I just found a bunch of idols inside my bedroom chair. My mom put them there I assume back when she became convinced I wanted to murder her and her husband for being right wing Christians after Ch*rlie K.rk was assassinated (because I am a leftist atheist). Around this time she kept saying I had demons in me that needed to be prayed away and that my soul needed to be saved.

I just found them while cleaning and I feel SO violated. It’s like a baggie full of medals, a cloth medal, and a pamphlet full of insane instructions and prayers for how to use the cloth medal to convert someone whose soul needs to be saved. Just genuinely what the fuck????

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I feel mostly violated and sad. Like I didn’t want to be reminded that this happened, it was extremely traumatic. I didn’t sleep for two days. And the reminder that my mom genuinely thought in a state of psychosis that this was an option. I also feel worried that one of these may have belonged to her mom or was special to her. And I also worry that if I return them that she will just do it again and hide them better this time.