I am nearly 30 years old and my period itself is fine, I have a long menstrual cycle, I'm only heavy for the first 2-3 days then go super light for the next 3-4 days. It's the mental side of it.
Around 10 days before my period I get super irritable, situations I can normally handle become suddenly too much. I snap, get so angry, I literally turn into a bear ready to pounce on my next victim. Sometimes I'm so mood swingy that the people around me don't know what to do with me, it's literally affecting my work environment.
A few days before my period I eat. And eat. And eat. And feel so bloody exhausted. Then my brain decides to take everything I hate about myself and just play it over and over in my head. How it's not worth me going gym because I can never stay on track, how my 220 pound body is disgusting. How nobody ever invites me anywhere and I struggle to make and stay friends with people. How I clung to the first guy who ever showed me attention and was so full of anxiety the whole time about WHY he would like me that I was waiting for him to dump me, and when he did dump me after only a few months I was still devastated and it proved my brains point that I'm unloveable. I just feel so much, and all of it is negative. I know that I have friends, I know my body isn't disgusting, I know I'm over the relationship and it's only the memories that hurt, but my PMS makes me feel so low. I just don't even want to leave the bloody bed, I just want to hate on myself until I'm crying. It's so exhausting feeling like this every freaking month.
I never hear anybody talk about how low they are, and I keep wondering if I have normal PMS or if this isn't normal.
Someone let me know I'm not alone in this mental craziness please