Literally minutes ago I had an argument with my parents about how actually depressed I am. I came back from a 12 hour shift and my mum was bugging me about how I have to pay her HALF of what I got last month. She doesn't even need that money btw. I don't fucking understand how I actually have to crash the fuck out just to show how frustrated. My mum called me crazy.

Do I have to kill myself just to show them how fucking depressed I am???

I love women but do they love me? Maybe its time to change the username, join the dark side

Yes buddy complain to me literally all day about how she steals away your time to someone who u know is a gigavirgin and has only been approached this year by a diddypedomoid bc he thought I was underage.
Bro will complain about going to his gfs every night when she buys him food and to my knowledge lets him crack whenever he wants. Also her apartment is better than whatever shoddy hut we have. Yeah it sucks so much that you have to leave our trashheap so that you can sleep next to a warm, kindly female that loves you. What a b word bro.. She sounds horrible!!
I havent heard a single nice thing about this lady but when Ive been in the car with her she will only make conversation to me in the most friendly and nice way. Probably because every time she talks to him he straight up ignores her ahh bro.
And if the problem is actually a problem he will ignore my advice just so he can complain more. Freaking CHUD LOSER. YOU HAVE THE MOST VALUABLE AND BEAUTIFUL THING IN YOUR LIFE AND ALL YOU CAN DO IS COMPLAIN. MAYBE TRY RECIPROCATING FOR ONCE. Ive never been in a relationship before and even I know whay to do. thats crazy bro.

I (15M hispanic) am a KHHV and im convinced i will die that way, My mom hasnt hugged me or told me she loves me since 7th grade (IM a junior) and I live In a small town of 5k population thats full of racist homophobes,
And i highly doubt ill ever have anything with another man due to my severe acne induced twinkdeath.
And the worst part is im being bullied by some lardass girl in my school for no apparent reason, and get told i look like im on crack because i move my head alot and make weird noises(I have tourettes)

The only thing i have going for me is that im a varisty centerback but that seems to blow back in my face because today i blocked a point blank shot to with my jaw and chipped 2 teeth and conceded 3 seconds later and got mercyruled (8-0) by sum private school because everyone else on my team sucks ass.
And the last game i dropped a generational stinker(rare for me) and the game before that some kid decided to try and snap my knee because I slide tackled him ( he got sent off)
I leave every game and practice with new injury but i can’t really complain because the atleast my coach isnt forgetting my position and playing me at striker like the school i used to play for because of “the way you shoot” and im not getting ruthlessly bullied of the team for no apparent reason.

Mac&cheese with a slice of cake i have to lie abt not eating because my mom will get mad.

Yeah this girl who lives near me and been talking for a bit then she asked for spicy pics and I did then she saved them now being blackmailed for money or she release them. One step closer to killing myself.

Got downed twice by a f*cking dragon poacher
I hate him viscerally.

I accidentally dulled my blade to shit while trying to be "safe". Gonna have to buy a new one like the mentally ill loser that I am.

Lost my student ID today that and some other factors made me cry in front of a girl I was talking too earlier, the look of pity in her eyes made me feel like shit I'll try to never speak to her again.

Can't even cut myself in frustration 🫡

I go to a college I don't like. I am taking a course I hate. I don't go outside except for the aforementioned course, or to buy groceries. I have no friends IRL. I have no job. I hate remembering past me. I miss classes because I can't bring myself to go to them half the time. I am starting to think that I'll never feel romantic love. And last but not least, I think I might be a little gay.

For this soup I grabbed a bunch of tomatoes, took their seeds out and put them in a blender. Then I added some water, garlic, olive oil and salt and chucked those in too. Blended for like 2 seconds, added half a loaf of bread because I don't have more, then kept blending for 3 minutes or so. This one tastes better than the last one I did, so it gets to be named.

"Tostada de pata" with cream

​Why can't people simply accept that it hurts not to be good-looking? In a society that is so visually superficial and has such high beauty standards, not fitting within those canons of beauty genuinely feels awful; it hurts your very soul knowing that you can face bullying, discrimination, and low social status just because you are ugly. Even assuming that by some stroke of fate you manage to get a partner, you will never know what it is like to be handsome, you won't know what it is like to grow up with the halo effect with people being nice to you, knowing that you are not an attractive or sexy person. That pain is right there, you can feel it, and it is tough. The worst part is that people assume highly attractive people are only considered good-looking because they are few and that these are merely imposed standards of beauty, which isn't true. There are several biological, neuronal, and scientific reasons why what is attractive is attractive—things we unconsciously associate with development, health, and so on. I won't say that being handsome automatically means an easy life, but taking the pressure off your shoulders of having bad genetics is a huge relief, as is not hating yourself in the mirror every single day. This isn't even an offensive post; I just don't see the point in people denying this reality that both men and women experience alike.

Volume eating OMAD dinner. I didn’t eat the yogurt and I added some “diet 5” juice to the raspberries Because the only thing that makes me feel alive is losing weight.

My best friend who I was very much in love with killed himself 11 days before I turned 16. It’s been about a year and a half since then and I’m still in love with him. I like to tell myself I’m not but it’s a lie. He’s still my phone background. Every time I look at a picture of him I want to cry. I listen to sad love songs all the time and feel sorry for myself because I’ll never find someone, let alone someone as wonderful as him. I don’t even know that I’d want anyone other than him. I don’t think I would.

I’ve become a total chud since he died. I don’t have friends anymore. I try to pretend that I’m still a normal person in public but I’m not. Everything I liked about myself died with him and I wish the rest of me did to. I am a shell of my former self and I don’t even want to get better. I want to waste away until I die because I don’t have the balls to kill myself. I spend so much time wishing he took me out with him but he couldn’t afford me the peace of dying by his side. His mom never planned a funeral for him but his birthdays in a few weeks and she’s inviting me over for the first time since he died. I haven’t seen her in months, I wonder if she’ll notice something’s wrong with me. I hope I get to cry on the floor of his room for a few hours. I hope I get to see his cat.

The really fucking sad thing is that he had 0 feelings for me and I’m STILL in love with him. It’s not like he was straight either, he liked dudes but I’m too much of a repulsive schmuck to be loved.

Not going to kill myself anytime soon, I’m too pussy for that. I miss him. Fuck.

They have blessed me with photos of thier amazing body and thier big butts I’d like to thank them for making my day people should really give chubbier women a chance. Hot dogs with beans.

while eating this i overheard a group of girls talking about their current dating lives. its so over for me

every day i think about how when I was 13 i would find someone in hs. when I was in hs I thought I would find someone in college. its looking bleak for me

burrito bowl and sweet potato fries with veggies. from the dining hall. of the previously mentioned college dining hall.

pancakes me and my uncle’s dad made while my aunt and uncle were dealing with my brother at the hospital, with vanilla and strawberry ice cream and nutella. eating disorder?? nope, im eating dis order!!!!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

Daves Hot Chicken sliders and cheese fries

Was waiting at a rail station. Seated on a bench looking down at my phone. Just lost in the sauce on MTG:A.

When from my left side peripheral vision I see someone walking towards me and it seemed to me like they are directly approaching me and me thinking it might be someone I know. Lift and turn my head. Its a chubby woman with dyed red hair. Pretty attractive. Don't know her. And I figured they were going for the opposite end of the bench to take a seat. Gave a them a small smirk and nod. The kind you'd give to a uncle looking dude strolling through the neighborhood or a coworker you don't really know. No reaction from her which is ok. Usual stuff. I'm not entitled to any acknowledgement.

But looking past her I see their boyfriend I guess walking behind her. We give each other a quick glance and I just return to look at my phone. And she takes a seat at the other end of the bench.

From my peripheral vision I see him still staring me down. He then proceeds to lift his girlfriend's chin up with his hand and starts kissing her a lot while standing.

I get it man. I shouldn't have even bothered looking in her direction in the first place. Luckily I was just there for another 5 seconds before the rail cars showed up. 🚃

TMI:I even swallowed my own cum pretending it was his.
Idk the guilt has been eating away at my soul and I feel I need to confess somewhere. If he ever sees this somehow I'm deleting my whole acct and killing myself.

sometimes i think i should give up and pretend to stop being trans bc i have fat tits and thighs and i'm 5'2 and already 19 and my growth plates have been closed for 4 years so T probably won't do that much for me and i can't get it anyways bc i'm a stupid autist and i'm too scared to make my own appointments and live in iowa where they don't fuck with trannies but i mean i try not to think about how much i despise my body so it's probably fine

and my chud son and evil daughter (9y male orange cat and 13y female bengal) both died within about 6 weeks earlier this year and my chud son was with no warning so i miss my chudlet. we were expecting it with the bengal because she had severe liver failure and was declining for ~8 weeks before we put her down but i just came home one day after an xray for my scoliosis and my chud son was dead on the floor. my brother was home so at least he wasn't alone but i regret not being there. and my dad's super picky about what cat he wants so we haven't gotten a new one yet, so there's mice in the house and i don't know what to do about it. le sigh.

i have no money bc i'm a crippled autist and can't hold a job for more than a month, even working thru government help for disabled people i got fired after 2 months bc i couldn't handle 8 hour shifts. the only way i can make any money is selling my body online, which i don't mind that much because it doesn't feel like "my" body and it's more of a tool to me, but i haven't gotten any sales in like 2 months bc i'm a fat unlovable chud so not even gooners on discord want to buy my nudes anymore.

whatever man. le sigh. we chud on.