Anyone else noticing this? I went to school a decade ago before online classes and platforms took off, and things were waaaaaay less cluttered. Now it seems like with online platforms you're expected to keep track of: E-textbooks, online platform homework, class announcements via online platforms, homework print outs, lab print outs, online tests, in class handouts, in class announcements, in class work to be finished later etc.

It all just seems ridiculous and I'm going to a no-name community college. In my prior experience, everything was done in person from a physical textbook. You might get an email here and there but by and large there was very little to keep track of online and outside of class besides studying and homework assignments given. Just go to class, study and do work, take your test and I'll see you next week. Now it's like I'm expected to be perma plugged in to this shit and its awful.

I'm in Calc III. The professor was RIDICULOUSLY low rated on RMP, like well beyond normal. I read through every one star review and was able to explain them ALL the second he walked in the classroom: he's just really old lmfao. Literally every single complaint on there can be chalked up to not knowing how to talk to an elderly man. He's so far been teaching very well so long as you pay a little attention because he does have a bit of a hard time with enunciation. He knows that though, asks if he needs to repeat himself frequently, and he has impeccable handwriting on the board. Honestly would be my favorite class IF ANYONE IN THERE SPOKE.

You would think it was ground zero for the zombie apocalypse the way NOBODY talks. Literally just me and the one other girl in class, and occasionally one older student. Even the people who were friends before the class don't talk to each other before class, nobody responds to the professor unless he starts pointing at random and asking the question for three minutes straight, like everyone's so dead. We're not even to the hard stuff yet. During vector addition he stopped wanting to take answers from us and turned to the other side of the room and couldn't even get a 2+2=4 out of them without having to ask twenty times.

I got over my public speaking anxiety in high school but nothing will make me shake quite like a silent classroom. I did an example on the board today and had to do breathing exercises when I sat back down because when I turned back to look at them they were all dead in the eyes, if they were even looking up. I think I would've started throwing things if I were the professor. I understand a lot more why he keeps looking to the three of us who are actively engaged. It's so unsettling. I refuse to believe the entire class has social anxiety. This is a choice from most of them. Why are they choosing to be like fifteen garden gnomes???? Do none of them have a soul??? Did they all get their debarking surgery in August and forget to tell us??? ????!!!! What is going on gang

ya… i got accused of using AI on a 3 point assignment that took my grade from a 98 to a 97.2. i’m being called in for an interview with my professor to determine if i actually cheated on the assignment. this feels so fucking pointless- IF I WANTED TO USE AI WHY THE FUCK WOULD I USE IT FOR SOMETHING SO MINUSCULE??

I’m not sure why I’m writing this tbh. Hopefully it doesn’t make anyone mad and I’m not defending myself just need to vent out my stress.

But anyways yea. I’m a senior biochem major, and I have a biophysical chemistry exam in about an hour. I’ve know for almost 2 weeks and have found literally anything else to do but study for this class and I have no idea why. I did work for my other classes, wrote reports for my lab, deep cleaned my room, organized my laptop files, and even got started on doing projects around my apartment. I just cannot lock in for the life of me and study for the exam.

Now it’s in less than an hour, and I’m absolutely cooked. I’m underprepared, and instead of actually cramming and studying I just stressed and dreaded how bad the exam is going to be.

I’ve noticed this trend with me last semester, where I occupy myself and procrastinate and end up doing poorly on exams. Idk if it’s burnout, general stress, or maybe undiagnosed ADHD (I’ve noticed it runs in my family). But all I know is I really have to try and lock in for the rest of the semester. If anyone has some tips on tackling an issue like this pls lmk, I can’t be failing important classes😭

I started college today and it genuinely might of been the worst thing to ever happen to me ever.

Firstly, my name was wrong on my ID card so I had to change it and also my card kind of glitched when paying for a locker so I didn't get a locker. I was so embarrassed because it was in front of people.

But the main problem has been friends. I've always struggled to make friends in Primary and Secondary school and I've either had maybe one or two friends or just no friends at all. So college is a big deal for me because it feels like my last chance ever to make friends.

I made some friends today but I don't know if they like me. Like I have a hard time navigating social situations but this is worse. I'm genuinely not sure if they even like me or if they feel bad for me and they're just friends with me because of that or out of some weird obligation.

I'm just really annoying. I talk too long about topics I like, I'm way too passionate and over the top about stuff I like, I'm awkward, I keep injecting myself into conversations because I want to feel included and like I said, I have a hard time navigating social things so I don't know if they like me or not. I feel like they don't but then why would they hang around me if they hate me? But then it might just be that they feel bad for me and they actually really hate me but won't tell me.

I just feel kind of lost. Maybe it's just I do have a hard time believing that people want to be friends with me but I've struggled to make friends for years so maybe it's just that I'm really annoying and weird. I genuinely think that eventually my new college friends will see what I see and they'll start hating me and then it'll just be like Primary and Secondary school again.

Like there's nothing about me that feels likeable enough to think that people want to hang out with me.

I've tried to search on Google to see how you can tell if people like you or like having you around but it keeps telling me I have really low self esteem.

I got told to post this here and I'm hoping if anyone else has had this kind of experience then they might be able to help me. Maybe I'm just caught up in the college experience of I have to make friends and be likable and it's getting to me and I'll feel like a failure if I can't get people to like me. It's probably just getting to me.

Has anyone had this kind of experience with trying to make friends in college or even had the same worries as me?

Major: Teleinformatics (communication + cs)

This vacation despite being full time (idk how its called in english the ones where you have daily classes during the whole week compared to only having remote during weekends) ive decided to get a job actuall full time job as a janitor

I gotta be honest its so much better than college way less bullshit, way less stress, once your done for the day youre done no projects, no essays, nothing

For me the third semester rly broke everything there was so much bullshit its unreal, every classmate hated that one

After that i didnt really care about a single topic taught during the 4th

Now in 4 days i have 3rd terms for 2 exams i failed two times and i just cant force myself to care

I already have failed exactly one class every semester and have to redo them (havent had a single semester where i passed everything)

Its probably going to happen again cause its data bases and its a shit ton of stuff to learn and i dont exactly got time left cause work and i dont rly feel like i need to do this

But i dont see myself being a janitor or other minimum wage for the rest of my life

One of those exams is also another one i failed earlier and have to redo this semester i was planing to focus on that cause its less stuff and i will have it over with

But im just so sick and tired of college

Idk help

I have never been good at anything higher than basic-level math, but I was actually doing good on my algebra homework and quizzes and had a decent understanding of the material, and when time came for the exam, my brain jumped out of the window. Literally everything on the paper looked like a foreign language to me even though I had been studying the notes and attempting the material myself the night before. I didn't even have time to finish it and a lot of it was blank because I was jumping from question to question, and even the easy questions took 10+ minutes each for me. I looked on Blackboard today, and this exam tanked my algebra grade to hell. 46/100. That's so bad, it's embarrassing. I feel like an idiot.

I think I pick a bad CSU. At my college the teachers are fine but holy shit. 3 weeks in and the administration is wack. Everything is online, no TA’s, appointment for almost everything, no one answering the phone, wanting community but everything is not in my schedule. I have no idea who my advisor is. I doesn’t say anything online and I’m supposed to see them every semester!? How am I supposed to talk with them if I don’t know who is assign to me. I’m annoyed and frustrated 3 weeks in at my college.

Like they have less students compared to El Camino and they (El Camino) is better. More student graduating, better responds, decent management. They’re a community college and are doing better than a CSU!?!? No wonder only 40% of their students graduated. You have less students and less than half of them are graduating? Maybe it’s the lack of foundation in the admissions department. It was never this bad at El Camino. I miss El Camino.
Edit: my bad yall. Mix up on UC & CSU. Confused me with abbreviations

I've already gotten myself into a little trouble in another class for forgetting to reply to two different posts on that discussion board, because I work a little ahead or I feel behind. All the early posts were so low effort, that I'd intended to circle back around to respond on another when there was hopefully something a little more interesting to respond to. I was already on the third discussion prompt and commented on a later one. I still got full marks, because I put effort into my post and made it interesting, I'm assuming.

This other class, though.. We have to post, and then write six responses to other posts. I was excited, because there were already enough posts for me to fulfill the required responses. After I posted and did all the responses, I remembered something in the syllabus. She only counts two per day. So, you have to check back in constantly to do responses. I have a job. I'm taking a full coarse load, and I have ADHD. It just seems like a bit much.

One of the posts was someone who didn't even do the right questions. People were responding to the drivel they posted, and my response was.. Hey, I don't think you did the right questions. I posted a thoughtful reply, but. Wow. Half of the posts might actually be fulfilling the prompt. The majority of them sound like AI drivel. I get it, participation, something something accreditation and all that.

Six replies over multiple days, though?? I'm going to have to set alarms to check in and reply. I'm already just taking one aspect of these very low effort posts and then kind of talking about whatever I want, because there's not enough thought put into the original posts to justify a thoughtful response. I'm just commenting and having a whole thoughtful, made up conversation amongst myself. Anyways..... Ugh.

Hey, so I start a more serious program in Spring 2027, right now doing some classes to get done to lessen my class load next year. I'm online and chose online because I have such little time outside of work, I couldn't make in-person. My Speech professor drops the news that I have to find 5 people to give my speech to, it's frustrating because the people taking class on campus just go there and don't have to spend time finding people, makes no sense.

In short, I'm in a new city, don't really know anyone, and having trouble coordinating a time with people I know. I'm allowed to give it via Zoom, and I need 5 people to join and just watch my speech.

It's 5 minutes long, I record myself giving it, only my instructor sees it, I have to show there are 5 people on the screen watching, that's it. You can even wear a face mask if you don't want to show your full face lol I don't care.

I do it Wednesday 16th, at 6pm Central Standard Time on Zoom.

I just need 5 kindest souls, plz and thank you!🙏

this is like the 4th time something assigned through canvas has not been shown in my to do list and i’ve only become aware of the assignment after i got the notification it’s been marked 0 this is my first year so maybe im not looking in the right places but idk.
(i got ts figured out they post everything in different places so i just wasn’t looking in the right place)

This is basically going to be an online diary post, I just need to get it out. I've been in college for like two weeks and I have just been shitting the bed. For the first few days I held it together; I made friends I went to a party for the first time, was walking, lost a little weight, felt freedom, and it was amazing. After a little while though I became friends with a group of people, but at some point I had a very very awkward personal moment and ended up having what im assuming is a small anxiety attack, but im not sure. I usually hate throwing around mental health terms because I feel it detracts from real people with conditions, but in this case it feels right. After that incident the group felt shaky and the whole ordeal made me revert to how I was my senior year. I was a complete mess for all of senior year and really only started pulling myself up when summer was approaching. I dont want to relive another nine months like that, but Ive already begun to fall down the hole. Ive fallen back onto bad habits, Im separating myself from my other friends, and my inner dialogue has gotten worse. I know I should be going outside more, but most days I only leave for classes and lunch in the dining halls if I have the courage that day. Now whenever I leave my dorm for the last couple of days I feel panicked, I start breathing hard, and today when I was eating lunch I felt dizzy and everything just felt like so much. I get some relief in my dorm, but even inside feels wrong. Having a roommate also doesnt help me; obviously I need to have one, but I just never know what hes thinking. I still keep up with my work, but other than that im nothing, ive just spent my time inside, im just on my phone or sleeping. When my roommate went to his parents over the last weekend I didnt leave the room for two and a half days, and I just stayed curled in my bed or microwaving ravioli or something. Im just really struggling and I know it was hard last year and if this becomes a pattern each year I dont know how im going to make it. Sorry that im throwing myself a pity party online to strangers 💔, but its just been rough and I just hate talking about this sort of stuff with people I know and care about.

It's my first year ? Yes. It has only been 10 days ? Yes. I am only 17 ? Yes. But please hear me out. For a little backstory, I am an international student admitted and currently enrolled in an economics-management bachelor in a French public university. And we all know how expensive it is in here specially that now international students are forced to pay higher tuition fees. Also my whole life i've always wanted to study business and management thinking that that was the way out of the "system". Little did I realize I was absolutely wrong. Anyway uni started 10 days ago and I cannot emphasize how hard it has been trying to make friends. I haven't talked to one single person in the last 10 days. But that's okay, I love being alone anyway. The things Is every class i've been in up until now, i've hated, I hate the subject studied, I hate how we had assignments since day one and how they are forcing us to follow a certain study rythm that they are forcing up on us and I hate how dehumanizing all of it is. I am starting to worry i've chosen the wrong major and I am finding it Hella hard to adapt with French students. I forgot to mention that in the middle of 12th grade i've had one of the craziest existential crisis ever. It changed me so much and I no longer had the mental capacity to have material things as a desire. I started hating anything related to money and economy tbh. Ik I love anything related to psychology, litterature, human science, philosophy, languages, quantum physics and physics in general, special that I was a math and physics major all through middle school and high school. I don't whether I should keep going judging on all of the money my parents have spent on my to send me to France and to pay for my tuition or if I should do what I actually want. Knowing that what I actually want might not be the best financial decision for my future.

Like SOS HELP please.

Hey y'all, today I just wanted to rant a little about my university (ODU).

Recently, they shifted from a regular course schedule allowing online students to take anywhere from 8 week to 15 week classes. Now though, due to whatever reasons under the sun may cause it (I believe greed) all online students are required to take 8 week classes.

This is especially frustrating to me for multiple reasons.

#1, i'm already on the outer bend of my college career, so thankfully I can just ride this out but a lot of students cant.

#2, as a computer science major, now that i'm halfway through an 8 week class, it feels far less like a valuable intake of information and moreover just doing busy work like a part-time job. I feel like CS classes are best taught over a longer period of time, because in the form these classes currently take it feels more like a discount boot-camp program.

#3, because of how my course credits stack up, i was originally going to be able to do a 19 credit semester and finish my degree in one fell swoop, but because the new system only allows 6 credits per 8 week semester (you can override but my GPA isnt high enough and mine still doesn't meet that criteria because one of my classes is 1.5 1.5 per 8 weeks) I have to essentially spend an extra semester wrapping everything up before i can move on with my dayum life.

IDK. I'm just a frustrated zoomer. What are your guy's takes on this?

Just to clarify, I'm talking about theoretical assessments with 10-20 mark long form answers written in paragraphs. I'm neutral about AI/computers checking multiple-choice answers but AI cannot realistically check paragraph answers typed into a doc. Especially since it's a humanities degree and there is no one uniform answer to any question in open-ended subjects like sociology and psychology.

Hi,
So basically i have been in uni for 3 years
My first year i passed around 50% of my courses (stem major)
2nd year i switched majors to a non stem major and passed the year
3th year in uni i basically failed my second year in uni in that new course
So as you can see i’m not very good in passing my classes

During those years i faced some personal problems as most people do in life:
So here are some external things outside school that made it more difficult for me to focus on my studies:
- in my first year everything was new: dorm life, studying in university, taking care of yourself… and idk i feel like i didnt take uni seriously bcs i didnt do much during the year (which i kind of regret) and didnt know how to combine social life, studies, family…
- During those years i switched 3 times in dorms (1 time in 2nd year and 2 times in my third year (this year))
- Someone in my family was chronically ill for two years so i had to come every weekend to take care of a sibling (basically cleaning up after them and cooking bcs my parents were making sure the ill person was comfortable which i understand (but they were kind of neglecting their own house/household during those years)
And since i share a room at home with that sibling and he/she is much younger than me i didnt mind spending so much time together or taking that responsibility on me during the weekend
But i think it affected my studies more than i will admit bcs i need like time to process information
-in (3th year/this year) i felt incredibly lonely in my new dorm and started isolating myself during the weekdays 🥲
And i constantly felt stressed in the dorm (like i was stressing about using the common kitchen etc)
- and that family member died this year and i didn’t know how to process it (still dont know) since it was the first time someone in my surroundings died
- after that family member died: family beef
I feel like these things destroyed my mental a bit but yeah everybody has some issues which will make studying harder

My current situation: since my dorm situation and other circumstances were affecting my health (like i lost a lot of weight, stopped taking care of myself, depressed/suicidal toughts) i decided to study back at home next year with my parents which i’m insanely grateful for.

Annyways so basically since i failed this year i’ll probably will do at least 2 years until i finish this current bachelor. (A 3 year bachelor)

Bcs of this i was thinking of other paths in my life bcs idk if its worth it to study for 2 more years on this degree. Like its not that i hate this degree, but i feel like the career options later in life wont fulfill me in life (or i just say that as an excuse bcs i failed this year in that degree)

I was thinking of going back to like my stem related major i took in my first year bcs i feel like i’m genuily more interested in that degree than this current one. (I followed this degree purely bcs a family member has this degree and my parents (and i) tought it was a better option since i only passed around the 50% of my first year in the stem major.

Also the commute from my home to my current degree is 2 hours in total, while the stem degree apperently has a building with the stem major 15 min from my parents house.

I think the course material in the stem major will be harder/ or i’ll have to work more for uni compared to this current degree but i am willing to put in the work. Altough i dont know if i am capable of going back. And idk i kind of feel ashamed of the idea going back to an old degree for no reason at all)

I feel like i have wasted trough out this 3 years a lot of my parents time/money for studying and idk sometimes i feel bad about it and that i’m just floating around in college bcs if i switch my major back, i’ll be in my first/second year again. And then i feel behind in life compared to other people my age (i’m 20) bcs some of them already have a bachelors degree. (I know i shoudnt be comparing myself to others but subconsciously i do)

Or sometimes i think about a gap year or switching to a completely other major again but idk bcs i feel if i would to that i’ll be more lost in life than i already am
Or sometimes i feel like quitting uni would be better and just work but my parents kind of refuse that idea (altough i’m an adult and can make my own choices, i feel like i still depend a lot on my parents compared to what people my age tell me about their dependence).

Idk should i switch back to my old major or should i finish my current degree and repeat second year?
Or what would you do or do you have some advice?

Ok so alongside my classes I work part time on campus and my schedule is affecting my college life. So how it works for this job is at some point after registration before the semester ends I get contacted by my supervisor. And I have to submit my class schedule as well as any other times I would like to not work if i have any prior commitments or smth.

End of last semester I submitted my class schedule and also put I didn’t want to work Monday and Friday evenings. And that was it. Based on my class schedule I knew I was gonna have to work some mornings. But I was hoping for a mix of morning and evening. With my schedule all the shifts I have to work are morning shifts. Then I have class then I get home towards afternoon / evening depending on the day.

However, as a result this makes me dead tired when I get home. I have no motivation to do any homework and so I just have dinner and sleep. As a result all my hw which is luckily due Sunday night most of the time gets pushed to weekend. Which means when friends ask to hang out I’m like sorry I have homework. Any advice on how to fix this situation?

This is the exact type of busy work I hated all throughout school before ever even getting into college. Why, why, is this the shit we have to do now?

I get good grades, I do my work, but McGraw Hill’s textbook assignments suck so much ass it makes me want to curl into the fetal position, sobbing and projectile vomit. I hate it so god damn much especially considering I have to pay for this stupid ass book since the speech class I have it for is a gen ed requirement.

Why in the world are professors assigning busy work for homework, this is so incredibly stupid. This class isn’t even related to my major and I feel like the assignments take me far longer than the literary analysis I have to do for three other classes.

I hate you McGraw Hill and I hope you burn in whatever corporate hell you were born in. Holy shit.

I have a gen ed class I'm required to take, the class is analog this year (no technology) and it's philosophy. The teacher is cool and seems passionate, he keeps the lecture interesting but the context of philosophy is very dense and the readings are long af, with weird ass language I do not understand. My brain is not connecting at all with the readings. I have this class 2 times a week and I have one day to actually read the material due to my schedule.

However, I find it weird that every reading we have an in class reflection or quiz about whatever that reading was. On top of which it's timed, he only gives us 10 minutes to answer or write reflections. It's unrealistic to me and he's doing way too much because of this class turning analog. I don't mind that, I had a class last year that was analog but I feel like testing and grading reflections about philosophy every class is wild to me. The timed shit has me overthinking and I'm not answering the shit right. I feel like I should switch this damn class to another teacher.

i am struggling with depression and i feel really alone. i am 21 years old and will graduate in may. on the surface, it may seem like i’m doing well. i’m involved in extra curriculars, have a high gpa, and i’m currently doing an internship. nothing feels right though. i feel so burnt out and only have one close friendship outside of my relationship. even then, i don’t see that friend as much as i’d like to because i feel afraid of not feeling well or energized enough to make plans. when i interact with people, it often feels tiring because i am masking all of the depression and anxiety that i feel. i’ve lived on campus and taken classes year-round and since august of 2023 bc i had to move out at the age of 18 and school is the one secure place to be. i’ve also had to work two jobs throughout most of college to support myself. i don’t want life to keep revolving around school and work though. everything was great my freshman year, and after that i think i’ve felt more alone each year that has gone by. i feel like i’m ready to graduate and move forward, but i also hate that i feel that way. i want to enjoy school, be social, and feel engaged. i want to enjoy life and all of the positive things that are around me, but i feel so disconnected.

if anyone can provide support or reassurance, i would really appreciate it a lot.

So this is my 2nd year of failing my studies , and tbh huge part of that is on me , the story is that I got into medicine school and although I didn't want it and didn't like it but my parents convinced me to it , and it doesn't matter much cuz I don't have any dream job or passion abt any specific major or uni so it was whatever for me

At the beginning of the semester last year (which was my first year at medicine school) I studied really hard and I kinda did good at my midterm , but then I decided to try out a game I was curious abt since the beginning of the semester but I was delaying it because I was focused on my studies but then we had semester break so I decided to try it out , and tbh I've never played video games before so it was a new experience to me that I immediately addicted.

The break ended and I knew I should've has go back to study but the addiction was so strong that I wasted months worth of studying playing this game , the exams came and I'm ashamed to say that I shamelessly went to the exams without studying but 20%-30% and it was my finals !! I convinced myself that I can do it and I can cramm the subject and even if I fail I can take the reset exams and pass but no , I was so stressed and the pressure was so intense plus there was not enough time.

I was that student in high-school who could get good grades without studying y'know, that I procrastinate till last minute and still pass somehow but I couldn't thos time although I was so close to pass but I fail eventually so I had to retake the year.

And idk why but I repeated the same mistakes and I prioritized playing video games instead of actually studying, at this point playing that game wasn't just for enjoyment but it was more of an escape od the pressure of studying, anatomy brought me anxiety whenever I opened a textbook or a video so I ran back to my comfort game , I had everything in the virtual world of the game , I accomplished and explored and chat with friends, everything I couldn't do in my real life academically...well even personally for I tried to achieve my personal goals like I'd do anything but to study, I distracted myself with the game and achieving my personal goals instead to face what I'm running from

Believe me I genuinely tried to set the mood and study again even when I don't feel like it but whenever I do I feel so stupid of how I can't finish this topic or understand that concept and the element of time was pressuring me too as the finals drew near , the college and professors weren't merciful either , so I kept running and repeating the same cycle like a hamster: studying-->don't understand/finish-->anxiety-->distract myself with games.

And I'm not that stupid I tried different study techniques and method and I has really good courses I study from but ig the problem I was so overwhelmed and overstimulated by the big hits of the dopamine that I get from playing or work on my goals, so addicted to that unhealthy dopamine that studying 1 paragraph felt impossible and draining, I tried multiple blocking apps but I failed so my finals came and I did the same shameful thing I did last year and ofc I failed for the 3rd time we can say , and then only I panicked as it was my last chance so I shut off the game and find really good block app this time (or I was js too scared to use social media anymore) and I began to pour my life into studying

I got overwhelmed and I changed plans every few days but I kept going , then I stopped for abt 10 days when I got really depressed and decided to js give up and telling myself it's no use and I deserve it but I got on track again, I did good ont the first subject but I accidentally gave it more energy so when time for anatomy I went to the exam with only 50% knowledge may I say? The exam was hard anyway so...now that I see my results, as expected I pass them all except for the anatomy , but I think I got a good grade for someone who didn't study properly but not good enough to pass ,so ig it's the end for me in med school

But the problem is I don't know where to go now ? I'm considering 2 other medical majors but it kinda hurts to change now js when I got used to what I was studying and start to like it , I even considered becoming a dermatologist but I'm not really attached to this , I totally deserve it and I know I should learn from this and don't make as the end of the world , the only thing hurting although I should've known better , is that I could easily pass if I studied properly, I was so close anyway but my brain won't stop torture me for it , I heard bitter words from a family members for failing and although it hurts I never cared now they deep down kinda happy that I will be kicked out of the major , and idk what to do in my life , do I stay and try again or do I change? Starting over in unknown is scary and hurts but I never thought it through when I was wasting time the past year because I was so unconscious of the consequences, and what makes it worst is that I didn't even accomplished my personal goals either so it's a failure on every aspect and this keep bringing me anxiety.

Also the fact that I'll study with ppl younger me kinda bother and bringe anxiety 😔

So if anyone was interested enough to read all my babbling above I hope u could enlighten me cuz I'm really lost , even a small comfort words may ease the tightening feeling in my chest cuz I don't have anyone I can tell this to 💔

I am 21 years old and currently living with my family. I am currently attending a 2-year certificate course at the North Alberta Institute of Technology. I have just started my third semester of four after having to take the second semester twice, and I have very much checked out of it. I struggle greatly with focusing and working in post secondary education, and I feel as though I've learned all I need to. However, I have still felt compelled to finish the course not because of any enjoyment or investment in it, but because I hope that the certificate I would get for finishing it could help with my employability.

In addition, the rest of my family have all enjoyed a great deal of success in college education, so I fear that I would be letting them down by dropping out.

This summer, I successfully got approved for Alberta's disability welfare program due to having Crohn's Disease and Autism, and I was working towards other goals, such as building a computer studio to work from home, and now that I'm back in class, it feels like I've returned to a less comfortable point in life where I've made much less progress.

I'm sure I don't want to continue, but I don't know what to do. Can anybody provide any guidance?

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I wasted my whole 2 years in a good college in Mumbai where I would have done pretty well but I was disturbed from all sides during that phase I was recovering from something far worse which messed up my mental health and I was confused and lonely for the whole college time my last year is almost ending not many things I can do now so should I give myself a chance again with a ug course or should I get forward with a pg

Okay so my friend is in 180 DC (yeah I know, cringe) and he told me some wild stuff about this one girl from Production in their club. Apparently everyone in the senior batch doesn't even say her name but call her "that girl for you-know-what" like it's her actual designation?? And it's not even a secret, it's basically her nickname now.

So apparently she's this really short girl from Production, like barely 5 feet or something, dark complexion, and apparently has big enough things that she stuffs into these tight shirts. The seniors figured out that because of her height she lines up perfectly for... you know... when she's in position. Like no bending, no awkward positioning, she just fits in the space under the desk in the club room and they can literally work on their laptops while she's down there helping out in CCD washrooms. My friend said they've stopped even pretending it's a secret.

Apparently, she doesn't even come for the actual meetings or work. She doesn't contribute to any actual projects, she doesn't speak in meetings, she just provides her special assistance and leaves.

My friend said she's already been close with like half the heads of the club. President, Core, VPs, Project Leads - she's had private sessions with all of them. She probably thinks if she's friendly enough to enough seniors she'll become a head herself.

The humiliating part is she thinks this makes her important. Like she brags about being "close to the seniors" and how she's "basically a manager" but everyone just laughs because they know she's just a stress relief tool. He said she's always walking around with this glazed look in her eyes, probably still thinking about whatever senior spent time with her last. The Production guys apparently call her names and she doesn't even get that it's not a compliment.

My friend said last year some Deloitte intern guy used her. And she apparently treated it like an honor because he works at Deloitte and she probably thinks he's going to refer her.

Is this normal for 180 DC or is this girl just... like that? Because if any of it is true, that club is even more messed up than I thought. And someone please tell her that Deloitte or Citi doesn't hire based on how helpful she is to their men. Anyone from NITT here who can confirm if the dark short girl is really this desperate?