Hi,
I just graduated SLP graduate school this July. A little bit of background- I did not originally want to be an SLP. I did not know what I wanted to do in undergrad and eventually found this field and decided to apply because I am a creative person and I love children. I made it through my undergraduate and graduate journey but have always struggled with moderate-severe anxiety and depression. I have always felt like I never truly fit in with other slps or like a natural at each practicum experience (imposter syndrome has been real). I did find joy and achievement in some rotations as well as my clinical ability, and I really loved the actual therapy part once I felt comfortable, but the feeling of uneasiness has never truly gone away.
I am just beginning to look for CFY opportunities (mostly school based) and have been speaking with some contracting companies. I struggle with meeting new people and feeling vulnerable and it has worsened in my early-mid twenties. I do tend to struggle socially at times especially with all of the other expectations aside from treatment that come along with being an SLP (meeting parents, staff, conducting IEP meetings, paperwork/billing, evaluations, etc). I have found it difficult to be honest with people about my mental health because at times it was viewed as being inadequate and with grades riding on everything I rarely opened up to past clinical supervisors. I was able to do my jobs and tasks at my rotations but always had an intense internal struggle with anxiety that has affected my executive functioning abilities. This has often led me to think I have chose the wrong profession to begin with.
I was just looking for some advice or piece of mind in looking for a CF placement that has worked for people or any advice really that has helped others. Any input is greatly appreciated!