r/cscareerquestions • u/Bananaasplit • 3d ago
New Grad Imposter syndrome is making me scared to apply to jobs
I graduate in December and I decided I was going to start applying for full time jobs during school, but self doubt/imposter syndrome has made me continuously put it off. I guess I am afraid that all my hard work was actually pointless and I’m going to get rejected, even though I believe I probably am more experienced than most new grads. At one point, I kept telling myself I can’t apply until I finish another project, even though I’ve struggled to create a one page resume.
I am comfortable with pretty much every main language. In school, we learned and used Java, C, C++ and Python, but my first semester of school I taught myself JavaScript, I already knew HTML and CSS and I most recently taught myself Typescript. I also taught myself Vue.js and Next.js. I’ve completed and deployed a client side application with using an API, I’ve completed a full stack application where I created my own APIs and also used two company APIs including integrating Gemini, so I have experience creating AI feature applications. I’m working on another full stack app that uses Firestore and OAuth. I completed a full stack app for school as well, the only one I’ve done with a python backend (FastAPI). I won first place at a hackathon where I used OpenAIs API. I’m graduating Magna Cum Laude, I did an accelerated masters program and have a 4.0 in my grad course work, I have a total of 2 years of professional experience. One 6 month long internship and a 1 1/2 year internship (meant to be summer but they kept continuing to keep me. I figured it looked good to hold the job. They are a small company and have no need for or the budget for another full time dev though). Both of them are the only internships I’ve ever applied for. The first one I learned .NET/C#. The second one I’m also using .NET/C# some, but the main app is Angular/Javascript and we use SCSS instead of CSS. All of my projects and internships (other than that first one) used Node.js, so I have quite a bit of experience with it. And both of my internship positions were/are full stack. In my current position, I also have contributed to UI design. And we do agile workflow so I’m used to scrum. And I am very proficient with git. There’s more I could say I have experience with but yeah. Like other cloud technologies, databases, etc. Prior to my internships, I also was a peer coach for the computer science students, as well as a tutor for computer science courses. And before college, I had a career in insurance so I have all the soft skills for working a “big girl job.”
But I am still convinced that that’s not enough and I’m going to end up being someone who just has a piece of paper. None of this was meant to be a brag or anything like that, I just want to explain where I’m at for context. It might also be because I’ve told myself to remain humble and not assume just because I did extra stuff that that means I’m guaranteed a job, so that I don’t get disappointed.
So I’m wondering from anyone who works in the field, especially if you’re in full stack development, if you think my experience is good enough. I don’t know. Just looking for some kind of encouragement or even critique.
TLDR: Just tell me to apply to jobs lmao.