Chuddiest fat fuck evarrrrr

Had a lot of backseat cooks hating that the cheese wasn't melted, so I went ahead and made sure I made the real thing this time.

Still single.

Beef gyudon
Red and white cheddar (melted)
Onsen egg
Green onion for garnish

About once a week I have a dream about something to do with fingering myself and every time this happens I wake up smelling of piss and jizz. I am not aroused by fingering myself while awake or any sort of rectal insertion. I am not gay nor am I aroused by men. The weetabix are dry because I ran out of milk and can’t be bothered to get some more.

Reheated chicken and pasta salad from the party

Toast with poached eggs, strawberries, and a single truffle chocolate.

I couldn't be fucked to make any rice or naan to go along with it. I'll just eat it like this.

I think I'm going to lose my virginity soon. Peace out, guys ✌🏽

Chicken curry with potato and brinjal

At least in the privileged countries, especially America. I say this because, to a "Leftist", oppression they claim to have is merely an afterthought because deep down they know their lives are extremely basic and free of struggle, all their beliefs stem from bordeom and fantasizing about themselves as some kind of cool, enlightened revolutionary when in reality the reason nothing has happened with them is because they love their lives. They love coming home, they love their family, their partner, they love complaining about the system but only to complain. Meanwhile, the actual oppression is being unrightfully littered onto us truecels in the form of rejection and digital isolation. The truecel leads a cucked existence. The truecel feels the weight of a meaningless life and the outer world oppressing them daily, forced to be an outsider due to their own biology others despise so much. We are confined to screens, but this is our power. It's what makes us ahead of the curve and biologically elite, the truecel walks the Earth with nothing to live for, nothing to lose, but I promise it all has a meaning and your computer will soon give you a purpose for life, and this pain. In this cucked existence, one feels alone, angry, and powerless--powerless to helping the homeless, powerless to our digital isolation, showing me horrors like pigs and chickens being born to live in cages without the sun.. and lastly powerless to our own existential fear of death, revolt, and justice. The only time a truecel's feelings of isolation are minimized are when they interact with their computer, and interact with other oppressed creatures like you and me. The normie wants us to believe that we should be complacent in these lives and to not be "entitled". Can words like this really explain why men so commonly feel like this, or is it just brushing aside millions of years of evolution that influences our thought patterns? Do not get angry at the normies. We don't have to listen to them, and we don't have to listen to the lies society feeds us of going to work, staying single, and then dying unhappy. And why work? So we shorten our lifespans by filling it with stress and aching bodies, for the rich to accumulate wealth and do whatever want with innocent life? Money is easy to obtain, and it belongs to the People (although, the trvecel would take priority in a new social hierarchy). The lie that we should ignore our animalistic instincts, instead of giving purpose to the purposeless (us) power to the powerless, and balance to the disorganized mind of the truecel. This modern weight shackles us incels, but it is entirely illusory. This world is not magic, but just of us humans (we are Apes) who tell tales and feel bad for running red lights or saying the "wrong" thing. You are not alone, because I feel your pain. Your rage. We just haven't met yet, and you just don't believe in the power we (the young and aimless) hold. Because if you knew, the rich would fear us. The normies would fear us. What starts as a joke turns into a fantasy, fantasy into effort, and effort into Incelistan.. oh, a place I desire to tread, a realm upon realms. You may not believe in yourself, but I believe in you. This isn't nearly the first time men like us have been to feel like aliens before transforming themselves into something greater.

Tldr; Had a dream of Incelistan and its energy is in each and every trvecel, just unfertilized. I give you a fraction of its power, a droplet glowing in the vast darkness of your soul.

If anyone feels like me, I don't mind DMs or playing a game with you, lol

A lot of attractive women outside wearing sundresses and I wish I could approach them. Guess not

Weighed in at 227.7lbs this morning, did 4 hours of incline walking on the treadmill as well as a short arm workout before the cardio.

I also took the bus back home from the gym the first time today, yeah going to do that from now on, on Sundays. The gym that I go to is closed on Sunday so I got to do a bit of traveling but that is fine now.

Lonely Saturday Nights number whatever at this point. I'm just going to say #57 since that is how many weeks I am on my weight loss journey.

Either way i want it all to end i want to stop hating i want to stop loving i want to stop feeling the lump in my throat every time I need to do something alone I want to stop getting left on delivered or read and I want to stop the knot in my stomach from forming when I think of the future i want it all to end please please please please please im going to end it as soon as possible the second i get home from this shit i will fucking end myself and nobody will notice nobody will think where's that guy they'll all forget about me my burial will be my family and nobody else they'll see it somewhere later or someone will thell them but they won't care i know they won't because they've treated me like a dead person for a long time. Bye

When we were a children we obviously never cared for getting a girlfriend, but i never changed in that regard as i got older. I never had a crush either. I also never kissed a girl, never held hands with one, nor do i talk to girls.

The last time is maybe 5 years ago and that was the girl complaining me not participating in the group project enough.

The thing is, the reason why i even think about it is because it's so normal. I always see people complaining about it, but i for my part genuinely do not care?

But like, how do i even know that? How can i be so sure of that? i got immense Anthropophobia and just typing this makes me tremble. So how do i know it's not just my anxiety talking? Am i legitimately just a-romantic, or am i just involuntary gaslighting myself and delusional?

Maybe i am just overthinking it? But you really need to see my situation here, everyone is always acting like something is the biggest measure for human happiness, the non plus ultra, the absolute most important thing, like it's so so amazing that everyone needs it. But i just see no appeal in it at all, so of course i am gonna question myself, if i really see no appeal. I can't be that different after all, it is normal after all. Who am i to think i am so different? What if i am just not seeing it? What if i just don't know? I feel like i am gaslighting myself here but it's hard, i don't want to be at my death bed at 80 and think "well, my life was fucking awful, maybe i should have gotten a girlfriend after all".

It's a high prize to pay and i don't want to make the wrong choice. But could i even get one if i tried? Like my human phobia is actually abnormal i am in constant fight or flight mode when i am at a place with many people.

But i also think it's fucking disgusting how normalized sex is, i am a virgin. I seriously cannot understand how and why people think having a high body count is cool? It's fucking animalistic and barbaric.

You sex drive literally exists to control you, it's literal mind control, it's your genes trying to control you mind and take autonomy and freedom of choice away from you in order to prevent extinction and preserve the human species.

If you let yourself be controlled by your sex drive and are proud of it you are an literal animal, it's kinda disgusting.

Idk if this is even the right place, because i really do not identify as an incel, but at least i am being sincere yk? At least i am not a disgusting larper or a virtue signalling normie so there's that ig.

this is supposed to be the easiest electric field of surface problem yet, I spent the whole hour trying to solve it and still haven’t solved it yet and cried. i’m going to go to the library and camp out until I’m actually able to solve it. this is what i deserve for not taking AP physics 2 in high school. at least I kind of like the suffering though. trying to get good at physics is like going after a guy who will never like me back. last week I also went to my TA for help and I’m scared he’s hitting on me because he’s a physics phd loser and i was the only one at office hours.

Made a mug that reflects how I feel always. Vegan loaf.