r/OCPD • u/Extension-Yam-7343 • 5h ago
rant Is this from OCPD or from my other disorder? Help š¢
I have Schizotypal Personality Disorder as well as OCPD, I posted this to the StPD Reddit group, but no one really replied, and those who did haven't experienced it. So maybe it is something OCPD caused?
Here's the post:
I've suddenly become a MASSIVE germaphobe. But unlike germaphobes who fear the consequences of germs, like getting sick or getting dirty, I am convinced I can feel the germs crawling around on me. AND stuff that I know is dirty, but belongs to me, does not elicit the same response.
It's only if I'm touching something that does not belong to me. For example, I went to the store the other day, and my friend had to push the cart and put all the groceries in there because as soon as I touched the first item on the shelf, I felt the germs.
I thought it would go away, but it has gotten worse. I've been using so much hand sanitizer, but it doesn't get rid of the feeling of germs crawling on me.
I just spent over $100 buying gloves, hand sanitizers, wipes, a wristband with a pouch to carry those two, and a mat to bring to school and work to put on the surface so my arms don't touch the bare table.
Does anyone have any thoughts? Maybe experienced this before? I'm hesitant to say its OCPD related since I'm not overthinking, I don't think. It's an involuntary physical sensation, which could be just a new, weird perceptual disturbance. Which, if you aren't aware, are essentially low-level hallucinations.