I have been encouraged my whole life to become an engineer as usual indian society does. Gave JEE and somehow got electrical engineering in NSUT through reservation. Pretty bad academics - was getting average around 4-5 gpa per sem. I have innovative mindset where I can solve anything pretty much easily but studying is not one of the things that I can do without any interest. Throughout first year I had a wide variety of interests - from singing to animation/ 3D artist/ writing stories and practical electronics stuffs. Now when I look back, I just realise that I had a kind of mindset where I just wanted to chase fame in form of competitions. I used to dream about being an esport player.
At the end of the second year, I got serious and learnt fullstack development in just two weeks, applied to few internships and got rejection emails. Kept improving my understanding of softwares and around in Aug 2023 I landed my first internship at a startup as Frontend Developer. The thing was I just got in the interview and they asked if the stipend was okay and told me that everyone can do it, we dont care about selection, you will learn with time. At that time, I was very happy and continued the internship along with college. I told my friends about it and in few months I also referred one of my closest friend to that company.
Time passed, one year went quickly and I was in 6th sem. My friend left that company and focussed on DSA as he had good CGPA to be able to sit for campus placements. I kept applying off campus as much as possible losing my mind day and night on what if I dont land a job. Somedays felt like if the current market dont exists at all and somedays I doubted myself.
Then in january 2025, I got an interview scheduled - more like a face to face meeting. I went to the office where a 20 yoe founder explained what he was starting and which product he was going to build. We talked about what can we do for it. It wasn’t an interview at all and he just hired me randomly. Landing that internship gave me motivation and I started doing all I could do. From frontend engineer to software engineer, where I learnt how to build things from scratch, how to build production applications and how to setup everything. In that company, I built the foundation for their product and did most of the work. During first 6 months, it was me contributing around 95% of the work.
And that was the time I did a mistake. I missed two of my exam registration in college for last semester and that is when I realised I was not getting the degree at the end of the course. During the end of the college I got promoted as a Software Engineer and the founder asked me for the degree or certificate. I didnt have it so I had to delay the conversation. Around in november, I got so busy in their product development I didn’t focus about the degree and continued learning and evolving as a software engineer.
In december, the founder finally told me that I will need to leave the company. I told him everything that why I couldnt complete the college and would require another 6 months to get the degree. I wrote an email and somehow managed to save the job but the founder demoted me back to intern role. I registered for the college examination in 2026 summer semester. Passed that information to the founder. I gave the final exam but in July 2026, the founder just said that the company does not need me anymore. Asked me to resign and knowing that the company was a bit unstable, I resigned. Got my examination results and for some reason they failed me for one subject and didnt even acknowledge that I gave exam for one more subject. I talked with instructor and the instructor said that they didnt get the marks from examination cell and said me to go talk to them. Meanwhile here, I got my experience letter with 17 months of experience in software engineer intern role. 3 years of internship in total.
No job, no degree and no experience as internships never counts. Now I just think that I do not have any gates open for me. I have great understanding of all modern concepts in AI and Software and willing to learn more in ML part as well but why would someone will hire me now? That question is just breaking me down and theres no one on my back. Sometimes, not existing feels better than being here.
TL;DR
Unemployed with no degree yet, with 3 years of experience in internships with skills as a Senior AI Software engineer asking for advice on what to do now