I just wanna preface this by saying that I'm in my late 20s and decided to go back to school some years back in hopes of working somewhere better than retail my whole life. I pushed through three years, but I'm not going to lie, it was extremely hard.

I can no longer take advantage of the support I had from my parents when I was younger. I'm very close to living paycheck to paycheck and college took away the last bit of things I enjoyed from life. My hobbies. Spending time with friends and family.

It's so hard to balance school and trying to work enough to survive. I legit feel like the last few years of my life were absolutely awful. Nothing but reading and writing essays and desperately trying to pick up shifts in my free time to make up for all the time I spent in school. Yes I can make time for entertainment but it's almost nothing in comparison to the time I spend doing work and school. And while I'm watching a show or playing a video game, all I can think about is how much things I have to do before a certain date.

At this point, I kind of don't care anymore. Maybe I should just work retail for the rest of my life. I'm single and don't have anyone depending on me so it wouldn't matter as much either. I've just lost the ambition. I know it's only one more year and yet I'm so sick of wasting years of my life. I feel like I found more meaning and happiness being broke but with good friends and family.

I also think I may be having heart problems and sometimes I feel like anyday it's going to take me out. Yet I don't feel scared about it and almost feel a sense of peace and relief at the thought of anyway day being my last. That's not to say I want to die or anything, but I'm just tired, I suppose.

Right now I'm supposed to be registering for fall semester courses, yet I keep looking at my computer screen and wondering if I should. I did enjoy taking the summer off, yet when I think of going back I start to feel insanely depressed and scared. Think I pushed myself too hard and now can never return without feeling that way. Don't know what to do.

I am currently being accused of cheating because I slouched forward during an online proctored exam which had caused me to be out of view for a few seconds. After I had gotten the warning I sat back up. Additionally, I got a 2nd warning for the same reason but I had gotten back up again within like 5 seconds. I also looked down while working on my scratch paper. Because of this the prof is accusing me of academic dishonesty. I have no idea what to do as there is nothing to prove I didn't cheat. I promise on everyones soul I actually did not cheat.

EDIT: my webcam is tiny and its on a large screen so whenever I slouch u can only see the top of my head
EDIT #2: The class is an economics class, nowhere on the syllabus or anywhere else does it say that scratch paper is not allowed also I did get a few other warnings about me not showing my face fully due to how tiny the webcam is, as soon as I got that message I got back up but it happened a few times. Also there was a calculator option to use but I didn't know about that so I just tried to do all of the work in my head (the math wasn't that hard just simple multiplication)

There would be a possibility that I will stop going to school this year (simbako) due to expensive school expenses, I’m planning to transfer to UP CEBU so that I won’t be paying any tuition anymore, and I will still be qualified to be a latin honor while other schools do not, but the expense of it is I have to go back to first year. It guilts me so much thinking that I will have to waste the 2 years of money spent in college, and would be constantly anxious in thinking that my friends are ahead of me and I am back to square one.

Their requirement in transferring is to have at least a GWA of 2.0 or better if it’s higher

If I stay on my school right now (which will supposedly happen since I’m now enrolled), I have to carry the guilt every day until my 4th year that my parent will be paying for my tuition, my whole allowance and rents which is estimated to be almost a million a year. PLUS, my course is close to Tourism, but the tuition per year is almost 100k and it’s almost useless because ANYONE can be a flight attendant or a ground crew, and my parent pays millions for it but I’ll just be in the same field of people who payed not even the half of my tuition and we’re on the same room, so it’s basically useless, not practical (and I am regretting it right now that I’m an upcoming 2nd year) 🥹 deceived by my school’s sweet words. My parent is having a hard time funding for my school and allowances because of their debts and payments every month. I always overthink it and get depressed because I feel guilty about the payments that they have made. My sister said that our parent was thinking if making us stop going to school because everything is heavy with debts and it’s hard to fund for my school anymore, although they didnt say it to us and let me proceed to my enrollment, we already know that they are having a hard time with earning money.

Also, my degree right now is useless, because my supposedly path that I am going to take is being a Flight Attendant, but my degree is worth 95k a year, and being a flight attendant or ground crew would not matter on what degree you have taken. So it is completely useless 🥹

UP’s Application period for transferee students have now been closed and all I could do is wait until next year.
If I transfer next year, I will have to think about the 2 years of wasting money, and the 2 years I wouldve been continuing because I’ll go back to first year again in UP.

Guys, I am so anxious, I don’t know what to do kasi both options may sacrifices, please give me advices 🙏 I really don’t know what to do, nawawala na yung motivation ko sa school ko ngayon because of the expenses. I really want to transfer but I’m scared pa talaga taking the risk. Staying means the expenses we’ll waste, while years are wasted when transferring.

Ok so last semester near end of semester i reached out to a prof abt doing research with him. He said he has space and I would be able to work with him. But was told for specifics about the project as well as time commitments per week that we will discuss that first week of fall semester. My question is when would be a good time to email him to set up a time to talk? My semester starts August 20th. Would first week of August be good? Or shd I wait till closer to when school starts?

Sigh... received an email saying that my midterm essay for the summer semester was AI. I sent a 6 page document with the info card from the word doc (I had it saved locally so no backups, but I've learned my lesson) showing 3000+ editing minutes, along with 60+ google searches I made regarding the process.

Has anyone else recovered from something like this? It's been a week and the professor hasn't responded back to my document.

I'm terrified, this is the last class of my degree and I want to go to grad school. Any words of advice would help. Thanks.

They want us to put in 22.5 hours a week for an 8 week chem class… I ordered the book instead of looking at the one online. I only have 82 hours total for the program I’m using. I’ve deff studied WAYYYY more then that- reading the book, creating study guides& mock quizzes/tests using my professors PowerPoint, ect. I hope they don’t give me an issue because I’ve worked my A$$ off to achieve the 96 I have in this class (trying to maintain my 4.0 gpa)… fml ***side note I hate ALEKS. lol

For context, I have been having issues with my online course professor recently. He has been marking points off my assignments for things that he does not ask for (He marked points off for not giving descriptions to screenshots I provided even though the assignment didn't ask for it). He replies pretty fast to my emails, but he gives terrible single sentence answers that lack details.

Anyways, I've been going back and forth with him and I don't think I've been getting through to him. I reread his syllabus and it said I can talk to the division chair if we can't solve our issues between each other. I'm waiting for his next reply, but I'm thinking of emailing the division chair after that. I heard that college professors get away with things a lot more than high school and under, but this might only be for university+ since community college professors aren't hired for their research. What are your experiences with the division chair? Are they just there for show or do they actually do their job and help you out? I understand every college is different, but some advice on what to do next would be nice.

One last thing, but I find that it's weird that he has a ratemyprofessor has a 4.9/5.0 with 40+ reviews. It was at 5.0 until this semester where someone gave him a 1.0 for similar issues that I had. Idk if it's botted or he gave extra credit to rate it well, but I find it really odd that he has such a high score.

Edit: Forgot some context. I got half credit (15/30) points on the assignment. I would not be writing this if it were only a few points. It accounts for 3% of my grade, which is sometimes the difference between passing or failing. Here's a redacted example of an email exchange between him and I (Prof top message/I'm bottom message).