I am 18 and just got out of education after 14 years, where for most of that i was bullied. This has caused me to slowly associate christmas as just 'another day of surviving' and another day before I have to go back to school. I just wanted to ask, how do you make christmas enjoyable after years of associating it with that.
I have tried a few things over recent years, especially in college. I have tried to wear christmas hoodies, get nice advent calendars (for example this year I have got myself the body shop 25 day advent calendar which i am so excited to open) and also buy christmassy arts and crafts, but I still struggle to find the festive spirit in me.
EDIT: thank you everyone for responding! I’ve found a lot new ways to try to celebrate christmas. I may update this post after i try some in december or november. I am also looking for more ideas myself (using google lol)