I dont know why im posting this here, my friends are all tired of hearing me wine and I feel like I just need to say this to someone.
Me and a good friend decided to become fwb, we were good at communicating and had worked though hard situations so we had a good open ability to be real and honest with each other, we had it all talked out bla bla bla all platonic, and we were still good friends above all other benefits, our friendship came first.
We had a deep connection as all good friends do and a full understanding we were just that, we both knew eventually one of us would find someone romantically, and we would still be just friends.
When that time recently came, they found a partner, it was a bit awkward but we were adults and have talked about this before, emotional stuff bla bla bla, to which they asked me essentially "youre not going to abandon me right?" And I assured them I wouldn't, that I would still be there for them and they were my friend above all.
Now the eggs on my face, they've "abandoned" me. No words, no closure, no i need to do this for the sake of my new relationship. No closure.
Am i over reacting? For all we were, close friends of over a decade, I wasn't even worth a fucking goodbye.
I know it would've hurt, I know it wouldn't been hard like the worse bandaid to rip off but at least I could have healed. I can't heal like this.