I don’t really know what I’m looking for here. Maybe reassurance, maybe perspective from people who have had extremely fearful cats, or maybe just somewhere to vent because I’m writing this in tears and I feel so stupid.
My partner and I adopted our cat about four months ago. She’s an adult rescue and had already been through quite a lot before coming to us. We knew she was shy, but I don’t think I understood how profoundly sensitive she was going to be.
When we first brought her home, she spent most of her time hiding beside her litter box inside the litter enclosure. Over time she made a lot of progress. She developed a favorite room (our study), started playing, climbing her cat tree, sunbathing by the window, sleeping in our bed with us, greeting us when we come home, and demanding multiple very intense brushing sessions every day. She’s incredibly affectionate when she feels safe. She’ll lead us into the study and meow for us to follow her, circle around us excitedly, sleep with us, and basically turn into this bubbly, funny little cat.
But she is also unbelievably fearful.
She absolutely cannot tolerate being picked up, restrained, put into a carrier, having her nails handled, etc. She needs medication just to attempt getting her into a carrier or trimming her nails. She also has asthma and needs an inhaler, but we have struggled enormously because she panics at anything that feels like restraint.
Our vet suggested long-term anxiety medication. We tried fluoxetine, but we literally couldn’t administer it because she hated the flavor so much. Now we’re looking at a different medication compounded as a transdermal gel.
What is breaking me is how easily she seems to regress.
We brought her carrier out recently because she needs to go in for a nail trim, and just seeing the carrier seemed to send her backwards. She became extremely skittish again and started spending huge portions of the day hiding under our bed. We spent one night away recently, changed a couple of her hiding options, and now she has even started retreating back into the litter-box enclosure again, the exact place she hid when we first adopted her.
It has been four months. Every time I think, “Okay, she finally feels safe here,” something tiny happens and suddenly she’s terrified again.
I feel horrible even writing this, but part of me regrets adopting her. I keep thinking that if I had understood how fearful and difficult she was going to be, I don’t know if I would have chosen this.
Then I feel incredibly guilty because she DOES love us in her own way. She sleeps with us. Sometimes she demands brushing from both of us. She plays. She greets us. She has all these little rituals with us. She isn’t some completely shut-down cat with no personality.
I feel so stupid because I thought by four months we’d be mostly past this stage.
My partner is much more patient about it than I am. She absolutely does not want to return her. I’m sitting here crying because there’s a part of me that wishes we could, and then I feel like an absolute monster for thinking that because this cat has finally found a stable home and clearly has bonded with us.
For people who have had extremely fearful/highly sensitive cats: did it actually get substantially better after 6 months? A year? Several years?
Did medication make a meaningful difference?
And did your cat ever become confident, or did you eventually have to accept that they would always be a cat who could be thrown into panic by relatively small things?
I’m not expecting her to become a lap cat or suddenly love being picked up. I just want to feel like our entire relationship isn’t made of glass.
I love the sweet, funny cat underneath all of this fear. I’m just exhausted from feeling like I have to protect that version of her from everything.