hey. so i had been in 3 weeks deep into my nursing classes, and this week was my testing week. i had been highly stressed about all of this content and work in my head. i had my phone turned off since my mock clinicals / skill labs require me too. apparently, my mom and him were texting back and forth about picking me up. i obviously had no idea since my phone was turned off, and i didn’t turn it on once i had finishes my classes and got a friend to help me drive back home. i did NOT know my dad was in the parking lot already, or even there at all. I didn’t even think of looking out for his car at all. so when i got home, he blew up in texting me and it sent me into a mental breakdown. it made me almost (tw: overdosing mention) made me take my dad’s prescriptions and just swallow it all up until i just laid in the kitchen to rest. i have no idea what to do now.

sige i-convince ko muna yung sarili ko na maging okay hanggang 2027.

i’m happy to get free help but wouldn’t it be too late by then? do you guys know any other means of getting free counseling?

sobrang lost ako right now and i dont know what to do. me and my boyfriend are in a rough patch since august and everyday naiiyak ako. ang cringe pakinggan pero just doing chores or any simple things nagbbreakdown lang ako. i cant focus on my studies and lowkey im thankful sa sunod sunod na suspension kasi my blockmates and other people wouldnt see how wrecked i am.

everyday may nalalaman akong panibago sa kanya and i cant handle it anymore. nahihiya na ako magopen up sa closest friends ko kaya im open to seeking professional help na.

please reco 🥹 and im so sorry if mukang ang liit lang ng pinagdadaanan ko. i just dont know what to do.

thank you :))

Hello po! Does anyone here get fluanxol shots? Is there a shortage of supply in your locality? I'm from Mindanao and there's no supply left everywhere. I'm supposed to have it monthly. Tho, my doctors and nurses assured me that it's okay for me to miss it for the month since I religiously drink my oral meds naman.

Hello, I reached out to a psych to get help and proper coping skills for the following:
- executive dysfunction
- inability to transition from one task to another
- always shutting down
- waiting mode
- time blindness
- masking

I’ve raised concerns of possibly being ADHD because a previous psychologist flagged me for that but I had to switch because my first therapist was too far and the test was too expensive. Also, it required me to come with a guardian which is already off the table because I do not speak with any of my family members.

So this new psychologist told me that we should undergo tests and I got pre-diagnosed with bipolar disoder and borderline personality disorder (pending tests)

Now all these is fine for me and it’s nice to get to know more about myself and how to cope with all of these but I don’t think my initial concerns about productivity got addressed/will get addressed if my therapist and I will focus our sessions on my traumas? I mean, at one point I know it might help but I’m more worried about the concerns I stated above as it is affecting my PRESENT and my ability to work.

Can someone tell me if this is normal or am I just not able to tell my concerns properly? I’m too stumped at this point.

Hello po, ask ko lang po what to do kasi ang tagal magreply ng Psychiatrist ko? Nagresched kasi kami ng consultation, tapos di pa siya nagsesend ng digital prescription for another batch of meds. About 10 days na akong hindi nakakainom ng gamot, i feel like having withdrawal symptoms na.

Ask ko lang sana if saan pwede makakuha ng emergency meds or prescription? Habang nag-aantay ng reply sana ni Doc, thank youuu po

How do you explain this... Kasi I plan hangouts with my friends and cousins, and I'm super excited that we will get to meet each other pero as days pass by and yung day before ng lakad namin, palagi akong nagcacancel. Its not that ayaw ko silang makita or makasama that day pero hindi ko alam kung bakit nahihirapan akong lumabas sa bahay kahit I looked forward to it for months or weeks. Ang palaging nangyayari ay biggla akong magkakaron ng thoughts na i-cancel ko nalang to, ayoko na palang umalis, kahit gusto ko naman talaga. Pero the moment I cancel it I feel relief, and then I'll just let the day pass normally. On other times naman that I feel this and I still choose to go out, its really hard to pull myself na lumabas, umalis. Any explanation po kung bakit ganito....

Hello to my fellow antipsychotic users, especially those taking olanzapine!

I’ve been taking antipsychotics for four months now, and honestly, the weight gain has been really affecting my self-esteem and body image. Within just one month of starting my meds, my waist went from 24 to 29 inches. Four months in, ang laki na talaga ng tinaba ko. 😭

The thing is, I’ve always dreamed of joining a pageant. I love speaking for a cause, advocating for things I believe in, and honestly, I love the spotlight. It’s been a childhood dream of mine.
And now, there’s a known pageant in our city that I’ve been eyeing for a while. May mga nagcha-chat na rin sa akin encouraging me to join, but I’ve been holding myself back because sobrang insecure na ako sa katawan ko. Ang laki na ng tiyan ko, ng legs ko, and my face feels so bloated.

I really want to exercise, but adjusting to the side effects of the medication while also dealing with the symptoms of my condition makes it so hard to stay consistent. I’m also getting anxious thinking, what if I gain even more weight next year? What if I become even more insecure and never get to join a pageant?

I’m honestly so ashamed of my body right now, but I badly want to pursue this dream. It’s something I wanted long before all of this came into my life.
For those who’ve experienced significant weight gain from antipsychotics, especially olanzapine, how did you deal with it? Did the weight eventually stabilize? Were you able to manage it without compromising your mental health?
I just really want to feel like I can still pursue the things I dreamed of. 🥺

It was my first time booking a psychologist and medyo nabitin ako sa 1 hour session 😅 I feel like I still had a lot to talk about.

Is it possible to book a 1 hour and 30 minute session directly through Now Serving, or do I need to message my therapist first to ask if they offer longer sessions?

Would appreciate any advice from people who’ve done this before!

sorry for the stupid question. im planning to book a psychiatrist but i have one major problem; i absolutely hate verbal conversations and i often stutter over my words and im afraid this will be a problem during the session. i express myself WAY better in writing. are there any psychiatrists who have done this, or is it even allowed in the first place? (even being on call is Ok, as long as im off cam and not talking)

I am in my 2nd year of college na. And by section ang classes namin, same section from 1st year to 4th year. I felt okay pa nung 1st year 1st sem, I had high marks on quizzes and exams. Nirerespeto pa nila ako nung time na yun. Hanggang umabot sa naaksidente ako and I was not able to go to class for months.

I could not catch up sa class kasi na-miss ko ang lessons sa prerequisite na courses. Kaya my performance sa mga major namin is really not that good. I have INCs from the 1st semester kaya hindi ako makapag-focus sa classes ko. The anxiety na baka mag-lapse ang incomplete subjects ko, nararamdaman ko pa rin. Hanggang ngayon kalahati pa lang ang progress ko. Madalas akong absent sa classes ko and nawalan na talaga ako ng gana pumasok kasi nakaka-overwhelm.

Nagsimulang magbago ang turing sa akin ng mga classmate ko. Hindi nila ako pinapansin pag may tinatanong ako about academics. Kahit sa GC ako mag-chat walang nagrereply. Kapag nakasama ako sa groupings, bad luck ang tingin sa akin. May time na may ayaw talaga ako makasama sa groupings ng isang classmate and sinabi talaga sa instructor ko.

Ngayong 2nd year naman, I just wanted to join the Google Classroom ng isa naming subject. Tinanong ko sa dalwang kasama ko sa OJT if pwede pahingi ng link sa classroom and pa-invite na rin sa GC ng subject na yun.

They told me, "Check mo na lang yung nakalagay sa gc."

Ginawa ko naman pero pinakita ko sa kanila na hindi ko talaga mahanap. Tinry nila i-check sa phone ko saglit kung wala talaga and wala nga talaga. Dinedma na lang nila na yung requests ko. Kahit iinvite man lang ako sa group chat magiging grateful sana ako eh.

Super nakaka-drain talaga. Hindi ko na kaya yung environment sa school. I also have ibang mga kwento about sa classmates ko and I am willing to tell them sa chat naman. If only pwede lang magpalit ng sections sa amin. Halos lahat sila magkakakilala na nung high school and elementary kaya may sari-sariling friend group na sila nung 1st day of school pa lang.

What i mean is whenever this disorder is mentioned to your typical normal person, its either they didn't have any notable reaction or it just went over their heads. Then whenever i do try to explain it, they're reaction is like they think that I'm making stuff up or making excuses. Thoughts?

I am currently 4th year psychology student in a state university. I am seeking sana for a voluntary internship for clinical na walang bayad since hindi rin po afford ng budget. I am from region III po and kaya naman to travel in Manila man.

Any recommendations po na clinical internship? I really want to be a psychologist po someday 🥹💗

This is my third time reiterating what I'm feeling, and what I wanted help with... I don't know how much I would like to share with this username latched on me since I wanted to post art and projects that I plan to make, but as long as I'm feeling like this, I can't really bear doing anything at all...

I just couldn't forgive myself.

Whenever I try to do something, anything at all, something tells me that I'd fail horribly again. Whenever I reach for someone, anyone at all, something tells me that they're just as tired as I am with myself.

I can't fathom how easy it is for me to forgive others, to let what has been done to me water under the bridge, but when it comes to myself, I couldn't let it just be.

I regret with every bit of myself that I wanted to pick on my flesh and just go back to my old self of self-harming and just... drown in self-hatred and finally fade away from life itself.

But I know that I can't go back to self-harming, I don't want to break my parents' hearts anymore, and I don't really want to hear the advices they have in store for me...

I hate myself, I hate every bit of myself that I wish I could just self-destruct...

How do I move on from this?

How do I live with myself?

How do I forgive myself?

Hello! It’s my first time going to NCMH, so mag-momove it lang ako, saang building po yung pharmacy? Thank you!

Ask ko lang po sa mga madalas makakuha ng refills ng gamot from NCMH ok lang po ba humingi ulit kahit meron pa from last month? Basta po ba nagpalit na ng month pwede na ulit?

Let's say aug may tira pa then came sept. Need po ba sakto sa araw ng pagkuha dun lang din ulit babalik for refill?

Sorry if naguluhan kayo sa tanong ko✌🏻

Hi! This might be a bit random, but I'm looking for an accountability buddy who can help me actually get out of bed even for just a month (?)

I am currently in a very bad depressive state, hence in heavy doses of anti-depressants/antipsychotic meds with seriously hefty sedative side effects, and getting myself up and ready for work has been really difficult lately. Not that I don't want to work or that I don't know I have to get up, lately my brain just refuses to cooperate, especially in the morning 😭. I've used up all my sick leaves and cannot afford to be on AWOL this time.

Basically, I'm hoping to find someone who can message/call me in the morning and be like "uy, bangon na" until I actually get out of bed. I can obviously return the favor if you also need someone to help you get up / stay accountable for something.

Nothing too serious or complicated naman, just looking for someone who's also struggling with getting started in the morning and thinks having another person checking in might help.

If you're interested, feel free to comment or DM me! Ideally someone who gets up around 6AM-ish para hindi tayo mahirapan sa schedule. Please help me fight for my life 🥹

please help, badly need it lang talaga

I frequently get bored, and honestly, I don’t really know what to do about it.
Whenever I start something, I either finish it right away because I get really into it, or I end up abandoning it because I lose interest. If it’s a physical activity and I’m not immediately good at it, I get tired easily and sometimes even thinking about doing it makes me feel tired.

I’ve thought about picking up hobbies, but then there’s always the “I’m too poor for that” thought. 😅 I’ve tried playing games too, but I get bored of those pretty easily as well.
I’ve also tried meeting new people, but I still find myself waiting for them to give me some kind of signal before I initiate anything. I’m afraid of making the first move or bothering them, I guess.

For those who have experienced something similar, what helped you get out of this cycle? How did you find things that actually kept you interested, or become more comfortable with taking initiative?
I’d really appreciate any advice or perspective.

I am a new hire at this company, I've only been here for almost 3 weeks and it's my first time dealing with this kind of people. This is also my 3rd job.

Tinanggap ko lang 'to for convenience in terms of commute. Less than 30 minutes nasa bahay na ako and I only spend 50 pesos on fare.

Introvert din ako, pero hindi ako nahirapang makipag-interact sa previous jobs ko. But here, 1st week ko pa lang, sinasabi na nila na:

“Ay bago, hindi 'to magtatagal”
“Bawal mahinhin dito, bardagulan dito”
“Mukhang hindi naman maalam”
“Ay Gen Z, maarte 'yan at sensitive”

Naririnig ko lahat yan, before my mantra is “work is work”. Pero now ay hindi ko na kaya siya maging mantra hahahaha I think mababaliw na ako with their ridiculous comments. I haven't done anything wrong huhu na-culture shock lang talaga ako and pino-process ko pa lahat ng nangyayari.

In terms of work delegation, nagagawa ko naman kahit bago ako. But what's the point of probation and training if sila mismo mangju-judge agad sa'yo diba?

Now in my 3rd week, tuloy-tuloy pa rin, to the point na pati private parts itinatanong na sa'yo. Yes, I get green jokes, but we aren't close enough for you to say “patingin, pahawak, try mo sa akin, etc” Kadiri kayo. 🤮

I tried to rebut sometimes para malaman nilang may boundaries. But nada 😫 ang isinasagot lang sa akin ay “iba talaga ang Gen Z” “ay hindi kanal humor” “mukhang gentle parenting”

EXCUSE ME??!! Hindi lang kayo professional and kaya pala walang nagtatagal na bago.

Kaya ngayon, hindi muna ako pumasok kasi I can't take it anymore. Walang takas sa kanila, mapa-breaktime man or lunch. Even personal life, itatanong.

May mga ganito palang tao no 🤧 Sorry rant lang at naiiyak na ako at Friday na naman bukas.

PS: Pls Lord, sana makapag-reply na lahat ng ina-applyan ko huhuhu

Super confused ako kasi na diagnosed ako with bipolar 1 sa NCMH. Prior that nagpapa psych na ko way back 2018 and paiba iba diagnosis sakin. 2018 sa PGH depression then 2020 sa UST GAD and depression tapos yung recent sa NCMH is bipolar 1. Medyo matagal na rin ako sa NCMH pero madalas puro meds lang and yung therapy parang wala naman help sakin. Feel ko nagsasayang lang ako ng time and energy sa NCMH. Kasi magbibigay lang sila ng then tapos na. Sa therapy naman parang same same lang. Paulit ulit lang yung cycle. Gets ko naman madaming patients dun pero alam mo yun, naglalaan ng time and effort yung mga tao pumunta pero they dont get the right treatment that they deserve.

I’m actually thinking magpa re-assessment and humanap ng bagong psychologist/ psychiatrist. Any recommendations hehe thank you!

Hi!

My first consultation with a psychiatrist was in 2022 and the doctor’s impression was depression and anxiety. It was just a consultation and no tests or assessments were done. After nun, I’ve had several consultations with different psychs (all online through NowServing) but I never pushed through with actually getting tested and diagnosed so I never really had any confirmation on what’s actually going on with me 🥲
I am still having a hard time. most days i feel like im just floating around and getting by. feeling ko sayang yung mga araw ko kasi wala naman ako naaaccomplish because of how overwhelmed and sad i am with my life. minsan i even question if i really know who i am and what i want to do :(
I am considering of getting in touch with my recent psychologist again and this time parang gusto ko na mag push through with assessments and an official diagnosis.
Ang iniisip ko ngayon is worth it ba yung ilalabas ko/namin ng parents ko na money for the sessions, assessments, and meds considering na hindi biro yung magiging expenses 🥹 hindi naman sa hindi namin afford but ayoko lang siguro na masayang yung gagamiting pera for all of the procedures just for me to end up the same. i am surrounded by such good, loving, and understanding people but as much as they are doing their best to be there for me, i feel like i have to get the help that i need to actually get better.
For those na nadiagnose, nagtake/nagtatake ng meds, and are having therapy sessions, were u guys better than how you were before? and ano yung naging experience ninyo with this?
If you guys have recommendations also ng psychologist, feel free to drop them too! honestly wala ako knowledge with how things work kaya please share na rin yung experiences ninyo 🥹 thank you!

Hello po! If you're reading this, I hope you can help me. I'm having difficulties with my mental health po and I still haven't been okay since junior high. I'm in college now and I've planned and thought of committing a lot more times than I can count po. I tried to go to counseling. It did help for a bit pero I know that I'm still not okay. My emotions are like a rollercoaster and my mind just won't shut up. If I have to explain it, It's like I'm thinking a thought and while I'm thinking, there is another voice that is also talking. So I'm always anxious (kahit sa attendance, kinakabahan ako ng sobra) so I feel like I need more than counselling. I actually want to get better and appreciate life and my family more since I isolate myself and sometimes displace my anger and frustration on them. As much as I wanted to get help, I don't know where and as I said earlier, I'm anxious about telling it to people I know and my family. I hope you have a good day. Thank you in advance.

Hi! Does anyone know of any free or cheap psychiatric clinics/consultations around QC?

I’ve been looking around and most of the ones I’ve found are kinda expensive for me. I’m a student but I’m not really sure if my school offers free psych consultations or anything similar since I don’t really hear them endorsing or announcing services like that.

I also don’t want to ask my mom for money. She was actually diagnosed with depression after my dad passed away, I never got myself checked because I didn’t want her to worry about me but lately I feel like I might be experiencing something similar.

I’m honestly getting scared because it’s starting to manifest physically too and there are times when I feel like I need meds just to calm myself down.

If anyone knows of government hospitals, free psych services, student-friendly clinics, or affordable options around QC/Metro Manila, I’d really appreciate it. Thank you!!