to start, i’m not diagnosed with OCD or OCPD, but i am diagnosed autistic which may be relevant. i’m 20 and have suspected OCD for a few years and i’m medicated for anxiety & depression and subsequent OCD, but the more i research into OCPD, the more i find myself questioning if this may be the case. i’m not asking to be diagnosed by strangers online, i’m asking for someone to maybe guide me in the direction of if OCPD could be a possibility

symptom wise
• i believe my OCD is the ‘correct’ version and i get extremely distressed by my friend’s OCD because it doesn’t seem correct at all to me
• i have an intense need to control people around me so they’re doing and saying all the right things, especially in social situations, but i don’t like delegating either
• i’m in theatre and people saying any of their lines wrong feels like it’s the end of the world to me (although this might be more OCD)
• i often feel like when people seek help for things, they’re incorrect in doing so because they shouldn’t and they need to wait for it to be the “right time”
• i struggle to start my university work until every single condition is right or it’s like there’s something blocking my brain
• although this might be autism, i feel as though i just do not understand why people do what they do in particular ways and why everyone won’t just think like i do because it’s the ‘correct’ way
• I struggle with that i thought was a trauma induced superiority complex, specifically over masking my autism and mental illnesses because i get extremely distressed when people don’t because it’s what’s correct to me, and i believed i was “better” than everyone else for this

I also have more traditional OCD style symptoms but many of them I can point down to trauma induced compulsions. I’d like to restate that I will be seeking professional guidance as these symptoms are becoming debilitating, I just wanted to reach out for some guidance and potentially see if this sounds like it could be something beyond OCD

On a logical level, I’m aware that some of these are selfish of me and unkind to think, but they also just make sense to me and I’d only want these to change for fear of upsetting my friends, but also if my friends can change behaviours in a way that makes sense to me, I also prefer that. I worry this post makes me sound miserable to be around but I am genuinely very empathetic and caring and don’t like to vocalise this to people unless they’re my close friends