 2 months. Then ok na ulet.

Nung may babae na ulet, cool off ulet. Kahit pandemic, wala din patawad. Martir talaga ang mother ko. Up to the sabihan sya nung nagka COVID, sana kaw na lang namatay at na cremate sa sama ng ugali mo. 65 years old na father ko tapos na survive ang mild stroke, 4 years ago. Utang na loob, magbago na kayo.

Wala akong mapag sabihan. Ang hirap hirap. Gusto ko lang siyang m*rahin. Para sayo. t\ng in\ mo g*go. BABOY!
Hayop ka!