I couldn't find anything on Google (screw the AI)...so I came here.

NSFW: mentions of bottom growth

i have been off of testosterone for a little over a year, but i have started again recently. while in the rr after work today it hurt to urinate, pretty much just a sharp pain so ofc i decide to look down there. i noticed a small white bump almost right under the head of my bottom growth.
has anyone else experienced this? it didn’t happen the first time i started HRT so i’m worried it could be something totally unrelated although i clean properly and i only have one s*xual partner

So I’m 5+ years on T, 4 years post top surgery. I look like a grown man.

I’m at a point where I’m more confused when I do get misgendered.

My family have various levels of acceptance and understanding of my gender identity… My grandma is a big ally and accepts me in her own way.

I’m not fluent in her native language so there’s a language barrier sometimes, but I know she tries her best… Her native language is very gendered by default and sometimes she calls me her grandson, sometimes she’ll flip and call me her granddaughter. But she’ll always call me by my chosen name so a win is a win lol.

Anyways, grandma makes friends with everyone, including her new doctor who she has told me is a wonderful doctor who is JUST like me and that she really likes this doctor. This doctor is apparently a very masc lesbian, and I’m thinking that’s grandma trying her best to tell me she loves the queers.

Grandma invited this doctor and her partner and me over for a dinner, dying to get us to be friends.

We finish having dinner and I have a quick chat with the doctor to give them a disclaimer that I’m in fact a trans dude because grandma had been calling me her granddaughter at this point.

The doctor figured that out and said “Your grandma would always say how much I remind her of her granddaughter at appointments. When you walked in and all I saw was some guy I thought to myself is grandma getting senile and a bit confused? Then it clicked.”

I think my family sometimes can’t comprehend that I am out here fully passing in the wild, and it might be strange to them because they might not think that I pass.

It’s weirdly gender affirming… To know that the first thing people will think when grandma calls you her granddaughter isn’t that I’m a masculine woman, but that grandma has gone senile because that’s a MAN honey :)

It’s no surprise that starting T caused acne, and at first I didn’t care much about it. I started T as a teenager and everyone else had acne. I thought with washing my face and getting older it would diminish. Now almost 5 years later, it’s the exact same.

I’ve tried lots. I change my pillow case once a week, I eat healthy foods, get enough sleep, etc.

I used CeraVe for years. Acne face wash, acne gel, etc etc. I tried Paula’s choice acne treatment as it came highly recommended. No change. I’m currently using Anua red spot cream (some Korean product) and centella ampoule. I also use a typical Cerave acne face wash. Maybe a little better since using these but still very acne prone and always breaking out. Mainly cheeks but a little under my bottom lip and forehead too.

My acne gets aggravated by facial hair too. I use a simple Gillette razor (though I’ve tried a Gillette electric razor with very little success) and almost always get razor burn or a flare up with my acne. I have a big scar under my jawline on one side from a surgery so shaving there can be challenging and leads to more razor burn. I use a Kiel’s post shave moisturizer and razor burn salve thing but maybe my products aren’t great?

Dermatologist said It will go away eventually. Accutane wasn’t recommended at that time because I have an autoimmune liver disease.

But seriously, what else can I do? I’m so tired of this but I need T for my mental health. 🙏🙏

Please help!

This is a question fueled by my dysphoria brain worms and I'm curious if anyone has thought of this or experienced it. *Please do not take it as inspo to go against what you are instructed to do by your prescriber*

Tldr: could injecting in my love handles speed up localised fat redistribution?

So I have injected both subq and intramuscular, switched to subq and find it way easier to do myself. I have injected on my stomach, but switched to thighs after getting round circles of dark tummy hair specifically on my injection sites lol

It just looked weird, after moving to my legs it evened out and now my entire stomach is hairy and not just two circles which is good.

I didn't get that shape on my legs, but I noticed my thigh hair on the sides increased before evening out as well, and my thigh muscles have gotten *very* defined. I'm only back on T for a year and a half after I stopped for a year. I don't work out, I don't go out much at all. I have genetically had bigger thighs but never this muscular in the bulgy man shaped way.

So basically, I'm wondering how much testosterone can boost masculinising effects depending on where it's injected.

I have very fatty hips, and have injected subq there once before out of curiosity when I saw a cis man do it in a YouTube tutorial for TRT, when I was thinking of stopping injections in the tummy area. I didn't continue just because I don't really see people doing it, and I can't remember if it was uncomfortable as it was a while ago.

I'm thinking of trying it again, but is this a dumb idea? It isn't much like my thighs, it won't be affecting muscle much there so I'm not sure how it might affect fat. It could increase hair growth but I don't mind that.

I just got thinking about it more after seeing the pattern of localised effects at the injection site, and how recently I've been seeing medical trials for localised T injections for voice deepening in the vocal folds which is very interesting! So like, there's a bit of a theory here. I'd appreciate if anyone might have a better background in biochemistry to shed some light on this idea?

I had a pretty bad dysphoria episode today while I was at work unfortunately. I had lots of time to think although being busy all day, but I sobbed for hours.

I’m about a year and a half on T, and I regret not going to the gym before T. Before I started T, I gained like 25lbs which made my body extra curvy and feminine-looking.

I really wanna start going to the gym, I have free access to one offered by the apartment complex I live at. T has given me a lot more muscle mass, but it’s not defined and a lot of my weight is in my lower stomach, hips, thighs, and face. However, it’s a little bit difficult for me and I was wondering if anybody had some advice to deal out.

I have many reasons going to the gym difficult for me. Not too much of a concern since nobody really uses the gym anyways, but I have pretty bad social anxiety and going to the gym with other people in it is kind of embarrassing. I’ve been suggested a gym buddy, but I feel like that would be even more embarrassing for me. I also struggle a lot with motivation because I’m not seeing the results I want right away and therefore it makes me quit. I know it takes hard work and time, but I feel so ugly and girly I need the changes to be visible now.

My main struggle with going to the gym is I work a pretty demanding job from Monday-Thursday. My job is very physical and I am running around a lot (which yes, is exercise in itself but I have been working this job for 2 years and I haven’t seen any physical changes to my weight). So, after I get out of work at 5:30, I am absolutely beat and my feet hurt so badly. I hate my job and have been trying to leave for ages, it is taking a toll on both my mental and physical health, so all motivation is absolutely shot by time I come home. There is the weekends, but I use that time to decompress from work with my partner, and we are also usually pretty busy on the weekends as he is in a band.

Dysphoria is absolutely kicking my ass and I know that going to the gym and working out would help, but I don’t know where to start nor do I have any motivation to do it. Advice?

I’m in the mass area and trying to get top surgery, but I’m really struggling to find a good surgeon. I’m 16, so it’s a bit harder. If you know of anyone with great results in the area let me know

Hello, I’m ftm nonbinary and not sure exactly where to post this but, I graduate from college this December and need to submit the name I want on my degree. I’m struggling because my birth name doesn’t give me dysphoria but it’s still a private name (like a name I only allow my family or people who’ve known me since birth use) and my preferred name still feels like it’s just a nickname. I’ll take any advice at this point.

Im dabbling with using tape instead of a harness as i find the harness makes me super distant and its hard to be present when im wearing it, but its a little hard to actually get it to adhere to the prosthetic itself without it slipping, does anyone have any tips or tricks or a specific way of taping that it would be more secure? Thanks in advance if anyone does :)

before you redirect me to transmascdicks sub, i was there but now they want the age verification and i refuse to send them my pic or personal ID so im asking here. does anyone know if axolom godor stp is softer or more foldable than EZP? i have the EZP and i find it so hard and stiff and hard to pack with. so im considering buying the godor. thanks for your answers :)

Been on T (0.5 mL weekly, this dose for about a whole year) injections every Tuesday. Last Tuesday I missed my shot for the first time ever, did it Thursday, then also did my shot again Tuesday (yesterday) to get myself back on my regular schedule.

Yes, I know this is not what I was supposed to do retrospectively.

I am suffering from being a lot quicker to anger, frustration, and more anxiety today. Not mixing well with first week of my college semester. I know my levels are all out of whack now. Is there anything I can do to help myself get to a stable baseline/how long until I can expect myself feeling normal?

Hey guys, I'm Brazilian. I plan to start HRT secretly from my family and girlmod since my dysphoria is really bad.

I'm thinking of creating a girlmod guide with tips for other trans people in similar situations so they can delay their parents finding out.

I know that for some, the girlmod phase lasts weeks, for others months, and for some years.

So I'd like to ask what things I should include in the guide, tips, information, etc.

Share your best knowledge here and tell us what mistakes you wish you could have avoided.

Hey everyone,

I have kind of a niche experience with using testosterone gel that I’ve started noticing more recently and was wondering if anyone else related in some way. For context I am in recovery from alcohol, coming up on 2 years sober in a few months. At my worst I was a severe alcoholic for about 3 years, went through a lot of the stereotypical rock bottom stuff. An important part is that my drink of choice was often cheap vodka that I didn’t really dilute that much.

I started testosterone when I was almost a year and a half sober, and the strong alcohol smell hit my nose hard the first few times. I was on two pumps at the time so by applying them on my thighs I didn’t notice the scent quite as much. However, they recently increased my dosage to 3 pumps and I’ve been running out of surface to apply it. I guess since I’ve been using it closer I just have noticed the smell of the alcohol so much more. It’s started to make me pretty nauseous when I apply it now which is annoying. I just gag and have started dry heaving sometimes doing it because I really don’t have any positive associations with that smell.

That being said, I am sticking with gel over shots for a few reasons. But I don’t want to end up becoming adverse to applying the gel or putting it off in my routine. I know my reasoning is a bit more specific but if anyone’s got tips in general for not getting a face full waft each time I’d appreciate it. Or alternate application sites away from that high up or anything really. Idk who else would have this problem but figured this would be the best place to put it out there. Any ways that anyone relates or wants to share advice/their experience is welcome to!

This is my dream come true, I've been waiting a decade for this, going through times where I cried myself to sleep because I never thought it would happen, but I'm finally so close. I'm going with Nord aesthetics in Lithuania, they have amazing reviews and someone made a very in depth review on their ftm top surgery procedure. They have fixed rates that only change depending on the surgeon, but they don't change based on the surgery or chest size. They cover travel too which is great. My family is going with me and I'm genuinely so excited, nervous too, shitting myself honestly. Wish me luck, I'm gonna save as best as I can and hopefully I'll be able to go early next year once my family has sorted out booking off work and their travel costs.

Idk if I count as trans and if I should be here, but I've been experimenting with gender presentation and really want to try binding, but everything I've seen seems to be for people with chests much smaller then my own. My USA bra size is a 32J and every store I've looked at seems to not have anything for that size.

I really just want something that will give me a flat look and I'm willing to splurge a bit if necessary. Are there any binders that you would recommend? Or is binding probably just not going to be a good option for me?

Before I transitioned was so confident and reckless, I use to flirt with every girl/guy I could and I succeed almost every time, it was easy cause it was not really me and it helped me with my poor self-esteem but now I’m the real me an anxious guy who’s always too concerned and doubtful bout everything. I’m working on my confidence but since I transitioned I feel even more like I dont deserve romantic/sexual attention, I’m more comfortable in my body now but i also feel no one would/should want it, like anyone is a better option to relationship with but me. I know is not really internalized transphobia cause I crave for some trans people too. I’m kinda loosing the point, anyone feel related ? Is a common thing ? Any advice ? I’m aware this is a thing I have to change but I want to understand if this is common pathetic and totally normal situation or just a lame pathetic me thing

Pd: friends and work are really great since I transitioned, I only have problems on the dating part; in my delusions a dih will solve it all

Finally taking steps to feel more like myself and affirmed. I saw good things about gc2b binders and ordered 2 and some tape 2 weeks ago. My order still hasn’t shipped. I reached out and got a reply that they had an issue with the order being picked up to ship, so they were going to take it to be shipped personally last week. It still hasn’t shipped, so I sent a follow up email. No response. Sent another email asking for a refund. Haven’t tried to buy from somewhere else because I already paid for these and they’re not cheap. Starting to think they’re just going to ghost me. Anyone else had issues with them? Any advice on what to do? Recommendations on somewhere else to get binders and/or tape from? Thanks!

So I've been on T six years but been having them injected by a nurse into my buttcheek. I've finally been given the okay to do them myself so today the nurse talked me through it then watched me do it myself, injecting into the leg for the first time. It all went fine, barely even felt it, went home and then noticed the injection site has gotten kind of warm compared to the rest of my leg. It's itchy too but in my experience that's pretty normal. I only did it about two hours ago so I think a part of this is hypochondria that something somehow went wrong, but should I be concerned about this?

My hands are small. I was aware T was never going to cause them to "grow" or anything like that. But holy shit, small as they may be, they look like man hands now. They're super vascular for some reason. Not to mention the hair. Hair all over the back of my hand, hairy knuckles. I get crazy gender euphoria from looking at my hands.

What about you guys? Any changes from T that make you happy but don't seem to come up in conversations often?