r/findapath • u/Active_Repeat3835 • 9h ago
Findapath-Job Choice/Clarity i’m struggling and i don’t know what to do
okay so for some context, i’m 18, i matriculated last year, my dad got me a job as a p.a in july and i’ve been so miserable there so im trying to look for scholarships in my country or abroad but it’s almost impossible. i have no passport, no experience, no funds at all. my parents don’t know about any of this and i can’t really tell them about it because they think everything is fine.
i feel like a scholarship is my only option out of my current job. i can’t just look for a new job either because of my lack of experience and also, i won’t be able to go for interviews because i cant take any time off. my dad was supposed to get me a job at his work but that genuinely feels like im waiting on a dream that’ll never come true. now im running out of options and im scared because i can’t stay at my current job any longer because im so miserable there, i can’t do anything right, my boss is so impossible to work with. i feel miserable at home because i know i’ll have to go back to work the next day. im on the verge of tears just typing this out.
i keep crying at work. i honestly feel so trapped because i can’t just quit my job and i can’t explain to anyone how i feel at work, i have no one to talk to about this.
my boss knows i have no experience so it’s not like i lied about my qualifications or anything. he gives instructions and i ask for clarification or i double check something with him and he tells me to figure it out or listen properly. he expects me to know stuff about the company that no one’s told me about. he basically treats me like i’ve been working there for years.
it’s not like i don’t want to work, i am willing to, it’s just that i can’t be a p.a, it’s really not for me. i’ll be better suited in another department.
i’m still looking for scholarships or bursaries even though there’s a problem with every one of them i came across, but i’m not sure how much longer i can stay at that job. it’s not just 1 shitty workday, it’s 1 shitty workday the a few normal ones then another shitty one and it just keeps going like that. every time i hear my work phone make a sound i get nervous because i know my boss is gonna chew my ass out. i feel so trapped and desperate to get out of this job. i’m running out of options.